I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 235 Before I Met You

Facing this message from Ye Zhi, my spirit fell into an unprecedented blurred state. I tried my best to calm myself down, but I became more and more restless... The ingredients of this restlessness are very complicated, mixed with some Feeling a strange joy, but also feeling sad because of Lu Jia's departure.

The night wind blows along the bustling street into Jiulongju, which hovers on the edge of the ancient city, and blows away my hair. I didn't calm down because of this, but I felt a little numb because I stood in one position for too long.

Gradually, time helped me unravel the myriad of threads entangled in my brain, and in the end there were only two thoughts and two choices left.

Either, chase after Lu Jia desperately; or, quickly reply to Ye Zhi's message, and don't let her mistakenly think that I am hesitating.

I finally lowered my head and looked at the phone screen that had been dimmed for a long time... I wanted to tell Ye Zhi the most true thoughts in my heart, but when I made a move, Lu Jia's pull appeared in my brain again. The suitcase, the lonely back all the way.

I put down my phone, lit a cigarette, and saw a heavy and depressed shadow under the street lamp.I especially want to separate my body from my soul, and let my soul give my body an idea as a bystander.

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After a long period of silence, I raised my hand and looked at the only mobile phone that could connect me with the world. The mobile phone was blank, no one had contacted me again, but I held it tighter and tighter, and then opened Ye Zhi's phone. Circle of friends.

I don't know why I want to watch her circle of friends dynamics at this time, I just remembered that her few dynamics are all related to me, or posted when she was with me.

Maybe, she really had feelings for me.

I yearn for this feeling, but I don't know how to face it... I know very well: For a woman like Ye Zhi, even the slightest disappointment is unforgivable, so I am already a bastard.

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During the process, I was surprised to find that just 5 minutes ago, Ye Zhi posted a rare post on Moments.

She seems to be on the Erhai Lake. Although the sea water cannot be seen clearly in the pictures she posted, she can see the lights reflected from Haidong and a red-billed gull perched on a branch.

"There is nothing in the distance but the distance, and the farther away is more lonely; the happiness in the distance is how much pain?"

The text below the picture let me see her state of mind. Although she is a mature and wise woman, she is also very sensitive and fragile when facing feelings; so, after I did not reply immediately, she Began to become pessimistic, become skeptical...

At this moment, she must be lonely, because she entrusted her future to me, but I didn't reach out in time, and what accompanied her was only the cold sea water, the rustling wind, and hiding under the cold light, A heart that cannot be comforted.

I didn't want to hesitate anymore, and immediately sent her a message: "Where are you, I'll go find you now."

Ye Zhi seemed to have been waiting for me, and soon she replied: "Ma Jiuyi."

"Wait for me... soon, I promise."

I don't know why I added the three words "I promise" after a complete sentence. I only saw my urgent mood, and after being dominated by this mood, I ignored everything...

I took out the motorcycle key from the house, and I rode the very powerful little ninja from Jiulongju to Majiuyi.

I chose a road that was not easy to walk, but it took a short distance... Then I paid the price. When I crossed the pit, I didn't hold the handle firmly, so after rubbing against the electric pole, I took the car with me I fell on the uneven gravel road, my hand was scratched, and a piece of skin was rubbed off my leg, but the pain did not make me calm down...

At this moment, I am also very pessimistic, I no longer have the original purity, all my actions are based on the beauty imagined on Ye Zhi.

Enduring the pain, I lifted the fallen motorcycle from the ground, and then there was another sound of falling, a guard plate on the body was broken...

I felt palpitations, as if I had failed Yang Sisi's entrustment to me again.

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Twenty minutes later, I finally came to Majiuyi where Ye Zhi was. I searched along the Huanhai Road, and then I found an Audi Q10 with a Dali license plate parked not far from the "Haitu Inn". Sure, until I found Ye Zhi on the coast not far from the car.

This car seems to be borrowed by her. The reason why it is Q7 is to cope with the potholed mountain road that must be passed back to the small town. I feel unspeakable guilt. When I felt lost, Ye Zhi had already done it After all the preparations, and she is an extremely smart woman, she must know what it means to choose to go home with me, otherwise she would not have sent me that message.

I stood behind her for a while, then walked to her side and sat down. I didn't dare to look at her at this moment, but I just looked up at the blurred light reflected from Haidong, and whispered to her. She asked, "Why did you come to Erhai Lake alone?"

Ye Zhi looked at me: "Don't you think this place gives people a sense of security?"

I took a look subconsciously, the night had already covered everything, and the wind blowing from the back of Cangshan Mountain seemed to be able to harvest all emotions, and then throw them into the Erhai Lake, silently... What Ye Zhi said was right, maybe the flesh would be I suffer from the cold, but my soul is well protected...

I understand, but I don't know how to answer her... After a moment of silence, her long hair was blown up by the wind and fell on my face again. Suddenly want to get close to her, right here.

"Migao, can you tell me how you feel about me?" After a short pause, she said again: "You are a very contradictory person, so I am afraid that I may misunderstand the signal you sent."

"I like you."

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The wind blows the waves, the waves bring the sound of the tide, the tide wets the reef, the reef supports Ye Zhi, beside Ye Zhi is me with a rapid heartbeat...

After a long time, she replied: "I should believe you... I have felt it since you went to Shanghai for me. I know what Shanghai means to you, but it is precisely because I understand that I am more grateful." Contradictions...Because you are also unwilling to face this city for the sake of a woman..." Ye Zhi smiled dejectedly: "It's like the cycle of the seasons, the ebb and flow of the tide, my flower blooming again in your heart Hua, can it really make you forget the pain before the dawn? ... And that woman named Lu Jia!"

I looked at her, but she shifted her gaze to the distance that merged with the darkness... I don't know if her heart flew away with the wind, or if she still stayed for me, or, she didn't think about it at all. If she wants to leave, all she cares about is what kind of answer I will give her.

I finally said to her: "Women are really sensitive, and you are no exception."

"It's going to be tiring, isn't it?"

"I have no way to understand how you feel now. If I could, maybe everything wouldn't be so difficult to choose... But, I really like you!"

Ye Zhi was silent, and after a long time, she said softly to me: "Mi Gao, I'm cold..."

I gently hugged her into my arms, her body was trembling slightly, but the next moment, I trembled more than her... How I wish that time could stop here, I don't need to make ()love with her , I don’t need to have a child with her, I just want to be like the water of Erhai Lake and the stones of Cangshan Mountain, stick to it and live forever!

In the wind, Ye Zhi leaned against me again, and she said to me softly: "Before I met you, I never missed a city so much. In my eyes, Dali is not fundamentally different from other cities. ...Later, I understood that I fell in love with a city because I fell in love with the people in this city...Love is really amazing, it will give you motivation, let you do many things that you didn't like before, and also It will subtly change you... You know, being born in a family like mine, in fact, many choices about fate have been predestined at a very early age... Regarding marriage, it is nothing more than getting married from a group of people who have interests in your family. Contact, or in other words, choose a relatively undisgusting man among the well-matched men; before, I did not reject doing this, because this is the set procedure, it is fate... until I met you... although there will definitely be various kinds in the future. Such troubles, but you are in my heart... you are not ordinary at all!"

After Ye Zhi finished speaking, she looked at my injured hand, she didn't dislike it, and gently placed it on her face...

Feeling her temperature, the corners of my eyes are wet.

Did not let her see.

(End of this chapter)