I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 236 Hold hands and walk for a while
Dali during the day and Dali at night are like two completely different cities, especially the Erhai Lake, the difference is more obvious, and I prefer Dali at night, which is deep, blurred, and full of space for thinking.

I finally calmed down, so I hugged Ye Zhi tightly in my arms, and then thought about some things about the future...

I let out a sigh of relief and said softly to her: "Before this, I was also very conflicted, especially when Lu Jia appeared, I was under heavy pressure..."

Ye Zhi seemed to mind, so she rarely interrupted me and said, "I know you can't completely forget her, and she is the same. I can feel that her purpose of coming to Dali is not that simple."

I didn't want to hide it, so I replied in a low voice: "Yes...she wants to get back together. Although she didn't say it herself, there are signs of that."

Ye Zhi remained silent, she left my body and resumed her previous sitting position, and I realized that the tide had already wet her shoes, so it turned out that she had been enduring damp and cold all along.

I lit a cigarette and smoked it silently. Although I knew that I shouldn't say these things in such a situation, it was always a hidden danger in my heart. Besides, I think Ye Zhi also has the right to choose. If I choose Not only was it disrespectful to hide it from her, but it also didn't put the two of us on an equal footing.

And equality has become the principle I most want to keep when dealing with relationships.

She finally asked me: "Mi Gao, do you want to get back together with her?"

"Before answering this question, I want to tell you another thing... this matter is very important."

"You said."

I listened to the sound of the tide in a daze, and after a long time I said to her in a low voice: "In the past few years I have been in Shanghai, besides my girlfriend Lu Jia, I also have a friend of the opposite sex named Wang Lei. We are from the same town. I went to Shanghai for her development a month ago. I had a very ordinary job, and she chose to go to KTV to accompany drinks... Maybe, when they heard that she was drinking at KTV, they would think that she was not a serious woman, but I understand her..."

I sniffed, and then I remembered the great earthquake in 2008 that changed the fate of countless people. Although Wang Lei survived by chance, she died unfortunately a few years later, even in a crueler way .

Ye Zhi asked me: "Does she have any difficulties?"

"I don't know if it's a pity, but she is really a very unfortunate woman... She used to have a very happy family, but the earthquake in 2008 took away everything that belonged to her, including her parents... …To be honest, there are too many poor people in this world. Just living has made us do our best. Of course, this is not an excuse for depravity, so I used to dislike Wang Lei’s choice...but then I know , she just hopes to do her best to help those children who have the same fate as her... She is pretty and easy to be liked by the guests, so the money comes quickly, so she uses the money to donate to them. In Hope Primary School, the students are all children who lost their parents in the earthquake.”

Ye Zhi looked at me... My Adam's apple squirmed, and then I shed tears. Although many times, when I think of Wang Lei, it won't be as painful as it was at the beginning, but people's emotions are very strange and inexplicable , When I told the woman I liked about this past, I began to feel heartbroken... Maybe, I longed for her to understand me, and also longed for her to understand my depth and pain.

Ye Zhi asked me softly: "Is she still in Shanghai, doing that job?"

I bit my unfinished cigarette, then shook my head: "She died, died of an accident...Because she refused to come out, she had a conflict with the guests...Before her accident, we once met at the bar, At that time, she told me about going to Dali. She felt that my life in Shanghai was too depressing, and Dali is a city with diverse cultures and tolerance, so she suggested that I open a hotel in Dali and give She paid me 19 yuan... She said that if I can stabilize the inn in Dali, she will give up that job and come to Dali... To be honest, although I just broke up with Lu Jia at that time, I was a little disheartened , but I didn't think about leaving Shanghai because I'm not a person who likes change...until she died."

A gust of cold wind blew between Ye Zhi and me, but we didn't get closer, and we stayed silent for a long time until the smoke in my hand gradually burned out.

"So, you came to Dali with her unfulfilled wishes and dreams?"

"Mostly."

"What about the other half?"

"At a certain moment, I suddenly became really disheartened about the city of Shanghai, and felt that there was nothing worth remembering... probably it was a feeling of despair!"

After a short pause, I said again: "But leaving Shanghai is not the end for me. Before I came to you, I met with Taozi... She told me that before I broke up with Lu Jia, Wang Lei once It is definitely not a coincidence that I met Lu Jia, because in daily life, they are two relatively opposite people, and there is no friendship, so they must have a purpose in that meeting, or in other words, to achieve What kind of consensus... Now that Wang Lei is gone, the only one who knows the truth is Lu Jia!"

After saying this, I will not speak anymore, nor will I explain any more. I believe that Ye Zhi, an extremely intelligent woman, can figure out the connection, the cause and the consequence.

In the sound of the tide, she finally spoke to me: "After listening to what you said, I think you seem to live in a more three-dimensional world, and I am the one who lives in the same world..."

She smiled sadly, and then said to me: "So, you think that Lu Jia chose to break up because of her reasons...and you care about her reasons very much."

My heart tightened, because this answer is very important, and it also determines my attitude towards Ye Zhi.

Ye Zhi's gaze never left me...

I stood up from the rock and said to Ye Zhi softly, "I want to hold your hand and walk on the road around the sea for a while, is that okay?"

Ye Zhi hesitated for a moment, but still nodded to me. Maybe, she also wanted to give me some time to think... She is a decent woman and will not allow her man to be half-hearted, but my thoughts at this time are simple A lot, I really want to hold her hand, like lovers, even if only for a moment.

……

At the door of the Haitu Inn, I held Ye Zhi's hand, and then walked along Huanhai Road from Majiuyi to Caicun. We didn't communicate much on the way, and I was like a greedy child. I hold hands tighter and tighter, I am afraid of losing this feeling, and I am even more afraid that this will be the last time we meet in this life. I know that sometimes love will die because of a disagreement, especially this kind of love that needs to be cared for at the beginning love.

Walking, walking, Ye Zhi stopped in front of me. She stared at me first, then took out a car key from her bag, handed it to me, and said, "In my heart , you are a mature man, so I trust every choice you make... You take this car key, if you figure it out and feel that I must accompany you back to the small town, you can go to me... If, If you don't want to lose Lu Jia, then you go to her... When the car is used up, return it to my friend, and someone will come to you to pick it up."

My heart was bleeding and I asked, "What about you?"

"Just treat it as a dream..." After a short pause, she continued, "We all have to respect love. I don't deny that you like me, but there is no half-hearted love in the world of love."

Ye Zhi let go of my hand, and at the same time put the car keys into my pocket with the other hand.

Looking at the back of her leaving, I lost my mind...

But this time, neither of us was wrong, we just chose a more rational way to treat love.

Thankfully, I still have a choice, and the choice hurts so much!
(End of this chapter)