I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 241 Let nature take its course
Behind me is the "Haitu Inn" located in Ma Jiuyi, which is also the first place Ye Zhi lived in after coming to Dali. I don't know why I came here, but here, I feel more truly that Ye Zhi treats me The importance of love, my pain at this moment is actually because of losing her, and losing this relationship that has not had time to blossom.

I smoked a cigarette, closed my eyes and smiled, and then I remembered the viewing platform on the highway, and the quietly flowing lake surrounded by the mountain, and this is the place where Ye Zhi and I met for the first time.

That day, wearing sunglasses, she stood in the dusk, as if she was beyond the world, and I was an ordinary spectator, admiring the beautiful scenery and her, but never imagined that we would have such an experience, and then at this moment become the past...

It hurts a lot, it's a kind of pain that hurts muscles and bones.

I comforted myself again, this is still a good result, if you really love the other person so much, but you can't be together, then it really hurts!And now, at least I still have the ability to stop the pain.

He opened his eyes, lit the cigarette in his mouth, and took a deep breath. His whole body felt empty for a moment, he didn't want to think about anything, he didn't want to do anything. He just wanted to be in this place where Ye Zhi had met and talked many times. place, get a good night's sleep.

I really fell asleep, and then I had a dream. In the dream, I was a guy with wings. Ye Zhi was driving her big Mercedes-Benz G on the endless national road. I accompanied me all the way, and finally We stopped by a salt lake together. White clouds floated in the sky and fell into the water. The water and the sky seemed to be one.

And the meaning of my existence is to accompany, so in the howling wind, we didn't say anything, only two shadows were reflected in the water, blending with the sky and the earth.

I woke up from the cold, and the first thing I did after waking up was to touch my phone. It was also a dream to imagine that Ye Zhi put me in the blacklist of contacts, but those chat records were still there. is reality.

In the vast night, how lost and sad I am!

……

On the way back to "Jiulongju", Nicole called me. She said that the bar is almost ready, and she wants me to take Ye Zhi to have a look. She hopes that we can also give some advice so that she can make it perfect. The end off the finishing touches.

Pushing open the glass door, Nicole was putting a pot of margaritas on the bookcase in the corner. Seeing me alone, she asked, "Where is Ye Zhi? She doesn't have the habit of going to bed early, does she?"

I replied: "I don't know where to start, you sit down first, I'll think about it."

Nicole wiped her hands, sat down across from me, and looked at me with concern.

I lit a cigarette, squinted my eyes and took a puff, then said: "She is no longer in Dali, and WeChat also blocked me."

"Just kidding, it was fine two days ago."

"As far as what happened in the past two days, we have actually talked about it... I like her, and she also has a crush on me, but I failed to grasp the opportunity she gave..." I sighed, and then Said: "This matter, I am quite useless!"

"Stop lamenting on your own, tell me what's going on."

I glanced at Nicole, and then told her everything that happened in the past two days...

I'm very fortunate that there is still someone who can talk to me at this time, but Nicole doesn't think so. She widened her eyes and scolded: "You are a straight cancer, you can cook a cooked duck!" Fly!"

I replied in a low voice: "I know what I can do to make her happy... But, I don't regard this as a casual relationship at all, so I want to be responsible for her..."

Nicole interrupted me: "Stop it, you're not in charge, you're playing house... When you said those words, did you consider from her perspective?... To be honest, as a woman, my first I always felt that you were trying to find a balance between her and your ex-girlfriend... What's even more annoying is that she misunderstood, and you didn't explain... Your EQ is too touching!"

"What would you do if you were me?"

"At least I won't send a message about this matter, I will ask her out to chat face to face... Let her see her expression and tone, she is a very sensitive woman, she can feel it from your words and deeds Whether you are sincere or not...you send a cold message, it just feels like you are escaping...that's the difference, do you understand?"

I looked at Nicole who was doing the analysis for me in astonishment... I think what she said made sense.

"You are talking, why are you staring at me with big eyes?"

"...I didn't think that much at the time!"

"Then do you know where you went wrong?"

"Using the wrong way to communicate..."

"It's good to be able to recognize the mistakes... But, it's not all your fault, Ye Zhi is too arrogant... She's really going to use a knife if she doesn't agree with her... You're hurting enough right now Bar?"

"It hurts everywhere!"

"What are you going to do?"

I was silent for a long time before I replied: "Let her go...Calm down and think about it, we are really not people from the same world, even if there is no such hurdle this time, we may not be in the long run in the future."

"Then you still don't love her enough... To love someone is to try to be with him (her)."

"I've heard another saying... Loving someone is fulfillment."

"Nonsense... What have you done for her?... You are giving her pain, don't think she is not sad."

I looked at Nicole, then took another drag on my cigarette...

Nicole took out her mobile phone from the handbag next to her and seemed to send a message... Afterwards, she said to me: "Fortunately, I'm still in her friend list, I just sent her a message."

"What did you post?"

"Ask her if she wants to spend New Year's Eve together."

"Aren't you asking this knowingly?"

"What do you know... I want to directly ask about you and her. With her current mood, it's no wonder she can understand me!"

"If you ask like that, she may not answer you."

"how do you know?"

"Eighty percent are on the plane."

Nicole looked at me speechlessly, then put the phone aside.And because of this, I have a deeper understanding of people. Nicole will definitely persuade me to find a way to communicate with Ye Zhi, because she is a woman who can do anything for love...but others will persuade me to communicate with Ye Zhi Lu Jia is together.

Come to think of it, this is still related to a person's understanding of love, so there is absolutely no uniform standard for love, and there is no absolute right or wrong.

……

After a while of silence, I finally spoke to Nicole and said, "Let's go with the flow, I'll also take advantage of being able to calm down and think about what to do with my career... For a man, this is the fundamental, right Bar?"

"Ye Zhi has no shortage of men to pursue...Aren't you afraid that other people will take advantage of it?"

"If there is, it can only mean that we are not destined..." After a short pause, I said in a low voice: "I should really be quiet... I think I didn't come to Dali for love. , My goal is very clear. At this age, I really need a mature career... Even if it is not for myself, it must be for my family. They have worked hard all their lives, not after retirement, but for whether I can afford it A suite, please worry about it."

"You're right to think so..." Nicole was a little sad, and she said: "The reason why I separated from him, in the final analysis, is because we lack sufficient material protection... Although I don't care so much, but he You will think about me, this is probably what you mean by fulfillment."

"You finally see it."

"I can't help but look away!"

I was dazed for a while, and then replied full of emotion: "Love is a game of chess, and the people in the authorities are the ones who are fascinated... In fact, none of us are smart, and everyone will fall into the vicious circle of self-righteousness... But then again, this way love is real, right?"

Nicole nodded, and then fell into silence, and we are all like this. When we persuade others, we will list out a lot of analysis and reasoning, but we may not be able to see through it when it is really implemented in ourselves.

……

In the following time, I forced myself to wake up and think about the career that had improved; so, I had further thoughts in my heart. I wanted to talk to Cao Jinbo. It is a part-time job, and you can also choose to cooperate, but it is unknown whether he is willing to accept it, so I need to find a suitable time in the near future to communicate with him.

As for emotional matters, let’s put it aside for now and let nature take its course... If Ye Zhi or Lu Jia finds a new lover during this process, I will silently bless them, because I am a person who can be higher than life, and can A man who is below life, to survive.

Yes, in the past few years, I have experienced enough. Although some things will make me feel sad, I don't want to talk too much with anyone, because too many words will lead to failure. This has already happened to me and Ye Zhi. Verified, she misunderstood me with a message.

(End of this chapter)