I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 327 Must
Leaving the resort hotel where Ye Zhi lived, I was sitting alone by the Erhai Lake. I couldn't find a way to get rid of the pain. These pains were like the waves in front of me, with no end in sight, and one wave after another wave.

I have a very strong sense of frustration in my heart. I don't seem to get along well with any kind of woman. What's more sad is that the moment they give up on me, I don't even know what I did wrong or where. It's not to their taste... I'm like a round ball, anyone can kick it, but I have no strength to fight back.

The wind by the sea blows me even more lonely, but I would rather be alone than plunge into the rolling world of mortals. I just want to be in my own corner, slowly sad, slowly painful, slowly Waiting for the morning sun tomorrow...

At a certain moment, I even lost the motivation to live, I no longer think about those fucking shops in Jiulongju, and I don't want to worry about what I have gained and what I have lost in the past few years... I am like a With a body that has lost its soul, a wave hits me, and I just take a breath...

I gradually forgot what my name was, and I also forgot what I had experienced these days. My soul was dead, and I left all the pain I was suffering to this innocent body to bear.

I suddenly hated Ye Zhi very much, and then I woke up with a start; then, I went through all the pain I just experienced again.

In the predicament of not being able to save myself, I finally thought of Director Ma who was about to convert to Buddhism. I called him and asked him to bring some wine to Erhai Lake to find me... I hope he can enlighten me, if he can’t , then I'll be drunk... I can't go on in this pain anymore, especially when I think of her willing to give her drunk self to another man instead of me, I will suffer even more...

This is not the Ye Zhi I knew... But it was this stranger who broke me down... But I was never willing to hurt her, I wished I could hold her in the warmest place in me and take care of her carefully.

My mentality has collapsed and I am out of balance!

I slapped myself hard, feeling the pain, and staring at the endless Erhai Lake, lost my mind for a while.

……

I don't know how long I waited, but Director Ma finally arrived at the Erhai Lake on a motorcycle. The others came, but they didn't bring me the wine.

He sat down next to me, and then said to me: "You can't regard wine as the solution to all problems... This world is a sea of ​​suffering. Whether you can get over the sea of ​​suffering depends on the other side of the shore. This ship...so don't spoil the only ship that can take you through the sea of ​​suffering with wine."

"I know that drinking hurts the body...but I just want to drink...and, I don't understand it the same way as you. I think the body is a prison, and it traps the soul...You see, if we don't have eyes, we can't You can't see the dirtiest side of this world... Our pain is all given by this body."

As I said that, I lit a cigarette for myself.

Director Ma looked at me and replied: "You are such an eloquent person, you are not suitable for practicing Buddhism. My Buddha emphasizes following fate...not right or wrong."

"I repeat, I never thought about becoming a monk in the past, no matter how painful it was, I never thought about it!"

"Then you can only suffer so much..."

"You enlighten, enlighten me... I am really in pain... I don't seem to be able to handle my feelings well, so I will always be the one who is given up first by the other party."

"Revel...your pain is because you are too serious..."

I finally turned my head to look at Director Ma, and then replied: "Yes, I used a little too much force...I have never met such a perfect woman...so..."

Director Ma interrupted me and said: "Is she perfect?... If she was really perfect, she wouldn't give you so much pain... I don't think you are destined, your fortunes are mutually exclusive... Just think about it, the Seaview Hotel we built in Longkan, and the project you worked on in Jiulongju... Is it because of her that we can't continue to do it?"

I looked at Director Ma in astonishment.

He asked me again: "Do you believe in fate?"

"Half-trusted."

Director Ma glanced at me and replied: "Everything about a person is dominated by fate... Just wait and see, breaking up may not be a bad thing... because there is another element in a person's fate called compensation... ...What you lose, you will gain accordingly...Sooner or later it will come."

"Can I trust you?"

"If you don't believe it, just continue to suffer... In this world, pain is limited. If you suffer more, others will suffer less... The so-called pain, from another level, is also a kind of merit."

I sighed deeply, and then I didn't respond positively to Director Ma's words... I felt so tired that I wanted to hide myself and forget about the right and wrong in the emotional world.

At this time, Director Ma suddenly took out a bottle of "Jiang Xiaobai", which is very popular nowadays, from his pocket and handed it to me, and then said to me: "Drink, after drinking, wake yourself up quickly. The burden is not light..."

"Didn't you bring it with you... Now monks can lie casually?"

"Until the day you shave your hair, you won't be considered a monk."

"have to……"

I sighed, then unscrewed the cap of the liquor bottle, raised my head, and drank half of the bottle... There was a spicy feeling in my mouth, but there was nothing in my heart... I don't know this state, is it It was inspired by the theory of Buddha under the guidance of Ma, but my heart is indeed a little cold...

In the reflection on the water surface, I saw a vicissitudes of myself... I seem to be destined to be a lonely person, so the women who appear in my life are not sincere enough for me, and my sincerity cannot be exchanged. Their sincerity, this is the saddest thing!
……

In the past few days, I have moved out of "Shanshuijian". I rented a small single room near "Jiulongju". There is nothing decent in it, but when I first moved in, my heart was solid. Because I am worthy of the relationship between myself and Ye Zhi, it also avoids the conflicts that may arise when she knows that Yang Sisi exists... But at this moment, it is a kind of irony, ironic that I treat this relationship with all my sincerity , but finally got such a result.

……

In the middle of the night, Cao Xue called me again, but I didn't want to answer it, so he called again very persistently...

I connected, and he said to me in a questioning tone: "Migao, I've been waiting for you for a long time, but you haven't called a single one. Is there anyone you can handle?"

I suddenly felt a fire in my heart, and the tone of my speech was not polite: "The shit at Cangshan Villa, don't come to me in the future... I can't control this matter, what do you want to do? how to do……"

"You can't control it if you want to... My uncle just got the news that your girlfriend signed a contract with the original developer of Cangshan Villa at the dinner last night, and they Binjiang Group bought it all This project, my uncle and his few friends, but Mao couldn't get it!"

"Cao Xue, you heard clearly... I also got bad news just now... I am no longer in a relationship with her as a boyfriend and girlfriend... So, in the future, don't ask me for anything about her It's useless to talk to me... I really wanted to make your uncle cooperate with their group, but you also saw it... I'm a fucking loser... I just want to be alone now, don't Did you call me!"

After saying this, I hung up the phone, leaned against the hard wall, turned off the phone, and lit a cigarette for myself.

I'm very, very confused... I don't know how my future self will go after going through such a thing, and will the situation of "Jiulongju" change because of this?
……

No, I can't be so passive, and I shouldn't be stunned by this sudden injury... Ye Zhi must give me a reasonable reason, otherwise she is sorry for my sincerity. I can accept the breakup, but I can't accept this kind of... Unexplained breakup.

So, before she leaves Dali this time, I must see her again!
must!

(End of this chapter)