I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 382 I Will Never Let You Go

I drove Jian Zihan back to the hotel, and I went to the hotel where Lao Mi and my mother stayed. Until this time, the conversation between Jian Zihan and me was still lingering in my mind... These words not only made me feel more Apart from the contradictions, it also made me miss Ye Zhi even more.

I knocked on the door of the room, and it was Lu Jia who opened the door for me. I was a little surprised, after all, I had been outside for a long time.

My mother spoke to me first and said, "It's a blessing that Lu Jia came to chat with us... It's really boring in the hotel!"

"If you're bored, go to the ancient city for a walk."

"It's so late, and there are no buses, so it's not worth spending that much money to take a taxi."

While sitting on the sofa, I put the fruit I bought on the road on the coffee table, and then said to Lao Mi: "Dad, the hospital for your rhinitis operation has been arranged. You will arrive at the hospital at 08:30 tomorrow morning. Routine checkups followed by surgery..."

"Um... are you going to be hospitalized?"

"Yes, stay for a week... Tomorrow morning, I will go to the supermarket to buy daily necessities for you... I have already arranged everything else."

Lu Jia took my words and said, "I'd better go to the supermarket to buy daily necessities...you stay with uncle in the hospital."

"It's okay, I'll pick the time for the operation, so there won't be any delay."

"With you by my side in the hospital, uncle is the most at ease in his heart... Then don't argue with me!"

In my opinion, no matter what, Lu Jia should not be involved in such a matter. I looked at Lao Mi and my mother, but neither of them made a statement... This further validated my idea, even though they did not force him to I, but in my heart, really want me and Lu Jia to get back together.

Finally, my mother opened her mouth, and she said, "Let Lu Jia buy daily necessities... I don't understand what the people here say. If you stay in the hospital, you can deal with any situation in time. Well, don't miss out on things."

I glanced at Lu Jia and nodded.

The atmosphere was a bit dull, as if everyone was holding back something in their hearts, but they couldn't say it.

……

After a long period of silence, I finally said: "I have to get up early tomorrow morning, I'll go back to rest first, you guys should go to rest early too... Lu Jia, are you going to walk with me, or what?"

"I'll take a taxi back by myself. I have to go to Xiaguan to buy something later, so I won't let you detour."

Both Lao Mi and my mother disagreed, insisting that I give Lu Jia a lesson...

What Lu Jia said is not wrong, she is indeed the most ideal daughter-in-law candidate in the hearts of Lao Mi and my mother, so in their words and deeds, they all reveal protection and preference...

I won't get bored with Lu Jia because of this, but it's true that I feel sad... because it means that they never recognized Ye Zhi from the bottom of their hearts, even though I once brought Ye Zhi into the house.

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On the road with all the street lights on, I drove the car and took Lu Jia towards Xiaguan.Lu Jia took the initiative to speak to me and said, "Don't you want to know what I talked about with your parents?"

I focused my attention past a van in front of me before I replied, "If you want me to know, you'll tell me if I don't ask."

"Don't worry, I didn't say a word that I shouldn't say."

"Ah."

In the brief silence, I speeded up the car. I wanted to end this chaotic night as soon as possible. As far as I am concerned, I really need an independent space where I can be quiet...

Now I seem to have no choice, but I am full of choices, and each of these choices bothers me.

In a blink of an eye, the car passed another bus stop. Lu Jia finally broke the silence and said to me, "Mi Gao, pull over the car for a while, I want to have a good chat with you."

"what happened?"

"Can you step aside?"

I took a look at Lu Jia. Her mood fluctuated greatly. I didn't know what affected her, so I found a relatively safe place with doubts, stopped the car, and opened the door at the same time. Double flash.

I looked at her, her face flickered with the flickering lights, which made me very unpredictable.

She lowered her head, and after a while, she whispered, "You know what? Before the night we broke up...Wang Lei once found me."

"I heard Tao Zi said, what exactly did you talk about?"

I asked her seemingly calmly, but I felt nervous unconsciously... and this night is really a bit psychedelic, as if many answers to mysteries will be solved under such a night.

Lu Jia looked up at me... I saw the corners of her mouth trembling...

She finally spoke to me and said: "She asked me to leave you... She told me: At that time, you lived a very painful life and had no self-confidence, and all this was caused by me... She asked me to fulfill you, she Say, she really likes you..."

Lu Jia and I looked at each other, my heart was already turbulent, but I still replied with doubts: "Wang Lei is no longer here...how do you make me believe what you say?"

"Whether you believe it or not... please listen to me, okay?"

I lit a cigarette and opened the car window.

Lu Jia turned her gaze away from me, and then stared squarely at the isolation fence in front of her, feeling lost for a while...

After a while, she said with a strong sense of loss: "We have been together for more than three years, and you may not know me well... I always pretend to be a decisive and intelligent woman, but in my bones, I am more than you." Everyone is hesitant...so, on the night we broke up, I said a lot of heartless and cold-blooded things to you...but I still went to your bed, and after I left, I was so sad that I was going to collapse..."

Tears were already rolling in Lu Jia's eyes. She clutched her clothes tightly and lost control of her emotions in an instant. She cried bitterly and said to me: "I really hate myself for having so many indecision and indecision. Self-righteous... If I could stick to my own ideas at that time... Wang Lei might not have died in an accident... I feel sorry for you and Wang Lei, so even if you come to Dali, I dare not come to you, I only dare to care about you in a sneaky way through other people's mouths... I am too self-righteous, thinking that love is fulfillment, but I am not that great at all... I made mistakes again and again, and finally drove myself to a dead end ...I know you really don't love me anymore...But if I can choose again, I don't want to let you go...I don't want to lose you, not because of how good you are now...It's because I really I love you and have never changed!"

Lu Jia leaned on my shoulder, tears soon wet my shoulder, her fingers pinched deeply into my flesh, it seemed to be punishing me, but it was more like punishing herself.

Amidst her bitter cries, my heart was broken... I wish I could split myself into two people, one to follow Ye Zhi in pieces, the other to go back to a year ago, to continue the love with Lu Jia despite the hardships.

This feeling is really painful...

(End of this chapter)