I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 386

In the ward, Lao Mi was watching TV. Seeing me and Lu Jia coming, he was in a good mood, especially when he saw Lu Jia, he quickly asked my mother to give Lu Jia the only chair in the ward. What mood is he in now... It is said that the ward is the place where you can see people's hearts the most, and Lu Jia's unwavering company has already moved Lao Mi deeply... Yes, for a woman, what can be done? To this extent, it is not easy.

Lu Jia refused to let my mother give up her seat. She put the thermos box on the cabinet next to the hospital bed, and said to Lao Mi: "Uncle, the doctor recommends that you eat more liquid food these days. The pork liver porridge, you take a break, eat it while it’s hot... The ingredients are the freshest bought in the vegetable market, very nutritious!"

"Shanghai people are notoriously particular about eating, and the taste of this pork liver porridge is definitely not bad!"

As Lao Mi said, he motioned for me to fill a bowl for him.

Lu Jia took care of everything and didn't ask me to do anything. She filled a bowl for Lao Mi by herself, and then opened the small dining table dedicated to the hospital bed. Let me do it, Mi Gao is tired enough after a busy day at work!"

Lao Mi smiled, and seemed to be in a better mood... If the doctor hadn't told us that, who would have believed that he had a hidden disease at this moment.

Lu Jia is really a caring woman. She knew that my mother would be uncomfortable if she slept on a chair to accompany her, so in the afternoon, she went to the furniture shop and bought a simple folding sofa, which she brought along with her just now.

I am not a rock, I know this is called the most intimate company.

……

We stayed in the hospital until 09:30 in the evening, and Lu Jia and I returned to the ancient city from Xiaguan. We faced each other at the entrance of the inn, but we were silent for a long time.

I lit a cigarette in the deep night, the neon light shone on Lu Jia's face, and there was a noise of drinking madness in the distance, everything was real and illusory... I finally opened my mouth and said to Lu Jia : "Thank you for today."

"It's not a big deal, what can I say thank you... You should go back and rest early, only when you have recovered your spirit can you take on the burden on your body... Although you are good enough, the troubles in life will not stop Yes, so you must have a good mentality, this kind of thing will happen to everyone sooner or later."

"I see."

"Then go back and rest."

"Ah."

I threw away the cigarette butt in my hand, and then glanced at Lu Jia again. I wanted to say something, but I couldn't say it in the end... Finally, I got into the car in a low voice, and drove away in a low voice... ...And those lights are reflected on the car windows, they are constantly changing with the rotation of the wheels, my indifferent face gradually merges with them... Finally, a restless and chaotic world is formed in my heart... Tomorrow, What will it be like?

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When I returned to the mountains and rivers where I lived, I didn’t want to face the cold wall, so I sat alone on the basketball court... I lit a cigarette and looked at the world with my heart. Goodbye Twentieth Century" song...

"God says life is redemption and repentance".

I kept thinking, but who needs redemption and who needs repentance?
Is it someone like Lao Mi, Ye Zhi, or Wang Lei? ...They are not bad people, why use such an extreme method to let them complete the redemption?

A gust of cold wind blew, I tucked my clothes tightly, and then looked up at the Cangshan Mountain in the distance with a little despair. Why can't we, who are flesh and blood, be immortal like it?And what is the meaning of life?Is it just life and death?
The more I thought about it, the more I thought about it, and the more I thought about it, the more philosophical it became, and then countless paradoxes became a knot in my mind, which was beyond my cognition. I was extremely painful, and the pain was because I couldn't see through it.

It wasn't until the sound of slapping a basketball that I was freed from this state...

After a while, Nie Dangdang appeared in front of me. He was shaking his fat body and smiling at me: "Coach..."

"What's with you?"

"I learned that your cross step is amazing... What do you think this is?"

He raised his wrist for me to see.

"what?"

"This is the wristband of the Jordan series that Yang Ruhua lost to me... She is no longer my opponent!"

"Ah."

Nie Dangdang kept the excitement after the victory and said to me: "You have half of the credit, do you want to share one with you?"

"Do you know what is the difference between men and women?... You challenged a woman with a man's body, which is called invincibility."

Nie Dangdang argued hard: "I'm a man, yes, but I'm also an underage child... I met Yang Ruhua, and no one took advantage."

"I only look at gender, not age..."

"Coach...you are biased...you must like Yang Ruhua!"

I glanced at him, ignored him, and then lit a cigarette for myself. Nie Dangdang felt bored, and then gave up communicating with me. He hugged the basketball and practiced against the hoop by himself.

Looking at the vitality and tenacity shown by Nie Dangdang, I can't help but feel that life is beautiful...but it is because of the beauty that I am even more reluctant to give up!

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I didn't sleep well that night.I dreamed that I was in the icy sea water, and the wind rolled the sea water into huge waves, which kept slapping me; I was submerged in sea water countless times, and I struggled on the water surface with a strong desire to survive countless times... ...I am afraid of the world under the sea, and I don't want to die in the dark.

I felt colder and colder, my throat was throbbing...and then came the horrible feeling of dying.

In the dream, there was another burst of dying struggle; in reality, he suddenly woke up.

While I was panting violently, I was also glad that I was still alive... Suddenly a gust of cold wind blew, and I looked up, only to realize that the windows had been forgotten to close.It turned out that the cold touch in my dream was caused by these winds.

The wind in Dali really deserves its reputation. The roaring wind is like a crazy woman, crying and howling, trying to tear everything around her apart.

I hastily closed the window, and then lit another cigarette to calm myself... In the dispersing smoke, I thought of Ye Zhi.

The dream I just had was what she encountered in reality; one can imagine how terrified and powerless she would be at the moment she was experiencing...but I was not by her side.

At this moment, I also need her by my side... Because after dawn, my world is also full of storms and waves, and I need a pair of hands to keep me warm, and I have already started to panic.

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I got up at six o'clock in the morning. The reason why I got up early was to go to the porridge shop outside the community to buy some porridge for Lao Mi and my mother. This night, I had such a hard time, and I didn't know that I was with Lao Mi every day. My mother, how did I survive.

I was anxious to see her.

(End of this chapter)