Doomsday: The brain was eaten by zombies at the beginning

Chapter 190

But this is obviously impossible, not the truth.

The truth of the matter is that he is a reincarnation, and he is constantly reincarnating. Now he happens to awaken the true spirit, realizes that he is a reincarnation, and is trying to solve this problem, thinking of ways to solve the problem of reincarnation, and wants to get rid of reincarnation or this constraint.

Because he is a human being, every individual yearns for freedom.

Soaring freely in the sky is the real meaning of the end of life.

If you can't control your own trajectory.

One's own life cannot be written on its own initiative.

to portray.

How can it be wonderful, how can it be broad?

It is simply impossible, without preconditions, it is destined to be impossible.

What Ye Qing wants now is this kind of splendor, this kind of big event that he decides his own life.

Although it is super difficult and stressful to achieve, it is really a big thing worth fighting for.

If it is something that is available at your fingertips, it is not worth cherishing.

The current result is even more precious because it is difficult to obtain.

Precious things must be cherished, so that they are worthy of being precious.

Ye Qing is not someone who doesn't know good or bad, he will definitely cherish this hard-won precious gift.

Maybe he was unlucky and became the subject of a mysterious experiment like the reincarnation, but at the same time he was lucky, and by chance, he awakened the true spirit and woke up.

In this case, it is difficult to say whether it is unfortunate or lucky, because although he is an unfortunate reincarnation.

But because of the awakening of the true spirit, he knows the unfortunate fact that he is a reincarnation, so he has the opportunity to struggle and change something, such as changing his identity.

He has enough time and countless opportunities to change, even if he fails for a while, it doesn't matter, because his status as a reincarnation brings him not only misfortune, but also endless time, which also means that this endless Opportunity.

As long as he is still alive and has a chance, then he naturally has the hope of changing his destiny.

If you don't know that you are a reincarnator, then you will just muddle along like this for the rest of your life.

But now that I know that I am a reincarnation, I naturally have to find a way to solve this problem and get out of the vicious circle of reincarnation.

In this case, if it succeeds, it will not only be as simple as getting rid of bad luck, but also have gains beyond expectations.

It is the identity of a reincarnator, if used well, he can truly achieve eternal life, immortality, that is a good thing that can't be dreamed of.

Of course, such a thing is a prerequisite for a good thing, that is, you must have strong strength, but you must independently decide your own life trajectory.

Only such a life that can be independently controlled and controlled has meaning.

Only a free life is a truly meaningful and valuable life.

Otherwise, that kind of reincarnation who is someone else's life experiment body has been secretly manipulated by others, and his every move is arranged by others. What's the point of this kind of immortality? It doesn't make any sense at all. , just a puppet.

It is someone else's puppet in advance, although it is alive, it is already dead. It is already a fake dead person who can talk, sleep and drink water.

They have their own thoughts, but not entirely their own thoughts, because every move is influenced and manipulated by others, and there is no so-called freedom at all, so-called real freedom.

I don't even realize that I have the so-called freedom. Under such circumstances, naturally all my thoughts and practices are arranged by others, or the practices and ideas that are influenced by others are not free at all. Not your own real thoughts and practices.

Then in this case, I am not a free being at all, all my thoughts, actions and decisions are arranged by others, and I am just a puppet, as if I am completing my role step by step step by step.

What's even more sad is that I don't even know that I am a puppet, and I think that all my behaviors are my own true autonomy.

This kind of tragedy should not be staged in the human world, because after knowing the real situation, it is too tragic, even people like Ye Qing who are living a miserable life can't really accept this fact.

He had been thinking that if he hadn't awakened the true spirit by chance and coincidence, he wouldn't be able to really wake up now, and he must be in a daze now, and he didn't even know that he was a reincarnation. I feel that I can decide my own life, but in fact I can't, everything is arranged by a secret script, and I am just a marionette struggling step by step to meet certain experimental data. ,
Although you don't know what the purpose of the reincarnation experiment is, there is no doubt that in this experiment, the fate of an experimenter like Ye Qing is very tragic. The tragic fate cannot be more tragic, and it is not the misery of a lifetime, it is To have to endure such suffering and torture life after life, this kind of thing is hard to hear, let alone experience it personally, that kind of long-term torture cannot be expressed clearly in a few words.

If Ye Qing hadn't awakened his true spirit, he would definitely still be struggling to survive these afflictions, and the sad thing is that he doesn't even know the real truth, what his real truth is, all these years Suffering is only appearance, not the truth of the problem.

He is so tragic, and there is even more tragic, that is, he still doesn't know what the real tragedy is. Is the truth of the things he has received and the suffering he has suffered? Why are there such tragedies? He couldn't possibly know all the answers.

It was because of the awakening of the true spirit by chance that he knew that he was a reincarnation, and he knew the truth of everything.

Or it is the truth of everything temporarily, because he still doesn't understand the unknown, maybe there is an even more terrifying tragedy behind this tragedy, but his current cognitive ability is obviously not enough to accept these things, not enough to understand these things.

But isn't this a kind of happiness, because if he doesn't know that he is a reincarnation, then although he will still suffer all kinds of suffering from life to life, he will remember it clearly on a regular basis, so that means that every period of life is suffering. , but they are all short-lived, so this is not necessarily such a bad thing.

Because there is no accumulation of suffering, there is no qualitative change.

(End of this chapter)