It's hard to be an idol

Chapter 46 9.21

Xu Lai stayed on the plane for nearly a day. He also thought about it for a long time, but he didn't figure out many things. Most of the time, he was just in a daze, occasionally falling asleep for a while. In the early morning of September 9, the sky was still dark. He arrived at the capital's airport before dawn, and then checked into the same hotel as the Chadan members who arrived earlier.

The first thing Xu did when he came to the hotel was to fall asleep. A few hours of sleep on the plane could not get rid of his exhaustion from the long journey. Coupled with the time difference between Ireland and the capital, Xu Lai was extremely sleepy at the moment.

However, no matter how sleepy Xu Lai was, he couldn't rest for long. The concert was on the second day, and they had to rehearse before the concert. After all, Xu Lai had been absent from group activities for a long time, and he was afraid of making mistakes on the stage. At noon, Lu Han knocked on Xu Lai's door and woke him up.

When Lu Han came, he ordered Xu Lai brunch by the way, and asked Xu Lai to deal with the meal directly in the room, but the atmosphere between the two of them is a bit awkward now, Xu Lai is eating lunch, and Lu Han is watching He couldn't say a word, and the occasional communication was only one or two sentences. They had never been so awkward before. He just watched Xu Lai keep his head down and kept stuffing food into his mouth, chewing , didn't stop for a moment, didn't leave any free time to talk, and seemed to be silently protesting to him.

However, he didn't want to keep silent like this, it's better to speak up, messages sent online are never as effective as words spoken in person.

"Xiao Lai... When will you go to Ireland?" Lu Han didn't talk about himself, but chatted with Xu Lai about his first variety show, and he knew that Xu Lai was here on leave this time. Yes, after the concert, I have to go back to Ireland to continue filming, but I don't know when he will leave.

"Leave after the concert." Xu Lai still had food stuffed in his mouth, he didn't lift his head when he heard Lu Han's words, and replied Lu Han in a calm manner.

Xu Lai was a little vague, but Lu Han still heard clearly, and he frowned slightly, "Is it so fast? You don't take a break..."

"As idols, if we want to make money, how much rest time do we have? Brother Lu, aren't you the same?"

"I..." Lu Han heard something wrong with Xu Lai's words, as if he was blaming him.

"I'm not saying you... just... you go, just like I told you before, don't worry about me, do what you should do, go the way you want to go, and don't let yourself regret it. "Xu Lai put down his chopsticks after saying the first sentence, and talked to Lu Han seriously, and then continued: "If you develop in the mainland in the future... Take care of your body first, and you don't need to worry about it after you leave. I dragged my sick body to catch up with the announcement."

"I know." Lu Han was stunned for a moment when he heard Xu Lai's words, he thought Xu Lai would complain about him, but now it seems that Xu Lai seems to agree with him to leave.

"If I can help you in the future, you can just contact me directly. I won't change my contact information." Xu Lai added, then continued to pick up the chopsticks, bowed his head and started eating.

If Xu Lai didn't complain about Lu Han at all, then of course it's impossible. After all, he had promised to go with him, but he quit halfway. Even if Lu Han was because of his health and future development, Xu Lai I can understand him. Although I complain a little, I don't blame Lu Han at all.

Everyone has their own path to walk, and their own choices to make. Leaving is Lu Han's choice, and Xu Lai respects his choice.

Furthermore, Xu Lai always believed in one sentence: violent storms can never be defeated by the accumulation of time.

Temporary storms can seldom knock down a person completely. Most of the things that knock down people are accumulated over time. Every day, the accumulation explodes at a moment, and the damage caused by that power is difficult to heal.

Lu Han is also like this.

After debuting for more than two years, he was squeezed enough by SM company. His commercial value is indeed a part of SM company, but they are probably used to being the upper class, used to not thinking about artists, and are also used to it. He didn't learn the lessons of Han Geng and Sir Wu, and he was so harsh on Lu Han when Wu Sir's resignation incident was raging, thinking that being strict could suppress the "child"'s rebellious heart, but he didn't expect it to intensify his determination to leave. .

Maybe he is right in the eyes of both parties, but in fact, everyone is wrong, but Lu Han is more like a victim. After all, the money he earned for SM in two years is enough to pay SM for cultivating him for three years. of kindness.

The kindness between the company and the artist is often priced in money and contracts. This is just a business. If you want to truly say gratitude, then you will lose.

"How's your variety show going? Is it going well?" Lu Han smiled quietly, feeling relieved at Xu Lai's support. He also told Zhang Yixing and Huang Zitao about it before, and they could understand Lu Han wanted to leave, but he didn't support him. In the eyes of the two of them, the combination's kindness to them was more than squeezed.

Or to put it more ugly, the two of them are still far from being able to live a prosperous life without breaking away from the tea egg group like Lu Han, and their development may even be better after flying solo than in the group. They don't have that yet. confidence.To put it bluntly, if they didn't have the title of Chadan member now, how many people would support him and like him?
The two of them are not like Xu Lai. Xu Lai was boycotted because of his status as a member of Chadan, and those who like him are because of his music. That is to say, Xu Lai's development is not affected by the group of Chadan at all. Restricted, you won't get into trouble just because you leave the group or something, planet fans can't wait for him to gun quickly.

Of course, he was already in trouble now.

However, what makes Xu Lai stronger than Huang Zitao and Zhang Yixing is his creative ability, which is also why SM has not given up on him when he is resisted by most of the tea eggs.

Xu Lai's support for Lu Han really cheered Lu Han up. Except for Sir Wu and the company he contacted, it seemed that his teammates had a hard time understanding him.

"As for the variety show... the filming went very smoothly, and the seniors also took good care of me. They taught me a lot and I learned a lot. I even wrote a song during the filming." Xu Lai briefly summarized his experience Talking to Lu Han calmly, "Then, we had a performance on the street, and I sang this new song. When I return to Ireland this time, Brother Daoxian said to help me find a recording studio so that I can record the sound source of the song."

"Awesome, Xiao Lai!" Lu Han expressed surprise at the fact that Xu Lai wrote a new song during the filming process, but it was not beyond his imagination. After knowing each other for so long, he still knows how much Xu Lai is capable of.

Leaving aside the songs he created, he is more interested in the street performances that Xu Lai mentioned. He heard that Xu Lai and his group are dedicated to street performances in foreign countries.

"How does it feel to perform on the street?" Lu Han asked with a smile.

"Very good! Although the people around me don't know me, they know music and are willing to accept music that recognizes me, so that they recognize me as a person... I think it's very good." Xu Lai paused for a while, then continued , "Compared to South Korea, I would rather go abroad to perform. At least no one will open their eyes and talk nonsense, and no one will attack me without even listening to my song for a second. It's good."

"Alas..." Lu Han knew that Xu Lai was referring to the group of fans in South Korea. In fact, there are such fans in mainland China, but there are much fewer fans than in South Korea. But no matter what, Xu Lai is It was the one who suffered. He didn't enjoy the bonus of being a member of the tea egg group. Instead, he suffered a lot of cyber violence.

Of course, fortunately, Xu Lai is open, he is not affected much now, but he is very dissatisfied with those fans.

Moreover, Lu Han can also imagine how difficult it will be for Xu Lai after he leaves. He was originally boycotted because of his identity as a new member, and then he has to suffer more violent cyber violence because of his identity as a mainlander... To be honest , Lu Han was very guilty and felt sorry for Xu Lai, but Xu Lai still said that he should contact him if he needs help...

He almost wanted to cry.

"Xiao Lai, you have to work hard and persevere. The real gold will never be buried. As I said before, I will always support you like you support me. I believe you can succeed. I will watch from the opposite side you."

After finishing speaking, Lu Han patted Xu Lai on the shoulder, and the two men looked at each other affectionately for a moment, then smiled calmly.

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Lu Han and Xu Lai only chatted for about an hour. When Lu Han left, he took Xu Lai's dinner plate away. Xu Lai was about to rest for a while, and Park Chanyeol, who learned that Xu Lai had woken up, rushed over again.

When Park Chanyeol entered the door, he looked very anxious, his face was anxious, and he knew there was something unspeakable at a glance. Compared with Lu Han, his face was even uglier.

Moreover, after Park Chanyeol entered the door, he just sat across from Xu Lai, and he didn't respond much when Xu Lai greeted him, just kept looking at Xu Lai.

"Brother Chanyeol, what's the matter with you? What's the matter with you? What happened?" Xu came to see Park Chanyeol's serious and nervous expression, but he didn't say a word, and his heart also became nervous.

Park Chanyeol has always been very cheerful, could it be that he did something that made him unhappy?
When Xu Lai was wondering in his heart, Park Chanyeol spoke.

"Xu Lai, do you know about Brother Lu Han?" Park Chanyeol didn't even call Xu Lai affectionately, he directly called him by his real name, and his tone was rather blunt when he spoke.

"I know." Xu Lai nodded.

"Do you agree with him leaving?" Park Chanyeol's expression changed, becoming tense, hesitant and expectant.

"I respect his choice and choose to understand him."

"Yeah." Park Chanyeol responded sullenly, and didn't say anything else. Xu Lai was also infected by his sudden silence, and didn't say a word.

After a long time, Park Chanyeol raised his head, looked at Xu Lai seriously, looked at him carefully for a long time, and opened his mouth as if exhausting all his strength.

"Well, let him go. What about you, then?"

　3100 words.

　　I hate experimenting.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)