Fall in love after simulation

[You told your wife the option given by the doctor, but she refused to enter the ICU. 】

[When she knew that her death was a foregone conclusion and she was destined to part with you, what she thought about was how to cause you as little harm as possible while lying down like a corpse, relying on instruments and potions to survive, Whether it is for you or her, it is a tragic torture. 】

[Father contacted experts from other big hospitals and sent them Linnai's medical records, and the replies he got were all about condolences. 】

【You told the doctor about Linnai's decision, and the doctor formulated a new medicine to make Linnai feel less pain in the last days of her life. 】

[However, these drugs are a drop in the bucket before the torture of the disease that is enough to bring death. 】

Memory scenes appear.

Entering October, the temperature has dropped a lot, and the sky is often gray. It looks like it will rain, but there is no drop of rain.

In the morning, the sky just revealed a white sky, and there were few pedestrians on the road. Nan Youxi walked quickly across the sidewalk with a green light, walked into the hospital, and walked to the special ward building.

When passing by the garden, he hesitated for a moment, and broke off a section of sweet-scented osmanthus.

The nurse at the front desk already knew Nan Youxi, greeted him early, and helped him fill in the registration form for visiting patients.

He went straight to the ward on the second floor, and his raised palm failed to land on the door panel for a long time.

Through the crack in the door of the ward, he heard low sobbing.

It was Rena's voice.

This suppressed cry was like a saw with fine teeth, pulling back and forth in Nan Youxi's heart.

Why is the wife crying? The torment of illness? Heartache? Or maybe both?

He knocked on the door.

Hearing the knock on the door, Nan Lingnai immediately stopped sobbing. She hurriedly wiped away her tears and lay back under the quilt.

In the early morning, she had a dream. She dreamed that a month ago, she successfully concealed her illness and recovered miraculously.

Two months later, she and Yuki went to Yoshida Town together. The sky was originally sunny, but when they arrived at the lake, it suddenly snowed heavily. The azure lake instantly froze, turning into a mirror imprinted with the blue of the sky, and the dead wood in the center of the lake was covered with white snow in an instant, like a Christmas tree made with chemical reagents in science class.

She and Nan Yuxi stood by the lake, looking at this beautiful scene. Nan Youxi pulled her, stepped on the ice, and walked towards the center of the lake. The boy broke off a branch covered with snow and invited her to taste it.

Then, she was awakened by a sudden stabbing pain in her chest.

She opened her eyes and stared blankly at the strange yet familiar ceiling. The lake disappeared, the snow disappeared, and Yuki disappeared. She just took over the dead branch, and she has not yet tasted the taste of the blue lake and white snow.

Tears fell instantly, and the drunkenness of the dream dissipated quickly, but after returning to sobriety, after examining the current situation, my heart felt more sad.

It wasn't until the knock on the door that she realized she was sobbing.

Is that Yuki outside the door? Did he hear himself crying?

Nan Lingnai felt guilty, she complained in her heart that she was not self-controlled.

"Come in." She tried to make the same voice as before.

Nan Youxi pushed the door open, and he handed the osmanthus branch in his hand to his wife.

"It's sweet-scented osmanthus, it's so fragrant." Linnai sat up.

She lowered her head, and her snow-hill-like nose tapped on the golden osmanthus petals, showing a smile.

The corners of her eyes, cheeks and lips all changed due to this smile, like a flower fully blooming.

Nan Youxi thought, is this smile his wife lied to comfort him, or is he really happy because of this simple Guizhi?

No matter which answer it was, it made his heart sting.

"It's so early today." Linnai raised her hand and put the osmanthus branch under Nan Youxi's nose, letting him smell the fragrance, "Put it in the water for me."

"I missed you, so I came here earlier." Nan Youxi took the osmanthus branch from his wife, got up and walked to the sink.

"It's delicious!"

In her voice that pretended to be cheerful, tears fell down again. She thought of the hydrangea that Nan Youxi gave her three years ago. The bright yellow and small osmanthus is more noble and fragrant than the hydrangea, but at this moment, she is more envious of herself when the hydrangea was. At that time, she still had three years to live.

Nan Youxi held the glass with sweet-scented osmanthus in it, and when she came out of the bathroom, she wiped away the tears on her face.

Under Rena's arrangement, Nan Yuxi put the glass on the windowsill. The sun has risen, and the yellow morning light shines on the glass filled with water, refracting complex light and shadow.

"Didn't Xizi come with you?" Reina asked, staring at the glass.

"I didn't call her."

"Call her in the future, let's be more lively."

"You obviously don't like excitement."

"Where's Nao Asano? According to Xizi, she is a very quiet person."

"In some respects, she is even more fussy than Xizi."

"Where's Chiju Kazumi? She looks very good."

Nan Youxi didn't answer, he sat by the bed and looked into Rena's eyes.

Linnai avoided his sight and looked down at her own palms. Those soft white jade-like hands that Nan Youxi liked were very sickly white now.

Nan Youxi reached out to caress his wife's cheek, and kissed her slightly dry lips.

"It's enough for me to have you."

"But I'm leaving you soon."

"And our children."

"I don't have any kids, I'm sure I'll have one when I have time."

"Yes, a child named Mozi, we agreed in Xia Tian, ​​we will go find her in a few days."

"I don't want to adopt a child with you. You go and have a child with Xizi, and a child with Nao and Kazumi!"

"I love you."

"But I'm going to die."

The tears burst again, rolling down and falling on the blue quilt. Linnai looked at Nan Youxi's face, tears blurred her vision, blurred her husband's face, asked her to blink to drive away the tears, but new tears came out again.

She choked up and apologized: "I can't do anything for you, I can't even be with you, I'm sorry."

What flows out of her words and tears is her endless remorse, the source of remorse is love, if she had known the result earlier, she would never have been close to her beloved.

Nan Youxi hugged her in her arms, melting her love and resentment between her hot lips.

[What is more tormenting than the illness is the regret in the wife's heart. She feels that she has not left you anything. In your relationship, she has always been asking for it. Her love for you has all turned into complaints about herself. 】

【You kiss her lips and tell her that the time spent with her is her best gift. 】

[The wife gradually calms down. Outside the door, the nurse brings washing utensils, you help your wife wipe her face and brush her teeth, a faint blush appears under her reddish eye sockets. 】

[In October, my wife's condition deteriorated again. 】

[At the end of the month, you decided to take her to Yoshida Town. 】