If The Moon Won’t Hold You

It has been a week since her words and deeds, Cen Ning failed to tell him what she wanted to go to for further studies in time. But afterwards, I didn’t worry about it. After all, this matter will take a while to prepare.

But she didn't know what her first reaction to her words and deeds would be after she said it, because if she really went to the United States, then maybe...they would not be able to see each other for a long time.

This is also the reason why she hesitated the most.

"Ningning, you can give me this information to the teacher." Dabei hurriedly ran and handed her a document, "I'll go to the toilet, please."

Cen Ning nodded, picked up the folder and walked towards Yin Li's office.

Yin Li's office is far away from their office area. Yin Li has been working in it for a long time, so his office is very large, with a dark room and even sleeping room.

Cenning knocked on the door when she walked to the door, but there was no response inside. Cen Ning hesitated and pressed the doorknob.

The door opened for a while, walked in, and put the papers on the nearest table. She just wanted to turn around and go out when she suddenly heard Yin Li's voice coming from the next room. The door was not closed tightly, so the voice was clear.

Eavesdropping on other people's calls is not a good thing. Cen Ning didn't intend to stay, but after walking a few steps, he heard her name.

Cen Ning was taken aback for a moment and stopped.

"What does it mean that I am more concerned about Cen Ning than my daughter, Qing Yao, my daughter is a daughter, and Cen Ning is Cen Ning, you know how deeply I feel guilty to her."

"I'll take care of my daughter, so don't be angry. I'll talk to her when I go back tonight."

"Cen Ning, I will naturally take care of it to the end. You know that his father's accident happened because of me... Don't say so much. If there is no Cen Rui, how can I be who I am now? Yes! I only rely on him to get there. In this step, if it weren’t for his work, I would not win the international gold medal. You don’t need to use these to satirize me... Do you think I regret it? I regret it every minute and every second! So I am now making up!"

Cen Ning stood in place, the more he listened, the more confused he became, and the more he listened, the deeper his heart became.

She knows who Qing Yao is, she is Yin Li's wife. She has been here many times, and every time she comes here, she brings her delicious food, which is very good for her.

But... what are they talking about.

Guilt? compensate?

Teacher Yinli actually knew her father?

And... He said that his father did something because of him, and he came to this day because of his father. What do these mean?

"Qing Yao, you--" The voice stopped abruptly, and Yin Li opened the door and froze as he watched Cen Ning, who was standing motionless outside.

He put down the phone very slowly, looking at Cen Ning, his face looked a little ugly.

"How are you..."

"Teacher Yin." Cen Ning frowned and said stiffly: "So you know my father."

Yin Li's shocked face slowly disappeared, replaced by a dazed expression. It was a sigh of relief and a silent sigh.

"Do you know my father?" Cen Ning stepped forward and took him by the arm, anxiously, "Teacher! I heard it all! But, but you said you didn't know him before, why did you lie to me?"

"Cen Ning..." Yin Li's eyes were red, he turned his head, his voice was bleak, "I know your father."

"..."

"Before, I was a companion who went out to take pictures with your father. We were... good friends."

"But why are you hiding from me?"

Yin Li opened his mouth and couldn't speak.

Cen Ning: "You just said that my father happened because of you... what does this mean? Could it be that you were there when the accident happened in Tibet?"

Cen Ning was shocked when she saw Yin Li, her eyes became even more panic. Her heart sank, and some things slowly became clear.

"Cen Ning, I am indeed there." Yin Li sat down on the sofa, and the man in his forties even had tears in his eyes. "If it weren't for me to drive that road, we wouldn't overturn the car, your father. Also...nothing will happen, it's my fault, I killed him."

Cen Ning: "So... you treat me so well, take care of me everywhere, and show me so many outstanding seniors. It's actually because of my father."

"This is one, but naturally you are also capable of yourself." Yin Li sighed, "You are better than us."

"But I don't understand. What happened at that time can be said to be an accident, and I can also believe that you did not mean it, but why did you keep it like this? You said my father's work...Gold Medal in the International Natural Landscape Photography Annual Contest?" Cen Ning somewhat It's absurd, "It won't be what I think, is it?"

Yin Li was in his throat. They had such a good relationship at the beginning, and they both had great ambitions in their hearts. Both of them were very capable, but there would not be a chance to get ahead.

After the trip to Tibet, he was heartbroken because of Cen Rui's death, but when he was young, he also fainted in front of fame and wealth.

He took Cen Rui's work as his own and voted for the competition. He thought it was a stone sinking, but he didn't expect that this time he would become famous overnight. Relying on his good friends, he became one of the most famous photographers in China...

He was overwhelmed by the applause and money that came in an instant. He was very happy at first, but as time went on, he began to regret his past mistakes every night, but he... didn't have the courage to admit it all.

Later, he actually met Cen Ning, Cen Rui's daughter.

So from the moment he recognized, he treated her heart and soul, taught her what she had learned throughout her life, created a better environment for her, and paved a better way...

Cen Ning looked at Yin Li who was silent and her suspicion was confirmed. She looked at Yin Li strangely, because of absurdity and disappointment, she even laughed out loud.

"Cen Ning..."

"Teacher Yin, do you know that my father is an extremely useless person in the eyes of our family, my mother...how much my mother hates him, she has not trusted his dream for a moment for so many years." I closed my eyes, but tears overflowed through my fingers, "No one believes him, no one can afford him... But who knows, it turns out that he could have been the best person..."

"Teacher, I think you are good to me because of how much capital I have. I have always regarded you as my idol and goal, but it turns out that this is all fake!"

...

The magnificent building, the market neighborhood.

Night had fallen after Cen Ning came out of EternalCameraClub. She stood on the side of the road and looked at the buildings and buildings placed in front of her like models. They were lit with clusters of lights, red, orange, yellow and green, like a sea of ​​colorful stars.

But none of these colors belong to him.

Cen Ning squatted on the ground, and suddenly wept bitterly.

She regarded Yin Li as an elder and a master as a guide, but in the end she discovered that this person had stolen the fruits of her father. After her father died of loneliness, she became a figure on the top of the pyramid by him!

"Cen Ning, I know I was so wrong, if you want to tell everyone, you can tell..."

Say, why didn't she say it!

Her father has not realized his ideals in his entire life. Not only the world does not know him, but even his own family does not understand him!

How depressed he is to die!

By the way, family...

Cen Ning paused and got up suddenly.

"Master, please go to the Eastern District Compound." Cen Ning couldn't wipe her tears, and hurriedly stopped a rental car.

She wants to go home, she wants to tell Wei Pinfang, she wants to tell her father that it's not doing nothing or being willful, and she wants to tell her that she is wrong!

She has been wrong all the time!

The taxi was running on the way back to Yan's home. After more than forty minutes, the car stopped at the gate of the compound.

The taxi couldn't get in, so Cen Ning paid, got out of the car and ran inside.

Running home hurriedly, Cen Ning rushed back to the small building but did not see Wei Pinfang. She took out her cell phone to make a call, only to find Wei Pinfang's cell phone rang on the sofa.

Cen Ning: "..."

She frowned and walked out of the small building to look for her, but after looking around outside, she found that Yanjia didn't seem to be alone, not even Aunt Chen.

"What about people?"

"Cen Ning?" At this moment, a young youth in military uniform hurriedly ran into him. After seeing her, his footsteps were noticeable.

Cen Ning remembered him, he often sent some military materials to Yan Guofeng.

"You are at home..."

Cen Ning twisted her eyebrows: "What's the matter?"

"Uh... won't the chief say there is no one at home."

Cen Ning: "Does Grandpa want you to come back to pick up things? By the way, how about the others, there is no one at home today."

The young man hesitated, "Well, Cen Ning, do you want to take my car to the hospital."

Cen Ning: "Hospital? What happened?"

"The chief must have been too late to inform you that your mother's condition suddenly worsened. I drove to the hospital just now. Everyone went--"

Cen Ning shook her whole body for a moment, and almost didn't stop: "Take me to..."

**

How could the road to the hospital be so long, it made her head dizzy and her eyes dark.

After arriving at the hospital, Cen Ning only knew that she followed the people nearby to the operating room. Everyone was there, and she was silent when she came.

Aunt Chen came over to hold her and wiped her tears secretly, Cen Ning patted Aunt Chen on the shoulder mechanically, and told her that there would be nothing wrong, and it would be fine.

She would also comfort others, because her heart was full of hope, and she never believed that people like Wei Pinfang would leave so casually.

But in this world, nothing seems impossible.

Maybe the person who was still healthy and dangling in your world the moment before can leave you in the next second. You never cared that she didn't pay attention to her, until she left, you didn't realize why there is no relative by my side.

Cen Ning watched the doctor who had been busy for an hour walk out, his mouth was open and he was saying things she didn't like to hear.

"The patient's heart was acutely hypoxic-ischemic, and cardiac arrest resulted in death..."

"Sorry."

"It stands to reason that this would not be the case. Did the patient take the medicine as prescribed by the doctor when he went home?"

"Families go in and have a look..."

Death, sorrow.

Cen Ning stood by the hospital bed and watched Wei Pinfang lying on the bed. She closed her eyes, as if she was just sleeping.

Cen Ning slowly squatted down and looked at Wei Pinfang for a moment.

This seems to be the first time she has taken a good look at her in so long. Looking at her so close, she realized that she was really old. Her cheeks were thin and wrinkled, and the face that had always been cold and indifferent to her at this moment was too pale and seemed to have no deterrent effect.

"How can you die?" After Cen Ning said this lightly, a tear fell vertically on the pale quilt.

"I haven't told you about Dad, I haven't told you that you are wrong, how can you die..."

Aunt Chen wiped her tears: "Child, you can cry if you are sad, you, don't hold back."

Cen Ning suddenly felt so desperate, she wanted to cry loudly and hard. But at this moment, looking at Wei Pinfang, her heart seemed to be crushed by a big rock, she couldn't cry, she just wanted to shake her up hard!

She wanted to tell her that she was not qualified to die. She didn't know her father's difficulties, and she hadn't apologized to her yet.

She was indifferent to her for a lifetime, and never gave her a tender hug.

She wants her to know her mistakes! Make her regret it! Want her to change!

She wants her too...

Love her.

**

Some matters such as the funeral were arranged very well by Yan Guofeng.

What worries everyone is that Cen Ning is abnormal during this period. Before and after the funeral, she didn't say a word, and often stared at somewhere in a daze. She seemed to be away from her soul, always in a trance.

She didn't cry, didn't make trouble, and didn't complain to anyone. She took care of everything she needed for the funeral in an orderly manner. She was obviously a young girl in her early twenties, but she was standing next to the deceased's photo, but she looked like a dying old man who could see through life and death.

"Ningning, let's have a meal first." Aunt Chen came over to persuade.

Cen Ning shook her head: "Aunt Chen, go eat, I'll go back and sort out my mother's belongings."

"What can I do if I don't eat, I will sort out the relics."

"It's okay, I want to do it myself."

Aunt Chen watched Cen Ning walk away, and she sighed: "If only it can be done, this girl won't be so stubborn..."

Cen Ning returned to the small building and began to organize Wei Pinfang's things.

First, she put the bedding and daily necessities in the same box, then opened the closet and began to pack the clothes.

When Cen Ning was packing up his clothes, he found that Wei Pinfang's clothes were actually very few. After she packed all these clothes out, she suddenly saw a big square box at the bottom.

The paint on the box has fallen off, I think it's been a few years. After she opened the box at random, she saw two envelopes inside. Cen Ning was taken aback, and her heart suddenly began to beat wildly.

Quickly opened an envelope, and a bank card and a pile of photos fell out of it.

From the point of view of pixels, the photos should be taken by mobile phones and then later washed out.

In the photos, she is of different ages and time periods. She was eating, she was doing homework, she was watching TV, and she was talking to the photographers at the film festival that day.

That day, her mother went to the film festival. On the first day, for the first time, she went to...

Open another envelope, it is a piece of letter paper.

By this time, Cen Ning's hand was already shaking horribly, she sat down on the ground like she did, slowly opened the letter paper, and smoothed out the fine wrinkles...

"Daughter, you have to be fine.

I know you don't like to communicate with me, and I am not good at communicating with others. For so many years, you must blame me for being too strict and indifferent to you. Here, my mother wants to say sorry to you.

Have you seen that bank card? There are 300,000 in it, and the password is your birth date. Don't worry, it's not Yanjiao's money, it's my mother who has sold embroidery for more than seven years. Leave this money to you, and you can spend it with confidence in the future. This is given by your mother, not someone else, so you don’t have to have so much pressure.

Some time ago, I saw that you were checking foreign schools. You must be silent because you don’t want to owe the speaker anymore. So now, you can take the money to study abroad. With this money, you won’t be so tired for at least the first year, but you may have to work hard afterwards, mom. I can't help you. Also, after you finish your studies, you must remember to repay your grandfather, he is really kind to you.

Daughter, I have never told you before. I was really relieved when I heard you said that I wanted to support me on my own. I also saw that you have been working hard. But then I heard that you were with Xingzhi, I know you like him very much, but mom doesn't want you to lose yourself for anyone, so you have to do what you want. Now without my bondage, you are free.

In the end, Mom was very sorry, but brought you into this world but made you so lonely.

I hope you won't meet me again in your next life. "