beauty world

And because the roommates who had gaps gradually got along with each other, I often wandered alone in the school library, learning about some books about genes, advanced technology, time travel, viruses, etc... In this way, I actually developed I got into the habit of going to the library every day.

Such a thing was unimaginable to me in the past.

In the blink of an eye, a year is coming to an end.It's only been a month, because I insist on running every day, my stomach has flattened. Although it is still difficult to compare with the figure in the women's world, I have gained a few real muscles.These are two completely different ways from the original method of reducing body weight by extracting fat.

And then... probably because I insisted on reading every day, my temper settled down. At the end of the semester, I, who had always been at the bottom of the class, unexpectedly got No.2 in the class.I also got a small amount of scholarship, but I never expected it.

I originally wanted to go to Yunnan with this scholarship.I don't know why, I just want to go to the places where I have experienced in the world of women...

It's a pity that such a scholarship is far from enough.

"If you want to go, go. It just so happens that Dad and I have a colleague who has relatives in Yunnan. You have made great progress this time. Dad is happy and rewards you."

In the end, it was my father who understood me, and took part of his year-end bonus as a reward for my good grades in the exam, and let me go to Yunnan during the winter vacation.He even made a trip to Zhengzhou by the way.

This trip did not give me any surprises.

All I got was endless disappointment and unspeakable misery.

Yunnan is naturally beautiful. Yunnan in winter and the distant mountains covered with white snow are so holy and quiet.Beautiful to the extreme.

But... I can no longer find the person I was looking for.

The women's world, which contains soft and artistic buildings, has disappeared, and the billboards full of women's lilies have disappeared, and there is only a public toilet novel with a squatting seat and no urinal... What is left is a group of couples And men and women who hook shoulders.

The woman with a charming face is acting like a baby in her boyfriend's arms to her heart's content, holding hands in twos, arrogantly.

Or carrying Hermes and LV sachets, the woman in black silk stockings is sitting proudly in a Lamborghini without a trunk, chatting with her boyfriend, lingering from time to time, even sitting in her arms playing with the car shock……

Scenes of extravagance and beauty, the scene that I can only look up to when I return to the original point is repeatedly staged in my eyes.

However, I don't feel any envy.

Because I know that I used to own the whole world.

I once stood on the highest peak in the world.

I have more than any man in all ages.

Those scenes where Bai Fumei and Gao Fumei walk in succession, but I don't pay attention to them at all.

Perhaps, as a dick, I already have the most noble soul in the world.

On the long-distance bus back to Kunming from Shangri-La County, I sat in the last seat of the long-distance bus, and there was a couple in front of me.The man was handsome and tall, with clear bones, resolute face lines, and well-developed limbs, while the woman was holy and noble. She was wearing a white winter dress, and her black hair, which was much longer than ordinary women, was attached to the backrest and above the top of her head. , there is also a garland that is only available to minority women.

Looking at her back, I suddenly thought of the holy woman who once fascinated me, Princess Changyue.

Because of the long journey, the couple in front of me fell asleep in the middle of the journey. The man sitting on the left fell asleep on the lap of Princess Changyue on the right, and Princess Changyue leaned her head on the long-distance bus on the right. Window fell asleep.

The road was bumpy along the way, and the car windows vibrated. Seeing Princess Changyue's head was about to hit the car window, my heart felt a pain for no reason.

Taking advantage of Princess Changyue's drowsy sleep, I gently stretched out my hand and sandwiched it between her head and the car window, using my hand as a cushion so that she could sleep more comfortably.

The long-distance car bumped on the road for four hours, and my hand was stuck on the window for four hours.

When I got out of the car, my palms were numb and I couldn't feel it...

However, when watching Princess Changyue and the tall and stalwart man beside her leave hand in hand, I still felt extremely peaceful, as if my debts had been paid off, and everything was so worth it.

Looking at the happy back of the couple who left, it was as if a little wish I had been thinking about had come true.

……

After returning from my travels in Yunnan and Zhengzhou, I was exhausted.

I was exhausted, but I heard an exhausted news.

"Son, your mother went to the hospital for an examination yesterday...you...are going to have a younger brother." After returning home, my father happily told me the news that would only make me more tired.

I just smiled reluctantly, watching the scene where my father was hugging my mother and whirling around, stood alone for a while, and finally turned around and walked into my bedroom, taking a box of paper with me, and then locked the door behind me.

Time passed silently like this.

Ever since I woke up in the hospital, I have been unable to figure out whether what I experienced in the world of women was a dream or reality.As time went by, I found that my memory in the women's world gradually became blurred, and I couldn't remember many details clearly.

Just like waking up from a big dream, you will remember it very clearly when you wake up, but as you wake up for a long time, you will gradually forget the scene in the dream.

Forget about the person in your dream.

When did I have a snowball fight with Xiaobai on the snow mountain?When did you meet that girl in sunglasses and a black jacket?Did I really fly a thousand Kongming lanterns with Qin Yueyin one night?I... really used to play with sweet and energetic girls in the amusement park, and row boats on the West Lake...

Gradually, gradually, I found that I no longer remember many things.

When the memories of the past were gently buried by the wind and dust of time, I faded away many, many things...

Only those smiling faces with different styles are deeply engraved in my heart, so clear and beautiful, it seems like yesterday.

Day after day, I stood blankly at the crossroads, looking at the pedestrians coming and going, the towering high-rise buildings, and the traffic lights constantly switching between red and green. where to go.

What happened to that world?

Did I make it that night?

Is that world saved?

Zidie, Qinghan, Mozi, Qiu Xueyu, the wretched girl, the little princess... Where will they be now? Are they doing well?

Will they be inexplicably lost when they get together to discuss me when I am not around?

I do not know.

I don't know anything and can't do anything.

Day by day passed, and I was growing up gradually.

In a blink of an eye, from the third year of high school to the senior year of high school.

Facing the imminent life after graduating from college, I still have no plans.

It's just muddled, like a walking dead.

In mid-September 2013, I suddenly received a notice from a classmate in the editorial department I had participated in.

"Prom? Or...forget it." I was taken aback when I received a notification from this "colleague" who I used to work with in the editorial department and was not a friend.But he lowered his head and saw that although he was no longer bloated, but still had a slightly larger frame, he still refused.

For the editorial department, I have long since lost my nostalgia.

There is nothing worthy of my nostalgia, let alone anyone worthy of my nostalgia.