Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

"Why didn't you kill Li Jingshen?"

Li Jingshen suddenly lost the ability to speak, like a sharp knife pierced into the deepest part of his heart inch by inch, the pain was bloody.

"Li Jingshen, I'm so tired." Maybe she was really tired, her voice was too soft to be heard.

I used to think that it was good to be alive, but now I realize that life is the most difficult, it is too difficult, time turns into a knife and cuts her flesh little by little, every minute and every second is torture.

"It was just an accident..." All he wanted was for Shen Zhichu to be well, but he found that Shen Zhichu's complexion was becoming more and more unhealthy, and his body was getting thinner and thinner.

It was he who asked the doctor to forcibly remove their child, but he never thought that Shen Zhichu would lose his motherhood.

"Accident?" Shen Zhichu looked at Li Jingshen and said hoarsely, "Is it an accident that you want to take away my child? It is also an accident that you control my memory? Do you know that one of your accidents will kill a person's life. Li Jingshen You are satisfied, my bird has finally been broken by you."

Can a bird with a broken wing survive?

Li Jingshen admits that he is selfish and can use any means to get what he wants, but now he is helpless, obviously he was the leader at the beginning, but slowly changed positions.

"Shen Zhichu, I did all this because I love you so much."

"Your love is too expensive, I can't bear it." Shen Zhichu really fell in love with Li Jingshen during this period of amnesia. She always sighed that Li Jingshen was very good to her, but now it seems that he gave her All good things will cost her a heavy price.

Now that love has all turned into ashes and disappeared.

"Zhichu, I have never loved anyone in my life, and I don't know how to love anyone. I want to be nice to you, but every time I make things worse..."

"There are many things I can't tell you. I'm afraid that you will be stimulated when you are sick, and even more afraid that you will leave me."

"Zhichu, will you never forgive me no matter what I do?"

Li Jingshen's voice became softer and softer. The first sentence was for himself, and the last two sentences were for Shen Zhichu. He was like a prisoner in despair. He was used to the darkness, but Shen Zhichu's appearance became His only light, how could he be willing to return to the darkness after he tasted the warmth, what should he do for the rest of his life?

"I said that I would hate you forever." Shen Zhichu said in a calm tone, saying that he hated him, but his face was very flat and did not reveal a trace of ferocious hatred.

Li Jingshen nodded: "I also said that I will make up for you for the rest of your life, even if you hate me for the rest of your life."

The two of them are now a tight knot, and if they want to loosen it, they can only cut off the other end, and Shen Zhichu's end is already tattered, and it can be broken with a light pull.

Shen Zhichu closed his eyes.

..........

After Zhao Qian brought the blue and white porcelain vase containing the ashes back to the villa, he asked the housekeeper to arrange for Li Jingshen to pack a few sets of clothes and toiletries for Li Jingshen.

Mrs. Zhang's eyelids have been trembling for the past two days, her left eye is twitching and the right eye is twitching, and her right eye is twitching non-stop.

Before packing up the clothes, Mrs. Zhang asked Zhao Qian: "Mr. Li hasn't come back for several days. Is he going on a business trip somewhere?"

Zhao Qian replied without thinking: "Mr. Li is in the hospital right now, not on business."

"Why are you in the hospital? What's wrong with you?" Mrs. Zhang asked worriedly.

"It's not President Li, it's Madam who is hospitalized."

When Mrs. Zhang heard this, her eyes were filled with surprise and fear, and she grabbed the apron with both hands: "Madam is back? Why is she hospitalized?"

Zhao Qian didn't notice her strangeness, and said "um", Shen Zhichu was inconvenient to tell them about the abortion and hospitalization, he didn't say anything more to change the subject and asked Aunt Zhang to clean it up, he will take it to the hospital later.

Mrs. Zhang rushed upstairs and opened the closet. On the right was Shen Zhichu's clothes, and on the left was Li Jingshen's. Two completely different styles of clothes were placed in the same closet.

Shen Zhichu's clothes are more casual, while Li Jingshen's clothes are mostly strict shirts, and a person's usual personality can be seen from the clothes he wears.

Mrs. Zhang opened the suitcase, began to pack Li Jingshen's clothes carefully, and finally put two of Shen Zhichu's, holding a sweater, she couldn't help shedding tears.

Madame is in the hospital, is it evidence that her baby was removed?Counting the time, the baby in her stomach is four months old.

Mrs. Zhang tidied up her clothes and took them down while crying. Zhao Qian waited downstairs, took the suitcase and hurried to the hospital.

Mrs. Zhang did not dare to raise her head with red eyes, she rubbed her eyes after the person left, and muttered, "Sin"

........

When Zhao Qian returned to the hospital, the door of the ward was ajar. He took a peek inside first, so as not to disturb the rest of the people inside.

Li Jingshen sat alone on a small stool, his tall body bowed decadently, when he heard the movement, the man turned his head and glanced at the door.

He is also the richest man in Rongcheng, the high-spirited man who logged in on major financial platforms, his eyes are like eagles, full of indifference and haze, at first glance he seems uneasy, but when he looks deeper, he reveals fragility.

Zhao Qian came back to his senses quickly, and opened the door softly with the suitcase in his hand: "President Li, I brought your luggage."

"Pack it up and put it in the closet." The VIP ward is complete with everything, and there is a separate closet with hangers to store a lot of clothes.

Zhao Qian nimbly took out the clothes and hung them in the closet, hurriedly cast a glance at Shen Zhichu who was lying on the bed as if sleeping soundly, and asked, "Ma'am, she..."

Li Jingshen put his index finger on his lips, Zhao Qian immediately fell silent, he pointed outside, Li Jingshen got up.

"President Li, how is Madam?"

The two stood in the smoking area, Li Jingshen lit a cigarette and smoked it: "After the uterus is removed, you can't get pregnant." He smiled wryly at the doctor, "Zhao Qian, did I do something wrong?"

"Boss Li, you're doing this for her own good, but the method is a bit strong. You should have told Madam from the beginning that she has stomach cancer and can't have children."

"I'm afraid she'll think about it and leave me."

"But how is it different from when she hated you?"

The atmosphere in the smoking area is stagnant. A person like Li Jingshen who doesn’t know how to love can only be unfeeling. Love can’t be obtained without asking for it. His life is too dark. The starting point is good, but if he makes a mistake in the middle, the result will be wrong .

"Yeah, there's no difference..." Li Jingshen squeezed out the cigarette, leaned against the wall and let out a bitter smile.

"Mr. Li." Zhao Qian thought for a while and persuaded, "Why don't you let Madam go..."

"Impossible!" Shen Zhichu was the one who supported his life, he didn't even dare to imagine what his life would be like if he let her go.

"Boss Li, do you want a living Shen Zhichu or a dead Shen Zhichu?" As a helper, he couldn't say clearly that he was afraid of going overboard in many things, but he was afraid that he would regret it if he didn't wake up Li Jingshen.

"I've already made it this far, how do you want me to let her go?" Li Jingshen roared silently, his eyes were stained red like two drops of blood.

"She will die if I let her go now. You haven't seen her eyes when she wakes up. There is no light in those eyes, and they are dead silent. When she said she hated me, her tone didn't fluctuate."

It is best for Shen Zhichu to hate him, people have emotions and desires, hatred can also prove that a person is still alive, if she disappears, then she is no different from a dead person.

Li Jingshen's gloomy mood almost swallowed him, Zhao Qian pursed his lips, and said with difficulty: "President Li, I'm just afraid that you will regret it."

Li Jingshen smiled bitterly: "I regret it now, if time could go back, I would rather not have met her..." He shouldn't be in love with Shen Zhichu, a person like him who doesn't understand emotions will only Hurting her, how can everything go well in life, and now that she has come here, there is no turning back.

Zhao Qian was silent for a long time: "But you are going to get engaged to Xia Mingyue in two months, what will Madam do then?"

"It's just that engagement is not marriage. Shen Zhichu's blood type is too rare. I will find the same blood type as soon as possible, so that I don't have to be restrained by Xia Mingyue anymore."

Shen Zhichu must have surgery in the later stage, he needs Xia Mingyue's blood.

Knowing that he couldn't persuade Li Jingshen, Zhao Qian didn't say much, Li Jingshen raised his hand and looked at his watch: "It's been 5 minutes since I came out, I should go back, she has always been afraid of the hospital."

Zhao Qian looked at Li Jingshen's back, since when did that usually unruly back suddenly become cold and desolate?It's as if it's broken.

........

Shen Zhichu's quietness was a little abnormal, and he could not eat for 72 hours after the hysterectomy, and could only infuse nutrient solution.

The nutrient solution is milky white and viscous. Shen Zhichu has always been afraid of pain, so Li Jingshen asked the nurse to insert an indwelling needle for her. The nutrient solution flows slowly and is not so painful.

On October 10th, the third day after Shen Zhichu's operation, J City had gradually entered the cold. Shen Zhichu's body was afraid of the cold and could not bear the cold. He kept his left hand outside for infusion of nutrient solution. Green, the protruding blood vessels are very dazzling.

Li Jingshen asked the nurse to go to the supermarket to buy a warm water bag, charged it and put it in Shen Zhichu's hand to warm it up.

With all kinds of previous experiences, Li Jingshen didn't dare to touch Shen Zhichu too much, for fear of arousing her resentment and hurting himself.

Li Jingshen lived carefully in the ward, but Shen Zhichu acted like nothing had happened, watching TV in a daze, sometimes staring at the birds outside the window non-stop.

Li Jingshen suddenly remembered Shen Zhichu's words two days ago.

——"The bird's wings were finally broken by him."

At night, Shen Zhichu was often awakened by nightmares, gasping for breath, like a dying fish struggling on the shoal, Li Jingshen hugged her hard, his body was very warm but he couldn't warm her heart no matter what.

The cold liquid dripped into her neck, and he was crying for the dead baby, and crying for Shen Zhichu's loss of the right to be a mother.

Shen Zhichu ignored the indwelling needle on the back of his hand, raised his left hand and strangled the man's neck forcefully.

She is too weak, let alone strangle him to death, she can't even hurt him an iota.

The neck that pinched Li Jingshen was trembling all the time, not because of fear or pain, but because of the uncontrollable trembling of the crippled hands.

"Don't touch me, disgusting."

"Okay, I won't touch you, and don't move your left hand, it's still stuck with needles..."

The blood ran back a little, but it was fine, but the protruding blood vessel seemed to seep.

Li Jingshen let go of her tremblingly, and returned to sit on the chair beside the bed. He didn't even dare to look at her directly, let alone how to hug her in the best posture.

The two of them seemed doomed to tragedy, so even the intimacy of a hug hurt.

...........

Shen Zhichu closed his eyes again, his brain began to feel groggy, and sometimes he would confuse the time, and always felt that he was still in that unremarkable town. Although the rental house was not big, it was her home. The bed was small, but it was enough Warm, the food is not exquisite but filling enough to keep children from starving.

Shen Zhichu put his hand on his abdomen, imagining to touch it as usual, and then he woke up suddenly, his eyes were pitch black.

Her child had already been peeled out of her stomach, and even the "little house" where he lived was brought out.

It’s good if the uterus disappears with the baby, so that the baby won’t be cold in the sky......

Li Jingshen said that she is sick and cannot have children. She is indeed sick. She has been ill for a long time, and there is no medicine to cure it. The only way to escape is death.

She was clearly alive, but she didn't know where her soul had gone. Maybe she accompanied the dead child and burned it into a handful of ashes and put it in the small blue and white porcelain.