The group gods who retired to fish in Genshin Impact

Time flies so fast, damn, December is almost over, damn, I'm still confused.

I always feel like it's been less than a week since I posted the video last month, but when I look at the calendar, it's already the 26th or 27th, damn it, the month is almost over.

I really don't feel anything at all.

As for the fact that I changed to monthly updates, it has been quite some time. Theoretically, I expected that I would be able to adjust during this period of time and at least maintain a steady update frequency.

But actually, not only have I not adjusted myself during this period of time, but I feel even more irritated.

Before, because I had to write novels every day and mainly because of many other things, I lost contact with many friends.

Then, I was thinking about not writing novels during this period of time, and I had more free time to make props, so I wanted to reconnect with my old friends.

What is the result? Well, looking at the entire list, there is not a single person I can chat with.

Not to mention keeping in touch, even sending messages to each other is the kind that takes ages on the keyboard, typing the words "good morning" over and over again and then deleting them, and then finally taking more than ten minutes to send the message.

As for adjusting my state, forget it. Because I had a lot of free time, I wanted to resume my normal social life, but the more people I met, the more irritated I became, and the worse my state became.

It's not as good as when I was working in the subway before and stayed alone, or even stayed underground for several days without coming up.

I don’t understand why so many people can play together with a group of people and have so much fun in that lively atmosphere. Now when I see a crowded place, I run away.

At the comic convention, I would find a corner and either sleep or sit and watch the show.

A few kind teachers I know really want to communicate with me, but my attitude is that they just need to know me, there is no need to understand me.

If you have any questions, you can come to me, but you don’t need to come to me for daily chats.

First, I am not good at small talk, and second, I can no longer communicate normally with others. How can I put it now? My thinking has become abnormal, and I am no longer a normal person.

I can’t really say what my mental state is now. Anyway, it’s becoming increasingly difficult for me to communicate with normal people. I even don’t want to communicate with humans or any living creatures.

I have a lot to say about the chainsaws, knives, molds and all kinds of tools and weapons in my hands, but I don't want to say a word to people now.

The third is that I don’t like crowds. I always maintain my point of view that crowds are not for me. If I want crowds, I’ll look for other people.

If you like to have fun, go find whoever you like, don’t come find me.

If you like solitude as much as I do, then you'd better stay away from me. You like to be lively and I like to be alone, so we can't get along.

You like solitude, and I like solitude too, so let's just be happy on our own and don't try to turn one person's loneliness into two people's loneliness.

Then, I came into contact with more people during this period, and my mental state became worse and worse. I even had various adverse reactions in my daily life.

For example, the so-called electronic impotence, I am almost there now.

I want to update recently, but once I open the software, I don’t know what to write. I don’t want to play games to get back the feeling before. Basically, I don’t play any games now. Before, at least I could build houses in Minecraft, but now I don’t play Minecraft anymore.

After giving up all kinds of games, including pvp, pve, and other cultivation games, I don’t want to play Minecraft, which was originally a way to kill time, anymore. I also don’t want to play plot-related games, such as pushing maps and drawing cards, anymore.

I originally thought that since I couldn't play Genshin Impact, I would go and check out Collapse, Honkai Impact 3, and Zero. But Collapse, Honkai Impact 3, needless to say, was downloaded as soon as it was released.

I did download Zone Zero and then went online, but after I finished it, I don't know if it was some new beginner level or tutorial, it was a mess. After playing it for a while, I lost desire for it and stopped playing it.

In short, I don't have the slightest interest in electronic impotence. Don't even talk about electronic impotence, my life is impotent.

Now when I see a building I want to jump off, and when I see a car I want to crash into it.

My attachment to this world is now limited to a few unfinished things.

Then the few unfinished things made me lose hope of completing them.

I feel even worse.

Then I saw all the comments you guys made asking for more updates. Although I don't talk to the Broken Tomato fan group every day, I still go in and read it.

Let me put it this way, now I will update at most once a month, and given my current state, I don’t know when I can adjust back to normal.

I just forced myself to update the main text. I wrote a piece. To be honest, what I wrote is a piece of shit. I put it in front of you and you feel disgusted. I feel disgusted too.

This is all I can tell you now. Don’t worry that I will completely stop updating, but don’t expect me to update very stably in the next period of time.

I am now a useless person who has fallen into depravity and has nothing to do.

So don't expect me to be able to check and deal with things regularly. At most I'll send out one photo a month to let you know that I haven't run away and that I'm still alive.

As for the main text, I still say that I don’t want to write a bunch of shit, but I can’t adjust my own state right now, so let’s wait a little longer.