Northern Myanmar, the hell on earth I experienced

I was forced to eat a lot of dog food, and I was so envious of Ah Xin and Brother Xiang.

But when I think about it, it was all because Ah Xin was good at coaxing and deceiving. It was clearly our leftovers, but she insisted that it was specially made for Brother Xiang. Plus, she was good at acting like a spoiled child, so she always took control of Brother Xiang in every way.

I was so envious that I couldn't help but express it.

Then Ah Xin taught me and answered my questions in a serious manner.

"Sister Piao, you know that I was married before. In fact, I've been in several relationships before that. I'm quite experienced in controlling men. In fact, sometimes men are simpler than we think."

"simple?"

I had a huge question mark in my mind: Is she innocent? How is that possible? I have never felt this way before. Is it because I have not experienced enough men?

"Yes, it's very simple. When a man wakes up in the morning, all he thinks about is where to get some money or drink. When he sees a pretty woman, the bolder or lecherous ones think about how to get her. That's all he does every day.

In fact, a man is just a little boy who never grows up and needs to be coaxed, while a woman is just a willful little girl who needs to be spoiled. "

"is it?"

"Of course. Besides, there is no man who doesn't like a woman who can act like a spoiled child. The weaker you act, the more he will want to protect you, provided that he loves you. If he doesn't love you, he won't want to protect you even if you act like a bitch in front of him. Instead, he will think you are acting like a spoiled child, and the more he sees you, the more he hates you. If you act too badly, he will want to slap you."

"Sister Piao, I think Brother Hao really loves you. Look, he takes you with him wherever he goes. He almost ties you to his waist."

This metaphor...

"So you might as well just calm down and be smart like me, and stop putting yourself through so much hardship."

If someone else said this, I definitely wouldn't listen and would think that the other person was brainwashing me. But this person was Ah Xin, and Ah Xin didn't have any hostility towards me at all, and she really treated me as a sister.

I nodded.

Afterwards, Ah Xin boiled some hot water and said she wanted to wash the basin and clean the house. Although I was very tired, I was still very happy to help her.

After finishing the work, Ah Xin and I were sweating profusely.

"It's a pity that my period has come, otherwise I would have to go get some ice cream. Sister Piao, do you want some? If you want, I can get one for you."

I shook my head, and suddenly I realized that I hadn't had my period for a long time.

So I panicked instantly.

Seeing his expression change slightly, Ah Xin quickly asked:

"Sister Piao, what's wrong with you?"

I was a little lost and said:

"I don't think I've had my period for a long time."

"what?"

After hearing this, Ah Xin jumped up from her chair as if something big had happened.

"How long?"

I shook my head.

"do not know."

Ah Xin slapped herself on the head in anger.

"No, no, I don't dare to ask that. I mean, when was your last period?"

I thought about it and shook my head:

"It seems like he didn't come last month either."

"what?"

Then I thought about it carefully and realized that I haven’t had my period since the abortion.

When I told Ah Xin the news, Ah Xin looked at me again.

Then asked:

"Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

I shook my head?

"No."

"You don't feel anything?"

Ah Xin confirmed again.

I thought about it for a moment.

"I just feel very tired and sleepy every day. I can't get motivated to do anything. I often feel nauseous, but it's only in the morning. I also always feel hungry during this period."

After I finished speaking.

Ah Xin looked me over again.

Then he said something that I found hard to accept.

"Sister Piao, you are not pregnant!"

This sentence was like a loud slap in the face, making the face buzz.

I said to myself:

"No, it's impossible!"

I was thinking: I won't get into trouble again this time! This is mainly because of Brother Hao, who never takes safety measures. I don't want to have a baby yet. I think if the father of my future child is this devil Brother Hao, I would rather not give birth to the child. Moreover, I think that even if I return to China in the future, I will never find a partner to get married, let alone have children.

I just plan to live a simple life alone, and grow flowers and plants in my spare time.

"But your current symptoms are completely consistent!"

"Really? Actually, I'm not that sleepy. I used to like sleeping."

I said that on purpose.

But I know that the more I think about it, the more scared I am, which means I am already in trouble, because I am not confident in myself. And the more I think about it, the more panic I feel. I don't want this to be true. I don't want to get pregnant, because I am not prepared at all, even if one day in the future I really want to have a child.

I will never allow my children to be born or grow up in such an environment.

At this moment I felt a little suffocated. I never thought that I would get pregnant again, really didn't expect it, mainly because I didn't have this awareness.

But at this time I still had a lucky mentality.

"No, I can eat and sleep. I feel sleepy because I'm hungry last time Brother Hao locked me up in the villa. It must be the sequelae of that incident."

"Then why don't you have your period?"

"Maybe it's because of the aftereffects of the last process!"

Ah Xin was speechless.

"There are so many after-effects, and they all happen to you at the same time."

"But it's possible, isn't it?"

Ah Xin sighed, walked over to me, squatted down, took my hand and said to me.

"Sister Piao, don't be afraid, I'm an experienced person, it's okay."

I was a little overwhelmed by her comforting words.

"Is it really what I said?"

"It's almost impossible."

Even after hearing what Ah Xin said, I still didn't believe that I was pregnant. I thought it must be the sequelae of being tortured by Brother Hao before. It must be like this. How could I be pregnant again? Impossible.

"But, what if?"

I continued to defend myself feebly, and Ah Xin turned her head to the side and sighed.

"Sister Piao, wait for me, I'll be back soon."

"where are you going?"

"Sister Piao, just wait for me."

After Ah Xin left, I sat there alone, stupidly, and tears instantly fell from my eyes.

Am I really that miserable? No, definitely not.

But when I lowered my head and looked at my gradually bloated body, I suddenly lost confidence.

But I still tried to make excuses for myself, because deep down, I would rather die than see such a thing happen. Brother Hao is a swindler, and if I get pregnant with Brother Hao's child, the child will definitely be a little swindler. No, I can't, absolutely not.