After rebirth, my childhood friend became a clingy person

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Looking at these diaries, Jiang Yannan felt as if his heart was being cut by a knife. He covered his chest in pain, tears pouring out.

He hugged the diary tightly in his arms, tears welling up in his eyes.

"I'm sorry... I was wrong... Yue'er, please come back..." he murmured in a low voice.

The voice was full of helplessness and despair.

However, all he got in response was endless silence.

Jiang Yannan slowly put down the diary in his hand, his eyes were empty and confused. He seemed to have lost his soul, sitting at the table blankly.

He recalled those happy and warm moments in the past, which kept playing before his eyes like a movie.

They once had happy times, but unfortunately, those days seemed very short.

Now, he is left alone, suffering the pain of losing her.

He stood up suddenly, picked up the letters that had made him suspicious, and opened them with trembling hands...

The letter paper has turned yellow, but the words on it are still clearly visible.

"Sister, thank you for taking care of me and my sister all the time. We will study very hard and will not let you down. I hope you and Brother Yan Nan can live happily forever..."

His eyes slowly filled with bloodshot. He threw down one letter and opened another...

It was not until all the letters were presented to him that he realized that the person who had once made him jealous and distanced himself from her were actually the two children she sponsored.

The scarlet in his eyes gradually spread throughout his eyes and extended to the ends of his eyes.

Outside the window, night fell and the rain fell heavier, as if sensing the endless longing and regret in the man's heart.

The tears that had just stopped blurred his eyes again, and slowly dripped from the corners of his eyes onto the stationery on the table, blurring the old handwriting.

His two hands were tightly gripping the edge of the table. The excessive force caused veins on the back of his hands to bulge, and it seemed as if his body would explode at any moment.

It turns out, it turns out that the person she has always liked is just herself...

He didn't understand why two people who obviously loved each other had come to this point.

Everything was his fault. He thought she had never liked him, that this was a one-way journey, that he had forced her to stay by his side, and that was why she was so unhappy. He thought his love had never been responded to...

The person who once made him sleepless day and night and made him jealous to the point of madness, actually did not exist at all and was just his own imagination.

It was because of my own cleverness and self-righteousness that I pushed her further and further away from me.

He was afraid of seeing her increasingly cold eyes, afraid of hearing answers from her that he didn't want to hear, and afraid that she would want to leave him, so he refused to communicate with her and went home less and less often.

He thought, it would be fine to live like this for the rest of his life, at least she would always stay by his side. Even if she had someone else in her heart, as long as she didn't say it, he would pretend not to know.

He thought that all this was his compromise...

He looked around the bedroom that once made him feel warm. Every late night when their relationship became increasingly cold, he would quietly come in and sleep in her arms. Every early morning, he would quietly leave.

It seemed like this had become their way of getting along.

How warm it was before, how cold it is now.

Jiang Yannan came to the wine cabinet in a daze. At this moment, he just wanted to use alcohol to numb his nerves.

He took out a bottle of strong liquor and poured it down his throat. The acrid liquid burned his esophagus, but it could not cover up the pain in his heart.

Jiang Yannan smiled bitterly. He remembered that Yue'er also had a gentle smile, and that they had a good time together. But that time seemed very far away from them...

A bottle of wine quickly bottomed out.

He fell to the ground and the bottle rolled to the side. The sound of breaking glass was particularly harsh in the silent room.

Tears blurred his vision again. He stretched out his trembling hands, grasped his hair tightly, and buried his head in his knees.

"Yue'er, I'm sorry, it's my fault... it's my fault... everything is my fault..." The man's voice was filled with pain and despair.

He slowly curled up his body, hugged himself tightly, curled himself into a ball, and lay quietly on the floor, as if only this cold touch could make him feel that he was still alive...

……

Jiang Yannan had a very long dream.

He dreamed that he was seventeen years old again...

He and Yue'er are still a close pair of siblings. Although life is hard, they rely on each other without any estrangement, indifference, or drifting apart.

Yue'er's face still had that warm and innocent smile as always.

He cried with joy. It was still not too late. In this life, he would never let Yue'er suffer again, nor would he waste their time because of misunderstandings.

He would tell Yue Er that he had liked her since a very early time. Maybe it was the day when his adoptive father brought him home and they met for the first time, or maybe it was the moment when she shared all her good things with him, or maybe...

He couldn't tell exactly when he fell in love with her, but he knew that he had regarded her as his future wife and the person who would accompany him for the rest of his life from a very early time.

In this life, he would tell her early on that he loved her, that she was the only one in his heart, and no one else could occupy a place in her.

To him, she is the only one in the world who can never be replaced. No matter how time passes or how the years change, his love for her remains steadfast and has never wavered.

Whether it is this life, the next life, or the life after that, as long as she is willing, he will be by her side...