After the villain was defeated, she still had power in the government

Xiaoqing's eyes were a little tearful, and her voice trembled slightly, "But I can't accept her either.

She is the enemy's child.

Half of the blood in his body is the other party's dirty blood.

I thought, maybe I should die with her, then I wouldn't be so conflicted and entangled.

So I held her in my arms and went to the lotus pond outside the village.

But I didn’t expect that as soon as I entered the water, I was stopped by the people who just returned.”

Later, the people in the village knew that she was emotionally unstable and showed signs of committing suicide, so every time she went out, someone would stay behind to watch over her to prevent her from committing suicide again.

She was in a daze all day long, and apart from the necessary feeding and care, she didn't want to get close to the child at all.

During this period, she did struggle and thought about being a good mother.

Tell her rationally that she should treat the children well and not take her anger out on others.

But emotionally, she resisted from the bottom of her heart whenever she thought that she was Fu Ping'an's child.

She couldn't forgive Fu Ping'an, couldn't reconcile with the past, and couldn't reconcile with herself.

As a result, she couldn't face the child.

The only thing she could do for the child was to hide the child's gender.

Do your best to prevent the child from following your old path, and let the child stay in the village as a man.

Live freely, without constraints, happily and comfortably.

Be an independent person who can take charge of his own life.

Instead of being bound by rules and regulations just because she is a woman, being kept in captivity in a village for her whole life, or even becoming the object of others' covetousness one day in the future because of her appearance.

"I never looked forward to her coming, nor could I say without reservation that I loved her."

Xiao Qing's eyelashes moved slightly, tears slid down her cheeks, and she choked up and said, "Perhaps, she and I really don't have the fate of being mother...son.

She knew that I didn't like her, so since she learned to walk, she never came near me. She ran out at dawn every day, saying that she was going to find her friends to play.

But how could she, a child who could barely walk steadily and speak complete sentences, find any playmates?

More than once I found her hiding under the banyan tree outside the manor, in a daze, sitting there from day till night. "

She had also heard people in the village ask the child if she resented her for never hugging her, praising her, or even smiling at her, as a mother. Would she blame her for not fulfilling her responsibilities as a mother?

After all, other children are spoiled by their parents, but she has nothing.

What was the child's answer at that time?

The child just smiled, pretended not to understand, and didn't say anything.

Until others felt bored and walked away, she sighed and whispered, why hate? She was born with original sin. In her mother's heart, she and her father, whom she had never met, were both perpetrators. Isn't it normal for victims to hate perpetrators and resist perpetrators?

Why should we force the perpetrators who have nowhere to seek justice to accept and forgive the perpetrators?

This is not how the Virgin Mary behaves.

She said that she had done her best by not abandoning her or strangling her. Not to mention that she had never lacked food and clothing, which was already very good.

She said that we are all ordinary people. Even if there is no such thing as perpetrators and victims, as ordinary people, we all have our own preferences and the struggle between reason and emotion. We cannot use the standards of saints to demand others.

She also said that she could understand her and she didn't blame her...