I almost touched the moon

In October in Munich, the temperature drops sharply, ushering in early winter.

Wen Song stood at the door of the planetarium laboratory, wrapped his windbreaker tightly around him, lit a cigarette in the cold wind, and shivered from the cold.

"The temperature has dropped. Iseylia, you are wearing too little." Audrey, a colleague, said with concern.

Wen Song thanked her for her concern, finished his cigarette, and said to the people around him, "Go back quickly. New data has been sent over from Chile. We will be busy again."

After returning to Munich, Wen Song started to work on practical research projects.

From Monday to Friday, she works from 10am to 5pm every day, participating in theoretical modeling, analyzing and calculating observation data, and writing observation reports. Although she is still busy, at least she is free from the pressure of schoolwork and exams. Unlike last year, she forced herself to study until the early morning every day because she was worried that she would not pass the exam paper and would not get a high score.

She still doesn't like socializing. Apart from necessary work communication, she doesn't talk much with colleagues and classmates every day. Although they often have lunch together, they only talk about work. After get off work on Fridays, colleagues and mentors often invite her to drink parties, but she always refuses because she is allergic to alcohol.

On Friday evenings, she likes to drive for more than ten minutes to Turbine Fr?ttmaninger Mullberg, sit on the top of the mountain and look out at the Alps at sunset. Behind the high-rise buildings are vast stretches of towering snow-capped mountains, which emit golden light under the sunset glow. In autumn, Munich is covered with golden fallen leaves. This slightly noisy industrial city becomes quiet and peaceful at this moment.

She seemed to be born to live alone and keep to herself. It had been nearly a month since she returned to Munich, and she rarely contacted Cheng Che on her own initiative. Every time, he would call her on time after finishing training at 10 o'clock in the evening.

Cheng Che had also complained to her that he was the one who contacted her every time, and Wen Song almost never took the initiative to send him WeChat messages or call him.

Whenever this happened, she would smile apologetically and say, "I'm sorry, I'm usually too busy and often forget to call you, but you will call me, right? It's the same."

"Songsong, are you really that busy?" Cheng Che once asked her.

Yes, is she really that busy? After getting off work at 5pm, she actually has nothing to do. She would go for a walk in the park alone, sit on the balcony and smoke and daydream, revise her papers, and sometimes stay in the office to quietly appreciate the cosmic photos sent back by the Atacama Desert Observatory in Chile.

However, she really seemed to have never thought of calling Cheng Che and asking him what he was doing.

"Ah Che..." She was a little at a loss. She knew that her behavior was not good, but she didn't know what to say. She could only find an excuse and say, "I'm a little tired. I'm going to rest."

"You go ahead." Cheng Che's voice was very calm, and no emotion could be heard. "Have a good rest."

After hanging up the phone, she received a WeChat message from Xia Ninghe, asking for help: [Songsong, help me. During my internship at ESA, I still feel like I can’t keep up. The people here are too strong. I feel like a loser. 】

[Don't worry, your professional ability is not inferior to anyone. The only weakness is language. But if you communicate more and don't use a translator for content you don't understand, look for relevant English explanations, you will improve quickly. ]

[Wuwuwu baby, help me. I just wrote a design analysis report on the Mercury probe, but I don't think it's well written. Can you help me take a look? ]

[Okay, send it to me. ]

[Wuwuwuwu thank you baby, baby you are my sun goddess, baby I can't live without you. ]

After reading Xia Ninghe's report, Wen Song sent her a WeChat message to comfort her: "I've read it and there are no major problems. At least the key data and theoretical formulas are correct. But some of your wording, grammar, and formatting are problematic. I've revised them for you using the revision mode. Take a look."

Xia Ninghe called her immediately and said with emotion: "Baby, I'm lucky to have you, otherwise I would definitely be dissed by the tutor again if I submitted it. It doesn't matter if I embarrass myself, but I can't embarrass our LMU and Chinese students."

"It's okay. I'll send you a previous design report of mine. You can refer to the format."

"Okay, baby, I will study hard." Xia Ninghe said, and then asked with concern, "Baby, how are you doing recently? Are you busy with your work at ESO?"

"It's pretty good. The work is not busy and I feel quite free." Wen Song said.

"That's good. You should eat well. Don't just eat bagels and alkaline water bags every day." Xia Ninghe advised, "Is your boyfriend with you recently?"

"No, he's in training." Wen Song suddenly thought of Cheng Che's occasional disappointment and asked Xia Ninghe, "Ning Ning, do you and your boyfriend call each other every day?"

"Of course." Xia Ninghe said very naturally, "Isn't this normal? We not only make phone calls, but also video chat."

"Did you call him first?"

"Sometimes I call him first, and sometimes he calls me. But because of the time difference, we can often only chat when I am taking a lunch break, or when I just get off work and he is before going to bed."

"Don't you find it annoying?" Wen Song asked, "Do you two have so much to talk about every day?"

"Baby, why are you so annoying?" Xia Ninghe frowned helplessly, "We're not talking about anything grand, just chatting casually, like what we did today, what we ate, what we're going to do tomorrow, that's all. Then share some interesting things we saw, send some photos, etc. Isn't this normal?"

"Is it normal?" Wen Song asked back, "It feels a bit strange. I have never felt this way before."

"Baby, has something happened between you and Cheng Che?" Xia Ninghe asked with concern.

Wen Song then repeated what Cheng Che asked her to Xia Ninghe, and then said: "I'm not that busy, I still have a lot of free time. But I just can't remember to call him, and I rarely miss him and hope he will accompany me. I think I'm more comfortable alone than when I'm with him."

"What a scumbag, what a scumbag." Xia Ninghe couldn't help but shake her head and said, "If I were your little puppy, I would really cry to death! He treats you so well, why do you feel uncomfortable?"

"I just feel like I'm not used to it." Wen Song said softly, "I've been alone for so many years, and suddenly there's someone in my life, so I'm not used to it."

"You'll get used to it slowly." Xia Ninghe felt that Miss Wen Song had been living a good life for too long and had to make things difficult for herself. "Baby, where can you find such a good boyfriend? He's handsome, loyal, treats you well, and can cook. If he were my boyfriend, I'd laugh out loud in my dreams."

"But, honestly, will it have any impact on my life without him?" Wen Song asked back, "No."

"Yes, you will be heartbroken." Xia Ninghe hit the nail on the head, "You have long been accustomed to his existence. You feel more comfortable being alone now because Cheng Che sticks to you every day. If he doesn't stick to you one day, you will regret it."

"Will it?" Wen Song smiled twice, "I have never regretted anything."

"Really?" Xia Ninghe asked, "You were so crazy about Skyline before, don't you regret it?"

"Don't mention him!" Wen Song stopped him immediately, "If you insist on saying you regret it, it seems like you don't regret it."

"I really can't stand you, you're such a scumbag!" Xia Ninghe advised, "Songsong, a good relationship can't be one where only one person makes the effort, nor can it be one person always accommodating the other. If you really love him, you have to change for him."

"But I don't want to change..." Wen Song said silently, "I have always been like this, why should I change myself because of love?"

"Because you love him, and Cheng Che is also changing for you, right?" Xia Ninghe said, "You have actually changed, you just didn't realize it. Baby, I know that even if you don't fall in love or get married for the rest of your life, you will live a very good and happy life. But now that you have met someone you like, don't miss him because of selfishness, okay?"

"Then tell me, how should I change it?" Wen Song asked, "I don't know either. You know, I was talking to that guy before. After he and I added each other as friends on KakaoTalk, we never said more than 10 sentences to each other."

"Oh, it's so annoying." Xia Ninghe complained in a doting manner, "In addition to studying, you should also pay some attention to your relationship! Just ask him, has he had dinner? Is he tired from training today? Does he miss me? Isn't this very simple!"

"Got it." Wen Song said with a smile, "Thank you, Military Advisor. Then I won't chat with you anymore. I'll call Cheng Che."

"Go now, you stinky woman who values ​​women over friendship."