Quickly Transmigrate to Change the World

When Xu Xiran was self-harming, she was extremely calm. She would find a place where she would not be discovered and would not be disturbed by anyone.

It seems that only the blood flowing out and the pain can make me feel that I am still alive.

There are so many people on the list, but when I want to talk to someone, there is no one suitable.

Jiang Yunwu once fell into depravity due to his mood and lived a confused life.

This is obviously not what I want, but I have no motivation to change.

I always felt that living was a torture.

Unable to sleep at night, Jiang Yunwu would often sit in front of the window and look at the darkness and the bright moon outside.

He stretched out his hand to touch something, but he touched nothing.

The moon has the stars as its companions, but it has nothing of its own.

The shadow cast behind the boy was lonely and cold, just like the area around him, which was always deserted.

No one had the chance to step into the defensive line that the young man had set up to the outside world.

Although he longed for it, Jiang Yunwu also hoped deep down to find a confidant to warm each other up.

He is just a child who longs to be loved.

……

Xu Xiran watched as several of her roommates moved out and she had to stay in this dormitory for another year.

She listened to the high-sounding words of the colonel on the stage, smiled sarcastically, and tears flowed uncontrollably.

Xu Xiran didn't care about other people's contemptuous or pitiful looks, and she didn't want to cry, but she just couldn't hold back her tears.

When her dormitory in her second year of high school was converted to military training, she wanted to move out, but her family disagreed and she couldn’t find a house to rent.

In order to maintain her academic performance, she reduced her sleep time, which made her even more depressed.

The girl who yearns for freedom is controlled, like a bird in a cage.

She tried self-harm and found there was no more room to cut on her left upper arm, so she started to move downwards and was finally discovered.

Her mother took her to see a psychologist, who provided her with psychological counseling and prescribed her medication.

But it's no use.

Now I am trapped in the abyss, and death is the only relief.

Seeing a psychologist is also very expensive, costing hundreds or even thousands of dollars each time. The sisters often use this excuse to talk about Xu Xiran.

"Mom spent so much money on you, you can't die, you have to make money to repay her."

Xu Xiran actually didn't feel anything about these things anymore, but her remaining rationality told her that she couldn't commit suicide.

The girl's brown eyes had long since lost their luster.

While I was taking a shower, I started bleeding from the nose.

The girl, who was used to it, didn't feel the slightest bit of fear. She just watched the blood in the little red circle slowly spread out, and was stunned for a while.

After Xu Xiran simply treated the wound to stop the bleeding, she continued to take a bath.

I didn't take it seriously and didn't tell my family about it.

When she found out that she had brain cancer, she was extremely happy and excited because she had an excuse to leave this world.

How could you not be happy?

I can't save myself, and you expect me to save others. How is that possible?

I even fell into a deeper abyss and sank deeper and deeper into the swamp because I wanted to save others.

I don't want anyone to rescue me.

……

Xu Xiran took the bus alone, bus number 339, which took more than half an hour to arrive.

I didn’t know anyone in the car, and the girl was sitting next to the window.

She stared blankly at the rapidly passing scenery, people and vehicles outside the window, her eyes dull, not knowing what she was thinking.

I am actually very sensitive and I easily have wild thoughts. My family members who don’t care about me won’t know this, but a casual word from them can make my emotions, which have been stabilized with great difficulty, collapse.

I don't want to do that, but I can't control it. I feel so uncomfortable, my heart hurts, and my whole body feels uncomfortable.

When I was a child, I was very lively and talkative and I loved chatting with others.

But later, whenever someone wanted to chat with me, I felt annoyed and didn’t want to talk.

In families with many children and average family conditions, most children lack love.

……

Xu Xiran had a beautiful dream before she died.

When Xiao Yu came to the small world for the first time, she was sent to a hospital by the fortune plate given by the God of Fate.

Very close, it detected a strong sense of pessimism and depression in the person, and the fortune plate also indicated the same position.

When it entered the ward, it saw a bald girl sitting in the room on a chair.

Looking through the window, he stared at the sky with dull eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.

She was filled with the dead, lifeless emotion of the desert.

When Xiaoyu saw this scene, she felt inexplicably sad for some reason.

It sensed the girl's emotions and painful memories, so it used its ability to give the girl a beautiful dream.

Give Xu Xiran’s tragic life a good ending.

The dream ended. After falling asleep, Xu Xiran felt happy because she had a beautiful dream. The corners of her mouth slightly raised and her breathing gradually became lighter.

When the family came in, they found that Xiran had left this world she hated.

Xu Xiran, who is in her third year of high school, stayed up late because she was in a bad mood, often went without eating, and was often depressed. She took a month off from school, but still insisted on going to school.

Due to the heavy pressure from studying and the occasional headaches she had suffered from before, she did not go to the hospital for a check-up.

During a physical examination, late-stage brain cancer was detected.

Xu Xiran thought that maybe God felt sorry for her and didn't want her to continue like this.

My family asked me whether I wanted treatment.

"Forget it, at most I'll die a little later."

The girl smiled and said, "It doesn't matter. This is a relief for me."

There was no smile in her eyes, and she didn't know when it started.

When the parents heard that their youngest daughter had cancer, they immediately dropped their jobs and rushed back.

Seeing her mother's red and swollen eyes, Xu Xiran felt a little sorry for her, but she really wanted to be free.

This time, finally, I have a reasonable excuse.

This time, it’s not because of the New Year reunion.

"I'm sorry, I'm too cowardly and don't want to stay in this world anymore.

Grandma, your hair has turned grey, you must remember to dye it."

The gray-haired old lady shed tears sadly, and even forgot that she usually dyed her hair black as soon as it turned gray. She choked up and said, "Danran, my hair is so good to be dyed."

The elder sister no longer had her usual fussy attitude, her eyes were red, and she said, "Sister."

Xu Xiran seemed to have anticipated this and had gradually begun to reduce contact with her family.

Time passes slowly, and no one will remember people with whom they have not been together for a long time and with whom they have not had deep feelings.

Everyone has their own life.

After three or five years, will they still remember me? Everyone will slowly forget me.

He died of illness and the funeral was simple.

At first, everyone will be sad because a family member is suddenly missing.

Later, they gradually forgot about this relative who passed away young.

People's memories and emotions are limited, new things are constantly emerging, and some old things will always be replaced.

Only when the emotion disappeared did Xiao Yu leave the room, being led by the transport disk.

It went to another ward in the hospital and gave a young man a sweet dream.

Jiang Yunwu, a senior high school student, often suffers from insomnia and takes sleeping pills.

He didn't pay attention to his physical health and fainted at school. He was sent to the hospital, where he was diagnosed with organ failure and didn't have much time left.