The world is taken over by crazy and sick people

I don’t know how many years it has been since I returned to Wangchuan.

The year I came back, those will-o'-the-wisp chattered a lot to me.

"Xiaofeng, why are you coming home just now?"

"Xiao Feng, is the human world fun?"

……

In the past, these little guys were very naughty, they would tease, play tricks on people, and even hurt people. I’m not that kind of person, so I never talked to them. But now, these little guys are talking with some humanity, and they look lively and friendly. I don’t know if it’s an illusion because I’ve been away for too long.

In these 45 years, everything has changed.

I smiled wryly.

It's more than just small things that have changed.

When I first came to Wangchuan, I don’t know how many thousands of years ago. I vaguely remember that I seemed to be the heir of a lost country in ancient times. My mother had a difficult labor when she gave birth to me, and the doctor declared that she could not have another child. She refused to admit defeat and bribed everyone to say that I was a boy. I have been the heir of the country for 18 years. She often told me in private that she had to fight for her father’s satisfaction and secure the right to inherit the country. I felt sorry for her.

I also want to help her.

My teacher is a real great man who impressed me. He had ups and downs in his life. When he was my teacher, he had his legs chopped off by political enemies. He really set an example and taught me the sincere truth of being a man and a monarch to benefit the country. I learned very contradictory things. According to that truth, I should not hide my identity. So I worked hard. By the time I was 14, I had made the country rich and the people strong due to continuous actions. My country's reputation in China and the United States was spreading day by day. My teacher should have contributed half of it. I was modest and low-key. My teacher was quite satisfied with me, but he encouraged me more deeply. He taught me not only to do practical things, but also to set a good example for the country and the people as successors, and not to be corrupted.

I grew up gradually, and I had talent, fame, and my own ideas. After a long time of thinking, I discussed with my mother, why must I be a man? I am the only daughter of my father, why can't I be a legitimate daughter?

My mother was furious and said I was delusional. That night, she tore my teacher into pieces and accused him of corrupting the successor to the country. I argued with her and my mother wanted to kill my teacher's entire family.

I knelt down and begged, not understanding why she punished me like this. I asked her, but she just looked at me coldly and condescendingly. My wife dragged her children and cried. I compromised and kowtowed to my mother to admit my mistake.

The death of the teacher became a deep thorn between me and my mother. She was scheming and loved power. I became more and more unfamiliar with her and often went to take care of the teacher's wife. The teacher's wife refused to let me in, and only told me through the crack of the door that I must inherit the teacher's ambition, so that the teacher's death would not be in vain. I remember it deeply.

On one side of the scale, I was ambitious in choosing my teacher, and my junior high school became more and more famous, which also annoyed my mother even more.

When I was 17, my mother suddenly became pregnant. I was surprised, but also happy for her, so I often went to take care of her. She praised me and told me her heartfelt words, and we reconciled.

When she was pregnant, I suddenly fell seriously ill and looked exhausted. She gave birth to a baby boy, but I died when he was one month old.

The Black Impermanence Fan Xiaoguo seduced me. The judge found that my life span had not yet ended and that I was wrongly seduced. Fan Xiaoguo was guilty of dereliction of duty and sent me back to the world. Who would have thought that my mother would have asked someone to secretly burn my body. She held her child and looked at me coldly as I was about to be burned black. "You gave birth to me and caused me so much trouble. You are still pretending to be so hypocritical. It is better to give me a new one than to expect you to be happy. Go well... your mother has done you no wrong."

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I am devastated.

Kill me personally...

I can't be resurrected either.

Perhaps he had accumulated some virtues in his life, but due to some strange mistake, Fan Xiaoguo had to suffer the consequences of the thunderbolt. He told me that he had just been promoted to the Soul-Catching Heavenly King, and his Taoism was not stable. He might be torn to pieces by the thunderbolt, so he asked me if I could spare him. Of course I said yes, it was wrong to detain him, if it wasn't wrong, how could I know that the family affection in his mind was all fake, so why harm him.

Later, I stayed in the underworld and lived in seclusion in Wangchuan. Fan Xiaoguo owed me a big favor and said he would repay it no matter what.

Thousands of years have passed. I have deliberately forgotten my own name and have become very averse to interacting with others because I have lost the ability to distinguish evil and am filled with fear.

I became the wind of the Forgotten River, without any social interactions or worries. I felt very comfortable, but my heart was always empty.

Until one day, the little girl who was picking up bones by the Forgetful River carefully held a red spider lily and handed it to me with a smile, saying some silly words like "brother, sister, good person, teacher, I am a fairy", and my heart was filled with joy. For the first time in thousands of years, I felt so sweet and was praised by a child.

She used to be pretty, small, and cute, but during those days when we were happily teaching her, she was covered in bruises and I felt sorry for her and ashamed.

She gave me 9 days of companionship and endless happiness that filled my loneliness, but I was so cold and didn't show up to save her when she was struggling in the River of Oblivion, so I wanted to do my best to fulfill her wish.

She wants to go home, that's not a big problem. I can find Fan Xiaoguo.

I agreed right away. She was so excited and told me many good things about the world. She said she had a little friend who was a very nice person. She said the best thing in the store was ice cream and the most fun thing now was playing with hidden pearls... There was a light in her eyes and the world seemed to be as good as it could be.

My heart suddenly began to stir, thinking that the world had changed a lot after a lot of changes, and I wanted to go.

I would tell her some of the vague and sad past that I still remember when I had free time, and I wanted to hear what her naive mind thought about it.

She is really young and simple, and she can heal me. She smiles brightly and says heartlessly, it doesn’t matter, brother is a god, and everyone in the world must like you.

My heart trembled. The fame, wealth and love in my previous life were all fake. Is there any truth in this life? I asked her if it was true. What if it wasn't?

She said how could it be?! It’s not that I like you!

I remember her innocent and careless words in childhood. In fact, she also said, "I, Xiao Wu, must like you too, I promise!" But I just laughed and forgot about the child I had never met.

She didn't know it then, but she loved Wang Liwu very much. As long as Wang Liwu was in the world, she thought the mountains and rivers were beautiful, the sun and the moon were beautiful, and even the little flowers and ants on the road were all perfect.

I often cried secretly when I came to the human world. My parents and blood relatives were all cruel and cold in a different mold. Fortunately, she loved me wholeheartedly and said good things about me after we met at the age of 17. Unfortunately, I was blinded and trapped in the obsession of my previous life. The balance leaned towards blood relatives. I didn't have time to cherish her, and she was recognized by Wang Liwu and ran away.

I can only say that I didn't seize the opportunity to be loved.

In order to make up for what he owed me, Fan Xiaoguo was particularly careful and secretly put a mole between her fingers before reincarnation, so that she would remember that she had someone she loved very much. And before reincarnation, it was me who held her hand, so she would think that was me.

In the final analysis, it was me who stole the love that should have belonged to Wang Liwu, and ruined the short-lived happiness of their marriage. I peeped at them and was envious.

Then I thought, shouldn't I really be the one who loves me most? Did Fan Xiaoguo's little trick work? But she... also promised that no one would really love me, and she would like me.

Perhaps, who in this world truly loves whom, who is truly unloved, and who can really do something extreme for whom, no matter how hard the gods and ghosts try to arrange it, Tongtian is probably powerless to change it.

But at least I was loved passionately.

I walked through the Lycoris radiata, watching the flowers bloom and the leaves fall, and the leaves fall and the peanuts bloom.

The flowers and leaves cannot be seen from morning to night, just like the Yellow Springs and the Forgetful River which have always been accessible.