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[Host, why do you think this? There is nothing wrong with your behavior.] The system comforted.

"Because..." Lin Jin knew that there was nothing wrong with her actions, whether it was saving people or something else, "We are friends."

Feelings can never be explained by reason, so you can't take your friends' emotions for granted.

When it comes to friends, sometimes there is no need to be reasonable.

"Isn't there a saying that you can't choose your blood relatives, but your friends are the family you choose yourself?" Lin Jin said with a very gentle smile on her face, "They are my family."

"Maybe my behavior of running back a few days ago was really too much for them. I didn't think about the consequences and their possible worry about me. It's normal for them to be angry." Lin Jin felt that if Liu Zhengqing was really unhappy these days because of herself, it was only this one thing.

[So that's how it is.] The system didn't expect Lin Jin to think this way. It was a little worried that she would be upset and exhausted because of this matter, but now it is relieved. [The host is right.]

"I'll talk to him later. He must be a little tired after a whole day's journey. Let him have a good rest first." After saying that, Lin Jin went into her own room and took out the two bottles of medicine that Tu Huaining had given her. "It's so inconvenient to carry these two bottles of medicine that Huaining gave me."

But if you don’t carry it with you, you won’t be able to use it if you need it urgently.

[Perhaps she originally wanted you, the host, to keep it for future use.]

"But this bottle of pills that can be used to save my life is fine, but this bottle of poison..." Lin Jin smiled helplessly, "If it's not a legitimate defense that really threatens my life, I will never use it in my life."

[Hasn't the host known her unique way of caring for others for a long time?] The system doesn't know what to say about her way, [The best way to protect your companions is to eliminate the enemy.]

I understand but do not approve of this behavior.

"That's why I've always wanted to change her. Even if we know that the other person might want to kill us, we can't use this as a reason to kill before the other person takes action." If preventive killing is legal, then there will be one more excuse for people to kill innocent people.

"So, system, do you think I want too much? I know very well that Huaining wants to protect me and does this because she doesn't want me to get hurt, but I still want to change her. I know very well that she does this for me, but I still can't allow her to do this." Lin Jin smiled bitterly. She was like this not only to Tu Huaining, but also to Liu Zhengqing.

[There must be people in this world who are not driven by emotions and who insist on justice, so that this world will not become dark. How can this be greed? This can only show that you, the host, have normal human emotions and the ability to distinguish right from wrong. ]

[If emotions can tip the scales in a person's heart, then right and wrong are the bottom line that cannot be touched. ]

Lin Jin picked up one of the porcelain bottles on the table and handed it to the system: "Help me destroy this medicine."

The system froze for a moment, and once again confirmed with Lin Jin: [Host, are you sure you want to destroy it? ]

"I'm sure." Lin Jin was very sure. She now knew exactly what she wanted. "This is useless. I believe it."

[Okay.] The system had no choice but to put the bottle of poison into the destruction processing section, [Destroying it.]

Lin Jin always felt that she wanted too many things, because as the beneficiary of everything, she was still not satisfied. Although she had clearly gained benefits from the actions of these people, she still criticized the actions of others.

She felt ashamed, so even when she took the initiative to make requests to Liu Zhengqing and others, hoping that they would make changes, she felt guilty every time she opened her mouth because of the shame.

"I want to go talk to him now, but let's wait until dinner time. It would be bad if he is resting." After Lin Jin figured it out, she felt a lot more relieved. No matter why Liu Zhengqing had been acting so strange these days, she had to find out today.

Lin Jin didn't call Liu Zhengqing until after dinner: "Brother, can we talk?"

"A Jin?" Liu Zhengqing was a little surprised that Lin Jin would once again take the initiative to ask to chat with him. He thought about it and nodded, "It just so happens that I have actually been thinking about a lot of things these days."

Lin Jin smiled: "Have you figured it out?"

"Yeah." Liu Zhengqing closed the door and turned to look at Lin Jin. "Ah Jin, maybe I didn't really think of you as my sister, otherwise I should have stopped you. Nothing is more important than your life."

Lin Jin scratched his head: "So this is why you've been unhappy these days. Are you blaming yourself for not protecting me?"

She saw Liu Zhengqing nod and didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "I thought it was something else that made me worry for so long."

"I'm not doing a good job as a brother." Liu Zhengqing clenched his hands, "If it were in the past, I would never have allowed you to do this."

Just when the emotions of self-blame and guilt were about to overwhelm Liu Zhengqing and make him breathless, Lin Jin finally spoke: "No."

"You know you can't stop me." Lin Jin remembered Liu Zhengqing's expression when he asked her again and again whether she really wanted to go back. The worry in his eyes was not fake. It was she who did not let Liu Zhengqing go in on her behalf. How could she blame Liu Zhengqing for this?

Liu Zhengqing shook his head: "No, what if you died in there? There are so many accidents in this world, because we can calculate the time and place, but we can't calculate the accidents."

"So it's my fault." Lin Jin smiled embarrassedly, with apology in his eyes, "You have learned to think from my perspective, and you understand my feelings. But when I ran back, I didn't think that you would be worried. I didn't take your feelings to heart, and even felt that such feelings were unnecessary."

So sometimes she is the one who is truly cold-blooded.

She thought she cared about these people enough, but when certain things happened, her behavior was really cold and hurtful to those who cared about her.

Liu Zhengqing was not convinced by her words: "Huai Ning is right. I could have knocked you out and stopped you from doing such a dangerous thing, but I didn't. I didn't let you run back. You may be sad for a while when you wake up, but compared to the possibility of losing your life, what's the big deal?"

Lin Jin thought about it again and again, and finally asked the question in his heart: "That day Huaining asked me why I wanted to go back to save Lin Lin. Could it be that I forgot everything Lin Lin had done before? I actually don't know why I wanted to go back to save her. What about you, brother? You know I went back for Lin Lin, why didn't you stop me?"

"Brother, why are you willing to let me go back to save her?" The people who are more unwilling to forgive Lin Lin than her should be Liu Zhengqing and others.

Liu Zhengqing said in a deep voice: "Does it matter who we save? No matter who we save, it's..."

"It's important, because brother doesn't think there's anything wrong with me going back to save Lin Lin. Doesn't this mean that I have changed you?" If it were the Liu Zhengqing of the past, she would never allow her to take risks for someone she had an grudge against.

Liu Zhengqing did not refute. If it was before, he would definitely not allow it, so Lin Jin did change him: "Then why did you go back to save Lin Lin, Jin?"

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