I am cannon fodder, but I can hug thighs

Lin Jin smiled bitterly. Logically speaking, she should be happy to see Lin Lin wanting to commit suicide, but when she really saw him like this, she was not happy at all. She felt that this kind of behavior was really heartbreaking.

"Because I can't just watch her die when there is a way to save her. She really deserves to die, but no one deserves to die. Her death should be determined by the laws of Daxia. She should be held accountable for what she has done instead of ending her life so rashly." Lin Jin covered her face. When she figured it out, she felt so saintly that she wanted to beat herself up.

Liu Zhengqing thought of many reasons, but he didn't think of this one: "Even if she killed Song Er?"

"Yes, even if she indirectly killed Sister Shi Xia, I can't forgive her, but I hope it is the laws of Da Xia that punish her." Lin Jin took a deep breath. Lin Lin was indeed wrong, but it should be Lin Lin who was responsible for his wrong deeds, instead of her changing herself and becoming an executioner because of Lin Lin's mistakes.

"I often wonder if I have gone too far in trying to change you. I have not experienced what you have experienced, but I asked you to let go of hatred like me. But now I understand, because people cannot punish themselves with the mistakes of others."

"If you become a murderer just because the other person killed your family, that's the scariest thing. Not only did the other person kill the people you care about, but they also successfully planted the seeds of hatred in you, making you as hateful as the other person, with your hands stained with blood like the other person. Only then can the other person be considered truly successful."

Not only did I lose important people, I also lost my original self.

Lin Jin didn't know what Liu Zhengqing would think of her words. She didn't dare to look him in the eye. "If she must die, she has to pay the price for what she did before. She will be judged by someone who can judge her. Because she has killed people, it is not unjust for her to die. But outside the laws of Daxia, she is still a person. Before the result of her trial comes out, she has the right to live."

"But, my words may be a betrayal to you and Huaining. I'm sorry, brother, I can't bear to see others give up their lives in front of me. Even if you blame me, I will still make the same choice."

She saved people not because of who they were, but simply because it was a life, and it was also her true intention.

Liu Zhengqing calmly poured her a cup of tea and placed it in front of her: "If I were angry, I would not allow you to go back."

"I know you are blaming yourself, brother. You are blaming yourself for not putting my life first and allowing me to put myself in danger for others. This is something that would never happen to a brother." Lin Jin has been with him for so long, how could she not understand, "But, this is not wrong, right?"

In fact, it can be seen from Liu Zhengqing's behavior in recent years that he is not really cold and yandere. Perhaps there really is some crazy bloodline in this world, but human nature is definitely complex. A person's nature, living environment and education influence each other and form the final character.

In this way, she could think that Liu Zhengqing had been punishing himself for the mistakes of others all these years, and immersed himself in the pain of the past, which is why he became like the person in the book.

"This is not something you need to blame yourself for, because in your heart you already know that the importance of life cannot be measured by external things. Similarly, you have finally truly regarded me as an adult who can be responsible for your own actions." This is why Lin Jin has never thought about it in this regard.

Liu Zhengqing poured himself a cup of tea, and the hot tea dispelled some of the coldness in his body: "What if you die in there? So, if you die in there, what should you do? If you die this time, is there any way to come back alive?"

Lin Jin looked at him with some surprise: "It doesn't matter if she dies, because when I decided to go back, I was prepared for the possibility of failure. Regardless of whether I can rescue her or not, I can't just watch her die without making any effort."

When she ran back and wanted to bring Lin Lin out, she had thought about the consequences. She might succeed, but she was also prepared for failure. She might even die in there with Lin Lin. She had imagined all of this.

People are responsible for their own actions. From the moment she makes a decision, she accepts all possible outcomes and is willing to bear all risks arising from her actions.

"So you don't have to feel bad about this. I was the one who really did something wrong. I only thought about not letting my heart be condemned, but I never thought about the feelings of the people who care about me."

Lin Jin also took a sip of tea to calm himself down: "It feels really good to be cared for and loved by friends and relatives, and it makes people very happy, but this is insignificant compared to you brothers. I hope you brothers can be like me and find your true self instead of wasting yourself for others."

"It doesn't matter if I lose your brother's love for me, but don't do those bad things again. How can you be truly happy if you keep trapping yourself in the past?"

Liu Zhengqing laughed softly, his originally elegant face now looking a little feminine: "Ah Jin, aren't you afraid that I'm an inhuman evil ghost? I really wasn't a good person before. Just like Fang Zhining said, even if I want to kill someone, I will torture him to death."

Sometimes Lin Jin is really unfair to good-looking people. If Liu Zhengqing was uglier, this look might not look feminine but sinister.

"You are not." She sighed. If it was at the beginning, she would really doubt it. "If you were this kind of person, you wouldn't be an official. At first, you came to the capital for your mother and sister, but after they died, you actually had no reason to stay in the capital."

"If you are seeking revenge on Lin Lin, that is even more impossible, because your official position is a constraint on you, and Song Shiqiu will not allow you to do so. If you are really guilty of heinous crimes, you would not be an official, let alone go to control floods."

"If you are really so indifferent, why would you care whether the people would die in the flood? Even if you really want fame and fortune, there are other idle jobs and lucrative jobs, right? But, brother, you run around to control floods every year. How can such a thankless job be done by an inhuman person?"

"Pretending? But, brother, you are too lazy to pretend like that, because you don't care whether others love you or curse you. So no matter how you look at it, brother and Huaining are not bad people. You just want to protect yourselves too much." Lin Jin didn't know what kind of hurt these two people had suffered that caused them to lose their original selves and become like this.

No matter whether it is the setting of the original book or the trauma of their original family, whatever the reason, she hopes they can break through these constraints.

"Ajin, sometimes I really don't know what to say to you." Liu Zhengqing couldn't explain why he continued to participate in the Spring Examination after Lin Jin's death. It was indeed his character that he should kill all the people related to Lin Jin's death after Lin Jin's death.

"I know, I know, I always make some overly nice requests to you, but when I think about the reasons that led to you and Huaining becoming like this, I feel so sad." Lin Jin was glad that the two people were not really bad at heart, but she also felt sad that the two people were not really bad.

"Since you can be so kind to me, why don't you be a little better to yourself. I also hope that you can be happy, safe and smooth every day, just like you hope for me."