[Corpse Brother's Undead Body Devours All Worlds]

"You usually wear so little, but you're afraid of the cold?" Lin Mo shook his head and hugged her a little tighter.

The two of them were sitting by the campfire. Lin Mo teased Linghu from time to time, while Linghu stared at the fire in a daze. The two of them were as close as a couple camping.

The fox spirit was chewing a biscuit, his eyes reflecting the flickering flames on the campfire, and he didn't know what he was thinking about.

(I wonder if my fellow readers have ever had a white moonlight? I am very confused now. The white moonlight in my heart has come to me. The white moonlight that has always been hidden in my heart, like a sharp thorn. Every time I recall it, my heart is filled with regret and loss...)

(Although I used to have a mind far beyond my peers, I also knew a lot and kept a lot in my heart. No matter what I did, I would think twice before acting. After the fourth grade, I got rid of my rebellious mentality and left the gang I used to be in. I recognized my own and my family’s social status, saw the filth of society reflected in the school, and recognized my own abilities and conditions. Although it was ridiculous to have such thoughts at this age, I did think about my future at that time and thought about the greatest achievement I could get in the future. But no matter how I thought about it, I still couldn’t figure out how to achieve a future that I would be truly satisfied with.)

(Everyone around me is saying that studying is the key to a future, and academic qualifications are the stepping stone. Only by studying can you live a good life in the future! My parents have high expectations of me. I love them very much and don’t want to let them down. I once made up my mind to concentrate on studying and not think about the future. I just set out in the direction my parents asked me to go. It’s not because I will definitely live a good life in the future, but because I hope that I can proudly say to my parents in the future that I have not let them down!)

(It’s hard to imagine, this was all I could think of when I was in 4th grade!)

(But now looking back, it was my over-precocity that led to everything that happened later. If I had been a little dumber and more single-minded, I might have achieved the level of a genius in my studies that my teacher described.)

(But it was also because I was young and overly intelligent. Although I wanted to follow the path my parents had given me, there was always a voice in my head telling me that studying was useless and that I would end up working to earn money. The ultimate goal was money, and a little more or less was just a matter of money, and it was not what I really wanted in my heart.)

(When I was little, I was very greedy. Although I looked like a good kid, I was really greedy and wanted everything! The reason why I gave others the impression of being a good kid was because I knew very well that it was wishful thinking given my conditions! I had high expectations but low skills, which was exactly what I was like at that time. If I let go of my greed, I would only end up hurting my parents who loved me.)

(So ​​at that time, a very unhealthy idea was born in my mind. I am a truly selfish person. This idea is to give up. Since I can't get the future I want, I will suffer less, let my family maintain the status quo, and ordinary people can just live an ordinary life. Why bother thinking about those broken dreams that will all be in vain after a hundred years? Why bother myself and benefit future generations?)

(Anyway, my country is strong. As long as you are willing to work hard, you can survive no matter what and you won’t starve to death! I am just an ordinary person at the bottom of society. The right time, right place and right people are already determined. No matter how hard I work, I can’t achieve what I want. So I might as well play the role of an ordinary person and suffer less in this life!)

(This idea is scary, right? But this is exactly what I thought when I was in elementary school. I also took action for it. I stopped studying, which was meaningless to me, and started a relaxed life. My grades were always mediocre, and I spent elementary school as a very ordinary student.)

(I never studied hard until junior high school. I just relied on what I learned in elementary school and just wanted to muddle along like this…)

(But it was also here that I met the first girl who made my heart flutter. She was very beautiful, but not the kind of beauty that I dared not pursue from the bottom of my heart. I was fascinated on the spot even though I had never felt this kind of feeling before. I even aroused a desire to fight for this girl!)

(Knowing that she was not good at math, I started to work hard in the direction of math, hoping that this would increase our contact. During that time, I laughed the most in my life, except when I was at home.)

(But… my passion won’t change, but since I was a kid, I’ve always believed that people only have interests in each other, and I’ve thought that we might not have a future at all. I don’t think I’m worthy of her at all, and my current efforts will only bring regrets in the end.)

(So, when my relationship with her was at its best, I began to use all kinds of coincidences to divert her attention from me and reduce my presence in her heart, because I felt that someone like me simply could not have a good future and should not delay her.)

(If I have to feel regret, then let me feel it alone. She doesn’t need to know that there was a boy who liked her. As long as she is happy, I will be happy! Because she is a ray of light in my heart, a little angel who redeems this selfish me and teaches me to be helpful! At this moment, she has truly become the white moonlight in my heart!)

(Even if she didn't do anything, her appearance was my salvation!)

(If I can spend three years with her like this, I will be satisfied.)

(But as her math scores started to improve and even caught up with mine, I knew I no longer needed to work hard. Just like that, one summer in the second year of junior high school, I lowered my head to pick up a pen, and math completely left my goal!)

(She has surpassed me in every aspect and is already perfect. I can continue my life of playing rotten. The math teacher has come to me many times and asked me what happened, but I just shook my head and said I didn’t know. The math teacher is very good to me, which makes me feel a little guilty!)

(But as time goes by, this guilt has become a matter of course. A self-degrading person like me does not deserve to have a good life!)

(Seeing her getting better and better, but the contact with me is getting less and less. Although I feel bad, this is my own choice. Men should be responsible for their own actions. You can regret it, but you have to hold it in, otherwise you will regret it even more!)

(So, in order to make myself feel better, I chose to forget, and happened to discover online novels. This thing is great! It is perfect for me who likes fantasy. It made me completely enter the world of novels, a small world that belongs only to me!)