Rebirth: It's Not You, It's Me

"Luo Luo, your drama is so good. Can you download it for me so I can continue watching it when I get home?"

"Yes, sure. I have the file the crew sent me. I'll send it to you when I get back. It's the uncensored version."

"Uh-huh!"

"There are a lot of snacks here. If you're hungry, you can eat some first."

"Uh-huh."

After dinner was ready, Dad came back. Taotao had gone back to his hometown and was not there either.

My dad was very surprised to see me back, but when he saw my swollen eyes from crying, he became anxious, thinking I had been bullied.

My mother told my father the whole story, and my father felt even more sorry for me.

“Why is my daughter’s relationship so difficult?”

"Maybe Luoluo is destined to marry late!"

"Chandu, you eat first and then watch TV. I won't accompany you. I want to take a rest."

"Okay! Go and have some rest."

I returned to my room, trying to find some memories of Shen Yushi, but I only found a few photos. We were both very happy at that time. He acted like a spoiled child, he was domineering, he liked me humbly, he picked me up every day for morning self-study, after evening self-study, and accompanied me for morning jogging.

The more I thought about it, the sadder I became, and I couldn't help but cry.

This time I am the one who let him down.

If I had come back to spend more time with him last time, if I had accepted him the last time I called him, if I had believed in him more, maybe he would still be alive now.

All that came to my mind was our past.

I couldn't sleep all night.

When I got up in the morning and washed up, I saw that my eyes were even more red and swollen, and my face was haggard. I didn't feel like covering it up at all.

I couldn’t eat breakfast, but because I was afraid that my parents would worry, I forced myself to drink a bowl of porridge, but I vomited it all out when I returned to the bathroom.

After packing up, Can followed me to pick up Yu Shi and take him home.

There were many people standing on the road to welcome the hero home.

I was dressed in black and standing in the crowd.

A relative from the Shi family saw me and took me to the door of their house.

"Girl, you're here to see me off, right?"

I nodded.

When the convoy that was escorting Yu Shi came over, I couldn't control myself anymore and rushed over. Chan stopped me, worried that I would do something irrational.

When Yu Shi's body was carried out of the car, Yu Shi, covered with the national flag, was carried into the hall by his teammates.

There was a lot of crying.

After Yu Shi's body was placed in place, everyone came to pay their respects.

Yu Shi’s relatives invited me to be with Yu Shi.

I cried and said to Yu Shi, "You liar, get up."

But I never got a response again.

When it came time to wipe the face of the body, his relatives handed me the basin, fragrant oil and wine.

When I saw that his face was completely bloodless, I felt so distressed. I wiped it carefully for him.

After wiping him, I held his arm and cried until I fainted.

In the dream, I went back to the days when I was in school. Yushi and I still met every day, and I still scared and bullied him. He still loved to act like a spoiled child and always confessed his feelings directly. We went through a lot, but then we were together. But then Yushi suddenly said to me: "Baby Luo, I can't be with you in this life. You have to live well and don't let me worry. In the next life, I will definitely hold you firmly and will never let you be sad again. Promise me, okay?"

"I promise you, don't leave."

"Luo baby, I'm leaving, you must live well for me."

Then disappeared.

When I woke up, the funeral was already over and the person was buried.

My parents and Chandu surrounded me.

My parents’ eyes were also very red, and I knew they had been crying.

"Mom and Dad, I made you worry."

"Why are you so sentimental, child? That child is gone. Do you want your parents to lose their child like his parents?" The mother said this while crying.

It seems that my mother was really scared this time. I cried too.

The whole family hugged each other and cried.

After crying, I knew I couldn’t go on like this. Not only would I make my parents worry, but I would also not be able to die in peace.

I pulled myself together. I got myself back to where I was.

"Give me a day. When I wake up tomorrow, I will be back to normal." I said to my parents.

My parents patted me and walked out of the room.

Candu looked at me and asked worriedly, "Luoluo, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, don't worry. Come with me tomorrow to see Yu Shi, and then we'll go back."

"it is good."

"I'll need you to drive tomorrow, and I don't want to drive."

Seeing that I had recovered somewhat, Chandu was also very happy. He quickly agreed, "Okay, okay."

The next morning, I got up and took a shower to wash off my decadence. I put on some light makeup to make myself look better.

Everyone felt relieved when they saw my condition.

Although I had no appetite, I ate some millet porridge.

Chan and I both went to Yu Shi's grave and gave him a bouquet of flowers and some peach-flavored candies.

Yu Shi’s teammates also came early, ready to return to the army after seeing Yu Shi.

When his teammates saw me, they also gave me a standard military salute.

"Are you Wang Luoluo?"

"Yes!"

"This is what Yoshi was holding before he died. I know this is a keepsake between the two of you. So I wanted to give it to you personally. And this letter, I haven't had time to send it to you yet."

"Thank you."

"Yu Shi and I have a very good relationship. He often mentions you to me. Every time he mentions you, he is full of regret, but there is light in his eyes. We all know that he likes you, and he likes you very much. This time when he went home to visit his family, he said that he wanted to win you back. When he returned to the army, he told us happily that you paid attention to him and didn't hate him anymore. When we participated in the mission, he said that he would be with you after completing the mission. It's my fault. Yu Shi sacrificed himself to save me." The boy's eyes were red as he spoke.

"You don't have to feel guilty. Yi Shi treated you as a brother and risked his life to save you. You have to live well for him to be worthy of him. Don't just live in guilt. He doesn't want to see you like this."

"really?"

"Really, that's what I understand."

I took the things from the boy and said to Yushi, "Chou Yushi, Chou Da Yushi and I are leaving. I will come back to see you. If you miss me, find me in my dreams. I will be fine, don't worry."

After saying goodbye to his comrades, Candu drove us back to Kyoto.

I didn't open Yu Shi's letter during the trip. I put it in my bag. I also put the Buddha amulet that Yu Shi had asked for me at Mount Wutai in my jewelry box and in my safe.

When we arrived in Kyoto, it was still early, so I took Chandu to a shopping mall near home. We bought a lot of snacks and small gifts.

After lunch, the two took a taxi to the airport.

In the VIP room, Chandu said, "After you fainted yesterday, I held you up and was about to carry you to the car to take you to the hospital when a handsome boy ran over from the crowd. He looked very anxious. He took you from my hands and sent you home."

"what?"

"Uncle and aunt should know who he is. I don't understand what they are saying."

"Oh, I see."