Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

"I've been waiting for too long, too long, and I'm not sure if I can wait any longer!"

When Xia Jing heard her precious son say such words to herself, his tears could no longer hold back, and they slipped out of his eyes. Was it the annual leave that was dripping down on his palm? He knew, What a failure I have lived in this life, and the decisions I made again and again ended up hurting my son's greatest love for me.

He himself doesn't know if he apologizes now, is it useful? If he apologizes now, will his son forgive him for all the mistakes he has made as a mother, and he has no way to solve all this in his heart Things, all of this will eventually become what it is now, but it is just the mistakes I made again and again, so what right do I have to blame others?I once made these mistakes, but I never thought about what kind of ending I would get in the end. The mistakes I made again and again made everyone feel cold because of what I did. What face do you have to beg others to forgive yourself? I am not the kind of brazen person. If I let myself beg others to forgive me, then I might as well turn around and leave proudly. In that way, at least I can keep what I have in my heart. Care about dignity and pride.

"Son, I am your biological mother, and she is your biological father. How can you speak to us in such a tone? Do you know that your words will make our parents feel very uncomfortable and painful? You want to Have you ever felt how entangled we are as parents? You have also never considered how uncomfortable and embarrassing your parents will be when you say these words? Now you feel again and again that we abandoned you at the beginning It's our fault, but can you accept that we admit our mistakes to you? It's just a comfort deep in your heart to struggle with these things again and again, and you don't even know what you are Why do you want to hold on to these things? Because you will never know what the reasons for what you have done and what qualifications you have to discuss these things. Maybe the things your parents have done really hurt you. When it comes to you, the mistakes we made in the past have also been punished. We are not the kind of hard-hearted people. We don’t want to leave our own son, and we don’t care about it. We are forced to .

I believe that everyone will think when they are young and frivolous, why do they have to stay at home to take care of their children?At the beginning, your father and I also had the same thoughts in our hearts. I never thought about staying at home to take care of you and accompany you, but we still couldn’t bear it. We could only think about going out to have a good time and have fun. I came back when I had enough, but I didn’t expect to play for more than ten years. In the past ten years, we have really suffered. We feel that we owe it to ourselves. You owe our most beloved son, but we can’t do anything because of all this. The final outcome is a decision made by oneself, and there is no way to change it.I can only grit my teeth step by step and walk to the end. If the final result is not what I want, then I can only bear the ending brought about by such a result in this life, because all these are caused by myself. And who can be blamed? "

Zhang Yichen didn't want to say anything, he just quietly listened to every word his mother said to him, in fact, his heart was already shaking, he didn't know why he was shaking, obviously he already hated his parents I hate it to the bone, but why do you still have to soften your heart just because of his kind words?Then can I really not be that hard-hearted?My parents can give up their own son for the freedom they want, so why can't I, a son, not for my own face.How about not recognizing your parents?

"Son, there is no way to make up for the mistakes that parents have made.

If you really want to, then please let us stay by your side from now on and take good care of you for the rest of your life. We will never leave you again. We also know how much psychological shadow our departure caused to you. And our hearts are not painful, our hearts know what we want better than anyone else, but we have no way to turn all this into reality, we can only watch our own pain The child stood at the door of the house looking at him but did not dare to go forward to hug him. Do you know how desperate it is?You are my biological son, as a mother, how could you not care about your feelings? We have thought again and again that as long as we can return to you, we will accept no matter what the ending is.

As long as you can forgive me and your father, even if we stay by your side like cows and horses, we will never have any complaints in this life. I only hope that you can give us a chance and let us love you well , let us make up for the lack of love for you over the years, maybe you don't need it, but we only want a psychological comfort in our hearts. "

"Just like what you said, I don't need you to know how painful and uncomfortable the decisions you made made my heart. Over the years, I have never forgotten for a moment that you brought me I remind myself again and again in my mind that I must never forget this matter in my life. I want to keep this matter in my mind forever. I want everyone to know that I am My parents abandoned me. Even if I accept mine. All the cynicism of others, but I still have come to such a height in life that others cannot reach in my life. I feel very proud of myself, and at the same time I am very grateful to you if it is not for you For my cruelty, for abandoning me, how could I make up my mind to take this path? How could I try my best to prove to the world how powerful I am.

My original intention of doing all this is to prove to my parents that they abandoned me, which is the biggest wrong decision they have made in their lives, because they have no time to know when I, as a biological son, will die With such a great ability, they think again and again, if one day my parents leave me, then what kind of life will I have? Others may not be able to understand it, but I have experienced it now, and I am not afraid of my life. My parents left me again. I know that after my parents left, how should I live without my parents, but others can’t do it. Under your abandonment of me, I have a life that others may not have. It is something that others may not have any way to understand in their entire life, you know?I am really grateful to you all. I will never forget the consequences of everything you have done to me in my life, but I also hope that you can remember clearly. If one day you ask me for something, I will definitely not help you guys.

Whether you are my parents, or anyone of mine, I will never lend a helping hand, because I know that you don't deserve to let me lose my hand to help you, because I help you, and you finally bring me The result is only harm. You have never considered how much torture I have suffered in my heart as a descendant. You have wondered time and time again that you are just living a happy life in peace. Have you ever thought about it? What about the lives of us people, you are wandering outside again and again, and what about me?My grandfather, my family and I lived desperately at home, and we could only depend on each other for our lives. You are living a happy and unrestrained life, but Macau is living a happy and difficult life..."

"In your whole life, you may not have any way to understand how hard I have been after you abandoned me. Since childhood, others have been happily playing with toys, and I, I have been training desperately. Because I want others to know how serious the consequences of abandoning me are, and I want everyone to know that abandoning me is the biggest mistake. Do you know what kind of state I was in when I was trained? What? Every time I come home bloody, but I can't let my grandpa see it because I know my grandpa loves me too much and they will feel distressed when they see him.

My grandpa loves me so much, how can I let him see my wound again and again, and then quietly hide and wipe my tears there, I am not the kind of hard-hearted person, I really have no way to do this things.

For me, my grandpa's stable life is more important than anything else. I can do without anything, but I can't do without my grandpa.

Do you know what my grandfather and I have been doing all these years?Seeing my grandpa in pain alone there, but as a grandson, I can't do anything, because I know, but my grandpa, I can't make my grandpa sad because of my things, all I want is It is my grandpa who can live a happy life. For me, I can have nothing in my life, but I absolutely cannot let me have no grandpa. If my grandpa knows that you have seen me, then how much I should feel in my heart I feel distressed, I really don't want much, as long as my grandpa can live safely by my side, that's enough.

I originally hoped that my parents would return to me, but now I no longer have such an extravagant hope, because I know that no matter whether my parents will be by my side or not, I will always be with you in my life. There is no way to live happily, only if my parents continue to be by my side, I will live a happy life in this life, but later I found out that this is not the case, no matter whether my parents will be with me or not By my side, I can live happily, because I have my grandpa, and with my grandpa, I have the whole world.

I used to think that losing my parents would mean losing the whole world, but now I don't think so anymore.

I have figured it out now, as long as my grandpa is by my side, it doesn’t matter if I lose the whole world, at least my grandpa really loves me, at least my grandpa puts me in the deepest part of my heart, at least my Grandpa can give up the whole world, even his own life, for me. This is enough for me alone. There is no way to give me such kindness in my life, maybe I am nothing in your eyes, but I really really want to get the love of my parents, but you choose to hurt me time and time again, you put me in Where, what do you think of me again, how can I not feel distressed in my heart? "

"Son, we said..."

"Please don't come and say these things to me again, because every promise you make will be taken seriously by me, and then I will bury this promise in my heart again and again, and in the end you didn't do what you promised Things, I will be in pain, I don't want to accept such things, you know.

In fact, time is a liar. He has turned the oath into a lie. The longer time passes, the less you will know what you promised at the beginning. The pain, how unbearable, do you know how uncomfortable and painful I am?As a descendant, how can I not care about these things or these pains in my heart, you have never cared about my inner thoughts, I have thought so much for you time and time again, but what about you?I thought that as long as you can come back, I can forgive you without any doubts, but now I really can't do it, I am no longer the stupid person I used to be, I am no longer a casual person, because you I chose to forgive you with a few nice words in a few words, but in the end I was just waiting for you foolishly by myself, and in the end the result was that I couldn’t even see a single person. Do you know how disappointed that is?Disappointment again and again creates ultimate despair. Once a person is in despair, will he still have hope for another person?This is absolutely impossible, you have turned my hope of you into despair again and again, how do you make me believe in you again?How can I believe that my parents really have me as their own son?You don't really have any reason to ask me to forgive you again and again. I am also a living person. I need my inner soul. I need my own ultimate comfort. I have no choice. I lied like a fool..."

Mr. Zhang stood aside and didn't say anything. He also understood that his children and grandsons were discussing these things there. Being able to let these misunderstandings continue to develop again and again will make me very tired.

Well, he doesn't want his grandson to live so tired. If he continues to live like this, then he would rather his grandson be blinded by hatred all his life. He knows that the one he loves most in his life is his grandson. The result of all this has exceeded my imagination, and I have no way to prevent what kind of ending will happen in the future.

"Son, don't you really have no way to forgive us as parents? Our parents made such a decision with painstaking efforts. How could we be willing to abandon our children and not return home? There are hardships and hardships, so why can’t you think about it for us from our perspective? Don’t you understand how difficult it is to be a parent? You are also a parent now, and you also know that for your children you should What to do, you also know that you can be desperate for your own children, but why can't you understand our feelings?"

Zhang Yichen felt that his father's words were really funny.

"Do you think you are a qualified parent as parents? I can not go to work for my children, I can give up my career to be with my children, can you? You are not going out to work to earn money for your children Milk powder money, you still abandoned your own children for your own freedom, this is completely different in nature, why do you mix it up? Do you think we will forgive you if you say this? I am not a saint, I can't help it Be as stupid as before and listen to your forgiveness for everything, because I deceived me again and again, I don’t care about it, but I really can’t do it again and again. Looking at you, you hurt me, and You gave me candy there, do you really treat me like a three-year-old? Do you really think that I don’t know everything you do, do you really think that I will be indifferent to what you do? It’s not , Many things are just my own choice, not saying it doesn't mean I don't know, because saying it will avoid embarrassing each other, you are my parents, I will still take your face into consideration, but you, you really Will you take my feelings into consideration? You never have, right?

Since you have never cared about my feelings in your heart, why should I enshrine you as gods in the depths of my heart? I have to think about your ending time and time again, and what kind of embarrassment you will face scene, but have you guys thought about it for me?When you did those things, you never thought that I, as a son, would be embarrassed or uncomfortable. You only thought about what kind of freedom and happiness you want, and what kind of life you want to live. Where to continue wandering, but you have never thought about yourself, should you return to your family to accompany your children, so that your children can happily live the life she should want? "

If he really wants to leave, then it's fine to leave!

"It seems that we have no way to clear up these things this time. If these things can be explained so easily, then there won't be so many troubles and troubles, and you won't be like this again and again. I have been holding on to this matter for a while, it seems that this time everything is ultimately just a mistake I made, and in the end all the results will be rewarded to myself. If I had known that there would be an ending like today, I would I will never leave your side when I say anything at the beginning, and I will definitely be by your side so that you can live happily in this life. This may be the most important thing for anyone, but in my heart It is a height that there is no way to reach in this lifetime.

Child, you are our biological son, is it really so difficult in your eyes to forgive your parents for their past mistakes?The mistakes we have made, we sincerely admit to you here, but why can't you forgive us? It's because we abandoned you at the beginning and didn't accompany you by your side, so you have to grasp this all your life. Something to never let go of?Don't you think you'll have a great time this way?In fact, you also know that some things will really make you very tired if you do this. Are you really willing to be so tired all your life? If you really want to do this, then we as parents have nothing to do It can come to make up for what we have said and done, but we really want to know that we have made these mistakes, what are they?Why in your eyes are you never willing to forgive us properly?If you, a son, are willing to have a good communication with our parents, then why have we become what we are now? You have never thought about your mistakes and where are they! "

"Okay, stop arguing now. Is it necessary to quarrel for so long about some things? Do you find it interesting that you have been arguing about an ordinary thing? Don't you think that after all this talk, it will eventually make you Is it still a word that is ugly to each other? Don’t you know that the more you talk about something, the more ugly you say it, the more embarrassing it is for each other? You are all grown-ups, so it’s necessary to come here because of some past rotten things Do you want to continue the quarrel? Adults should look like adults, don't let others watch the joke, everything you do will be related to the image of the family, your own image, don't you even care about the image of the family? Do you care about your own image more or less? Don't be here again and again like a shrew cursing the streets. Same, do you think this is appropriate? We are all grown-ups, why bother to stay here all the time for those trivial things, let Is it interesting to feel more pain in each other's hearts? Seeing each other in pain. Will you really be happy and happy in each other's hearts? Obviously you are reluctant in your heart, why do you say these heartless words to hurt each other? Do you really want to hurt each other like this, is it the result you want most in your heart to make each other feel miserable forever?"

The time when Mr. Zhang came out to answer the conversation was just right. He knew that if he continued to let this develop, then they would only quarrel with each other even more, and letting him end would only make all his efforts in vain. , How could it be possible to let such a thing happen? I should come out and stop it properly, so that all this can be calmed down.

"You have been arguing for so many years. I don't know if you have been holding on to this matter for so many years. Do you think it really makes sense to go on like this? You will really be happy if you keep holding on to this matter all the time. Will you be happy? You know what the final outcome is, but you still want to hurt each other time and time again. Is this the happiness you hope for in your eyes? Do you want to see your family live a happy and happy life? You have never I care about other people's inner feelings, just arguing here, just arguing blindly, then the matter can be resolved. In fact, it's not when you can use your brains and think about what you should do to deal with it. This matter Things, how to give others an explanation, think carefully about whether what you have done is wrong, think carefully about whether what you said has hurt others, if what you said has already hurt others, And why let others respect you, people respect each other, if you don't respect others, why should others respect you? Since you don't care about others, why do others put you in their hearts again and again Seeing so many important things in depth, others are not fools."

"Grandpa, I know what you mean by these words, but I am really not reconciled in my heart. Why are my parents unwilling to be by my side for so many years? As a child, how can I be so happy in my heart? Wake up? They treat me like this again and again, can I really not be sad at all in my heart? I once thought that as long as my parents come back to me, I can give up all the resentment and be good. Forgive them, but now I can't do it anymore. I really can't understand why my parents abandoned me again and again for what reason. What am I in their eyes? I just Is it just a clown? I can be abandoned by them casually in their eyes time and time again. Am I really worse than anything? All I want is someone who loves us, why do they Is it really so unwilling to give me the life I want? Why do they always fight against me? Is it the joy in their life to be against me? If so, then I really don’t know how to describe it in my life What about these things? I also know that you have said a lot of truths to me over the years. I also know that those truths are very reasonable. I also know that none of those things should be the fault of my parents.

But some things are not up to me. When something happens, it happens and the result is the result. It embarrasses me. I can’t forgive this easily. I’m not a saint. I also just want my parents to be by my side safely and securely, but no one is willing to stay by my side to take care of me and accompany me, which makes me say as a descendant that my heart is What kind of thinking is it? When did you care about the pain in my heart again? You have always seen only your own interests and things you want in your life, but you have never cared about other people's feelings. How painful is it?I have suffered so much, I really don't know how much more I can bear, I have given too much, I have suffered too much, I have accepted the devil again and again I have been subjected to many years of cynicism and ridicule from others. I am numb and unconscious. Now I don’t know what my parents say will make my heart ache. I only know that I have let go of it. Those things made me feel so uncomfortable and painful. I only know that the harm my parents have brought to me is something I will never forget in my life. I am really not a saint. I have no way to rewrite the video. , I have no choice but to pretend that nothing happened like before, but I know that if I make the right decision, then my life will be a happy life, but if I do If I make a wrong decision, then I will continue to be miserable all my life. I am not sure what kind of decision I should make, and I don't know whether I want happiness or pain.

Grandpa, some things happen, they just happen, and they can’t be solved in a few words. I know that you did this today, just so that we can all have a good mental attitude to solve these things, but these things are really not me. If you want to solve it, you can solve it. No one can easily forget the mistakes you have made. I am not the kind of person who can forgive others casually. The mistakes I have made can be easily I have to admit my mistake to others, because it was my own mistake, and I have no reason not to admit it, but if someone else made a mistake to me, I would not forgive it, the decision is mine..."

Zhang Zhentian knows in her heart what kind of attitude her son has now. As a father, he can't say anything in the middle, but she is still very painful in her heart. That is her own son, and her own son is unwilling. Forgive yourself, how can you not hurt your heart?But I can't do anything about it, because all these decisions are all decisions I made, the mistakes I made, and the harm I caused him, so what qualifications do I have to ask for it? Do your children forgive themselves?I have done so many wrong things, hurt my son, and let my son never get my love for so many years, so what reason do I have to ask my son to forgive me as a father? , and even pretend that nothing happened, and then continue to live a happy life with yourself, which is absolutely impossible.

"Son, I know we have no way to clarify these things now, so I hope you can think about it carefully. If you are really willing to let us come back to you to take care of you, then don't worry, as long as this The next time we come back, we will never abandon that easily, because you will always be our son in our hearts, we can't ask you to abandon you because of a little thing, we have committed I have made too many mistakes, and now I am not sure what kind of attitude I should use to face you, and I don't have any face to face you. The mistakes my parents once discovered are really heinous.

If it wasn't because of my abandonment of you, how could you have endured so much pain, how could you have endured so much cynicism and ridicule silently by yourself, all of this is the harm that your parents have brought to you, you will not forgive Mom and Dad, Mom and Dad have nothing to say, but please know that no matter when and where, Mom and Dad put you in the deepest part of their hearts, because you are our son, it is impossible for parents not to love themselves My son, even if I do something wrong, I have no way to hurt my son. I know that there are some things that I really can’t explain to you in a few words, but I also hope that you can know that there is no one in the world except you. Grandpa, you still have your parents who love you. If someone says you are a child without parents, you can tell them frankly that your parents abandoned you back then!

You are not a child without parents, if someone dares to say that again, you can tell us, we will definitely take it out for you, but do you know?If you blindly endure, it will only make your parents feel that there is no way to forgive the mistakes you have made in this life. The things we have done in the past really embarrass you. Maybe it is our whole life. Irreparable pain, but you also hope that mom and dad can stay by your side. This is because every child has an extravagant wish for their own family, but we did not let you achieve this extravagant wish, but we Hurt you again and again, let you face the ridicule of others again and again, we as parents really failed very much, I really wish that time can turn back, if time can turn back, then how happy I should be, If the time can go back to more than twenty years ago, I will never abandon my son, I will definitely stay at home with my life, and be by your side, so that you can't do without us for the rest of your life. Enjoying other people's love for a lifetime, we can't enjoy the love of our parents in this lifetime, but our original decision made us become what we are now. All of this can only be blamed on us being too greedy as parents, obviously we already have a family , Why do you still think about going out to wander, go out to wander, why do you choose to abandon your children, we really don’t know whether we made such a decision because of a cramp or something, I hope you can really forgive me Mom and Dad can let us stay with you. If you feel embarrassed by such a decision, you can tell us that we will never force others. If you think we live with you, your heart will Uncomfortable, you can tell me, I can come to accompany you during the day and go back to my place at night, I can not disturb any of your work, I just hope you can give me a chance to make up for you, my son, Dad please! "

"You don't need to say that, but what you said is actually quite right. There is no clear relationship between us. Since we are unclear, why continue to entangle these things? I can't give you an answer right away. Will I forgive you? , but the harm you caused to me, I really have no way to forget in my whole life, maybe one day I will easily treat these things as if they never happened, but not now, because now this thing is deeply ingrained, in my life Deep down in my heart, I am really in pain because of the harm you have done to me. I have endured too much torture and guilt. I don’t know what attitude I should use to face you, and I don’t know what to do. Calling you, before, I chose to forgive you, but you chose to hurt again and again. In your eyes, you have never considered what kind of feeling I feel in my heart as a son. Why come here to change you?"

"Then you should think about it carefully. If you are really willing to forgive us as parents, then you can give us a message. We will definitely come back to you and take care of you for the rest of your life. We will definitely make up for it. I have owed you all these years, but please believe us, this time we really did not promise you casually, not to perfunctory you, but to make up for you, I hope you can know The mistakes I have made, one day I will definitely make up for them with my own efforts. If there is really no way to make up for it, then I am willing to use my life to give you, and I am willing to use my life to pamper you. , you let you know how much I love you, I will let everyone know that I have a son, and this son is the greatest pride of my life, because I abandoned him, but he never Blame me, I will let everyone know how powerful my son is, without it, my parents can still reach the peak of life, which is the pinnacle of life that no one else has reached in their entire life."

"Don't say this sentence again. It's the same thing whether I believe it or not. I may not believe it if you say it, but please remember every word you said today, because every word you said It is directly related to whether we can finally return to the previous harmonious life. If you are really deceiving me this time, then I will never give you any chance in this life, and you don't want to step into it again. One step at home, today's ending, I don't want to see it again, and I don't want to continue to quarrel with you, but I hope you can know that the things you have done will eventually pay the price, no matter how powerful you were, In the end, I couldn't escape the arrangement of fate..."

"As long as she is willing, I will use the rest of my life to make up for her. If she is not willing, I will also bless her!"