Ran Zhihan gradually felt that her whole body was starting to feel uncomfortable, but he didn't know how to tell her husband that he could only bear all the pressure in silence, and he was there alone to overcome the pain. Torture and all the people are still arguing endlessly because of a small matter at home. He really doesn't understand what he should do as a daughter-in-law. He has given up a lot this time, and he no longer cares about the relationship between them. Why are they still unwilling to recognize their mistakes and let go of their prejudices in each other's hearts? What good is it for each other if they insist on arguing over there?
Zhang Yichen was always thinking about how he would feel if he left him one day, and if something happened to his grandfather there one day, then his grandson would leave in the end What kind of road he will take, he can't predetermine. What he fears most in his heart is losing his closest relatives. He is afraid that he will lose old man Zhang.
Sometimes when you think about it slowly, losing may not be the most terrible thing. What is terrible is that she is obviously by your side, but in order to get revenge on you, she is not you in her heart and is still lingering with others.
Zhang Zhentian sees his son's worried look every day. How can his inner world not be uncomfortable, but he has no choice. He knows what his son's deepest worries are, and as a father, he has no way to replace him. To share, as a father, you should wait here silently, you should not pursue all the past things, you should live happily, and don't take all the faults on yourself, that will only make you live happily Very tired.
"Yichen, my parents can tell what you are thinking just by looking at your expression, no matter what kind of thoughts you have in your heart, but please remember that family members can never be separated, no matter how much you have Hate, Mom and Dad hope that we will come back to this home and block your eyes in front of your eyes, but since we have come back, please try to accept us, I believe we will treat you sincerely, we The sincerity is not based on words, it is proved by actions. We will try our best to make up for the harm we caused you in the past. If there is no way to make up for it, let us be father and son again in the next life. At that time, I must love you well. Give you double compensation for everything that is owed to you in this life
Maybe you don't believe in the world at all, but every time we are together, there is a kind of resistance deep in your heart, and you are very clear in your heart, just like myself, I have no way to put Forget all the mistakes, because I know it is really hard to forget the past, unless there is something wrong with your brain, unless you really have amnesia
Every child has pressure deep in his heart. No matter how big or small the pressure is, you must always look forward to life. You can't just hide from the pressure you have to face, because you can't hide from it, everyone Everyone has their own way to go, no matter how far or how far the journey is, everyone will be under different pressures, why should they let their minds know that they can be very happy because of those pressures, but because of some small things, they let their own life I become so irritable, that way I will drive a person crazy step by step, if you really drive yourself crazy, then what about my grandpa and what about us? You should also think about us when you do things People's feelings, don't treat us as saints, we can't be indifferent, we always love our children sincerely, even if one day you really don't want us to come back to this home and stay by your side, but we I still love you, and we will still silently guard you behind you, because you are my son, and my only son is the greatest pride of my life."
"Father, in fact, I have thought about it many times. Can people's hearts really be changed? So, why should I be passionate
Even if I take others seriously, but in their eyes, I am nothing, I am just a person who can throw away casually, no one cares about my feelings
Dad, in fact, sometimes I understand better than anyone else what kind of feeling it is. That kind of feeling is simply a pain in the heart. No one will care about you. He will only know what you have experienced. Look forward, because in his eyes you are nothing, you are not the person he cares about most at all, he can abandon you casually, you think such a person lives in this world What's the point? Sometimes I just don't understand what people live in this world for.
Living is so painful, so tiring, you will never get what you want, no matter how much effort you put in, no matter what you have experienced in your life, no one cares about how you feel, he He will only follow his heart, he will hurt you if he wants to hurt you, because he doesn't have you in his heart, he can hurt you casually, this kind of feeling, what do you think is alive in this world? What does it mean? I really don’t understand why I chose such an ending. I took out the depths of my heart again and again to show others, but what was the result I got in the end? Others ignored me Time and time again they regard my sincerity as a donkey's liver and lungs, time and time again they treat all the feelings I have given as bubbles, do I mean nothing in their eyes?
You are my father, in fact, you understand better than anyone else in your heart, how much pain is in my heart, how difficult it is for me to get to where I am today step by step, all I have achieved is all on my own I got it through hard work, but in the end what did I get in exchange? I took it step by step, step by step, it was just a written mark, how much blood I shed, how many tears I shed, how much I suffered, and what I went through. How much torture, devil-like training I have never cried, because I know that even if I cry, no one will care about me, because crying can't solve any problems, even if I cry all day long, who will care What have I experienced in the depths of my heart? What everyone wants is not like this. Never compare people's hearts with others, because people's hearts are incomparable. Even if you dig out your heart and show it to him In his eyes, it's just your childish behavior, he won't look at your willfulness at all, because deep in his heart, there is nothing in your heart that you can't compare to what she wants.In his eyes, only interests are the longest.
I didn't understand what that sentence meant until now. There are no eternal friends in this world, only eternal interests. The so-called friends are nothing in front of interests, because he doesn't care about these things at all. The only thing I care about is money, and money can trump everything else. Money can make ghosts work. If this is the case, then we earn so much money, whether it is for ourselves or for others in the end, I can't understand why I am doing this now, I do What is the purpose of every decision I make? Everything I bring is brought to the person I love the most.What kind of harm? I have never thought about what I did, what kind of consequences it will cause, because deep down in my heart, as long as my family is happy, it is more important to me than anything else. Now I saw how painful my grandpa is. Is it really not uncomfortable in the depths of my heart? No, and I have nothing to do, because you are my parents, no matter how much you have done to grandpa. As a junior, I don't have any qualifications to give pointers to what you have done
But you are my father, there are some things I should tell you as a son, no matter what, you should take good care of grandpa, don’t call him your father, even if he has not been by your side for so many years. , never gave you love, but she gave me all the love for you, which proves that he still really loves you as a son deep in his heart, why you can never see what he received as a father All the pain and suffering is not what he wants at all. For him, as long as he can be happy, happy, as long as his son can be happy, she thinks it is more important than anything else, but your worldview does not include him at all. in it.
In the past, no matter what the reasons were, you and your mother chose to abandon me, grandpa, the whole family, and the interests of the whole family. I will not say anything to you now, because I don’t think there is any That is necessary, there are some things you should make your own decisions, that is your right, I have no right to interfere with the mistakes you have made in the past, since you have chosen to return to this home now, it proves that Deep down in your heart, you still really want to live with your family members, so don’t do anything to make grandpa sad, don’t make her cry anymore, I know you are just going to apologize to grandpa, what I said Sometimes it may be a bit too much, but I can't help it.
In the depths of my heart, as parents, you are not as important to me as my grandfather, because my grandfather gave me everything, and it is he who has cultivated me into a talent, and made me achieve what I am today, no matter what No matter what the reason is, you have no reason to hurt her. Whoever dares to hurt grandpa is tantamount to the end of being my enemy and my enemy. I want to wipe out all the enemies who are my enemies, no matter who they are I will do whatever it takes to achieve my goal.I will do whatever it takes, I have become insensitive now, I will not stand by and let others hurt us like I used to.
No one knows all the pain we have gone through, and after every heart-piercing cry, who can know what we have gone through, driving ourselves crazy again and again, driving ourselves to a dead end, In the end, you can't get anything, because in your own eyes, no matter what you do, others won't get it at all, and others won't care. Even if you give everything, what can you do? You are nothing, maybe everyone is like this, when he has it, he will choose to hurt again and again, until he really loses it, he will know that he should cherish that person, but all the regrets It's useless at all, not everyone can forgive you, because everyone's ending is fundamentally different, even if you give everything, so what, even if you sincerely want to keep others by your side In this way, others will not care about you at all, let alone what you have experienced, he will only follow his heart. "
Xia Jing, listening to her son say these words to her husband, he felt really ashamed in those depths, what did he do as a mother for so many years to make his son become what he is now? You seem to be so ruthless and merciless in doing anything, is it true that in the eyes of your son, you as a mother are nothing? Can you hurt casually? He became just an inhuman module, casually abandoned his son in their eyes, he was nothing, maybe he knew that the culprit was himself who made all of this what it is now , who can blame others
"Yichen, I feel that as a mother, I am really ashamed of you, but I have told you more than once about some things. You can't blame your father for this matter, because he is innocent at all, and he is also innocent. I don’t want this kind of thing to happen to us. What he wants is that our family can live a stable life. Everything is caused by me. Why do you want to force you again and again? Father came to make any promises to you, and any apology would have no effect at all. He has sincerely repented. He has sincerely wanted to come to this family and why you people just can’t see him forever. your regret
Now in your eyes, I can't see your respect for us as parents at all. You never thought about keeping us in your family, because all you want is your own heart It’s just a bit of torture in the depths, because you feel that the most important thing is that you can live happily. In the past, we gave you a lot of harm. I understand that the harm is also, and it is impossible to resolve it with a few words casually, but What I want is not such an ending at all, I just want everyone to be at ease.
I even thought, if one day I leave this world, will you let go of your prejudice against your father, if one day I really have no way to continue living here, will you have a slightly different opinion of your father? Be a little better, everything is caused by my fault, why did you blame all the faults on your father, you never cared about your father's inner thoughts, have you ever thought about him When he was interrogated by his son again and again, how much he loved you in his heart. As a son, every time he spoke to him, he was like a prisoner. How could he feel better in his heart, but he chose to do nothing. Said, because he respects you, respects every decision you make, and respects every word you say. Because of this, shouldn't you reflect on whether your actions are right or wrong? Your father is not your prisoner, and this is not a prison. This is a warm family. If a family can only live like a prison, then returning to this family is better than staying in a prison. There are at least some people in the prison. He can continue to live if he has meat, at least he won't be forced to continue interrogating him like a prisoner all the time. You keep doing this again and again.
Did you ever think about your father’s feelings when you did this? Did you ever think about all the public opinion and pressure he would face? What you care about is only money and interests, just like you said that people’s hearts are incomparable. When you gave your heart to your father, you chose not to believe your father because all you believed in was money and not your family. I will be sincere to you because you are already scared, just because of the mistake we made to you once, you told us to reject us three times and four times, we have never hated you at all, because you are my son , no matter how much you do to your parents.Mistake, how big a mistake we make is that we will not blame you at all. On the contrary, we will still love you well. It is precisely because of our reasons that we have caused such a distorted psychology to you, and we feel even more guilty deep in our hearts. , But haven't you thought about where you're going to put us in by doing this? Time and time again you take us for nothing.Why are we not saints? We also hope that our family members can forgive us, understand us, and understand our painstaking efforts. When we come here to pray to return to this home, what do you think of me as a beggar? Just give alms Let us stay at home one point. During this period of time in this home, we have done all the housework and housework, but what is the final result? Have you ever thought about what we should do? Have you ever thought about it, because you You are really more selfish than anyone else, you always think that what you do is right, but in the end, you find out that everything you do is wrong.”
It was the first time for Xia Jing to speak to his son in this tone. He always felt that he owed his son. No matter what, he could not lose his temper with his son, let alone speak in a fierce tone, because In this way, he is afraid that his son will have a deeper misunderstanding of him. He wants his son to realize that he, as a mother, really wants him at home. He wants his son to understand that he knows how to be a mother. No matter how many mistakes you have made, but now I really just hope that this family can live a stable and happy life, but now I can't control my temper this time, and I am angry with my son again. Knowing what my children think about me as a mother, don't I even have any credibility?
"Yichen, don't worry too much, your mother didn't mean that, and he didn't mean to talk to you in such a tone, she was just too anxious to control her temper, in fact, you also understand your My mother is a straightforward person, she has a sharp mouth and a bean curd heart. Everything he does is for the good of everyone in the family. I hope you don’t take it to heart. Our family lives happily, why? I have to go around and around, and it turns out that it makes everyone in the family sad? Our happy life is the best ending for everyone, and we don't want to be as casual as before. Conflicts happen casually, and don't quarrel casually like before, lest everyone in the family will be confused, and no one can work with peace of mind. It's not a good result. Now we just want to stay in this home safely. I hope you can trust us and don't be suspicious of us over and over again. Even if you really doubt me, shouldn't you believe me? We once? Even once is fine, people’s hearts will change, even if you used to distrust us, but now we are really coming back, is it impossible for you to even try to give us a little bit of the most basic trust? "
"Give you trust, even if I have given you trust, what is the most important thing? Behind giving you trust is to let you use the trust I gave you to hurt me again and again? In fact, I really can't do it. I have worked very hard. I am controlling all my tempers, but you challenge me again and again, my bottom line, everyone has a bottom line, I did say that people’s hearts are incomparable, and I also thought that I would show my heart to you What is it like, I also want you to know that as a son, I really want to accept you, but I really can’t forget all the pain you brought me. I’m not a saint, I think Many times, my own relatives abandoned me again and again, for what reason? No matter how poor or tired I am, I have never thought of abandoning my children, grandpa, or the whole family. I didn't even abandon the interests of the whole family, but what about you, you actually chose to abandon the interests of the whole family just for a little freedom, just for your so-called vanity. In my eyes, it’s nothing. All you want is to be able to fly happily outside in the sky. You’ve been flying outside for so many years. What do you think you’ve gotten hurt again and again and beaten back again and again
In the end, you still can only choose to go back to this family and pray for the family to take you in. Do you think this is really fun, or do you think that the family can hurt you casually, and can challenge the family again and again? The bottom line of human beings, but you are really wrong, we really can't do it once, and treat you like this again, in other words, you should think about it, how much grandpa has paid for you over the years, he has silently paid attention How many times have you, do you know? But you have never thought that he is a father deep in his heart. When facing his son's abandonment again and again, does his heart really not hurt? She worked so hard to raise her The older child abandoned the father who raised her for so many years for the sake of so-called freedom. What do you think my grandpa thinks deep in his heart? You can’t understand it. Grandpa and I just shut you out , you can’t take it anymore, so what about the harm you have brought to grandpa? Did he say a word? He never resented you. On the contrary, he still bet all your love for you. On me, because he felt that he kicked you out of the house, I'm sorry you let you have a home and can't go back, this is the biggest mistake of his life and the thing he regrets the most in his life.
But you have never repented of everything you do, you don’t even know what you want to be together, what is the result, you always feel that you hurt your loved ones again and again is something to be happy about, It's a very happy thing, but you have forgotten, even if you regard everything as the most important person again and again, how can you never feel that a person is treated by another person in the depths of your heart? What kind of feeling does it feel to be hurt by a person? It is indeed very happy to live without heart and lungs, but when a person becomes heart and lungs, how tiring he must live, because the most heart and lungs for him That person has become heartless when he has heart and lungs, what kind of heavy do you think this feeling, this kind of blow is?
Dad, I didn't think about coming here to say anything to you, but I hope you can think about it carefully, can you think about what kind of ending you really want, you really thought about this kind of ending is Do you want it? You have returned to this family now, but the ending? You still chose to hurt everyone in the family. In your eyes, everyone in the family can be hurt at will. Have you ever thought about everyone in the family? What kind of ending will come in exchange for one person, deep in your heart, all you want is a sentence of condolences from your family.But you have forgotten that the people in your family are the ones who need your care and love the most. You tell everyone in your family time and time again with such cruel facts that you don’t deserve to be forgiven by your family members. Said, I should let me speak to you in what tone, I know that as a son, I really shouldn't say these words to you like this, but at the moment when I saw my grandpa crying, deep down in my heart really There is no way to bear it, I saw her crying, do you know how much my heart hurts, he is my grandfather, he was with me through the most difficult and helpless time Years, where were you at that time and now you are back, what right do you have to hate him, what right do you have to hurt her, you hurt a person who loves me the most, who can give everything for me, don’t you do this Are you hitting me in the face on purpose?
In fact, when you were doing these things, you didn't think about the serious consequences of this matter at all. What you want is just the little hope in your heart, but you forget that I am a living person, and I also have Feelings have a soul, I also have love, I also have emotions when I hate, I can't worry about everything over and over again for a little thing, but I can't bear anyone to hurt me Grandpa, he has really paid a lot for me. I really hope you can truly understand how much my grandpa has paid for me. If you still have a little bit of a lady deep in your heart, then please Tell me well, what exactly do you want now, if you want three grandpas, I’m so sorry, I can invite you out right now, so you don’t have to think about going back to this home for the rest of your life because People in this family do not welcome you. If you came back just for revenge, for the things that shut you out at the beginning, then you have done it now, because of everyone in the family, because of what you did, because Your return has been received.Hurting you should be happy now, why are you still so sad, you pretend to be so pitiful, why are people in our family here to sympathize with you, and how do you treat us behind the sympathy for you? Sincerely treat you as family members, and these things have to bring you back to this family, but what you have done has chilled our hearts.
Do you know why I say people’s hearts are incomparable? Because when our family gave you their hearts, how did you repay us? You hurt grandpa and made him suffer so much. I thought that I could live happily , but I have no choice, I really can't learn, I can't learn your ruthlessness, I can't learn your ruthlessness, I can't learn that you do things without scruples, I can't learn you at all You are cruel, do you know how tired I am, how painful my life is, I will never learn your kind of happiness, because you can laugh heartlessly, but I can't, because I have a grandpa , I want to think about it for grandpa, I want to let grandpa know that I am the one who loves her the most, I want to let grandpa know that even if everyone in the world doesn't want her, I will still be by her side He, I am the one who will never abandon him in this life. I will let grandpa understand that I am the best and only support in his life.
You don't understand how much grandpa hurts when he is admitted to the hospital again and again. She also hopes that she can get the love of her son and daughter-in-law. Where were you at that time when grandpa was sent to the hospital by you? , you can only choose to avoid it, because you dare not come back, you are afraid that I will get angry with you, because what you have done hurts grandpa, the person I love the most, you have no way to explain everything to me, so You choose.Can escaping and escaping really solve things? It is simply impossible. Everything you do has never thought about the consequences and what kind of blow it will bring to you. What you want is just the little profit in front of you. You have chosen to harm the people in your own family, even if it is your own expectations, you can harm them without any scruples.If it were someone else, they would not know how many times you have been sued to the court, but grandpa didn't do this, he cared about the face of the family, not to mention you are his children, he can't be so cruel, but you as children How can you be so ruthless, abandon your father casually, and hurt everyone in the family casually? In your eyes, are the family members really so worthless? Or do you think Soaring into the sky is really that important, even if you fly into the sky, how can you fly higher and die faster.
You have flown into the sky more than once, you have flown into the sky again and again, what is the final outcome? You have never got the ending you wanted, on the contrary, you have flown into the sky again and again, and finally you were thrown hard Come down, don’t you fall hurt enough? Why do you always heal the scars and forget the pain? Why do you never think about whether your actions will bring bad consequences? Why don’t you think about it? Let’s see if what you are doing is right or wrong? Don’t live so selfishly. You think it’s your own life. It really doesn’t do you any good, and it doesn’t have any benefits. All you do, In the end, those who hurt are only those who care about you and love you the most. You have never thought about how much grandpa hurts deep in your heart. I beg you to hold your hands high and let grandpa go. I really can't bear to shed any tears when Grandpa came to ask you.
I have lived with my grandpa for so many years, I never thought of letting her shed a tear, because I know that he loves me sincerely, he will do everything for me, everyone can give everything, but why don't you Yes, why are you always so selfish in your actions, why are you never able to consider my feelings? I am your son, your relative, and the only child in your life. Am I not yours? Proud, shouldn't you be proud of my achievements? I have to admit that all my achievements are thanks to you. If you hadn't abandoned me cruelly, how could I be what I am now? If it weren't for you, I would be like this How could it be possible to undergo the devil's training again and again without shedding a tear? If it weren't for you, why would I be able to smile after being ridiculed by everyone else, because I am trying to make myself happy, and I want to make everyone happy See, no matter how hard and tiring my life is, I can always face the future with a smile, because my future is up to me, and I will never rely on anyone, because I understand that the ending of relying on anyone is not at all. Will get the ending, that way will make my life very tiring, even if I pin all my hopes on others, will others really give me hope? I can't stand up, come strong, I can only let myself know, and I can only let everyone believe that people's hearts should never be compared with people's hearts, because people's hearts cannot be exchanged for people's hearts. This is the most basic truth. I used to I tried to change the hearts of many people with human hearts, but in the end, what I got was hurt again and again. I got nothing and nothing. Now I can't believe what I should do to make it all better. As painful and sad as before, I really don’t want much, just a few simple things, but in the eyes of everyone, I don’t get anything at all, because what you see in your eyes Everything is completely different from what I see, we all have different points of view, you are my parents, I really hope you will think twice and stop doing anything that hurts everyone in the family, that is for you Saying it doesn't make any sense, and it doesn't do any good.
If I find out in the future that you have hurt grandpa and made everyone in the family feel sad and miserable, then I am really sorry, and I will definitely kick you out of the house. I can't stand my parents coming back to do evil and threatening Fu, I came back to this home not to comfort myself, not to protect myself, but to everyone in the family. This is really unacceptable to me. I can't achieve such an ending. You know, I I am a proud person, I have no way to let go of my self-esteem, and forgive everything again and again, but when I let go of all my dignity to let you, please cherish this opportunity, otherwise we will For the rest of my life, there is really no way for you to return to this family. If you come back again and again, if it only brings harm to the family, I think it will be the best ending if you don’t come back. If you come back, you can only let the family Pain then why should I choose to make you happy.Let the family members be sad and painful? Have you ever given me love and companionship? The person I have the most is my grandpa. How could I give up my family for my own selfishness? Let grandpa be happy. Go on. , the reason.How can I do these things, how can I make it so sad, so painful, so difficult"
Zhang Zhentian really doesn't know how to explain to his son now. As a father, no matter how he explains, he is a bad person in the eyes of his son, and he wants to come back and hurt her casually. People and themselves have never really thought about it this way. What you want is just a simple thing. What you want is to make everyone in the family happy and happy.
But do these things I do really make everyone in the family feel happy? In fact, I don’t have my own ideas, and I also hurt many people in the family. I never thought about myself in everything I did. What kind of results will it bring to the family, I am always so selfish, if I can really find a kind of forget you grass in this world, but how happy I should be, I will never have to go again Thinking about these things that make me sad, I can live heartlessly forever, and I will never think about being popular in this family. Now that I have chosen this path, what can I do about this matter? I have to go on the road alone no matter what. Even if the road is too difficult, I can only go on like this. Never think about comparing people's hearts with others. This sentence is still reasonable. Even if I give everything In the end, you may not be able to get others to treat you sincerely. Maybe others will give you a fatal blow in the back, driving you into the abyss of hell forever, and you will never be able to turn over again. Everything is nothing but the consequences of what I did.
Maybe I really did something wrong this time, and what I did may really hurt my father. If I heard my son say that his father shed tears this time, then I am really a son. Is it so different? I can casually make my father shed sad tears because of my own words, so how much failure must this son have to make his father sigh like this, This is what a son should do, so that his father will never underestimate him like this, so that he, a son, can stay by his side with peace of mind, and never think about everything he does What kind of ending will I get, but I always think about walking all these paths regardless of the consequences.
Every time I make a mistake, I will know that the mistakes I made are unforgivable. What I want is just a stable life, but I get nothing in the end. Instead, I hurt those people. The person who loves me the most, what I have done is simply outrageous, if time can really be restarted for myself, I will definitely not leave so easily, so even if you want to leave yourself, you will pull yourself, My son left with his family. Even if he wants to wander around the world, everyone will be together. That is a family. But now this family has been torn apart by him, and there is no way to get back together. What should I do? In order to bring all this back to the original state, what kind of ending should I get for my actions? Time and time again, I have forgotten how many times I have done wrong things, my son Already numb by his own injury, he no longer knows what distressing is, because deep in his heart, he feels that all he wants is that his father can return to him, and he is now Returning to her side, but in the end, I still failed to bring him any love and care, which brought him a lot of pain. I have never done a right thing in everything I did. Could it be that I am a father? Is it so bad? Not only does he not have any care for his son, but on the contrary for his father, all of them are hurting himself. What should the parents of the children do to make this not so sad? Do it yourself Why can everything never get the perfect ending? Is it really just because I gave up that they made it all end like this? I don’t know how many times I have reflected on what I should do Only by doing can I bring all this back to the original state, but I really have no way to do it. I have no way to change everything in the past, because everything has become a foregone conclusion, no matter how much I pay, what can I do? I can't get a sincere heart for everything, even if I want to live happily and happily, and want my family not to be harmed, but I still unintentionally hurt the people I care about the most, those who The person who cares most about himself.
Maybe I am not suitable for living in this family at all. Every time I live in this family, I will always bring painful injuries to my family members again and again. I have never done any good things. Who knows how many bad things have happened, all the pain, only you know how big a mistake you have made in your heart, and you can get what you end up with again and again, so what if you regret it, others don't Will forgive you, even if others say they forgive you, deep down in their hearts, they don't even think about forgiving you, he will only deal with you again and again.
Never give a trust, just quietly give it all, because after giving all the trust, in the end you may only get hurt, because he is not waiting for your heart wholeheartedly, it is just a simple Simple things, she wants to get to the bottom of his heart, she never thought about being with you, nor did he think about giving you the best comfort, all she wants is to deal with you again and again How to make all this look like what he wanted in his heart, everything he did was just the price he paid by unscrupulous means to achieve his goal.
"My child, I know that as a father, no matter what I say now, you will never believe everything I say, because deep down in your heart, I am not a qualified father at all. The harm I have caused you over the years , you have no way to forget at all, I can understand, but anyway, you really shouldn't blame us for all the mistakes, is it really that we want to leave you wholeheartedly? If this is the case, then we will not come back to this home at all this time. If we sincerely don’t want to live with you, then we would rather spend our whole lives wandering outside and being homeless than going back to This family has come to suffer this kind of anger. When you speak to us, that tone is like a prisoner. We endure it again and again, for what purpose, so that everyone in this family can believe it We are sincerely coming back to this family. We are not pretending or pretending. All we want is a sincere acceptance. If you can really accept me sincerely, then I simply don’t know what to do. How happy you are, but you can't do it at all, because you are my son, and I know you too well. Your temper is really similar to mine. Some things will not be easily forgiven once they happen. But if you choose to forgive, it proves that you have other intentions. You have other things that you are planning. I believe that deep down in your heart, you actually think the same way. You never thought that we could be safe. Come back to this home, you don't need to say it, I understand, in fact, the harm I have caused you these years is simply impossible to calculate, but I never thought that one day the relationship between each other will become like this, But can you really understand the pain in my heart as a father? I really don't want such a thing to happen, and I just want everyone in the family to forgive me and be with me in peace of mind. I can sincerely accept that I come back to this home, not to deal with the outside world.
If one day you leave your hometown for decades, and you finally come back to this home after hard work, you find that when you come back to this home, everyone in the family is just dealing with you at that time. How painful it must be, you have never thought about it at all, and you have no way to experience this feeling, but I can understand it because I have experienced it once, and I got nothing in the end. Don't feel like I've received it now.Best punishment ever.Everything I want I can't get what I don't want But it's all forced on my head Do you know how hard I am and how painful I get from nightmares again and again.I woke up in a panic, my purpose is nothing else but I am afraid I am afraid that everyone in the family will be hurt, I just want to make myself happy, I just want everyone in the family to give him happiness, why is it so difficult
I admit that as a father, I have never seen the slightest bit of responsibility that I should do, as if I have brought you a lot of harm, but this is really not my original intention, I never thought of treating you like this at all, Once some things happen, I also know that there is no way to go, and your sister has no way to make everything as if it never happened. I have tried my best to make up for my mistakes. I have tried my best I want you to be happy, happy, happy.I'm a cow in this family, as long as I can make up for the resentment deep in your heart, as long as I can make up for the debts owed to you for the wrong things, it doesn't matter to me, but why should I pay? Everything is in your heart, but I can get nothing, I am nothing, so in your eyes, I am nothing? I am just a living person, and I have flesh and blood. I also hope that my family can forgive me. I treat it as a family, don't tell me time and time again that we are a family on the surface, but don't treat me as a family at all behind the scenes, he is an insult to me. "
"Why do you feel that it is an insult to treat you like this now? Then all the things you did to me at the beginning, isn't it a kind of debt or a kind of injury? Why do you only see yourself forever in your eyes? Your own interests will never be seen by others? When you do those things, are others really not hurt at all and not painful at all? He is not a saint, no one deserves to be hurt by you again and again, I I know, maybe in your father’s heart, we children should not choose to abandon you, we should not choose to keep you out, but think about the things you have done yourself, don’t you still have Can we forgive you?
No matter what happens in my life, I will never give people's hearts to others easily, because people's hearts really cannot be exchanged. I have said this sentence many times. This sentence is a real sentence. Even if I give Betrayed by family members, cheated by friends, betrayed by friends, betrayal? I have been forced out of the problem, I know that I have been hit hard mentally, I have no way to accept everything, so that I can live a happy and happy life like before, but I just want everyone to be able to Waiting calmly, you can give me some time to think about what I should do, but what about you, you just wanted to come back to this home as soon as you got out of the hospital, and it was you who made things step by step. Now, it’s you who pushed me to where I am today step by step. It’s you who made me what I am now. It’s out of control. It’s you who made me become insensitive. A person with flesh has become a person who is insensitive and does not measure anything with sincerity. In your eyes, what am I? I have given everything, but I just want to get something in exchange , I got nothing, because I can't exchange the sincerity of my parents for me. In the eyes of my parents, some people are not me at all, because they only have benefits in their eyes, just your so-called freedom. Where is my son? In your hearts, my son is nothing. My son can want whatever he wants. If he wants it, don’t just throw it away. But in the end, what I want is what I want. Everything is not like this at all, you have never considered what kind of ending I really want in my heart.
Perhaps this ending is what you want for you, but it is not what I want for me. What I want is a stable life, but you have destroyed what I should have most, a stable life, All of this is because of your appearance, which led to the current ending. You always feel that everything you pay is correct, and every decision we make is wrong. Are we really So damn do everything.Won't I get a right decision at all? You'll never understand, what should I do?
Now I don't need to come to you over and over again, but do you know that because of what you did, my son also suffered some injuries that were exactly the same as mine, and those injuries even surpassed mine Do you understand all the pain and suffering that he suffered back then? From the day he entered school, everyone laughed at him as a child without grandparents. His grandparents did not love her and abandoned him because He is not cute enough, but do you know how many times my son cried secretly because of this matter? Every time he comes home from school, he hugs my wife and says mom, is it really because I am not good enough? Is it because I am a boy and I am not cute and disobedient, so my grandparents chose not to want me, chose to continue living outside and didn’t want to come back to this house to see me? You know what happened at that moment? Parents, what kind of feeling do we have in our hearts? He is our child, but what is wrong with what he did? But what are you going to bring to my child? You don’t even think about it. But what kind of consequences will my son cause because of your actions? You only have eyes for everything you once wanted.
Now things have turned into what you want, shouldn’t you be very happy, satisfied and excited? Everything is because of your appearance, which has caused the current ending. How painful my son is now, Can you understand? For all the remaining injuries, all the pain, have you never thought about how you should make up for it? In fact, you have never thought about how to do all of this at all.
In your eyes, a relative is nothing but a person who can be hurt casually. In your eyes, even if a relative is hurt, no one can know how much pain he has.
Do you know that when I was young, when you were ridiculed by others, saying that I was a child without parents, my parents abandoned me and said that I was an orphan, you knew that deep down in my heart, I was also wrong. It was good, but I didn't cry, I was laughing all the time, because I saw a different future, I felt that I was a god, at that moment I decided that I must prove to everyone that I am The most powerful one.
In the daytime, when facing everyone, I was a bright child, but in the end, I was crying secretly in the dark alone, because I knew that I had no way to choose my own destiny, and all of this was done by God. A doomed ending, even if all this is the fate that I least want, but what can I do? I have given all these fates, and I prove that I can only accept this fate in my life, that I can only accept this fate in my life. To be able to survive in this way, I can only rely on unscrupulous methods time and time again to prove myself that I am the most correct person. Sometimes I don’t know how to cherish at all. When others treat me well, I don’t care. Know how to cherish, but your squandering and their kindness to me. All they see is my bright side. Of course, I also hope that my bright side can be seen by others. After all, happiness is something that can be shared, and Sadness is not something that can be shared. Sadness is always embedded in the indescribable burning in my heart. If that kind of sadness can be expressed, it is not called sadness. Sometimes I try to tell others about the panic in my heart. But often when I open my mouth, I don’t know what to say. In the end, I can only wave my hands and say something that you won’t understand. Do you know how helpless I feel?
From the moment you abandoned me, I knew that some things were destined to be achieved alone, and I couldn’t make a mistake just by saying it, and then I had to continue to correct it with words. The mistakes made because of words were too troublesome, so gradually I I have learned to be autistic, and I have learned not to tell others about anything. Over the past twenty years, I have really realized that I should be a quiet person, and at the same time, I should also be a person who will do whatever it takes to achieve my goal, but I I am a person who can talk too much. Every time, I always talk to myself silently by myself, because I am thinking, if my parents stand next to me, will he come? If you care about me, will you ask me what I did today and if I was bullied? But I hope that everything will be hollowed out once, and in the end I will become an unkind and insensitive person.
I like the thousands of lights in the dark night, because they always give me a sense of stability and warmth, but I am also afraid of the car lights coming from the sky in the dark night, I raised my hand to block my eyes in fear, very helpless Help, I am actually the most contradictory person, I am thinking again and again how I can continue to live a happy and happy life, I can rarely be quiet during the day, but we have almost nothing but quiet state, I always try to take away all the things deep in my heart, as if I have stolen it, the large glass can see the silent sky outside, I have always thought that I am the loneliest thing in the sky, because it is So huge that no one can hear his emotions, and no one can hear every word he said to her, it just stands there without saying a word, occasionally thundering and raining and throwing a tantrum , when my heart is most painful, I like to look at the sky, I look at the sky for a long time, because I hope the tears in my eye sockets can return to my own eye sockets to look silly, I am also used to sitting on the floor I was in a daze, holding a glass full of water in my hand. When I drank water, I could hear the sound coming from my throat, just like the screen in the computer. The sound of keyboard typing again and again, I should feel It's so beautiful, but I use this method to numb myself again and again, what can I get in the end? I can't let go of all my prejudices in my heart. For a while, I thought about waking up in the middle of the night What would it be like? I gradually sleepwalked. I sleepwalked to the lake. I sleepwalked until I jumped into the lake and drowned. How scared I was at that moment. I was afraid that I would never wake up again. Come on, I hope my parents can come back to save me and give me a little support, but in the end I got nothing.
Do you know that again and again I wake up in the middle of the night, sitting on the bed and listening to the noise of the rain outside, the smell of water molecules in the air and the simple fragrance rising from the soil, I I feel like I am on a small boat, I can see the ground converging to the buffalo, just like my time is flowing quietly, without any sound, sometimes I will go to the living room to see my grandpa Those fish, I saw that they were like a gorgeous silk satin when they were quiet, and I could condense the outside of the fish tank into water droplets one by one when it was cold, and I saw those water droplets getting bigger and bigger, and then along the turbulent Draw the track and stubbornly believe that it is the tears of fish. I like the bright wind in the daytime. In the wind, I can hear the sound of falling leaves, I can touch the sound of flowers, and I can think about the depths of my heart again and again What would be the most desired ending? I can imagine everything as before my own eyes. Who can experience that feeling?
When I was doing devil training in the mountains, I saw the goose-yellow daisies blooming all over the mountains and plains, and I saw the azaleas in full bloom in nature. Those bright yellows spread into the wind and were brought to the very high sky. After growing up, I still like the wind, because I think the emptiness and freedom in the wind are really something to be envied.
But later, after others explained to me, I have gradually lost the habit of looking at those things, but I still like the wind. When I turned into a concrete forest bit by bit in this city, looking at the As the second soil ball, I really can no longer call those soil balls mountains, because nature gives me simple and heavy feelings, happiness is gone, everything has turned into sadness, the roof of my house All the things on the website are gone, it was given to me by my grandfather, sometimes when I see all the dandelions that my grandfather gave me floating on my window sill, that kind of lonely, but at ease, I feel that dandelions My life is a kind of great realm, I have no complaints or regrets for my lonely wandering, maybe I can barely do it without complaints, but the state of no regrets is destined to be far away from me, when the twilight is surrounded by black winds in all directions, I sit quietly in the yard alone, I think about the road I want to walk every time, I am really afraid, because I really don't know what attitude I should use to walk, I should be left behind life.
Every time at night, my state is the calmest, but this really does not mean that I am really at ease. Now that I am like this, sometimes my thoughts will be very violent at night, just like under the moonlight The black sea, the surface is not disturbed, but the water is dark and intertwined. I always have all kinds of dreams. I have been thinking about what I should do to bring everything back to the original state. Sometimes I would struggle to wake up from a dream, and then gasp for a glass of water in the thick night, and then go to sleep, I was haunted by nightmares again and again, I woke up from my dreams again and again, I am afraid of the results I get time and time again, not everything I want, all because of the harm caused by you abandoning me at the beginning. Up to now, you have never thought about how much I am a descendant. The pain, everything you want in your eyes is just the most worthy thing in your heart.
I understand that youth is actually a beautiful sadness. I always remember this sentence, but youth without laughter is incomplete, and youth without tears is even more incomplete. Since I am destined to laugh and cry loudly, then I am more willing , I walk step by step to the road I least want to go, let myself live hard in my life, let all the wind sing with me, I am very grateful to God for giving me everything, I can walk to myself , very far
I'm actually a kid who looks up at the sky when I feel lonely, I look at that big sun, I look at that big moon, I see my neck hurts, I see tears in my eyes, it's true, I never say Any lies, but I looked up to the sky again and again, but in the end I couldn't get anything. I know how much pain I have in my heart.
I shuttled under the trance street lights again and again, because I knew that it would never be my shadow, it would never be what I was going through, because my life is not like this, I have to rely on my own efforts Walking out of a life that is different from others, I want to make my dreams never wake up. In the past and present lives, things are different, people are different, stars are changing, seas are changing, and a dream will never wake up for a thousand years.
In fact, parents, you should think that I am very funny. When I am alone, I always think subconsciously to get close to some people who are similar to me, because I remember that my blood is your blood. This is something that I have no way to change in my life, because of the harm you have brought to me, I have no way to forget it. I can't be indifferent, you hurt my family, I can be there again and again Patience, but can I really let go of everything? It doesn't mean what I did. It's all right. I think about what I want again and again. I want it again and again. I got a life that I can live happily, but in the end I got nothing.
In my most painful and difficult time, every book I saw was extreme or despicable, because I wanted to live like them, I wanted to force myself to become a man, I wanted to force myself to become Prove to my parents like everyone that I am not the worst person at all, I want everyone to know that I am doing everything right.There is no mistake at all, but what is the result I get in the end? I can only be like a quiet kapok in the end, and his words are like the ones that have been washed thousands of times from under the kapok tree forever Sunshine flows into my skin like spring water without delay. When I was in college, I saw what I wanted most. Well, I saw the words written by my teacher. I saw many things that could be compared with I will go with you to spread without obstacles and boundless, but I have no way to live happily there, because I live differently from others. I have sorrow, sadness and pain in my heart, and I have a family. The betrayal by others, the abandonment of my family members and my own parents have brought me heavy harm.
In the past few years, you have lived really happily outside. You don’t even know what you want, but you still hurt the things you want to cherish the most. You always feel that I am not easy to get hurt. But I am indeed a child who is particularly vulnerable to injuries. Even if I go out for a casual run, I will feel sore all over my body, but I have never cried once. I have used my own money and great tenacity to get to where I am today step by step , I just want to prove to my parents that every mistake I have ever made is not wrong at all, everything I have done is right, and I believe in everything I have done Things may not be the most perfect in your hearts, but I can really rely on my own efforts to prove that everything I do is correct. I will not bow to you, let alone those who once People who hurt themselves easily abandon everything they have, because that is not a good thing for themselves at all, and I have nothing to do.endure this ending.pain and injury to oneself.
Mom and Dad, can you understand my feeling? Do you know how distressed that feeling is? You can’t understand it at all, because you never thought about it, because you will never understand me. The way you want to send it is What, sometimes I have to admit that I am a big lake, a little wind can make me ups and downs. Many times, sorrow and joy without warning can drown me in an instant, and sometimes I like to be silent Squatting on the side of the road, I watched the leaves of the sycamore tree fall one by one, covering the whole earth.
Zhang Yichen was always thinking about how he would feel if he left him one day, and if something happened to his grandfather there one day, then his grandson would leave in the end What kind of road he will take, he can't predetermine. What he fears most in his heart is losing his closest relatives. He is afraid that he will lose old man Zhang.
Sometimes when you think about it slowly, losing may not be the most terrible thing. What is terrible is that she is obviously by your side, but in order to get revenge on you, she is not you in her heart and is still lingering with others.
Zhang Zhentian sees his son's worried look every day. How can his inner world not be uncomfortable, but he has no choice. He knows what his son's deepest worries are, and as a father, he has no way to replace him. To share, as a father, you should wait here silently, you should not pursue all the past things, you should live happily, and don't take all the faults on yourself, that will only make you live happily Very tired.
"Yichen, my parents can tell what you are thinking just by looking at your expression, no matter what kind of thoughts you have in your heart, but please remember that family members can never be separated, no matter how much you have Hate, Mom and Dad hope that we will come back to this home and block your eyes in front of your eyes, but since we have come back, please try to accept us, I believe we will treat you sincerely, we The sincerity is not based on words, it is proved by actions. We will try our best to make up for the harm we caused you in the past. If there is no way to make up for it, let us be father and son again in the next life. At that time, I must love you well. Give you double compensation for everything that is owed to you in this life
Maybe you don't believe in the world at all, but every time we are together, there is a kind of resistance deep in your heart, and you are very clear in your heart, just like myself, I have no way to put Forget all the mistakes, because I know it is really hard to forget the past, unless there is something wrong with your brain, unless you really have amnesia
Every child has pressure deep in his heart. No matter how big or small the pressure is, you must always look forward to life. You can't just hide from the pressure you have to face, because you can't hide from it, everyone Everyone has their own way to go, no matter how far or how far the journey is, everyone will be under different pressures, why should they let their minds know that they can be very happy because of those pressures, but because of some small things, they let their own life I become so irritable, that way I will drive a person crazy step by step, if you really drive yourself crazy, then what about my grandpa and what about us? You should also think about us when you do things People's feelings, don't treat us as saints, we can't be indifferent, we always love our children sincerely, even if one day you really don't want us to come back to this home and stay by your side, but we I still love you, and we will still silently guard you behind you, because you are my son, and my only son is the greatest pride of my life."
"Father, in fact, I have thought about it many times. Can people's hearts really be changed? So, why should I be passionate
Even if I take others seriously, but in their eyes, I am nothing, I am just a person who can throw away casually, no one cares about my feelings
Dad, in fact, sometimes I understand better than anyone else what kind of feeling it is. That kind of feeling is simply a pain in the heart. No one will care about you. He will only know what you have experienced. Look forward, because in his eyes you are nothing, you are not the person he cares about most at all, he can abandon you casually, you think such a person lives in this world What's the point? Sometimes I just don't understand what people live in this world for.
Living is so painful, so tiring, you will never get what you want, no matter how much effort you put in, no matter what you have experienced in your life, no one cares about how you feel, he He will only follow his heart, he will hurt you if he wants to hurt you, because he doesn't have you in his heart, he can hurt you casually, this kind of feeling, what do you think is alive in this world? What does it mean? I really don’t understand why I chose such an ending. I took out the depths of my heart again and again to show others, but what was the result I got in the end? Others ignored me Time and time again they regard my sincerity as a donkey's liver and lungs, time and time again they treat all the feelings I have given as bubbles, do I mean nothing in their eyes?
You are my father, in fact, you understand better than anyone else in your heart, how much pain is in my heart, how difficult it is for me to get to where I am today step by step, all I have achieved is all on my own I got it through hard work, but in the end what did I get in exchange? I took it step by step, step by step, it was just a written mark, how much blood I shed, how many tears I shed, how much I suffered, and what I went through. How much torture, devil-like training I have never cried, because I know that even if I cry, no one will care about me, because crying can't solve any problems, even if I cry all day long, who will care What have I experienced in the depths of my heart? What everyone wants is not like this. Never compare people's hearts with others, because people's hearts are incomparable. Even if you dig out your heart and show it to him In his eyes, it's just your childish behavior, he won't look at your willfulness at all, because deep in his heart, there is nothing in your heart that you can't compare to what she wants.In his eyes, only interests are the longest.
I didn't understand what that sentence meant until now. There are no eternal friends in this world, only eternal interests. The so-called friends are nothing in front of interests, because he doesn't care about these things at all. The only thing I care about is money, and money can trump everything else. Money can make ghosts work. If this is the case, then we earn so much money, whether it is for ourselves or for others in the end, I can't understand why I am doing this now, I do What is the purpose of every decision I make? Everything I bring is brought to the person I love the most.What kind of harm? I have never thought about what I did, what kind of consequences it will cause, because deep down in my heart, as long as my family is happy, it is more important to me than anything else. Now I saw how painful my grandpa is. Is it really not uncomfortable in the depths of my heart? No, and I have nothing to do, because you are my parents, no matter how much you have done to grandpa. As a junior, I don't have any qualifications to give pointers to what you have done
But you are my father, there are some things I should tell you as a son, no matter what, you should take good care of grandpa, don’t call him your father, even if he has not been by your side for so many years. , never gave you love, but she gave me all the love for you, which proves that he still really loves you as a son deep in his heart, why you can never see what he received as a father All the pain and suffering is not what he wants at all. For him, as long as he can be happy, happy, as long as his son can be happy, she thinks it is more important than anything else, but your worldview does not include him at all. in it.
In the past, no matter what the reasons were, you and your mother chose to abandon me, grandpa, the whole family, and the interests of the whole family. I will not say anything to you now, because I don’t think there is any That is necessary, there are some things you should make your own decisions, that is your right, I have no right to interfere with the mistakes you have made in the past, since you have chosen to return to this home now, it proves that Deep down in your heart, you still really want to live with your family members, so don’t do anything to make grandpa sad, don’t make her cry anymore, I know you are just going to apologize to grandpa, what I said Sometimes it may be a bit too much, but I can't help it.
In the depths of my heart, as parents, you are not as important to me as my grandfather, because my grandfather gave me everything, and it is he who has cultivated me into a talent, and made me achieve what I am today, no matter what No matter what the reason is, you have no reason to hurt her. Whoever dares to hurt grandpa is tantamount to the end of being my enemy and my enemy. I want to wipe out all the enemies who are my enemies, no matter who they are I will do whatever it takes to achieve my goal.I will do whatever it takes, I have become insensitive now, I will not stand by and let others hurt us like I used to.
No one knows all the pain we have gone through, and after every heart-piercing cry, who can know what we have gone through, driving ourselves crazy again and again, driving ourselves to a dead end, In the end, you can't get anything, because in your own eyes, no matter what you do, others won't get it at all, and others won't care. Even if you give everything, what can you do? You are nothing, maybe everyone is like this, when he has it, he will choose to hurt again and again, until he really loses it, he will know that he should cherish that person, but all the regrets It's useless at all, not everyone can forgive you, because everyone's ending is fundamentally different, even if you give everything, so what, even if you sincerely want to keep others by your side In this way, others will not care about you at all, let alone what you have experienced, he will only follow his heart. "
Xia Jing, listening to her son say these words to her husband, he felt really ashamed in those depths, what did he do as a mother for so many years to make his son become what he is now? You seem to be so ruthless and merciless in doing anything, is it true that in the eyes of your son, you as a mother are nothing? Can you hurt casually? He became just an inhuman module, casually abandoned his son in their eyes, he was nothing, maybe he knew that the culprit was himself who made all of this what it is now , who can blame others
"Yichen, I feel that as a mother, I am really ashamed of you, but I have told you more than once about some things. You can't blame your father for this matter, because he is innocent at all, and he is also innocent. I don’t want this kind of thing to happen to us. What he wants is that our family can live a stable life. Everything is caused by me. Why do you want to force you again and again? Father came to make any promises to you, and any apology would have no effect at all. He has sincerely repented. He has sincerely wanted to come to this family and why you people just can’t see him forever. your regret
Now in your eyes, I can't see your respect for us as parents at all. You never thought about keeping us in your family, because all you want is your own heart It’s just a bit of torture in the depths, because you feel that the most important thing is that you can live happily. In the past, we gave you a lot of harm. I understand that the harm is also, and it is impossible to resolve it with a few words casually, but What I want is not such an ending at all, I just want everyone to be at ease.
I even thought, if one day I leave this world, will you let go of your prejudice against your father, if one day I really have no way to continue living here, will you have a slightly different opinion of your father? Be a little better, everything is caused by my fault, why did you blame all the faults on your father, you never cared about your father's inner thoughts, have you ever thought about him When he was interrogated by his son again and again, how much he loved you in his heart. As a son, every time he spoke to him, he was like a prisoner. How could he feel better in his heart, but he chose to do nothing. Said, because he respects you, respects every decision you make, and respects every word you say. Because of this, shouldn't you reflect on whether your actions are right or wrong? Your father is not your prisoner, and this is not a prison. This is a warm family. If a family can only live like a prison, then returning to this family is better than staying in a prison. There are at least some people in the prison. He can continue to live if he has meat, at least he won't be forced to continue interrogating him like a prisoner all the time. You keep doing this again and again.
Did you ever think about your father’s feelings when you did this? Did you ever think about all the public opinion and pressure he would face? What you care about is only money and interests, just like you said that people’s hearts are incomparable. When you gave your heart to your father, you chose not to believe your father because all you believed in was money and not your family. I will be sincere to you because you are already scared, just because of the mistake we made to you once, you told us to reject us three times and four times, we have never hated you at all, because you are my son , no matter how much you do to your parents.Mistake, how big a mistake we make is that we will not blame you at all. On the contrary, we will still love you well. It is precisely because of our reasons that we have caused such a distorted psychology to you, and we feel even more guilty deep in our hearts. , But haven't you thought about where you're going to put us in by doing this? Time and time again you take us for nothing.Why are we not saints? We also hope that our family members can forgive us, understand us, and understand our painstaking efforts. When we come here to pray to return to this home, what do you think of me as a beggar? Just give alms Let us stay at home one point. During this period of time in this home, we have done all the housework and housework, but what is the final result? Have you ever thought about what we should do? Have you ever thought about it, because you You are really more selfish than anyone else, you always think that what you do is right, but in the end, you find out that everything you do is wrong.”
It was the first time for Xia Jing to speak to his son in this tone. He always felt that he owed his son. No matter what, he could not lose his temper with his son, let alone speak in a fierce tone, because In this way, he is afraid that his son will have a deeper misunderstanding of him. He wants his son to realize that he, as a mother, really wants him at home. He wants his son to understand that he knows how to be a mother. No matter how many mistakes you have made, but now I really just hope that this family can live a stable and happy life, but now I can't control my temper this time, and I am angry with my son again. Knowing what my children think about me as a mother, don't I even have any credibility?
"Yichen, don't worry too much, your mother didn't mean that, and he didn't mean to talk to you in such a tone, she was just too anxious to control her temper, in fact, you also understand your My mother is a straightforward person, she has a sharp mouth and a bean curd heart. Everything he does is for the good of everyone in the family. I hope you don’t take it to heart. Our family lives happily, why? I have to go around and around, and it turns out that it makes everyone in the family sad? Our happy life is the best ending for everyone, and we don't want to be as casual as before. Conflicts happen casually, and don't quarrel casually like before, lest everyone in the family will be confused, and no one can work with peace of mind. It's not a good result. Now we just want to stay in this home safely. I hope you can trust us and don't be suspicious of us over and over again. Even if you really doubt me, shouldn't you believe me? We once? Even once is fine, people’s hearts will change, even if you used to distrust us, but now we are really coming back, is it impossible for you to even try to give us a little bit of the most basic trust? "
"Give you trust, even if I have given you trust, what is the most important thing? Behind giving you trust is to let you use the trust I gave you to hurt me again and again? In fact, I really can't do it. I have worked very hard. I am controlling all my tempers, but you challenge me again and again, my bottom line, everyone has a bottom line, I did say that people’s hearts are incomparable, and I also thought that I would show my heart to you What is it like, I also want you to know that as a son, I really want to accept you, but I really can’t forget all the pain you brought me. I’m not a saint, I think Many times, my own relatives abandoned me again and again, for what reason? No matter how poor or tired I am, I have never thought of abandoning my children, grandpa, or the whole family. I didn't even abandon the interests of the whole family, but what about you, you actually chose to abandon the interests of the whole family just for a little freedom, just for your so-called vanity. In my eyes, it’s nothing. All you want is to be able to fly happily outside in the sky. You’ve been flying outside for so many years. What do you think you’ve gotten hurt again and again and beaten back again and again
In the end, you still can only choose to go back to this family and pray for the family to take you in. Do you think this is really fun, or do you think that the family can hurt you casually, and can challenge the family again and again? The bottom line of human beings, but you are really wrong, we really can't do it once, and treat you like this again, in other words, you should think about it, how much grandpa has paid for you over the years, he has silently paid attention How many times have you, do you know? But you have never thought that he is a father deep in his heart. When facing his son's abandonment again and again, does his heart really not hurt? She worked so hard to raise her The older child abandoned the father who raised her for so many years for the sake of so-called freedom. What do you think my grandpa thinks deep in his heart? You can’t understand it. Grandpa and I just shut you out , you can’t take it anymore, so what about the harm you have brought to grandpa? Did he say a word? He never resented you. On the contrary, he still bet all your love for you. On me, because he felt that he kicked you out of the house, I'm sorry you let you have a home and can't go back, this is the biggest mistake of his life and the thing he regrets the most in his life.
But you have never repented of everything you do, you don’t even know what you want to be together, what is the result, you always feel that you hurt your loved ones again and again is something to be happy about, It's a very happy thing, but you have forgotten, even if you regard everything as the most important person again and again, how can you never feel that a person is treated by another person in the depths of your heart? What kind of feeling does it feel to be hurt by a person? It is indeed very happy to live without heart and lungs, but when a person becomes heart and lungs, how tiring he must live, because the most heart and lungs for him That person has become heartless when he has heart and lungs, what kind of heavy do you think this feeling, this kind of blow is?
Dad, I didn't think about coming here to say anything to you, but I hope you can think about it carefully, can you think about what kind of ending you really want, you really thought about this kind of ending is Do you want it? You have returned to this family now, but the ending? You still chose to hurt everyone in the family. In your eyes, everyone in the family can be hurt at will. Have you ever thought about everyone in the family? What kind of ending will come in exchange for one person, deep in your heart, all you want is a sentence of condolences from your family.But you have forgotten that the people in your family are the ones who need your care and love the most. You tell everyone in your family time and time again with such cruel facts that you don’t deserve to be forgiven by your family members. Said, I should let me speak to you in what tone, I know that as a son, I really shouldn't say these words to you like this, but at the moment when I saw my grandpa crying, deep down in my heart really There is no way to bear it, I saw her crying, do you know how much my heart hurts, he is my grandfather, he was with me through the most difficult and helpless time Years, where were you at that time and now you are back, what right do you have to hate him, what right do you have to hurt her, you hurt a person who loves me the most, who can give everything for me, don’t you do this Are you hitting me in the face on purpose?
In fact, when you were doing these things, you didn't think about the serious consequences of this matter at all. What you want is just the little hope in your heart, but you forget that I am a living person, and I also have Feelings have a soul, I also have love, I also have emotions when I hate, I can't worry about everything over and over again for a little thing, but I can't bear anyone to hurt me Grandpa, he has really paid a lot for me. I really hope you can truly understand how much my grandpa has paid for me. If you still have a little bit of a lady deep in your heart, then please Tell me well, what exactly do you want now, if you want three grandpas, I’m so sorry, I can invite you out right now, so you don’t have to think about going back to this home for the rest of your life because People in this family do not welcome you. If you came back just for revenge, for the things that shut you out at the beginning, then you have done it now, because of everyone in the family, because of what you did, because Your return has been received.Hurting you should be happy now, why are you still so sad, you pretend to be so pitiful, why are people in our family here to sympathize with you, and how do you treat us behind the sympathy for you? Sincerely treat you as family members, and these things have to bring you back to this family, but what you have done has chilled our hearts.
Do you know why I say people’s hearts are incomparable? Because when our family gave you their hearts, how did you repay us? You hurt grandpa and made him suffer so much. I thought that I could live happily , but I have no choice, I really can't learn, I can't learn your ruthlessness, I can't learn your ruthlessness, I can't learn that you do things without scruples, I can't learn you at all You are cruel, do you know how tired I am, how painful my life is, I will never learn your kind of happiness, because you can laugh heartlessly, but I can't, because I have a grandpa , I want to think about it for grandpa, I want to let grandpa know that I am the one who loves her the most, I want to let grandpa know that even if everyone in the world doesn't want her, I will still be by her side He, I am the one who will never abandon him in this life. I will let grandpa understand that I am the best and only support in his life.
You don't understand how much grandpa hurts when he is admitted to the hospital again and again. She also hopes that she can get the love of her son and daughter-in-law. Where were you at that time when grandpa was sent to the hospital by you? , you can only choose to avoid it, because you dare not come back, you are afraid that I will get angry with you, because what you have done hurts grandpa, the person I love the most, you have no way to explain everything to me, so You choose.Can escaping and escaping really solve things? It is simply impossible. Everything you do has never thought about the consequences and what kind of blow it will bring to you. What you want is just the little profit in front of you. You have chosen to harm the people in your own family, even if it is your own expectations, you can harm them without any scruples.If it were someone else, they would not know how many times you have been sued to the court, but grandpa didn't do this, he cared about the face of the family, not to mention you are his children, he can't be so cruel, but you as children How can you be so ruthless, abandon your father casually, and hurt everyone in the family casually? In your eyes, are the family members really so worthless? Or do you think Soaring into the sky is really that important, even if you fly into the sky, how can you fly higher and die faster.
You have flown into the sky more than once, you have flown into the sky again and again, what is the final outcome? You have never got the ending you wanted, on the contrary, you have flown into the sky again and again, and finally you were thrown hard Come down, don’t you fall hurt enough? Why do you always heal the scars and forget the pain? Why do you never think about whether your actions will bring bad consequences? Why don’t you think about it? Let’s see if what you are doing is right or wrong? Don’t live so selfishly. You think it’s your own life. It really doesn’t do you any good, and it doesn’t have any benefits. All you do, In the end, those who hurt are only those who care about you and love you the most. You have never thought about how much grandpa hurts deep in your heart. I beg you to hold your hands high and let grandpa go. I really can't bear to shed any tears when Grandpa came to ask you.
I have lived with my grandpa for so many years, I never thought of letting her shed a tear, because I know that he loves me sincerely, he will do everything for me, everyone can give everything, but why don't you Yes, why are you always so selfish in your actions, why are you never able to consider my feelings? I am your son, your relative, and the only child in your life. Am I not yours? Proud, shouldn't you be proud of my achievements? I have to admit that all my achievements are thanks to you. If you hadn't abandoned me cruelly, how could I be what I am now? If it weren't for you, I would be like this How could it be possible to undergo the devil's training again and again without shedding a tear? If it weren't for you, why would I be able to smile after being ridiculed by everyone else, because I am trying to make myself happy, and I want to make everyone happy See, no matter how hard and tiring my life is, I can always face the future with a smile, because my future is up to me, and I will never rely on anyone, because I understand that the ending of relying on anyone is not at all. Will get the ending, that way will make my life very tiring, even if I pin all my hopes on others, will others really give me hope? I can't stand up, come strong, I can only let myself know, and I can only let everyone believe that people's hearts should never be compared with people's hearts, because people's hearts cannot be exchanged for people's hearts. This is the most basic truth. I used to I tried to change the hearts of many people with human hearts, but in the end, what I got was hurt again and again. I got nothing and nothing. Now I can't believe what I should do to make it all better. As painful and sad as before, I really don’t want much, just a few simple things, but in the eyes of everyone, I don’t get anything at all, because what you see in your eyes Everything is completely different from what I see, we all have different points of view, you are my parents, I really hope you will think twice and stop doing anything that hurts everyone in the family, that is for you Saying it doesn't make any sense, and it doesn't do any good.
If I find out in the future that you have hurt grandpa and made everyone in the family feel sad and miserable, then I am really sorry, and I will definitely kick you out of the house. I can't stand my parents coming back to do evil and threatening Fu, I came back to this home not to comfort myself, not to protect myself, but to everyone in the family. This is really unacceptable to me. I can't achieve such an ending. You know, I I am a proud person, I have no way to let go of my self-esteem, and forgive everything again and again, but when I let go of all my dignity to let you, please cherish this opportunity, otherwise we will For the rest of my life, there is really no way for you to return to this family. If you come back again and again, if it only brings harm to the family, I think it will be the best ending if you don’t come back. If you come back, you can only let the family Pain then why should I choose to make you happy.Let the family members be sad and painful? Have you ever given me love and companionship? The person I have the most is my grandpa. How could I give up my family for my own selfishness? Let grandpa be happy. Go on. , the reason.How can I do these things, how can I make it so sad, so painful, so difficult"
Zhang Zhentian really doesn't know how to explain to his son now. As a father, no matter how he explains, he is a bad person in the eyes of his son, and he wants to come back and hurt her casually. People and themselves have never really thought about it this way. What you want is just a simple thing. What you want is to make everyone in the family happy and happy.
But do these things I do really make everyone in the family feel happy? In fact, I don’t have my own ideas, and I also hurt many people in the family. I never thought about myself in everything I did. What kind of results will it bring to the family, I am always so selfish, if I can really find a kind of forget you grass in this world, but how happy I should be, I will never have to go again Thinking about these things that make me sad, I can live heartlessly forever, and I will never think about being popular in this family. Now that I have chosen this path, what can I do about this matter? I have to go on the road alone no matter what. Even if the road is too difficult, I can only go on like this. Never think about comparing people's hearts with others. This sentence is still reasonable. Even if I give everything In the end, you may not be able to get others to treat you sincerely. Maybe others will give you a fatal blow in the back, driving you into the abyss of hell forever, and you will never be able to turn over again. Everything is nothing but the consequences of what I did.
Maybe I really did something wrong this time, and what I did may really hurt my father. If I heard my son say that his father shed tears this time, then I am really a son. Is it so different? I can casually make my father shed sad tears because of my own words, so how much failure must this son have to make his father sigh like this, This is what a son should do, so that his father will never underestimate him like this, so that he, a son, can stay by his side with peace of mind, and never think about everything he does What kind of ending will I get, but I always think about walking all these paths regardless of the consequences.
Every time I make a mistake, I will know that the mistakes I made are unforgivable. What I want is just a stable life, but I get nothing in the end. Instead, I hurt those people. The person who loves me the most, what I have done is simply outrageous, if time can really be restarted for myself, I will definitely not leave so easily, so even if you want to leave yourself, you will pull yourself, My son left with his family. Even if he wants to wander around the world, everyone will be together. That is a family. But now this family has been torn apart by him, and there is no way to get back together. What should I do? In order to bring all this back to the original state, what kind of ending should I get for my actions? Time and time again, I have forgotten how many times I have done wrong things, my son Already numb by his own injury, he no longer knows what distressing is, because deep in his heart, he feels that all he wants is that his father can return to him, and he is now Returning to her side, but in the end, I still failed to bring him any love and care, which brought him a lot of pain. I have never done a right thing in everything I did. Could it be that I am a father? Is it so bad? Not only does he not have any care for his son, but on the contrary for his father, all of them are hurting himself. What should the parents of the children do to make this not so sad? Do it yourself Why can everything never get the perfect ending? Is it really just because I gave up that they made it all end like this? I don’t know how many times I have reflected on what I should do Only by doing can I bring all this back to the original state, but I really have no way to do it. I have no way to change everything in the past, because everything has become a foregone conclusion, no matter how much I pay, what can I do? I can't get a sincere heart for everything, even if I want to live happily and happily, and want my family not to be harmed, but I still unintentionally hurt the people I care about the most, those who The person who cares most about himself.
Maybe I am not suitable for living in this family at all. Every time I live in this family, I will always bring painful injuries to my family members again and again. I have never done any good things. Who knows how many bad things have happened, all the pain, only you know how big a mistake you have made in your heart, and you can get what you end up with again and again, so what if you regret it, others don't Will forgive you, even if others say they forgive you, deep down in their hearts, they don't even think about forgiving you, he will only deal with you again and again.
Never give a trust, just quietly give it all, because after giving all the trust, in the end you may only get hurt, because he is not waiting for your heart wholeheartedly, it is just a simple Simple things, she wants to get to the bottom of his heart, she never thought about being with you, nor did he think about giving you the best comfort, all she wants is to deal with you again and again How to make all this look like what he wanted in his heart, everything he did was just the price he paid by unscrupulous means to achieve his goal.
"My child, I know that as a father, no matter what I say now, you will never believe everything I say, because deep down in your heart, I am not a qualified father at all. The harm I have caused you over the years , you have no way to forget at all, I can understand, but anyway, you really shouldn't blame us for all the mistakes, is it really that we want to leave you wholeheartedly? If this is the case, then we will not come back to this home at all this time. If we sincerely don’t want to live with you, then we would rather spend our whole lives wandering outside and being homeless than going back to This family has come to suffer this kind of anger. When you speak to us, that tone is like a prisoner. We endure it again and again, for what purpose, so that everyone in this family can believe it We are sincerely coming back to this family. We are not pretending or pretending. All we want is a sincere acceptance. If you can really accept me sincerely, then I simply don’t know what to do. How happy you are, but you can't do it at all, because you are my son, and I know you too well. Your temper is really similar to mine. Some things will not be easily forgiven once they happen. But if you choose to forgive, it proves that you have other intentions. You have other things that you are planning. I believe that deep down in your heart, you actually think the same way. You never thought that we could be safe. Come back to this home, you don't need to say it, I understand, in fact, the harm I have caused you these years is simply impossible to calculate, but I never thought that one day the relationship between each other will become like this, But can you really understand the pain in my heart as a father? I really don't want such a thing to happen, and I just want everyone in the family to forgive me and be with me in peace of mind. I can sincerely accept that I come back to this home, not to deal with the outside world.
If one day you leave your hometown for decades, and you finally come back to this home after hard work, you find that when you come back to this home, everyone in the family is just dealing with you at that time. How painful it must be, you have never thought about it at all, and you have no way to experience this feeling, but I can understand it because I have experienced it once, and I got nothing in the end. Don't feel like I've received it now.Best punishment ever.Everything I want I can't get what I don't want But it's all forced on my head Do you know how hard I am and how painful I get from nightmares again and again.I woke up in a panic, my purpose is nothing else but I am afraid I am afraid that everyone in the family will be hurt, I just want to make myself happy, I just want everyone in the family to give him happiness, why is it so difficult
I admit that as a father, I have never seen the slightest bit of responsibility that I should do, as if I have brought you a lot of harm, but this is really not my original intention, I never thought of treating you like this at all, Once some things happen, I also know that there is no way to go, and your sister has no way to make everything as if it never happened. I have tried my best to make up for my mistakes. I have tried my best I want you to be happy, happy, happy.I'm a cow in this family, as long as I can make up for the resentment deep in your heart, as long as I can make up for the debts owed to you for the wrong things, it doesn't matter to me, but why should I pay? Everything is in your heart, but I can get nothing, I am nothing, so in your eyes, I am nothing? I am just a living person, and I have flesh and blood. I also hope that my family can forgive me. I treat it as a family, don't tell me time and time again that we are a family on the surface, but don't treat me as a family at all behind the scenes, he is an insult to me. "
"Why do you feel that it is an insult to treat you like this now? Then all the things you did to me at the beginning, isn't it a kind of debt or a kind of injury? Why do you only see yourself forever in your eyes? Your own interests will never be seen by others? When you do those things, are others really not hurt at all and not painful at all? He is not a saint, no one deserves to be hurt by you again and again, I I know, maybe in your father’s heart, we children should not choose to abandon you, we should not choose to keep you out, but think about the things you have done yourself, don’t you still have Can we forgive you?
No matter what happens in my life, I will never give people's hearts to others easily, because people's hearts really cannot be exchanged. I have said this sentence many times. This sentence is a real sentence. Even if I give Betrayed by family members, cheated by friends, betrayed by friends, betrayal? I have been forced out of the problem, I know that I have been hit hard mentally, I have no way to accept everything, so that I can live a happy and happy life like before, but I just want everyone to be able to Waiting calmly, you can give me some time to think about what I should do, but what about you, you just wanted to come back to this home as soon as you got out of the hospital, and it was you who made things step by step. Now, it’s you who pushed me to where I am today step by step. It’s you who made me what I am now. It’s out of control. It’s you who made me become insensitive. A person with flesh has become a person who is insensitive and does not measure anything with sincerity. In your eyes, what am I? I have given everything, but I just want to get something in exchange , I got nothing, because I can't exchange the sincerity of my parents for me. In the eyes of my parents, some people are not me at all, because they only have benefits in their eyes, just your so-called freedom. Where is my son? In your hearts, my son is nothing. My son can want whatever he wants. If he wants it, don’t just throw it away. But in the end, what I want is what I want. Everything is not like this at all, you have never considered what kind of ending I really want in my heart.
Perhaps this ending is what you want for you, but it is not what I want for me. What I want is a stable life, but you have destroyed what I should have most, a stable life, All of this is because of your appearance, which led to the current ending. You always feel that everything you pay is correct, and every decision we make is wrong. Are we really So damn do everything.Won't I get a right decision at all? You'll never understand, what should I do?
Now I don't need to come to you over and over again, but do you know that because of what you did, my son also suffered some injuries that were exactly the same as mine, and those injuries even surpassed mine Do you understand all the pain and suffering that he suffered back then? From the day he entered school, everyone laughed at him as a child without grandparents. His grandparents did not love her and abandoned him because He is not cute enough, but do you know how many times my son cried secretly because of this matter? Every time he comes home from school, he hugs my wife and says mom, is it really because I am not good enough? Is it because I am a boy and I am not cute and disobedient, so my grandparents chose not to want me, chose to continue living outside and didn’t want to come back to this house to see me? You know what happened at that moment? Parents, what kind of feeling do we have in our hearts? He is our child, but what is wrong with what he did? But what are you going to bring to my child? You don’t even think about it. But what kind of consequences will my son cause because of your actions? You only have eyes for everything you once wanted.
Now things have turned into what you want, shouldn’t you be very happy, satisfied and excited? Everything is because of your appearance, which has caused the current ending. How painful my son is now, Can you understand? For all the remaining injuries, all the pain, have you never thought about how you should make up for it? In fact, you have never thought about how to do all of this at all.
In your eyes, a relative is nothing but a person who can be hurt casually. In your eyes, even if a relative is hurt, no one can know how much pain he has.
Do you know that when I was young, when you were ridiculed by others, saying that I was a child without parents, my parents abandoned me and said that I was an orphan, you knew that deep down in my heart, I was also wrong. It was good, but I didn't cry, I was laughing all the time, because I saw a different future, I felt that I was a god, at that moment I decided that I must prove to everyone that I am The most powerful one.
In the daytime, when facing everyone, I was a bright child, but in the end, I was crying secretly in the dark alone, because I knew that I had no way to choose my own destiny, and all of this was done by God. A doomed ending, even if all this is the fate that I least want, but what can I do? I have given all these fates, and I prove that I can only accept this fate in my life, that I can only accept this fate in my life. To be able to survive in this way, I can only rely on unscrupulous methods time and time again to prove myself that I am the most correct person. Sometimes I don’t know how to cherish at all. When others treat me well, I don’t care. Know how to cherish, but your squandering and their kindness to me. All they see is my bright side. Of course, I also hope that my bright side can be seen by others. After all, happiness is something that can be shared, and Sadness is not something that can be shared. Sadness is always embedded in the indescribable burning in my heart. If that kind of sadness can be expressed, it is not called sadness. Sometimes I try to tell others about the panic in my heart. But often when I open my mouth, I don’t know what to say. In the end, I can only wave my hands and say something that you won’t understand. Do you know how helpless I feel?
From the moment you abandoned me, I knew that some things were destined to be achieved alone, and I couldn’t make a mistake just by saying it, and then I had to continue to correct it with words. The mistakes made because of words were too troublesome, so gradually I I have learned to be autistic, and I have learned not to tell others about anything. Over the past twenty years, I have really realized that I should be a quiet person, and at the same time, I should also be a person who will do whatever it takes to achieve my goal, but I I am a person who can talk too much. Every time, I always talk to myself silently by myself, because I am thinking, if my parents stand next to me, will he come? If you care about me, will you ask me what I did today and if I was bullied? But I hope that everything will be hollowed out once, and in the end I will become an unkind and insensitive person.
I like the thousands of lights in the dark night, because they always give me a sense of stability and warmth, but I am also afraid of the car lights coming from the sky in the dark night, I raised my hand to block my eyes in fear, very helpless Help, I am actually the most contradictory person, I am thinking again and again how I can continue to live a happy and happy life, I can rarely be quiet during the day, but we have almost nothing but quiet state, I always try to take away all the things deep in my heart, as if I have stolen it, the large glass can see the silent sky outside, I have always thought that I am the loneliest thing in the sky, because it is So huge that no one can hear his emotions, and no one can hear every word he said to her, it just stands there without saying a word, occasionally thundering and raining and throwing a tantrum , when my heart is most painful, I like to look at the sky, I look at the sky for a long time, because I hope the tears in my eye sockets can return to my own eye sockets to look silly, I am also used to sitting on the floor I was in a daze, holding a glass full of water in my hand. When I drank water, I could hear the sound coming from my throat, just like the screen in the computer. The sound of keyboard typing again and again, I should feel It's so beautiful, but I use this method to numb myself again and again, what can I get in the end? I can't let go of all my prejudices in my heart. For a while, I thought about waking up in the middle of the night What would it be like? I gradually sleepwalked. I sleepwalked to the lake. I sleepwalked until I jumped into the lake and drowned. How scared I was at that moment. I was afraid that I would never wake up again. Come on, I hope my parents can come back to save me and give me a little support, but in the end I got nothing.
Do you know that again and again I wake up in the middle of the night, sitting on the bed and listening to the noise of the rain outside, the smell of water molecules in the air and the simple fragrance rising from the soil, I I feel like I am on a small boat, I can see the ground converging to the buffalo, just like my time is flowing quietly, without any sound, sometimes I will go to the living room to see my grandpa Those fish, I saw that they were like a gorgeous silk satin when they were quiet, and I could condense the outside of the fish tank into water droplets one by one when it was cold, and I saw those water droplets getting bigger and bigger, and then along the turbulent Draw the track and stubbornly believe that it is the tears of fish. I like the bright wind in the daytime. In the wind, I can hear the sound of falling leaves, I can touch the sound of flowers, and I can think about the depths of my heart again and again What would be the most desired ending? I can imagine everything as before my own eyes. Who can experience that feeling?
When I was doing devil training in the mountains, I saw the goose-yellow daisies blooming all over the mountains and plains, and I saw the azaleas in full bloom in nature. Those bright yellows spread into the wind and were brought to the very high sky. After growing up, I still like the wind, because I think the emptiness and freedom in the wind are really something to be envied.
But later, after others explained to me, I have gradually lost the habit of looking at those things, but I still like the wind. When I turned into a concrete forest bit by bit in this city, looking at the As the second soil ball, I really can no longer call those soil balls mountains, because nature gives me simple and heavy feelings, happiness is gone, everything has turned into sadness, the roof of my house All the things on the website are gone, it was given to me by my grandfather, sometimes when I see all the dandelions that my grandfather gave me floating on my window sill, that kind of lonely, but at ease, I feel that dandelions My life is a kind of great realm, I have no complaints or regrets for my lonely wandering, maybe I can barely do it without complaints, but the state of no regrets is destined to be far away from me, when the twilight is surrounded by black winds in all directions, I sit quietly in the yard alone, I think about the road I want to walk every time, I am really afraid, because I really don't know what attitude I should use to walk, I should be left behind life.
Every time at night, my state is the calmest, but this really does not mean that I am really at ease. Now that I am like this, sometimes my thoughts will be very violent at night, just like under the moonlight The black sea, the surface is not disturbed, but the water is dark and intertwined. I always have all kinds of dreams. I have been thinking about what I should do to bring everything back to the original state. Sometimes I would struggle to wake up from a dream, and then gasp for a glass of water in the thick night, and then go to sleep, I was haunted by nightmares again and again, I woke up from my dreams again and again, I am afraid of the results I get time and time again, not everything I want, all because of the harm caused by you abandoning me at the beginning. Up to now, you have never thought about how much I am a descendant. The pain, everything you want in your eyes is just the most worthy thing in your heart.
I understand that youth is actually a beautiful sadness. I always remember this sentence, but youth without laughter is incomplete, and youth without tears is even more incomplete. Since I am destined to laugh and cry loudly, then I am more willing , I walk step by step to the road I least want to go, let myself live hard in my life, let all the wind sing with me, I am very grateful to God for giving me everything, I can walk to myself , very far
I'm actually a kid who looks up at the sky when I feel lonely, I look at that big sun, I look at that big moon, I see my neck hurts, I see tears in my eyes, it's true, I never say Any lies, but I looked up to the sky again and again, but in the end I couldn't get anything. I know how much pain I have in my heart.
I shuttled under the trance street lights again and again, because I knew that it would never be my shadow, it would never be what I was going through, because my life is not like this, I have to rely on my own efforts Walking out of a life that is different from others, I want to make my dreams never wake up. In the past and present lives, things are different, people are different, stars are changing, seas are changing, and a dream will never wake up for a thousand years.
In fact, parents, you should think that I am very funny. When I am alone, I always think subconsciously to get close to some people who are similar to me, because I remember that my blood is your blood. This is something that I have no way to change in my life, because of the harm you have brought to me, I have no way to forget it. I can't be indifferent, you hurt my family, I can be there again and again Patience, but can I really let go of everything? It doesn't mean what I did. It's all right. I think about what I want again and again. I want it again and again. I got a life that I can live happily, but in the end I got nothing.
In my most painful and difficult time, every book I saw was extreme or despicable, because I wanted to live like them, I wanted to force myself to become a man, I wanted to force myself to become Prove to my parents like everyone that I am not the worst person at all, I want everyone to know that I am doing everything right.There is no mistake at all, but what is the result I get in the end? I can only be like a quiet kapok in the end, and his words are like the ones that have been washed thousands of times from under the kapok tree forever Sunshine flows into my skin like spring water without delay. When I was in college, I saw what I wanted most. Well, I saw the words written by my teacher. I saw many things that could be compared with I will go with you to spread without obstacles and boundless, but I have no way to live happily there, because I live differently from others. I have sorrow, sadness and pain in my heart, and I have a family. The betrayal by others, the abandonment of my family members and my own parents have brought me heavy harm.
In the past few years, you have lived really happily outside. You don’t even know what you want, but you still hurt the things you want to cherish the most. You always feel that I am not easy to get hurt. But I am indeed a child who is particularly vulnerable to injuries. Even if I go out for a casual run, I will feel sore all over my body, but I have never cried once. I have used my own money and great tenacity to get to where I am today step by step , I just want to prove to my parents that every mistake I have ever made is not wrong at all, everything I have done is right, and I believe in everything I have done Things may not be the most perfect in your hearts, but I can really rely on my own efforts to prove that everything I do is correct. I will not bow to you, let alone those who once People who hurt themselves easily abandon everything they have, because that is not a good thing for themselves at all, and I have nothing to do.endure this ending.pain and injury to oneself.
Mom and Dad, can you understand my feeling? Do you know how distressed that feeling is? You can’t understand it at all, because you never thought about it, because you will never understand me. The way you want to send it is What, sometimes I have to admit that I am a big lake, a little wind can make me ups and downs. Many times, sorrow and joy without warning can drown me in an instant, and sometimes I like to be silent Squatting on the side of the road, I watched the leaves of the sycamore tree fall one by one, covering the whole earth.
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