I Want to Hang Around in the Moon

After going through Le Zhengling's words twice in his mind, Matthew finally understood what Le Zhengling said.

"You, you said you died at such a young age?" Ordinary children like Matthew's age may not have a clear understanding of the concept of death and premature death, but they clearly understand what's going on with them, and they have long been Matthew, who told herself that she couldn't survive, clearly understood what Le Zhengting said.

"That's right, I was killed when I was 13 years old—well, although this death is a bit watery, at least from the perspective of normal people, it is impossible to wake up from a vegetative state, which has been confirmed for death."

Le Zhengling shrugged and talked about his situation with an expression that showed no emotional fluctuations at all. After all, the soul and body were separated, and that state was no different from death.

"By the way, Matthew, how do you view death?" Although he was talking about his own affairs just now, in order not to make the atmosphere too heavy for Matthew, he kindly changed the subject.

Otherwise, this conversation would turn into an awkward chat in minutes.

As for Matthew, who has been living in Chaldea, her only hobby is reading all kinds of books. She may not even have as much knowledge as her, and life and death, as a matter of literary works or humanities, are enduring. If you want to talk about the topic of decline, Matthew's knowledge in this area is quite sufficient.

"Well, my opinion? Well, well, death is a bliss, a bliss of great depth . be liberated."

Matthew replied in a confused but pious tone.

"Thomas Mann's famous quote? Well, sure enough, you are very optimistic, little eggplant... Is it because you already know your own death date, so you are not afraid?"

Le Zhengling finally understands why Matthew is afraid of fighting, but still chooses to fight, because she has a bravery that she doesn't have, and this bravery has existed since she was a child, and it belongs only to her.

The unknown is the scariest thing, and the known, even death, becomes less scary after getting used to it.

"Are you afraid of death?" Matthew looked at Le Zhengling who had fallen into silence with uneasy eyes.

"Scared, even though I've died twice, I'm still scared." Le Zhengling looked away and looked at the lights on the ceiling.

The blazing white light was a bit dazzling, just like the moment when the first death suddenly came that year.

"What does it feel like to die?" Matthew felt a familiar breath from the person in front of her. She often felt this breath—every time she woke up from a deep sleep, this breath would slowly dissipate.

This is the breath of death, she is no stranger to death all year round.

"Does it feel? Maybe it's very bright and hot, or very dark and cold?" Le Zhengling's two death experiences are different, the only thing in common is that it happened suddenly?

"Is it bright and hot, or is it dark and cold?" Matthew repeated in doubt.

"Well, being burned to death and losing too much blood, these are my two experiences." Le Zhengling looked away calmly, and followed Fufu's guidance to slowly walk towards Da Vinci's workshop.

"Are you afraid?" Matthew followed him like a little follower, asking cautiously.

"Of course I'm afraid. The sudden accident didn't take my life all at once, but watched me die slowly. If I really want to say it, I should be the part of the world who is most afraid of death, right?"

"Because I don't lose my life in an instant, but I watch my life go by bit by bit, and at the same time I am longing for a miracle. To be honest, Matthew, dying all at once may not be so scary, because the consciousness and body are in an instant. Disappeared together, but my experience was that when I was conscious, I was constantly struggling to feel the pain of the body and the violent fluctuations in emotions, clearly waiting for death to come step by step, which is more painful than death.”

Talking about his misfortune, Le Zhengling suddenly laughed.

Matthew, who saw this smile, shivered for no reason. She felt that something was broken in this person. If she used the book she had read to describe it, it was——Despair is a disease that leads to death.

It is not death that the man fears, but despair.

People's ability to accept is the foundation of human evolution. Accept and adapt, adapt and then think, think to get a solution, and continue to make progress. Even if there is no solution now, the conclusion left will be turned into experience and left to others. .

Did this person die without having time to accept the experience left by others (seeing the death of others)?Or did you not accept it even though you saw it?

Little Matthew looked at Le Zhengling thinking about this question that she had never gotten an answer to in her life, and her heart was full of confusion.

In the past, she always chose to ask Professor Leif for questions she didn’t understand. In her opinion, Professor Leif is more knowledgeable than doctors, because doctors can’t answer many questions, while Professor Leif can explain them in detail. Tell her the answer, and at the same time lead her to think about more questions.

It can be said that Professor Leif taught her a lot of knowledge.Of course, it doesn't mean that doctors don't understand anything. Dr. Roman has very unique insights on the special issues of death and life.

Even her ability to accept the time of her own death so calmly is due to Dr. Roman's thorough view of the life course shown when chatting with her.

Matthew felt that Le Zhengling should go and talk to the doctor. After the chat, she believed that this person would not be so scared.

"Then what did you do to become a Heroic Spirit?" Matthew decided to persuade Le Zhengling to go to the doctor later, because if he appeared at the doctor's side now, he always felt like he was throwing himself into a trap.

"Matthew, you are all mistaken, I am not actually a heroic spirit." Le Zhengling suddenly extended his right hand to Matthew.

Mash looked at the hand suspiciously, then looked at Le Zhengling's face, not understanding what the other party was going to do.

"Try to touch and see." Le Zhengling turned his palm up, motioning for Matthew to put his hand on it.

Although Matthew was puzzled, she did not hesitate. She stretched out her hand and placed it carefully on Le Zhengling's palm.

When touching Le Zhengling's hand, Ma Xiu couldn't help shivering because - that hand was very cold.

Chapter 180 You Who Gendered the Mona Lisa

Matthew resisted the urge to withdraw her hand. Although she was taken aback, she found that she didn't hate the cold feeling.

"Excuse me, with this body temperature, are you sick?" Matthew stretched out her other hand anxiously, covering Le Zhengling's palm up and down, trying to warm it up.

There was a slight fluctuation in Le Zhengling's eyes, watching Matthew's movement, he quickly withdrew his hand.

"Matthew, you really... No, forget it. For you now, it's too early to say this." Le Zhengling looked at the bewildered Matthew with complicated eyes, and finally smiled and shook his head. Shake your head.

Matthew looked at Le Zhengling in confusion, she felt that the unfinished words just now seemed very important to her.

In order to cover up his gaffe, and to prevent Matthew from asking, Le Zhengling continued to speak.

"I'm not sick, because I don't have a body. The me you see now is actually the embodiment of my soul." Le Zhengling thought for a while, and slowly explained to her.

"My state is different from that of Da Vinci. If you want to come to Matthew, you have had physical contact with Da Vinci. Da Vinci's body should be the same as that of a normal person. Does it have body temperature?"

Matthew nodded. Sometimes, it was Da Vinci who helped her adjust her body. She had several physical contacts and she clearly remembered that Da Vinci had body temperature.

"But I am different. At the very beginning, I said that I am not a heroic spirit. My current state is actually the state when my body died. I lost too much blood and died. My soul remembered that state at the end. , so after manifesting a body capable of contacting the outside world, it is cold."