I Have Crossed Over, but You Are The Second Week?

However, this kind of her, Subaru, who fell into pain and despair because of this kind of her, regarded her as the last straw in his life, and regarded her as the most important light that could redeem himself.

Similarly, Ram also knew.

In fact, Natsuki Subaru has never changed, he has always been the one who is willing to give for others.

Regardless of whether he never denied killing Ram after that, he chose to attack Roswaal's mansion, killed Roswaal, and destroyed everything she had ever been.

The purpose of all this is just to enable her to kill him without any scruples or psychological burdens.

Natsuki Subaru knew that everything he did was wrong, Natsuki Subaru knew that his life was irreversible, and Natsuki Subaru knew what the end of his life was that he longed for.

And Natsuki Subaru also knew...

"Ram, you are the most gentle person in this world..."

Ram is despicable, selfish, and ugly, but the same is true for Natsuki Subaru.

"I'm also a selfish person. Whether it's killing Roswaal, destroying the mansion, or imprisoning you, it's all my selfishness and ugliness."

Suddenly, in Ram's eyes, the Subaru hugging her in front of her eyes and the Subaru in her memory overlapped.With that thin body, tired look, and neck full of strangle marks, Ram realized that they... have always been the same person.

"For me, Ram is the most gentle person. For me, such a Ram will be my salvation. For me...everything Ram does is to save me."

"Barros..."

"Ram."

Subaru let go of Ram gently, put his hands on her shoulders, and looked at her tenderly, his expression was full of tenderness and love.

"You are Ram, and I am Subaru Natsuki. We are all selfish people, we are all people full of self-loathing and wanting to be redeemed. From the beginning, no one is right or wrong, right?"

"Whether it's the past, the future, the pain, or the happiness... let us bear it all together."

"It's not about forgetting, nor about escaping, but about carrying these things on and moving forward."

"Because... I have always liked Ram!"

For the first time, it was no longer Ram who took the initiative to seduce her, nor was it Ram who took the initiative to approach her, but Subaru...

Subaru kissed Ram on the lips.

'Ahhh, I'm so stupid...Maybe, it's true.No more running away, if two people are together, even if I am like this, I can be happy...'

Ram closed his eyes.

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It was a once glorious and majestic palace, the palace where Subaru Natsuki, known as the King of Suppression, lived, which could not be ignored by any country or force.

Under the attack of the Four Kingdoms and the Juggernaut, the Hall of Demons has long since become a dilapidated ruin from a palace that anyone had to look up to.

The war has long since ended, and with the huge sacrifices made, the former 'Palace of Demons' has been completely annihilated and destroyed, and the former owner of the Temple of Demons has long since died.

Walking among the ruins called 'Pandemonium', Reinhardt was looking for it.

He is looking for his former friend, later enemy, and the master of the Temple of Demons.He is looking for someone who needs to be 'saved', the witch of the dragon god, the silver-haired half-elf.He was looking for the pink-haired maid who was imprisoned in the mansion of Roswaal Mezzas.

Pass the hall, pass the ruined throne, pass the long corridor, and come to the deepest dwelling.

That was the bedroom of the 'Suppressing King' Natsuki Subaru. The gorgeously decorated and luxurious bedroom was still dilapidated, with scattered books and destroyed furniture everywhere. In the deepest part of the room, where the wall should have been, there was a A passage leading deeper.

Reinhardt knew that the person he was looking for was actually there.

After hesitating for a moment, Reinhardt walked into it. With the fire in his hand, the room called the secret room came into Reinhardt's eyes, and in it lay three people who had already lost their lives. figure.

"Pleiades……"

Reinhardt came to Natsuki Subaru and squatted down with a complicated expression.

"It really is……"

"To end like this, is it such a happy thing for you..."

Subaru Natsuki, who was lying on his back on the ground, was not as painful as the death that Reinhardt had seen in the war, but showed a reassuring, happy smile that made people unable to even complain. .

Beside him were Ram who died holding his hand and Emilia who committed suicide.

It seems that, no matter in life or after death, these three people are all together and have never been separated.Perhaps long before everything happened, the fate of the three had already been entangled.

Chapter 228 Relationship with Ram

(I really don't know how to change it, the original text is in the group, the group verifies 'Miss System')

What is the relationship between Ram and Subaru Natsuki?

After hearing Emilia speak about his own future named 'King of Purging', Subaru once thought about it once, and at that time he thought that it was just a simple, enemy relationship.

Although I don't know why he should be the cruel "King of Purging", he just imprisoned Ram who wanted to kill him instead of completely solving it, but Subaru didn't think too much at the time, and even exaggerated. Ram is a love-hate guess for him.

And now, Subaru once again thought about his relationship with Ram, what kind of relationship should the two of them have in the 'future'?

Enemy?Maybe it was an enemy, Ram thought he was the murderer who killed his sister, and wanted to kill him for revenge.And he became a cruel existence named 'Purge King' during Ram's pursuit.

But is it really an enemy?no...

Natsuki Subaru, who became the "Purge King", didn't do anything to Ram, he just imprisoned her. If it was really an enemy, shouldn't he kill Ram in the first place?

So...the relationship between the two is not actually an enemy, is it?

However, if it is not an enemy, then what kind of relationship is there between them?

Ram hated Natsuki Subaru and wanted to kill Natsuki Subaru, and also killed Natsuki Subaru.However, after being reborn, the hatred of the past disappeared like smoke, getting close to him, caring for him, liking him, everything seemed to be the lover of a girl named Ram.

With such contradictory feelings, Subaru had no way to go deep, no way to probe into the deepest root.

However, there is one thing Subaru knows, that is, Ram is fearful, regretful, and tortures himself non-stop.Subaru couldn't ignore her appearance as if she was stuck in a deep abyss and wanted to leave but couldn't.

She couldn't leave, she wanted to leave, she couldn't leave... Ram liked him, but at the same time, she was afraid of his liking.

"I'm...just a mean woman."

"certainly not--!"

Subaru rushed forward recklessly, no longer trying to estimate Ram's evasion, no longer paying attention to Ram's resistance, he forcefully pushed Ram into his arms, only the arms around Ram seemed to want to Exhausting all his strength, let Ram and himself become one.

"Rahm, it's not that kind of woman."

"Barus...wouldn't understand..."

"I know!"

Subaru interrupted Ram, feeling the warmth of Ram in his arms, feeling the touch that belonged to Ram, Subaru said loudly: "Of course I will understand!"

"Lam's gentleness, Ram's kindness, and Ram's strength, I understand everything!"

"I knew it... I knew it from the beginning."

Subaru hugged Ram, and as if exhausting all his strength, he spoke to Ram from the bottom of his heart.

"I've known it from the very beginning, the future named 'King of Purging'..."

"Barus, you know?"

Ram, who was hugged by Subaru, raised her head slightly, showing a slightly dumb expression for the first time.After Subaru came back here and came to her, she actually knew, Subaru must have learned from Emilia, the future called "Suppressing King", what she did to him The future of the irreparable thing.

In fact, Ram has been terrified and avoiding those things.

After rebirth, whether she actively wants to change the future, get close to Subaru, or establish a romantic relationship with Subaru, all of them are her behaviors that she wants to avoid, forget, and hide. It's like self-protection. .

The closer she gets to Subaru, the more she enjoys contact with Subaru like lovers, and the more she shows her liking for Subaru, the more she will be able to distance herself from everything in the 'past'.Deep down, she might think so.

Therefore, her love for Subaru is actually not pure, her love and closeness to Subaru are actually only for the satisfaction of herself, to make herself feel at ease.

And Emilia's words told her that no matter what she did, that 'past' could not be escaped, and no matter how hard she tried, that 'past' was a fault she could not ignore.All she does is in vain, all she does is complacency.

What liking Subaru, what making up for Subaru, what loving Subaru, what she could do for Subaru, all of them... were just her selfish actions to satisfy herself and make herself feel at ease.

In the final analysis, it was just a despicable woman who wanted to escape the mistakes she made, and made what seemed like compensation.

Is such a love full of impurities really love?Can such distorted feelings really be accepted?

Ram knew it, he should have known it from the beginning, it was... a feeling that could not be accepted.

but……

"I know!"

Subaru told Ram that he knew it from the beginning.

"I eavesdropped on the conversation between Emilia and Parker, and I knew it from the very beginning, the future called 'Purge King'."

"Whether it's about Rem, about Ram, about Emilia, or about me, I knew everything from the beginning!"

"I don't care about that kind of thing at all. Whether it's the past or the future, if you take the things that have passed, let them go. If you take the things that haven't happened in the future, you can change them."

"I like you and want to be with you, isn't that enough?"

"Different……"

Ram shook his head.

"It's different..."

"That kind of thing, how could it be said to be in the past..."

Ram broke free from Subaru's embrace, tremblingly raised his hands, trying to touch Subaru, but retracted like an electric shock.Just touching Subaru, she seemed to return to that day again, the touch that took Subaru's life in her hand, which made her feel scared and flinched.

"These hands... that is, I use these hands..."

Looking at Subaru's neck, Ram felt that it was so beautiful there, there was not a single trace of superfluous damage to the seamless neck, and there were no strangle marks caused by her being pressed in the snow in her countless dreams.

"During this time, every night...every night I would have the same dream."

"Barus is lying on the cold ground, and I... use these hands, without hesitation, to hold you..."

"That was just a dream."

Subaru objected.

"That's not a dream at all!"

Ram cried out in pain.

"That's not a dream at all..."