I Have Crossed Over, but You Are The Second Week?

"How could it be like what you said, I tried...I really tried..."

"I want to forget, to escape, to be with you, Barus, to start a new life... But, I can't escape at all."

"These hands, the hands that have done something irreversible to you, and I... have no choice but to stay by your side."

"...That's not the case."

Subaru stepped forward and grabbed Ram's wrist, and said with a firm expression while placing Ram's hands around his neck to fix them.

"It's not like this, it's like now, Ram, would you do that?"

"No, this is enough!"

Regardless of Ram's resistance, Subaru dragged Ram into his arms together, and said in a strong tone, "I will never let you go."

"And, if you can't escape, then just don't escape!"

"Don't... escape?"

"Ah, that's right, as long as you don't run away, it's fine, right?"

"Rahm, the fact that you killed Natsuki Subaru will not be forgotten, nor will it be erased. It will always be remembered in your heart, and at the same time, it will always be remembered in my heart."

"However, as long as this is the case, you are Ram, and I am Subaru Natsuki. Let's bear this kind of thing together, bear the fact that I was killed, and continue to move forward with this fact. Just go down!"

Ram looked at Subaru blankly, she couldn't imagine what kind of consciousness Subaru had to say such things, she didn't dare to think about them at all.

"But, it's too painful..."

"No, that's definitely not a painful thing!"

Subaru refuted Ram, his tone was firm, and his expression suggested, as if he was speaking the truth.

"I am Subaru Natsuki. Even Subaru Natsuki who is called 'King of Purging' is just Subaru Natsuki, so I understand him, and at the same time, I understand you too."

Maybe it was a fantasy, or a hallucination, Subaru seemed to have crossed time and space, and saw the "Purge King" who once sat on the throne of the Pantheon.

At that moment, he seemed to see the 'future', and seemed to be thinking about the 'past'.

He seemed to see the innocent people killed by him, as if he saw the living people who hated him and terrified him, Emilia who was 'imprisoned' in the room, seemed to see the people who were placed in the room Ram in the dark room seemed to have seen everything over there, and also seemed to have experienced the final death.

He is Natsuki Subaru, and the 'Suppressing King' is Natsuki Subaru, even though he hasn't experienced what the 'Supporting King' has experienced, even if he can't feel the pain that the 'Suppressing King' has experienced.

But he believed that in that body, in the deepest part of his heart, the essence belonging to Subaru Natsuki must have never changed.

"For everything that Ram has done, I believe that the 'future' me must meet death with satisfaction and gratitude!"

"Barros..."

Listening to Subaru's words, Ram's stiff body seemed to become difficult to move, and she leaned weakly in Subaru's arms, as if she had returned to that day, the last day in the 'Pandemonium' over and over again.

"Finally... have the idea of ​​seeking death... Balus."

Those were the last words she said to him, and all she was greeted with was silence.However, she knew at that time, she knew the thoughts of Subaru who had already become the "King of Purging", she knew that the so-called death was actually a satisfying relief for him.

She knew it, and killing him with her own hands was what he had longed for...Salvation.

"I believe, Ram, you must have saved me..."

Holding Ram tightly in his arms, Subaru said softly.

"Natsuki Subaru will always be Natsuki Subaru, no matter how it changes, I believe the essence of his heart is the same, and I... can understand it."

"That me must have fallen into the abyss long ago. It's an abyss of darkness, loneliness, and despair."

"And I believe that for me, you, Ram, must be the only light among them, and you must be the most important person to me."

Is this really the case?Perhaps, it was like what Subaru said?

For Ram, at first she just couldn't accept the death of her sister, so she vented all her pain and hatred on Subaru.

She knew it, she knew it from the beginning.

She was just making trouble for no reason, she was just venting her pain on Subaru, she was just doing despicable things.

However, this kind of her, Subaru, who fell into pain and despair because of this kind of her, regarded her as the last straw in his life, and regarded her as the most important light that could redeem himself.

Similarly, Ram also knew.

In fact, Natsuki Subaru has never changed, he has always been the one who is willing to give for others.

Regardless of whether he never denied killing Ram after that, he chose to attack Roswaal's mansion, killed Roswaal, and destroyed everything she had ever been.

The purpose of all this is just to enable her to kill him without any scruples or psychological burdens.

Natsuki Subaru knew that everything he did was wrong, Natsuki Subaru knew that his life was irreversible, and Natsuki Subaru knew what the end of his life was that he longed for.

And Natsuki Subaru also knew...

"Ram, you are the most gentle person in this world..."

Ram is despicable, selfish, and ugly, but the same is true for Natsuki Subaru.

"I'm also a selfish person. Whether it's killing Roswaal, destroying the mansion, or imprisoning you, it's all my selfishness and ugliness."

Suddenly, in Ram's eyes, the Subaru hugging her in front of her eyes and the Subaru in her memory overlapped.With that thin body, tired look, and neck full of strangle marks, Ram realized that they... have always been the same person.

"For me, Ram is the most gentle person. For me, such a Ram will be my salvation. For me...everything Ram does is to save me."

"Barros..."

"Ram."

Subaru let go of Ram gently, put his hands on her shoulders, and looked at her tenderly, his expression was full of tenderness and love.

"You are Ram, and I am Subaru Natsuki. We are all selfish people, we are all people full of self-loathing and wanting to be redeemed. From the beginning, no one is right or wrong, right?"

"Whether it's the past, the future, the pain, or the happiness... let us bear it all together."

"It's not about forgetting, nor about escaping, but about carrying these things on and moving forward."

"Because... I have always liked Ram!"

For the first time, it was no longer Ram who took the initiative to seduce her, nor was it Ram who took the initiative to approach her, but Subaru...

Subaru kissed Ram on the lips.

'Ahhh, I'm so stupid...Maybe, it's true.No more running away, if two people are together, even if I am like this, I can be happy...'

Ram closed his eyes.

........................

It was a once glorious and majestic palace, the palace where Subaru Natsuki, known as the King of Suppression, lived, which could not be ignored by any country or force.

Under the attack of the Four Kingdoms and the Juggernaut, the Hall of Demons has long since become a dilapidated ruin from a palace that anyone had to look up to.

The war has long since ended, and with the huge sacrifices made, the former 'Palace of Demons' has been completely annihilated and destroyed, and the former owner of the Temple of Demons has long since died.

Walking among the ruins called 'Pandemonium', Reinhardt was looking for it.

He is looking for his former friend, later enemy, and the master of the Temple of Demons.He is looking for someone who needs to be 'saved', the witch of the dragon god, the silver-haired half-elf.He was looking for the pink-haired maid who was imprisoned in the mansion of Roswaal Mezzas.

Pass the hall, pass the ruined throne, pass the long corridor, and come to the deepest dwelling.

That was the bedroom of the 'Suppressing King' Natsuki Subaru. The gorgeously decorated and luxurious bedroom was still dilapidated, with scattered books and destroyed furniture everywhere. In the deepest part of the room, where the wall should have been, there was a A passage leading deeper.

Reinhardt knew that the person he was looking for was actually there.

After hesitating for a moment, Reinhardt walked into it. With the fire in his hand, the room called the secret room came into Reinhardt's eyes, and in it lay three people who had already lost their lives. figure.

"Pleiades……"

Reinhardt came to Natsuki Subaru and squatted down with a complicated expression.

"It really is……"

"To end like this, is it such a happy thing for you..."

Subaru Natsuki, who was lying on his back on the ground, was not as painful as the death that Reinhardt had seen in the war, but showed a reassuring, happy smile that made people unable to even complain. .

Beside him were Ram who died holding his hand and Emilia who committed suicide.

It seems that, no matter in life or after death, these three people are all together and have never been separated.Perhaps long before everything happened, the fate of the three had already been entangled.

Chapter 229 Emilia's Self-loathing

During the day, Emilia went to the Karsten mansion of Crusch's family, because Crusch didn't hide from her the intention of subjugating the monster Moby Dick, and there was also a man in it who wanted Subaru to have it. The idea of ​​merit, so Emilia wanted to offer her opinion to Crusch.

She didn't know when Subaru would come back, or even if Subaru would come back. The worry in her heart always kept her awake at night, and the fear of being rejected made her afraid that she would drift away from Subaru again.

However, she can only hope that Subaru can come back and appear by her side again, so she wants before Subaru returns, just like Crusch wanted to pave the way for Subaru to become the future king, yes Emilia, who had no intention of becoming a king for a long time, also hoped that she could do something for Subaru.

"It is claimed that the information about the white whale and the strategy of the crusade are all provided by Lord Subaru..."

Sitting on the sofa in the reception room, Crusch nodded in understanding when he heard Emilia's suggestion.

"It's indeed a very good idea, and I actually have thoughts about it."

"Even before rebirth, when I prepared a large number of weapons and soldiers, I thought I was ready to attack the white whale, but I still fell into a hard fight. If Subaru-sama hadn't discovered the characteristics of the white whale, that At that time, I am afraid that I am going to the end that Phyllis knows."

"Phyllis?"

Emilia repeated the name of Felice with some confusion. She knew Felice. As a famous water magician in the capital, she is also the strongest user of healing magic. She also invited The other party went to Roswaal's mansion to examine Subaru's body.

Although Crusch didn't mention Felice when he introduced himself, Anastasia and Priscilla before, but now Emilia thinks about Felice's strange request to be alone with Subaru , she still had some guesses.

"Ferris, are you also a 'reborn' like Crusch?"

"It is indeed a 'reborn', but the 'future' she experienced is different from you and me, and because of some complicated reasons, she didn't mention this to you at the time."

Crusch briefly explained what happened to Felice, but Emilia, who knew about the 'future' that Felice had experienced, fell into a brief silence.

"Phyllis, she has experienced such a thing..."

It's not like Rem or Crusch, who have good memories that are commendable and can be said with a smile. On the contrary, Felice's experience is similar to hers, and they are all types full of regrets.

"The turning point of whether we can successfully hunt down the white whale is whether Lord Subaru is in the team I plan to hunt down the white whale. In the future that Felice has experienced, Subaru is not in it, and in the future I have experienced , the reason why the white whale was successfully subjugated is also thanks to Lord Subaru."

"So, under the circumstances that all the staff only know some basic information about the Beluga Whale, as you said, Emilia, in the name of Subaru, release all kinds of information about the Beluga Whale and what needs to be paid attention to. In terms of matters, even if Subaru is not in the team, his merits will not be lacking."

Crusch tapped his fingers on the table while thinking about how to implement Emilia's plan.She needs to find a suitable opportunity to release the news, and also needs to convince others that the news was indeed provided by Emilia's knight Subaru Natsuki.

And the most important thing is to reflect that Subaru Natsuki's act of providing information about the monster Moby Dick is not Emilia's instigation, but Subaru Natsuki's own willingness to provide information on his own initiative.

If it is considered by others to be Emilia's instruction, then no matter what role the information provided by Subaru in the crusade against the monster Moby Dick has played, and what kind of achievements he has obtained, it will be counted as love in the end. Milia's head.Compared to Subaru, more people just think that Emilia's side played a vital role in Crusch's crusade against the monsters.