you at that time

This month, the atmosphere at home was very strange and heavy. At first they would persuade me, educate me, and let me eat more, but later it turned into sympathy and pleading.

I can't eat, and I can't help it.

I have been waiting, I think my mother will take the initiative to care about me, she knows why I became like this, a belief that she loves me very much, made me persist for a few days.

Finally, one afternoon, my mother came to me and said she wanted to have a good chat with me.

She opened her mouth and asked, "Is it because of Xu Qiu?"

Perhaps because she was afraid that I would be even more upset, her words were light and gentle, as if she was treating a paper doll that would collapse at the first blow.

I lowered my head and hummed softly.

She knowingly asked: "You broke up?"

I hummed again.

She went on to test: "Is it okay to go abroad with your parents? Forget everything here, and let's start a new life."

I shook my head: "No, I don't want to go."

She frowned and touched my head, a tear fell from her eyes, and she sighed softly: "Why are you bothering, my mother just talked to her, and she broke up with you immediately, explaining She doesn't love you."

I raised my head, met her eyes, choked up and said, "But I love her."

I stood up, went to the room and took out my diary.

The title page is Rose's diary.

It is a flip-book notebook. At that time, I bought this kind of notebook in case there was a supplement in the future. I didn’t expect that it would be convenient for me in this way in the end.

Everything went according to plan, I took down everything I shouldn't have seen, and handed the rest to my mother.

"You probably don't know." I watched her turn to the first page, which showed my 14th birthday: "I've liked her for eight years."

My mom looked up at me in surprise, as if recalling the possibility of this happening at the time.

She turned the pages without saying a word, and I sat quietly watching her turn the pages. It was all about me and Jian Xuqiu, and it was all about our affairs in the past few years.

She reads the diary very carefully, and I see her very carefully. After she closed the diary, I added: "This is not all."

She sighed: "I didn't expect..."

She stopped talking.

I don't know if she wanted to say that she didn't expect me to like her for so long, or she wanted to say that we have always been like this.

We just sat quietly without talking, she repeatedly rubbed the English letters in my diary, I stared at her nails, the living room was deadly quiet.

After a long time, I finally couldn't help calling her: "Mom..."

She came back to her senses immediately, and sighed a little: "I see."

She finally raised her head: "I don't care about you."

I pursed my lips for a few seconds and laughed.

She glanced at me, threw the diary into my arms, and said blamingly, "I haven't seen you smile for so many days."

I said, "Thank you, Mom."

She knocked on my head: "Eat more dinner, look at how skinny you are."

I nodded: "Got it."

Chapter 58

I feel like I'm going to be sick these days.

After Lu Sui got out of my car that day, I turned on my phone and found that she had blocked all my contact information.

I panicked even though she had told me to wait for her just seconds ago and she was trying to figure it out.

With trembling hands, I went through all the contact information, and all the messages I sent to her were lost.

Xiaoli's mother-in-law hasn't come home yet, so she will come to accompany me these days whenever she is free. I told her what happened that day, and she asked me what I didn't know, and finally stopped mentioning this time.

I took out a tissue and wiped my mouth, and saw Xiaoli walking towards me in the mirror, she patted my back to please me, shook her head helplessly, and asked, "Why are you vomiting like this?"

I shook my head, dragged my weak head and lowered my head to wash my face: "I don't know."

Lu Sui hasn't contacted me for half a month. During the past half month, I couldn't eat well or sleep well. I felt bored and often vomited.

Xiaoli handed me a piece of paper: "Those who didn't know thought you were pregnant."

I propped up my smiling face and gave her a laugh twice: "It's okay."

She asked me, "Do you want to see a doctor?"

I waved my hand: "No need."

She sighed: "Look at you, you were beaten to death by a kid, Sui Sui too, if you don't make it clear, you will be separated, and you will be asked to wait, when will it be?"

This classmate actually blamed her idol because of me, and I showed a look of admiration.

Seeing that there was something strange about me, she wondered, "What the hell?"

I shook my head: "I didn't expect you to say Xiaohehe behind your back."

She hooked my hand: "I'm closer to you."

I nodded, and before I could respond, I gān gān again, and she immediately patted my back twice.

Maybe she took what I said just now as encouragement, and she said a few more words: "It's true, kid. If you like it, you will chase you desperately. If you have any problems, just leave without saying anything. Let's talk about everything." Discuss." She said and patted me on the back again: "Do you think you are worth it?"

I turned to look at her and replied leisurely: "If I say it's worth it, will you hit me?"

She pouted, looked at me and said, "I've never seen you like this before."

I replied: "I'm old, my body is not good."