Secret (GL) + Spoiler

That Shen Juan led Gu Shuge by the hand, and they left with their backs to her.

The sound is getting farther and farther.

"Okay, Xiaoge said, I'll listen."

"Once upon a time there was a hardworking and kind farmer..." Gu Shuge's voice was childish and clear.

They were one big and one small, walking in the setting sun, and the street trees on both sides were extraordinarily tall.

Shen Juan woke up, her face was full of tears, she sat up, turned on the light, stared blankly at the position around her, and repeatedly recalled the scene in her dream in her mind.

This was when Xiaoge was in the third grade. She was in the third grade that year, and she was in the same school as Xiaoge.She goes to school together, leaves school together, and on the way home from school, Xiao Ge will tell her everything that happened in school, and if she is praised by the teacher, she must tell her, and she must tell her that she has scored [-] points in the test.

That year, Xiaoge was nine years old. She had just walked out of the shadow of her parents' death, learning to sleep alone, but every morning, she would find the little guy curled up in her arms, and the little guy would wake up in a daze, Will say: "Sister, I came to your bed when I fell asleep, I didn't mean to."

The memory is so clear.

Shen Juan wept dumbly.

Half a month had passed since the funeral, and from some unknown day, she would dream of Gu Shuge every night, and the dreams were all from the past.

Shen Juan suffered from severe insomnia, fortunately she had these dreams, every night she would force herself to sleep for a while, but only for a while.She didn't check the time and sat there for a long time.

Towards dawn, she felt as if she was getting a little hungry.So she got up and went downstairs.

Food is prepared in the kitchen 24 hours a day, and the lean meat porridge is warm in the pot, exuding an attractive aroma.This was prepared for her, Shen Juan knew.She filled half a bowl and took two sips, but before she could taste what it was like, she felt a strong nausea.

Shen Juan vomited up everything she ate until there was only sour water left. When she couldn't vomit anything, she calmly cleaned up the dirt and even washed the dishes.

Walking out of the kitchen, Steward Ji had already gotten up, saw her, looked past her at the porridge in the pot, and asked, "Have you eaten?"

Shen Juan nodded, as if he had already eaten.

Butler Ji said repeatedly: "That's good, that's good."

For half a month, Shen Juan was already so thin that he only had a handful of bones left.But she can't feel it herself.Ji Guanjia said: "Then you can sleep for a while?"

Shen Juan didn't nod. There was still something to do in the company. She was going to England in the afternoon to pack up Xiaoge's belongings, and by the way, check up on Zhu Yu's affairs abroad. dealt with.

But why deal with it?Xiaoge is gone, she doesn't have to look at the company anymore.she thought numbly.

"Let's cook porridge for you again. How about seafood porridge? Xiaoge liked the porridge I cooked myself when I was a child." Steward Ji asked behind Shen Juan.

There was a wave in Shen Juan's dead eyes, like a beam of morning sun shining in the forest, with a slight light: "You stew."

Steward Ji sighed secretly. He shouldn't have mentioned the deceased at first, but the chairman only reacted when he heard the word Xiaoge. He hurriedly said, "Then I'll go now."

Shen Juan nodded.

She walked into the study, Lin Mo sent all the documents a day earlier, she read a few, and saw the quill on the desk.This is what Xiaoge used.She stopped, looked at the quill for a long time, and took out the talisman bag from her pocket. There was no change on the talisman bag, nor did the Soul Cultivating Buddha and the talisman paper inside.

Holding the talisman bag in her hand, she did not know how many times she called: "Xiaoge."

Her eyes were dry and hot, and she had a habit of crying anytime and anywhere.

She couldn't see hope, and she didn't know what to do. Everything seemed boring and meaningless.She couldn't find a reason to live, she just thought that she had to give Xiaoge an explanation.But what happens after the murderer is executed?What can she do then?

Shen Juan put the talisman bag into his pocket, stood up again, found the box, and packed the quill.While pretending, she thought, not long ago, Xiao Ge told her that she wanted to see green and go to the south during the Chinese New Year.

But now, it's the end of the year.

Everything in the past seemed to have life, emerging every minute and every second, soaking Shen Juan's scarred heart in salt water, and torturing it over and over again.Shen Juan took the quill out of the box and put it in the suitcase.

The porridge was stewed for three hours, butler Ji's skill was very good, the porridge was stewed soft and delicious, with a strong fragrance, Shen Juan swallowed, something happened to his stomach, he refused to eat anything, Steward Ji was on the side, and said to her Thinking about Gu Shuge's childhood, Shen Juan endured the nausea and swallowed a whole bowl.

Steward Ji was relieved, and left with an empty bowl.

As soon as he left, Shen Juan vomited out his stomach again.

She didn't know why, maybe the talisman water last time hurt her stomach, or maybe she subconsciously felt that life was meaningless, so her body rejected food.But she didn't care too much.

The plane in the afternoon, the journey was long, and it was already the second day in the UK.

The Shen family didn't come here alone, they brought a lot of personnel to handle the case, and the British side had already coordinated and it took a lot of money, but the Shen family didn't care.After getting off the plane, she went directly to Gu Shuge's apartment.

The apartment was bought not far from her university.When Shen Juan opened the door, the air was turbid and hadn't been ventilated for several months.

She walked in, opened the window, fresh air flowed in, and the stale air gradually dissipated.

Shen Juan stood inside, she had never been here before, but she felt that every piece of furniture, every decoration style was so familiar, and there was a sense of Xiaoge everywhere.

She imagined Gu Shuge's life here for four years, imagined her wearing loose house clothes and slippers on weekends, walking around the room, imagining her lying on the sofa, imagining her hugging the computer to write reports, imagining her stretching Lazy, took a glass of water, and walked through the living room.

Shen Juan couldn't help laughing, tears streaming down his face.She walked slowly in the living room, her eyes gently stroking every item.

She saw the photos on the wall. There were several of them, which seemed to be taken at various scenic spots. The shooting method was obviously Gu Shuge's style of photography.Shen Juan looked down one by one, trying to travel through time and see the person behind the camera from the photos.

When she saw the last photo, she stayed a little longer.

The photo shows a big tree, but it is not a distant view of the whole tree, nor does it choose a unique angle to take pictures of the crown or branches. Instead, the camera is aimed directly at the roots of the tree and taken.

This shooting method is not Gu Shuge's usual style.Shen Juan raised his hand and took the photo frame off the wall.

Is this made by Xiaoge?she thinks.

She opened the photo frame and saw two words and a date written on the back of the photo.The two words are "temporary storage", and the date is the day before Xiaoge returns to China.

Is there something buried under the roots of the tree, and this photo is a mark?Shen Juan thought about it, carefully looked at the scene in the photo, and soon she saw a road sign beside it.

She found the place according to the signpost.It is a park not far from the apartment.

Shen Juan went to that park, she hadn't closed her eyes for a day and a night, but she didn't feel tired.She came to the park. The scenery in the park was pleasant and the lighting was good. Many nearby residents basked in the sun and fed pigeons in the park.

Does Xiaoge come here often?Will she also feed the pigeons here?Shen Juan was lost in thought.

Her thinking and her actions have all slowed down, as if her soul has entered old age decades in advance, approaching the age when the oil is exhausted.She didn't know how long she watched until the pigeons fluttered in large numbers, and the bodyguard came up to remind: "It's getting late."

Shen Juan woke up suddenly, and went to look for the big tree in the photo.

The big tree is very eye-catching, right in the middle of the park.She found it, and stooped and dug.The bodyguard wanted to help her, but she refused.

If there is something buried here by Xiao Ge, she hopes that she dug it out with her own hands.After all, there are fewer and fewer things she can do related to Xiaoge.

Shen Juan dug for a long time, and there was a box underneath. The box was made of metal. Shen Juan dug it up and opened it. Inside were several thick books of different styles.

Some are childish and pink, some are more mature and have cowhide covers, and some are loose-leaf books.

Shen Juan was sitting under the big tree on the lawn. She wiped her hands, took out the bottom book, opened it, and saw Gu Shuge's childish handwriting.

On the first page of the book, Gu Shuge wrote with her pen when she was a teenager: "I fell in love with Shen Juan. I don't know when it started. Let's just take it from now on."

Below, she wrote in a slightly larger font: "I like Shen Juan's first year."