Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

To my surprise, she actually has the ability to take care of herself completely, and not only is she very good at taking care of herself, but she is also good at taking care of others.It seems that as long as she wants to do it, she can still do it.Her handicraft is very good, cooking is no problem, at least it is much more delicious than mine.After all, she is someone who has experience studying abroad, so I shouldn't underestimate her.

In addition to cooking and cooking, she also cleans.Because I have a cleanliness habit, once I start cleaning, I can't stop.In the past two days, she seems to have changed her sex, and started to do housework desperately, taking care of everything, and she has tidied up a new pattern in my house.The first time I walked out of bed after the fever subsided, I was shocked from ear to ear by the new look of the house.She is so virtuous, so virtuous that I feel a little dumbfounded.

In fact, I know the reason why she mutated like this.She was forced out of the autistic state by me. She knew that she could no longer be depressed, and she made up her mind to return.But he has not been able to get out of the depressed state of mind, so he is very restless and has to find something to divert his attention.In the past, her state of being motionless was actually a state of emptiness, her own spirit was withdrawn from her body, just like a state of a person in a daze.It is difficult for people who have not suffered from depression to experience that feeling, that is, it is difficult to control the feeling of their body.I feel like I am not myself all the time, and I am in a semi-free state.

People with normal physical and mental health have outgoing and inclusive emotions.No matter what influence the outside world has on you, you can't shake the fundamentals, because people who are physically and mentally healthy will learn to adapt, accept, and adjust.However, people with depression actually maintain a continuous resistance to the influence of the outside world. The outside world can easily make them feel bad, difficult to cheer up, depressed, and even pessimistic.Too much self-protection makes them wrap themselves in their own small world, unable to open their eyes to see the world.

I stimulated her with her parents that night and made her realize she couldn't go on like this.This can be regarded as a forceful invasion of her personal small world by the outside world, which had a certain positive guiding effect on her.But she didn't know what to do to keep her parents from worrying. Instead, she became anxious. This was because she hadn't yet had the ability to adjust her body and mind.Although she seems to be much more active now, her mentality is still unhealthy, not much better than her previous state of indifference.But at least, she has started to try, and this is the biggest improvement.

Because she and I have been at home fighting a war of attrition for the past two days, the ingredients I originally stored in the refrigerator have been exhausted.The morning after I recovered from my illness, I planned to go out to buy ingredients.Originally, when I went out to buy groceries, I always left her at home alone.Since she used to sit in a dazed state, I felt relieved that she was alone.But now that she is working so hard, I don't feel at ease anymore.After all, she has now changed from static to dynamic. As long as she is in motion, the chance of accidents will inevitably increase.For example, if she accidentally cuts her hands and bleeds while chopping vegetables, that would be a terrible thing.Another example is that she cleaned the bathroom and looked in the mirror again, recalling the past.In short, there are too many uneasy factors, and I am really worried.

So for the first time I suggested:

Lin Yi, do you want to go shopping with me?

She was cleaning the table, but when she heard what I said, she gave her a hand.I saw her standing there in a daze for a while without answering me, so I walked up to her and said:

Let's go, I've been bored at home for so long, it's time to go out and get some air.

She has a dull expression and dull eyes, like a lifeless puppet.I know what she is thinking. It is very difficult for people with depression to go out and relax.This is mainly the paranoid thinking associated with depression. She always feels that the outside world is full of changes, where it is strange and dangerous, and she will become more restless.This apartment of mine has now been used by Lin Yi as a temporary shelter. To put it bluntly, it is her protection/umbrella.It is indeed difficult for her to go out now.

good.Her answer came late, and it seemed like she would die if she uttered this word, but she still gritted her teeth and said it, which shows that she decided to change her determination.

I smiled, took her by the sleeve and asked her to change.When she dawdled out, I could clearly feel her anxiety.But I still took her to change shoes and go out. When I closed the door of the house, I clearly saw her body trembling, turning her head, turning around, and retreating.I held her hand reassuringly. It was an attempt to touch. She would have resisted in the past. I wanted to try to see if she resisted now.

As expected, her hand trembled, and then she broke away from mine.But instead of resisting with her whole body as before, she seemed to hesitate to break free.In the past, I could only touch her when she was mad and asleep. Now this is a small improvement, even if I still feel a little sad.

let's go.I speak in a relaxed tone and lead the way. When a patient with depression goes out, she needs to see someone she knows and trusts by her side at all times in order to feel at ease.If I walk in front of her and let her see my back, she will be much more stable.