Tomorrow can be expected + extra episode

"In the years that followed, I had a lot of thoughts. I was thinking, even if I lose such a friend, even if I feel disgusted by more people, it doesn't matter. I only hope, there is only one hope, that I can look at you , guarding you."

"I have been entangled many times, whether I should continue like this. I have thought, if I don't be your friend and stay away from you, will it make me feel a lot easier? But later, I found that I didn't There is no choice. I don't want to leave this position by your side, even if it's just a good friend."

"And I'm afraid of dragging you in. Of course, I don't think you'll like me. It's just that I'm worried that my liking will cause trouble for you, and make other people with colored glasses feel as if you did something wrong What's the same."

"Very early on, I made up my mind that I will never tell you this in my life."

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Jiang Chen bent over to Jane Ting's ear, hugging her wholeheartedly.

"Sometimes, I really feel confused and hesitant, and I also eat inexplicable jealousy. There are really too many people around you, and there are many excellent people. I didn't go to the same school after college. Sometimes it’s really overwhelming.”

"At least in the eyes of most people in this society, in the eyes of society's traditions, liking you is something that only boys can do. I can't be like them, and say I like you bluntly with a loudspeaker in my accent. You can't directly declare to the whole world that I love you..."

"Only at this time, I will envy those boys."

"I may not be as good as others think, so free and easy. I have the idea of ​​wanting to have you, but... just now on the way I came to find you, I feel that I have let go."

"Listen, Jane, on the way I just came here, I only had one thought. I want you to live and live well. It doesn't matter if you can't be friends in the future. It doesn't matter if you don't come back after you go to England. Even if you don't contact me anymore It doesn't matter to me. It doesn't matter if...you get married, have children, and meet someone you love and love you. As long as you are healthy, safe, and happy. That's all I hope for, and I don't want anything else."

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The author has something to say: Today's first update.

"Finally" in chapter 142.

Confession.

☆、Chapter 143

The author has something to say: today's second update

Jiang Chen couldn't pay attention to the tears all over her face, her heart was full of the girl in her arms at the moment.

She was extremely grateful that God heard her prayer, took pity on her past, and forgave her future.

If she has sinned in this life, she is willing to use the next life to pay off the debt.

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Jane Ting's breath hit Jiang Chen's shoulder, it was warm there.

At this moment, only this clear feeling can make Jiang Chen feel better.

Jane Ting gently pushed Jiang Chen's shoulders.

Holding Jiang Chen's eyes with both hands, the movements were slow but extremely gentle.

She gently wiped away the tears on Jiang Chen's face.

Jiang Chen smiled with tears in his eyes, and realized that the other party was not much better than himself.

She wiped away the wet marks on her face indiscriminately, imitating Jane Ting's movements, and cleaned up the other person's face extremely meticulously.

"Oh, I didn't bring a tissue..."

Jiang Chen came in a hurry, still wearing a bachelor's uniform, and the bachelor's cap and graduation certificate were thrown outside the balcony door.

"Then I use my hands?"

Seeing that Jane Ting had no objection, Jiang Chen wiped away her tears with his hands instead of paper.

"Go back to your room, please? Get some sleep and rest?"

Jane nodded in agreement and seemed to have given Jiang Chen salvation.

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Jiang Chen had never seen such a well-behaved Jane Ting.

Lying obediently on the bed in the bedroom, looking straight at himself.

Jiang Chen tried his best to hold up a smile again,

"Close your eyes. Go to sleep...I'm here with you."

This strong tone may not necessarily be to cheer him up.

Before coming here, even when he was listening to the confession with Jane on the terrace, Jiang Chen was not without tension.

If she hadn't been full of passion, if she hadn't been dazzled by the pain of heartbreak, she would never have dared to be so self-righteous and self-assertive.

She is not anyone Jane listens to, at most she is a best friend.

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The hand covered in the quilt stretched out of the bed.

Jane Ting grabbed Jiang Chen's hand and squeezed it tightly.

The sudden dependence made Jiang Chen loose for a moment.

She hooked the corners of her lips, and held the back of Jane Ting's hand back, with even more cherished strength.

Jane Ting slowly closed her eyes.

Jiang Chen waited for a while, until the steady breathing came, until he clearly felt the looseness of his hand.

She gently let go of Jane Ting's hand, and put the quilt back on Jane Ting's arm.

She really wants to stay here and listen to Jane, every moment...

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"Auntie?"

The last time I saw Lu Ran was when Jane's mother passed away.

5 years ago, time seemed to fly by.

And time failed to draw marks on each other's faces.

In Lu Ran's eyes, Jiang Chen is just like the childish girl 5 years ago, except that his facial features are more three-dimensional, and his deep facial features are getting more and more downcast.

In Jiang Chen's eyes, Lu Ran was as mature and elegant as he was 5 years ago, and every gesture was the mature woman he had always aspired to be.

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"Jiang Chen?"

This name impressed Lu Ran five years ago, or even four years ago.

"Want to talk to me about Xiaoting?"

Lu Ran sat on the corner of the sofa and motioned Jiang Chen to sit down.

"She...Jane called me and told me that the depression relapsed. The meaning of relapse...means that this is at least the second time, right? "

This matter has been hanging in Jiang Chen's mind ever since he received Jane's phone call.

At least the second time, and she had no idea.

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"Well, this is the second time... I didn't know about the relapse until two days ago, and I rushed back after I found out. My brother-in-law, who is also Xiao Ting's father, didn't know about her condition before, so I am as sorry as you are." I don't know anything about it. You know, Xiao Ting is a child who is used to being patient. She has been like this since she was a child. She is used to showing off. I chose to keep this secret because of her begging. Maybe it was us Both of them imagined it too beautifully. After recovering from depression for the first time, we both thought that there would be no relapse. Unexpectedly..."

Sitting in a corner of the sofa, Lu Ran put his hand on his forehead, full of annoyance and regret.

"Fortunately, she is still conscious. In fact, Xiao Ting discovered that she had an emotional problem a month ago. She went to the hospital secretly by herself. She thought she could carry it secretly, and even kept it from me. Two days ago we Contact, her condition is getting worse and worse, she told me the truth because she was worried that she would not be able to save herself."

Jiang Chen lowered his head and squeezed out a few words with difficulty,

"When did that happen? I mean the first time... when it was definitely depression..."

"The year you graduated from high school."

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Jiang Chen choked his throat.I didn't expect the onset of the disease to be so early last time.

It suddenly occurred to her that there was a period of time when Jane Ting was almost never online.

And the slightly pale face I saw when I was listening to the video with Jane on the day of the dinner party after the college entrance examination...

"It was before summer, right?"

"Well... She came to Europe for a trip. She planned to visit me in the UK first, and then go to other countries. But in fact, she has stayed in the UK and never left."

"Shortly after coming to the UK, she was diagnosed with depression. I took her to see a doctor, take medicine, and do treatment. After she recovered, she returned to China."

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Jiang Chen's tears fell again and again, heartbroken.

4 years ago, already diagnosed?

At that time, Jane Ting had fought against depression in a foreign country?

And myself...

I don't know it at all?

She should have found out.

Not without clues.

Why is she so careless!

So confused!

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"Jiang Chen, I told you this, not to make you blame yourself."

Lu Ran handed her a tissue.

"Wipe it, the tears shed just now are not too many?"

Lu Ran touched Jiang Chen's drooping mind.

The girl in front of him should be Xiao Ting's salvation.

The person who still remembers the moment of life and death, the person who will dial the phone for final help.

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"Xiao Ting's current dose of medicine is 1.5 times that of the initial attack, which means that this attack is more serious than the last one. When I did not return to China, she had been secretly seeing a doctor for treatment, but the effect was minimal. her……"