Cleanliness

For a long time, Xiao Tong always had the same nightmare repeatedly and continuously.

It was a dark and gloomy room with an impossibly high roof, and a small skylight at the very top, revealing a little light.

Xiao Tong was tied backhanded to the corner of the room, naked.

Her body ached, the blood dried up, and the cockroaches crawled across her body and then away.

She thought she was dead.

Then the door was kicked open, dazzling light came in, and the crowd rushed in, Xiao Tong couldn't see their faces clearly, they laughed around her, the laughter was harsh, Xiao Tong wanted to hide, but there was nowhere to hide.

Immediately afterwards, the light disappeared, and Xiao Tong watched those people grow fangs and sharp claws, stare at blood-red eyes, stick out their long tongues, and crawl towards her step by step.

These demons pinched her neck and tore her flesh. Fresh blood dripped down again along the dried blood, and the darkness was dyed red.Smelling the smell of blood, cockroaches and rats crawled over and densely crawled on her body to suck blood, taking a share of this gluttonous feast.

The pain peeled off her flesh, tore out her internal organs, cracked open her bones, and sucked her marrow.Her body trembled in the air.

She couldn't breathe, move, or cry out.

Then she opened her eyes.

Once Xiao Tong would wake up with a start, and she would sit up in shock, sweating profusely, as if she had been scooped out of the water.Later, she seemed to get used to it. She lay on the bed and opened her eyes motionless, as calm as if she just woke up. The cold sweat would still soak the back of her heart and soak her entire pajamas, and she would still pant quickly, but no one could see. come out.

I can't remember the details of that year, and the too embarrassing memories are deliberately blurred by the brain for protection. Only the pain is recorded along every nerve in the body, and it becomes more profound day by day.

When Xiao Tong opened his eyes, he looked towards the corner subconsciously, and sure enough, he saw that those things were still there. They had followed Xiao Tong for more than ten years, but when he saw it, Xiao Tong still couldn't help trembling.

It would be great if I didn't go out that day, Xiao Tong thought.

She always wakes up in a daze for half an hour or even an hour every day. Others think it is a daze. Only she knows that it is the continuation of the pain in the dream. Every inch of flesh and blood in her body hurts. She was too painful to move, so she just sat there and waited for the pain to go away by itself.

It was only six o'clock in the morning, and after an hour and a half, Aunt Liu brought breakfast. It was already autumn and the weather was very cold. When Aunt Liu opened the door, a gust of cold wind came in. Xiao Tong shivered and wrapped the quilt tightly.

"Xiao Tong woke up, brush your teeth, wash your face, and have breakfast. The wontons that Auntie just made this morning are stuffed with shepherd's purse that you like most."

Xiao Tong obediently got out of bed to wash, and after eating half a bowl, he couldn't eat any more.

"Why eat so little, my stomach is like a bird." Aunt Liu sighed, collected the carefully prepared meals, and retreated.

Xiao Tong also felt sorry for letting down Aunt Liu's intentions, but she just had a nightmare and couldn't eat anything. Fortunately, Aunt Liu knew her appetite, even if Xiao Tong only ate half a small bowl. will blame her.

Today Jing Xing will come, ever since Xiao Tong knew what Jing Xing wanted, he didn't want to meet her and kept hiding, and it was the same today.

She was wearing a woolen sweater and felt a little cold, so she put on a woolen overcoat before going out.

There was no good scenery in the autumn garden, but there were a lot of people. Xiao Tong found a remote corner to sit for the whole morning, and Aunt Zhao called to look for her when he was about to eat lunch.

"Xiao Tong, where are you? Come back for lunch."

"Auntie, you guys eat first, I'm with Dr. Chen." Xiao Tong had no appetite, so he lied casually. She did often go to see Chen Luo recently, so Aunt Zhao was not suspicious, so she only asked Xiao Tong to remember it from Chen Luo's place. After eating, I hung up the phone.

Xiao Tong got tired of staying in the garden, and wandered around with his hands in his pockets, and actually came near Chen Luo's office.Xiao Tong went in to look for Chen Luo, but Chen Luo was not there, as if he had just left, and the coffee in the cup was still steaming.Xiao Tong found a chair and sat down, turned his neck and looked around, his eyes inadvertently glanced at Chen Luo's desk, it was a transparent folder with a stack of A4 papers inside, and Xiao Tong's name was written on the cover.

Xiao Tong was curious, guessing that it might be his own diagnosis records, so he brought it over to read.

I only opened the first page, and my breath stopped.

Memories that had been blurred to the point of being unrecognizable flooded into his brain, and Xiao Tong seemed to be spread out to let others watch.

Being discovered, Xiao Tong thought terrifiedly, she managed to get rid of that place and all the people who knew her, but now she was discovered again.

Those eyes of ridicule, sympathy, and scrutiny must all be experienced again now.

The folder slipped from her hand and fell to the ground, Xiao Tong bent down to pick it up, she couldn't breathe, so she had to kneel on the ground and inhale heavily.

escape.

This was the only thought left in Xiao Tong's mind.

Anywhere is fine, escape to a place where no one knows you.Her secret has been exposed, she can no longer stay in this place, everyone will know about her past, and everyone will look at her strangely.

Xiao Tong couldn't stand that look, she just wanted to be a normal person.

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