Cleanliness

The memory was awakened, and the pain became clearer. Xiao Tong knelt on the ground, and even her fingertips were tingling. She couldn't tell whether she was in a dream or reality. She only saw the surrounding things gradually distorted and dark. She looked around, I found myself locked in that dark house again.

"Let me...let me go out." Xiao Tong used all four limbs together, crawled to the door in a panic, and slammed on the tightly closed wooden door.

"Everyone is fine, please, let me out..."

Xiao Tong's palm was red and numb, and the door was motionless.

Those flesh-eating devils came around again, grabbing Xiao Tong and biting him. Xiao Tong grabbed the doorknob, flinched and resisted with empty eyes, and muttered non-stop, "help me".

She has been trapped in that airtight house for more than ten years, longing for someone to open that door and rescue her.

No.

No one can save her.

"Save me." Xiao Tong thought desperately, "Even if it's poor, someone will save me."

She doesn't know what she did wrong.

Everyone in the world says that good and evil are rewarded. Xiao Tong recalled her first half of her life. Although she did not do a few good deeds, she never had the intention of harming others, and she never harmed anyone. She just wanted to live, and how could living be so difficult? .

Everyone wants to step on her, unfamiliar and familiar, everyone hates her for not dying sooner, and everyone is eager to step on her to hell and never turn over again.

Xiao Tong dug his fingers into the crevice of the rock wall and struggled to survive. These people, in the name of saving her, snapped off her fingers and pushed her into the abyss.

"Why is it so difficult to live?" Xiao Tong held his head and thought painfully, how could such a simple word be difficult for him to reach the sky? She didn't even have a chance to breathe.

"I don't want to die." Xiao Tong said nervously to himself, "run away, run away..."

It seems that now, escape has become her only way out.

Not knowing where to escape, nor how to escape, Xiao Tong searched for an exit in Chen Luo's office like a headless chicken. The little insects in the glass bottle can't find the exit no matter how they turn, and finally they can only be exhausted and slaughtered.

Xiao Tong even thought about how those people would deal with him.

Pretending to care about her, he dug out all her wounds bit by bit, spread them out in the sun, and commented with relish.

"It's so pathetic."

"To be able to do such a thing, those people are simply inferior to beasts!"

"Shh, I heard that those boys are being held back by someone above them, what can't they do? It's not the first time, maybe they'll be released after a few days of detention, hey, I just feel sorry for this girl, her life is over."

"You can't say that, it can last a lifetime."

"Why not? Who else would dare to want someone to play like this? Do you dare?"

"Fuck you, what do you think I'm doing?"

"..."

Xiao Tong lay on the hospital bed and was tossed and flipped wantonly. What do those people call this?

"Injury inspection and evidence collection" in order to return her "fairness".

They were all wearing white coats and masks, with red eyes shining, Xiao Tong felt that these people were no different from those devils, except that they wore white skins, so the insult was also covered with a cloak of justice.Xiao Tong didn't want any "justice" anymore, she just wanted them to go away, but those people were like flies smelling rotten, buzzing around her, unable to drive them away.

His mouth was full of justice, but Xiao Tong saw their fangs.

"Escape...escape, don't let them catch it again." Xiao Tong turned around the office a few times, and finally locked his eyes on the window.

She staggered and ran over, opened the window tremblingly, and before she had time to climb onto the window sill, there was a sound of footsteps outside the door, accompanied by successive conversations.

someone!

Xiao Tong didn't want to be found out, she could no longer trust anyone.

She quickly closed the window, looked around, and put the folder that had fallen on the floor back to its original position. After doing all this, she hurriedly shrank into the cabinet near the inner room and hid.

As expected, the door was pushed open, and it was Chen Luo who walked in, followed by Jing Xing.

"A Luo, help me think about it and analyze it. Why is Xiao Tong avoiding me now? Avoiding? Shy? Or does she hate me completely? Am I so scary?"

"Xiao Tong is not ready to accept a new relationship yet, you must have done something to scare her."

"I don't have one." Jing Xing yelled at his injustice, "I just... couldn't help myself that day, and spoke a little bit ambiguously..."

"A little bit?"

"Well, maybe more than a little bit."

Chen Luo smiled, "I have known you for so many years, and I have never seen you like someone so much. It seems that Xiao Tong is really a person worthy of liking."

For some reason, Jing Xing felt that Chen Luo's smile contained a hint of meaningful sadness.

"Of course it's worth it." Jing Xing said proudly, "I not only want to like her, but also treat her very well, make her recover from her illness, and then tell me that she likes me too."

"Take it easy." Chen Luo said, "The wounds of the past are not so easy to heal."

Jing Xing said distressedly, "That's the only way to go." Her gaze fell on the desk, and she saw a document on the desk with Xiao Tong's name written on the cover, and asked curiously, "What is this?"

"It's nothing, you won't understand Xiao Tong's treatment plan for the next stage." Chen Luo smiled slightly, and put the document into the drawer with a natural expression.

Xiao Tong's matter is of great importance, the less people who know about it, the better, Chen Luo never intends to tell this matter to a third person - even Jing Xing is no exception.

Mo Xiyuan handed this document to Chen Luo, and she stayed up all night to read the contents of the document carefully.It was rare for Chen Luo to lose control of his emotions, but when he read this document, he was so angry that he wanted to flip the table countless times.She finally understood why Yu Qinghan didn't want to talk about this matter, anyone else would not be willing to bring it up again.

But if the wound wants to heal, it must first dig out the carrion, and let it fester and pus, Xiao Tong's condition will only get worse and worse, Chen Luo looked at the document all night, revised the treatment plan overnight, even She didn't notice when it was already dawn, so she turned off the computer monitor, stretched her waist and prepared to go out to wake up, and went to give Xiao Tong a routine checkup, but she met Jing Xing halfway, so she went back to the office .

"By the way, the Chinese New Year is almost here, are you planning to go back to Shangrong this year?" Jing Xing asked Chen Luo.

"The plane on New Year's Eve." Chen Luo asked Jing Xing, "What about you?"

"I won't go back, my parents come to celebrate the New Year with me." Jing Xing said, "Hey, it's rare for you doctors to have a holiday during the Chinese New Year."

"What's wrong with the doctor? Doctors are human too!" Chen Luo scolded with a smile, "Besides, I haven't been back for more than five years, and I can't justify not going back this year."

Jing Xing thought about it, as if he hadn't been back to Shangrong for many years.

"I don't want to go back." Jing Xing pouted, "That place is too dirty."

Chen Luo knew what Jing Xing was talking about, "Ten years have passed, I didn't expect you to still remember this."

"The end of this year is exactly 12 years." Jing Xing looked out the window and said quietly, "I will remember this incident forever, Ah Luo, I will never forgive myself for the rest of my life."

"It's not your fault." Chen Luo poured Jing Xing a glass of water.

"I could have saved her." Jing Xing held the mug in both hands, and rubbed his index finger along the side of the cup, "I saw those beasts drag her away with my own eyes, but I didn't go to save her."

Jing Xing looked at Chen Luo, and made a sarcastic smile, "I ran away."

"I'm a coward," she said.

"You were only a teenager at that time, you were just afraid." Chen Luo said, "There is no shame in being afraid."

"But I could have chosen to call the police, or ask someone for help, or something else. I could have saved that girl, but I didn't do anything." Jing Xing gripped the mug tightly, "Those beasts, I know they are Who, they just show up at school the next day like nothing happened. But that girl, I don't even know if she's still alive."

"They were later punished as they should have been."

"But it's not because of me!" Jing Xing's expression became agitated, she stiffened her neck, and threw the mug heavily on the table, "I'm a coward, I don't even dare to point out their crimes!"

Jing Xing will never forget that night 12 years ago.That night, when she walked out of the school gate, she saw those beasts dragging a girl into the van. It was very cold that night, and there was no one on the street. Jing Xing was the only witness.

Jing Xing could do something, but she did nothing.

Those gangsters Jing Xing knew, they were all people in Shangrong County who couldn't afford to offend. Jing Xing was only a sophomore at that time, and she still had to take the college entrance examination, and she couldn't afford to offend these people after passing the exam in this remote town.

Jing Xing's conscience has been tormented by this matter for 12 years. Even if those gangsters were arrested soon, she still couldn't forgive herself. With a single thought, she ruined a girl's life.

Later, in order to make up for the condemnation of her conscience, Jingxing began to do charity and public welfare. She tried her best to help everyone in her life, as if helping others was her inherent responsibility, but she still couldn't fill the hole in her conscience.

"Chen Luo." Jing Xing asked, "Is there any news about that girl?"

Chen Luo's throat moved. She wanted to say something, but in the end she just put her hands behind her back and clenched them into fists, "In Shangrong County, no."

Chen Luo didn't lie, she just concealed part of the truth.

There was indeed no news about that girl in Shangrong County, but later she was found in Jiangyu City, and it was only later that Chen Luo found out that the girl Jing Xing did not save that night was Xiao Tong.

So Chen Luo knew that Jing Xing would not pester Xiao Tong, Jing Xing's conscience would not forgive herself, she was the first part of all Xiao Tong's tragedies, if she knew, how would she dare to like Xiao Tong again.

I'm afraid he wouldn't even dare to appear in front of Xiao Tong.

Chen Luo is a staunch atheist, but at this moment, she feels that all this really has the taste of karma. Jing Xing's mistake back then ruined the possibility of her love.

The author has something to say: After finishing the manuscript, I can't extricate myself from hatsune.

typo correction...