[APH Luzhong] Ivan Diary

s home?Will there be someone in this world who loves me like my mother?

Over the years, I have thought and thought, searched and searched:

At the end of the dream, I think I found the answer.

*

"I had a dream about... my mother."

Wang Yao stood in front of the mirror with messy hair, brushing his teeth sleepily, and Ivan next to him also had messy hair.Ivan said vaguely with froth in his mouth, "Hmm... what is it like?"

"It's nothing, it's just a little bit of the past." Wang Yao gradually smiled, and he looked in the mirror at the light-haired young man wearing the same style of pajamas as him.Ivan narrowed his eyes: "I heard that sleeping on the same pillow will have the same dream? I want to try it."

"What are you doing to me when you want to sleep?" Wang Yao rolled his eyes at him and rinsed his mouth.

"Well, yes." After Iwan rinsed his mouth, he took advantage of the opportunity to kiss Wang Yao.

Well, it's the same peppermint flavor as mine.

*

Wang Yao suddenly sat up from the bed.He just had a dream within a dream.

He covers his mouth.The touch was so real, and the minty smell of toothpaste, what kind of dream was he having.

He couldn't help laughing.

Then wipe the tears off his face.

The end of the second episode

diary ten

I will be with you no matter what happens, Ivan. ——Wang Yao

April 4

(Sky)

*

An air of uneasiness prevailed in the Braginski household.

The reason is that their eldest sister Sophia has become abnormal.

From that Sunday on, Sofia didn't go out or speak anymore.She huddled on the bed for a long time and sobbed, and sometimes helped Ivan and Natasha cook for Ivan and Natasha, but she was haggard.No matter what Ivan asked her, she didn't answer, and even hid under the quilt, refusing to look at anyone's face.

Once Ivan went to the market alone to buy potatoes, and the potato seller gave him a penny less.The potato seller gave him an obscene adult smile he was familiar with, and said, "Call your sister over next time, and I'll give her this number." He held out two rough and dirty fingers, Everyone around laughed.

Ivan was frightened and ran away.But also from that day on, he found that the way people around him looked at him changed.

In the past, people always looked at Ivan with disdainful eyes, but now, there is a hint of obscenity in their eyes.Ivan was a little angry with Sophia, what did my sister do?Obviously, my sister taught us to be good people and not to be annoying, but now everyone hates us even more.

Ivan was often ashamed of this look.

Whenever Ivan was angry because of those strange gazes, Wang Yao would pull him away from the crowd: "Ivan, don't look, don't look at anything, it will dirty your eyes..."

"Look at me." Wang Yao said with a little shame.He dragged Ivan to hide behind a cabinet in the school warehouse.

"Hmm." Ivan held his breath and leaned against the cabinet.The warehouse was too small and there was no light, so Ivan couldn't see Wang Yao clearly. In addition to the smell of dust in the warehouse, he could still smell the smell of soap on Wang Yao's body, which calmed him down.

"Don't care about those people's words, they just take pleasure in your pain - I understand them." Wang Yao held Ivan's face seriously, but Ivan wondered whether Wang Yao would find that his face was red, "If Because those people who hate you are sad, it’s not worth it, and your heart should be on the really important people. If you are really uncomfortable, hide away, out of sight, or come to me, they dare not Get close to me……"

"In short, no matter what happens, I will be with you, Ivan." As he said, Wang Yao stood on tiptoe and kissed Ivan.Wang Yao feels that he is now an unwrapped gift for himself.

"Feeling better?" Wang Yao asked softly, but panicked with embarrassment.

Ivan nodded, then reached out to hug Wang Yao and kissed him again.The kiss was dark and moist, and Ivan felt Wang Yao's hot air under his nose, and Wang Yao's hair brushed against his face.He stuck out the tip of his tongue and licked Wang Yao's lips.

"You..." Wang Yao blushed and covered his mouth and pushed him away.

——However, those rumors... should not be groundless.Ivan's sister might really be...

Wang Yao thought of the short-haired girl with a gentle smile:

In short, Ivan could not hear it until the matter calmed down.

*

After school, Wang Yao always sends Ivan downstairs.

"You have to take good care of your sister, she must be working very hard." Wang Yao reminded carefully.

Ivan nodded absently, he unconsciously stared at the hat on Wang Yao's head.Sensing Ivan's gaze, Wang Yao pulled his hat and explained, "This? This is because I am also the center of rumors..."

"I can give you a dozen if you need it." Wang Yao said half-jokingly, "Okay, you go home. I'm going back too, the cat must be hungry."

"Be careful on the road." Ivan stroked Wang Yao's black hair.Obviously this color is so beautiful, why can't people understand it?

Ivan went upstairs, lying on the railing of the corridor, watching Wang Yao slowly go away, until dusk, he could no longer see the shadow of the child.He just entered the house: "Sister, Nata, I'm back."

However, there were no Sofia and Natasha in the empty living room. Ivan hung his schoolbag on the wall and found that the baskets for dirty clothes were missing. Presumably, Natasha took them and washed them by the river. .As for my sister, she must have curled up on the bed, I really don't know what happened to her.

Ivan also untied and hung up the scarf, rolled up his sleeves and prepared to light a fire to make tea, but found that there was no firewood. Sofia always brought some firewood when she came home.He opened the curtain to find Sophia: "Sister, I'm going to buy some firewood—"

"Bang!" Sophia's hand trembled, and the potato peeling knife fell to the ground, making a cold sound.Ivan's heart skipped a beat.

"Sister?!" Ivan stared at the bloodstain on Sophia's wrist in panic.

Sophia hurriedly clutched her wrist: "No, no, nothing, I'm not..." She stared at Ivan with terrified eyes, and said incoherently, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Vanya, don't look at me, I really didn't..."

This is……

Ivan couldn't breathe, his legs became heavy with some emotion, and he couldn't move.Sophia's blood spilled from her fingers, just like her tears spilled from her despairing eyes, and like Ivan's fear spilled from his head.

What happened to my sister? !This is too abnormal!Ivan roared in his heart, but the real him was like a deflated balloon, unable to make a sound.

"I'm sorry..." Sophia lowered her head and kept apologizing. Tears kept sliding down her face, hurting Ivan heavily.She fell off the bed and almost fell when she stepped on the knife on the ground. She grabbed the rag on the table and tried to cover up her wound: "It was done by accident, by accident..."

what to do?what to do?Something is wrong with my sister.what to do?

Ivan stared helplessly at the knife on the ground, which stared back at Ivan contemptuously.

— No, someone must... help us!

Without saying a word, Ivan picked up the knife on the ground and rushed out of the door.But who could he go to?

It seemed he had no other choice.

He went downstairs and galloped across the street, down the path, and down to the river.He brushed away the wicker that blocked his sight, and sure enough, he saw the person he wanted to see on the river bank: "Nata—"

When Natasha, who was washing clothes, heard her brother's voice turning back, Ivan had already run up to her: "Nata, sister, she..." He couldn't tell what Sophia was going to do, which made him terrified.

"What's wrong with sister?" Natasha spotted the blood-stained knife in Ivan's hand sharply, and asked in a very low voice, "Brother, put the knife away so that no one can see it—sister committed suicide?"

Ivan nodded with a pale face, and hurriedly hid the knife in his sleeve.

Natasha's face darkened, and she quickly put away the miscellaneous clothes in the barrel and carried them in the basket: "Brother, go back quickly!" She pulled Ivan up and ran back.

If the worst happened, she thought, it would be the end of them!

The two children shuttled quickly among the adults. The adults who came and went talked and laughed, as always, taking pleasure in other people's suffering, doing rogue things, and turning a blind eye to other people's true feelings. They never felt that pain was an ugly thing , because people all over the world suffer in general.

Therefore, in this world, only they themselves can help them.

Fortunately, Sophia took care of the wound by herself and never left the bed again.Natasha observed Sophia's state. She had calmed down, but she kept apologizing with tears in her eyes. Natasha could only coax her to sleep.

"Nata, tell the truth, what happened to my sister?" Ivan panted and asked Natasha, his fingers sweating nervously.He was still terrified now, thinking that when he got home, he would see a bloody corpse on the bed.

Natasha's lips trembled, and she was about to say it, but Ivan looked at her with almost pleading eyes.There was a long silence, but in the end she just said with a stiff face: "This can only be told by the elder sister to the elder brother..."

In the dimness, the light reflected Natasha's side face like a black sculpture.Across the curtain, the girl hid in the quilt and strangled the cry of fear in her nasal cavity.

Ivan felt hot and cold on his face, especially his temples, and it hurt suddenly.He suddenly felt that this home was very strange.He is looking forward to who can save him from this strange state.

*

"Shusha..." The sound of pen nib rubbing against paper echoed in the classroom, everyone lowered their heads, and the teacher paced back and forth slowly in the classroom, like a scientist in thought.Some people fell asleep lying on the table, and the teacher went over to beat him