Bamboo horse and bamboo horse grow up together

Silence, silence, there is no one in the entire dormitory area, there is no sound, there is no sound in the room, there is no sound from Yu Wen, and Yang Fan no longer makes a sound, except for two thumping hearts and violent panting, there is no sound anymore. sound.

The only remaining light finally dimmed, Yu Wen turned around, the two were too close to each other, so close that they could not see each other clearly, Yu Wen stretched out his hand to hold Yang Fan, the palms of both of them were already soaked in sweat, They are stuck together and cannot be removed.

Yu Wen nodded, looking at Yang Fan, Yang Fan was almost crying, these days, he has been suppressed for too long, if it is too long, if it is a second later, he will collapse.Yu Wen suppressed it for a longer time, there were tears in the corners of his eyes, he was two years older than Yang Fan, and developed earlier than Yang Fan, who knows how he spent the extra time.

The two finally understood each other's heart, and the careful exploration came to an end. However, Yang Fan and Yu Wen didn't feel relieved. Instead, they fell into a bigger and more panic-stricken pit. Fear and anxiety attacked the two of them again. Why did I fall in love with boys even though I was a boy? Are you a boy or a girl?

The two were lying on the mat, sweating on their backs, palms, and forehead. They were covered in fire, but they didn't dare to touch each other. The cicadas outside the house kept singing. Warm current, lying like a vegetable.

No one came to tell them their experience during puberty development, and the two stumbled and panicked and finally walked through it, and now such a thing happened again, if they kept suppressing it, Yu Wen would lie to himself that it was an illusion, and Yang Fan would be self-conscious. Persuasion is called friendship, but once you treat each other with sincerity, you can no longer deceive yourself.

Two people want a parent, come up and tell them, what the hell is going on.But 15-year-old Yang Fan and 17-year-old Yu Wen could only hug each other, spending the long dark night in steadfastness and uneasiness.

The two were terrified and asked for leave early in the morning, saying that they had a headache and went to see a doctor.Sitting on the wobbly bus, facing the rising sun, they went back to their city. Although there was nothing in that city that belonged to them, they still wanted to go there, and they felt at ease when they went there.

The two walked into the Internet cafe and saw that boys were playing games in the Internet cafe, and the remaining empty machines were facing the door, so they turned and walked into another Internet cafe.Walking around, finally found a machine, in the corner, surrounded by a trash can, no one approached, the two walked over and turned on the computer.

They want to check the information, which is too obscure for anyone to see.The two sat in front of the computer, staring at the search box intently.Yu Wen's input was as concise as possible: what is the situation when a boy likes a boy.

Many people have searched for this content, they browsed one by one, and knew a word they had never heard before, gay, the two of them were relieved, it turned out that many people in this world took a look at them and liked the buddy next to them .

The cleaning staff came over to clean up the garbage in the trash can beside them. Yang Fan panicked and pressed the computer's power button directly, locking the screen.The cleaning aunt frowned, shook her head helplessly, picked up the garbage bag and left, Yang Fan smiled apologetically.

A voice came from behind, and a boy with dyed yellow hair happened to come over with instant noodles, and said with a wretched smile, "Just look at it, what are you afraid of." Saying that, he slurped the instant noodles and sat down to play games.

Yang Fan wanted to explain a few words, but he didn't know what to say, so he had to sit down and browse the news.

At this time, they still don't know that in the future, their whole life will be spent in misunderstanding and ridicule by others, and this is just the beginning.

They stared at the narrow screen intently. In that screen, there was another world, a world that really belonged to them.This is not a disease, it is normal, Yang Fan looked at the screen, and then at Yu Wen, they were scared by their inner thoughts and stayed up all night, for fear that they were abnormal and non-human.

The photos that were uploaded next were too extreme, and the two dared not watch them in public, so they hurriedly turned off their computers and went home.

Yang Fan and Yu Wen walked side by side to the station sign, the bus did not come, and there were only the two of them at the station, the hot sun was hanging in front of their foreheads, and their heads were dizzy due to the heat, but it was not important, the silence of many days was still between the two of them. In between, no one spoke the first words, Yu Wen looked at the ants crawling back and forth on the ground, and Yang Fan anxiously looked at the delayed bus at the end of the road.

When they were not talking, they could still fight, laughing and joking, and it was so embarrassing to even speak. The two regretted sitting on the bus and staggered back to the factory.

Xi Yang stood at the door, saw Yang Fan, walked over and asked, "Did you read my letter?"

Yang Fan nodded honestly.

"Then why didn't you come?"

It was the first time for Yang Fan to see such a generous girl. He ignored the letters he received before, and never asked her why. Yang Fan was a little at a loss, except for a sorry smile.

"Speak, why didn't you come?"

Yang Fan didn't know what to say, just this morning, he just found out that he liked Yu Wen, and he hadn't been able to digest this fact enough, this girl blocked the door and asked him why he didn't like her?What should Yang Fan say, what else can he do besides being silent?It's difficult to hold Yu Wen's hand and announce to the girl, do I like boys?

"Am I not good-looking? Do you have someone you like? Can't you make friends?" Xi Yang asked three times, and Yang Fan shook his head one after another.

"Come on, let me make friends with you, don't ask me anymore, okay?" Yu Wen came forward from behind Yang Fan, reaching out his hand to shake the girl's hand.

Xi Yang raised his proud head, glanced at Yu Wen, and left without looking back.

"Is it too much?" Yang Fan said.This was the first sentence he said to Yu Wen.

"I'll ask her to apologize later." Yu Wen then pushed Yang Fan back to the dormitory. They had a huge secret to digest and deal with, and they didn't care about Xi Yang's emotional changes.

The two of them were lying on the bed without a bite of food. The lamp in the room hadn't been repaired yet, and the bright moonlight shone in. Although they couldn't see anything clearly, it was light anyway.

"When did it start?" Yang Fan was the first to ask.

"what?"

"You know what I'm asking?"

Silence, Yu Wen was silent for a while, and said, "The second day of junior high school, how about you?"

"I don't know, about a few months ago." Yang Fan turned over and said, the room was too hot, and the sweat on his back stuck to the mat, making him uncomfortable. Yang Fan then asked, "Maybe earlier, are you uncomfortable?"

"do not know."

"I don't know either." Yang Fan said.

"Do you think we are normal people?" Yu Wen asked the question that had been pent up in his heart for a long time.

"Sure, there are many people like us on the Internet."

"But, we don't have any around us."

Silence, the room fell into silence again, Yang Fan stretched out his hand, wanting to find Yu Wen's hand, hesitated for a long time and said, "We are."

Yu Wen smiled, looked at Yang Fan and said, "If your father finds out, will he come alive and beat me to death?"

"It's okay, I'll help you when the time comes, and I can't beat us anyway."

The chat between the two became more and more relaxed, and they laughed as they chatted. An indescribable friendship accumulated over the years has undergone a qualitative change in their gradual conversations. For people who fall in love with each other, no one knows how long it will take them to digest this change, it may be overnight, or it may be a long time.

No matter how much the two of them have changed in their hearts, they still have to go to work peacefully and steadily the next day. Yu Wen stood in front of the machine and took a nap. Last night, although he clearly had nothing on his mind, he couldn't fall asleep.Yang Fan kept yawning when he was on guard, and the warm sun shone on his body, making him even more sleepy.

On the surface, they are still the same as yesterday.But Yu Wenwen and Yang Fan feel that they have changed into a different person, who they don't know how to describe.It's incredible that they just learned the word gay, from themselves.To be honest, they themselves despise this term a bit, they can’t pick it up for a long time, how can they fall in love with someone of the same gender as themselves, the ethics in their brains tell them that this is not correct, but their hearts don’t stop their brains, I couldn't help looking at the other person, and my body couldn't help but have a physiological reaction.

The head controls everything above the head, but the heart and body have already left home, each occupying the mountain as king.

When getting off work, Yu Wen came to wait for Yang Fan to go back.

"I'll go, it's the first time." Yang Fan stood in the hallway and said in surprise.

"Don't be afraid, there's another time. I'm not afraid of a girl's robbing, I'm here to protect you, to rescue you, and to collect love letters." Yu Wen squatted under the umbrella and said with a smile.

"roll."

Yu Wen squatted in the corner, watched the ants on the ground carry food back and forth, and waited for Yang Fan to get off work in the middle of the night. Start school and go to No. [-] Middle School."

Yang Fan nodded.

"What a coincidence, I also go to No. [-] Middle School."

Yang Fan immediately looked back at Yu Wen, smiled helplessly, Yu Wen nodded, and said, "It's a coincidence."

In the middle of the night, after Yang Fan took over the shift, he went home side by side with Yu Wen. As soon as he got back to the door of the dormitory, he heard the noise of the neighbor next door.

"Yu Wen, come in." The people in the room happened to catch a glimpse of Yu Wen, and greeted him to go in.

Yu Wenwen and Yang Fan walked in, and the TV watchers saw two more brothers coming in, and hurriedly vacated the bench to make room for them.Yu Wen looked back at Yang Fan who was still standing at the door, Yang Fan looked at the screen on the TV and looked up at Yu Wen.

"Sit down, just sit down, don't stand on the fan to block the wind." Yu Wen was dragged to sit down on the bench after speaking, Yang Fan hurriedly stood against the corner of the wall, neither walking nor not walking.

Bursts of laughter erupted from the room, with bursts of inexplicable sounds, Yu Wenwen and Yang Fan looked at each other in blank dismay, whether to leave or not, before the exchange of eyes was finished, someone came in with a horse, blocking the way out.

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