I have never spoken

Zhibao drank just now, and his mouth was full of rum bewitching.

It took a long time before Baima Tan let her go, and after coaxing her gently, he took her hand and went back to the banquet hall.

Many socialites and celebrities came to toast her. She learned to be smart this time, and no longer regarded wine as plain water as before.She did what she could, but the aroma of the wine was more real.

Finally Shinichi came to her.He winked at her, and she understood, walked out of the crowd, and followed him to the corner.

Neither of them put down the wine glasses in their hands.Zhibao looked at the shining diamond ring on his hand, feeling slightly dazed.She was nervous inside, not knowing what Xinyi was going to say to him, so nervous that her hands were slightly cold.

"Look, I didn't lie to you, there will be no mistakes in our cooperation." Xinyi smiled confidently.

"It's really too risky." Zhibao gave him a blank look. "If I haven't practiced, how will you end up?"

"You wouldn't do that."

Shiho shrugged, she admitted that Shinichi was telling the truth.Then he lowered his head to hold the wine glass in his mouth, hesitant to speak.

Shinichi just looked at him quietly.He knew she had something to say.

He is willing to wait. "Happy... happy birthday." It took a long time for Zhibao to say this.Today is really a big day, Xinyi's birthday and wedding, in fact, there are many words of blessing, and you can talk endlessly for three days and three nights, but Zhibao found that every sentence of wishing him happiness is so difficult Say it.It's too difficult, every word of blessing is obviously good intentions, but my heart is like being arbitrarily cut by a rusty sharp knife.In the end, the blessing that can be spoken can only be such an innocuous sentence.

Happy birthday.Shinichi couldn't help but look at her embarrassed look: "After thinking for so long, did you come up with this sentence? I thought you were going to tell me something so earth-shattering that it brought tears to my eyes... But thank you." He He raised his wine glass, lightly touched the glass in Shiho's hand, and took a sip of the red wine in the glass. "Actually, I once wanted to replace all the wine with sherry..."

Shiho looked at the red wine in the glass and listened quietly to Shinichi's words.Gentle as always, but so harsh at the moment.

"However, those rums and French wines have already been bought by my mother. At that time, I was too busy to take care of the wedding. When I proposed to change the wine, it was already too late." He paused and said : "Shirley is the past you should get past. I hope you will never think of those obscure memories. Be happy every day in the rest of your life."

"Hey, big detective." Shiho interrupted him. "This is your auspicious day, why did you bless me?"

Xinyi smiled without saying a word, bowed his head again and took a sip of wine.

why?

Because from now on, I can no longer accompany you to witness your emotions.As for love, it must be destroyed.Today's wedding is a new beginning of Kudo Shinichi's life, and it is also a funeral about impossible feelings.

That feeling was just not available in the past, but in the future, it has become lost.

Isn't the most precious thing in the world the one that is not only unobtainable but also lost.

For the two people who are standing in the corner now, it is not the case about their feelings for each other.

"I have never properly toasted you with a glass of wine." Shinichi raised his glass to Zhibao.

"Then, let's toast. Let's toast each other to our respective futures." Shiho clinked glasses with him gracefully, and was about to drink, but was stopped by Shinichi.

"Not only to the future, but also to the past." Xinyi's eyes were full of unknown feelings, whether it was nostalgia or longing, it was impossible to judge.

"To our second seven-year-old, and my childhood sweetheart Hui Yuanai." After finishing speaking, Xinyi drank the red wine in one gulp.

To the second seven-year-old Hui Yuanai.

In fact, the second seven years old is not a disaster for Shinichi.Every day is a boring elementary school life, and the voice of Mori Kogoro must be borrowed to solve the case, and the body of a seven-year-old child is inconvenient to handle the case.Moreover, he was inexplicably involved in a war involving several generations.It was more than a bloody year.

However, he still misses that not particularly happy time.

Look, that Yuan Tai on the table next door, who is feasting, is always yelling in Conan's ear, making a lot of noise.The innocent girl Ayumi was attracted by Conan, and she always blushed involuntarily. Mitsuhiko was very precocious, and she never knew whether she liked Ayumi or Haibara Ai.

It seems that these are things worth remembering.

The most memorable one is Hui Yuan Ai, who used to be easily despaired and then did stupid things.

She is what he can't let go of.

he is worried.Worrying that no one can tolerate her uncutness except him, worrying that no one will give her the most needed encouragement when she pretends to be strong again.In fact, her heart is not so strong...

Worrying that no one likes her more than him.

But she has already chosen White Horse Detective.

All Xinyi's worries have been pinned down.

Tan Baima will definitely treat her well, always, and better than Xinyi.

Shinichi never wants to admit that someone is better than him, but now, he has to convince himself that Tan Baima must be better than himself.

Otherwise, he is really worried.

Zhibao kept his head down, biting the rim of the wine glass, the red wine slowly entered his mouth, flowed through his throat, and fell into his stomach, where it was scorching hot.Just wine, too bitter to drink.My throat was choked by an unknown emotion, and it hurt.

The pain was so painful that I couldn't even speak, I just drank all the red wine.

Shinichi didn't stay any longer, he was speechless.The two brushed past each other, even though they were separated by fabric, the heat of the friction almost made Zhibao suffocate in pain.

If possible, she wanted to turn around, grab that man's sleeve, and ask him if he could stay by her side longer, even for a second longer.

But she couldn't do that, nothing allowed her to be so despicably begging for a relationship that was not only unattainable but lost.Holding the goblet, she looked up at the resplendent crystal chandelier. Her vision changed from blurred to clear. She didn't return to the crowd until she regained the ability to blink. people toast.

That was the day of great joy for Shinichi and Lan, how could they shed untimely tears. "In the end, Conan and Ai still didn't come." Xiaolan said at the second wedding, her tone was full of regret, even though Kaito had already offered her blessings in the voices of Conan and Ai.

Shinichi was speechless while eating a blueberry sandwich.

Haibara Ai will indeed not come again, because the Haibara Ai who regards Conan as everything has become Miyano Shiho and has a bigger world.

Conan will never come again.Conan, who shared the tastes of life with Haibara Ai, has already supported a bigger sky and shouldered more responsibilities.

Both Conan and Haibara Ai have a future they should go to.

Will not be coming again.

For a long time after the wedding, Shinichi's few phone calls and text messages to Shiho were all lost.She insisted on avoiding him, she needed time to heal, and avoiding him was not against the law.

The earth will not stop spinning for anyone, even for a second.After the cherry blossom rain falls, the hot summer heat sweeps through Tokyo and then disappears, and the red maple covered the streets in autumn is also fleeting.She didn't realize that winter had come quietly until she put on the coat with a white horse to detect her body temperature.

After fighting in the hospital for a year, it was finally the annual leave that she was looking forward to deeply, and she could finally take a rest from her overly busy life.This kind of life is as plain as water, without Kudo, there will be a lot less stormy waves. Among the patients with different postures, she deeply understood the meaning of the phrase "the mentally ill have broad thinking, and the mentally handicapped children have more joy".Really a wise saying.

Are psychiatrists more or less assimilated?Especially broad thinking.In the scorching high temperature and the large falling red maple leaves, it can always bring back her memories more or less.The protagonist of the memory is still Kudo Shinichi, the camera is thrilling, exciting, happy, desperate, painful, and embarrassing.Mixed feelings.However, she has been able to deal with these tear-jerking old movies with equanimity. When they are caught off guard and replayed in her mind in turn, there will be no more disturbances in her expression or heart.

Occasionally, when I am extremely tired, I will laugh.

Laughing to convulsions, laughing to the point of throwing up, but laughing without a single tear.

There are no tears to shed.

She and Baima Tan have been together for a year.Baima Tan has always been very kind to her, unbelievably kind.She knew that she was gradually inseparable from Tan Baima.She cared about Tan Baima very much, and she was full of gratitude, but it seemed that it had nothing to do with love anyway.

Still.After liking Kudo, I really can't like others anymore.She raised her hand, wearing the commemorative ring put on her by the white horse visiting relatives.Even when the lights are so dim, it still shines brightly.Even the commemorative ring is so generous, how terrible will the wedding ring be in the future.

She suddenly realized that she was already fantasizing about her future with Tan Baima.

I have really resigned myself to my fate.No matter how reluctantly.When toasting at the beginning, she once said that they all have their own futures that they should go to.So, is it possible that the wish made at the temple fair cannot be realized?

In her future, she couldn't see Kudo's figure.

Kudo was married for half a year, and the number of times he talked to Shiho could be counted on the fingers.Half a year is really not enough to make people forget a relationship, but at least they should try to let go.If you hug too tightly the past that you can't go back, how can you free your hands to embrace the future that should go?

Even if the future without Kudo is too cruel, she wants to try to accept it.

She caressed the ring on her hand, closed her eyes, and in her mind, she never forgot the eerie light of Kudo's wedding ring.

□□The cool touch travels from the fingers to the whole body.

winter is here.

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