I have never spoken

On Christmas Eve, Shiho finally returned a Merry Christmas message to Shinichi.Shinichi also thoughtfully did not send another text message.

That's fine.Keep such a safe distance, and occasionally send a festive greeting.

Hypnotize yourself.Don't be reconciled, don't feel that the once so heavy feelings have been wasted.Now that I have someone to take care of me, I should be content.

Stop delusional--

On the last day of the year, Tan Baima hurried back to England, saying that the school over there had something to deal with, and Shiho didn't ask too many questions.Because of trust.

It seems that this year has to pass by itself.After Shiho sent Hakuba Tan to the airport, he was thinking on the way home.Around her neck is Baimatan's scarf, which Baimatan personally wrapped for her before entering the pass.

It also took Baima Tan's body temperature.

She wandered aimlessly in the street, this year's winter was bitterly cold, but she refused to snow for a long time.On the last day of the year, the night sky was dark without moon or stars, and couples on the street seemed to be waiting for the countdown of the ten seconds.After a year has passed, it has an added meaning of eternity.

It's a pity not being able to spend the New Year with Baima Tan, his pity, haha.

Shiho thought about it, but unknowingly walked to a bar with classical decoration.She was attracted by the antique facade, pushed the door and walked in, and the wind chimes at the door were crisp and sweet.There are not many customers in the store, and the orange light makes the warm air in the room ambiguous.The boss is a one-eyed man, wearing a pirate-like eye patch, and his hair is slightly gray. Obviously all pirates are vicious, but he has a kind smile.He put down the pipe he was holding, and asked Shiho what he wanted.

Shiho ordered sake directly.From the moment she was at the door, she could smell the mellow taste of the sake here. The wine maker must have mixed all kinds of emotions into it, otherwise there would be no such smell.

Although the taste of sake is not as good as that of expensive wines, it is definitely top-grade.Shiho hasn't been attracted by the taste of wine for a long time.How many times she drank alcohol just to numb the painful nerve endings, but this time, she thought, if she was drunk by such a good drink, it would be okay.

This wine definitely has a story, otherwise it wouldn't have brought so many past events to her mind.

About Kudo Shinichi's past.

She quietly held the wine glass warming her hands, closed her eyes, followed the instructions of her heart, savored the memories made with him back then, bursts of warmth surged undercurrents.People may really be able to rely on memories to get through many lonely times. Even if the pain of nostalgia is so strong, people are doing it tirelessly.

Pain is better than numbness.It is this pain of right and wrong that can prove that those memories really happened, not imaginary.

Edogawa Conan and Haibara Ai really existed in the world, and every inch of time between Conan and Haibara Ai was not a dream.It really happened.

Just know that they really existed.The corners of her mouth raised slightly, happy for the authenticity of this memory.

This is the only thing to be happy about.

"Why are you here alone?"

The vortex of memories was so deep that she couldn't realize whether the voice came from her heart or objectively happened in her ears.She opened her eyes, and her vision gradually became clearer. Xinyi looked at her with a frown, and she was slightly embarrassed. "White Horse has something to do when he returns to England, so..."

"That's why I left you here alone to drink?" Xinyi's tone was slightly displeased.

"Aren't you still alone?" Zhibao took another clean wine glass from the bar and filled it with warm wine.

"I just finished work at the scene of the crime, and I'm exhausted." Xinyi took it, and without forgetting to thank him, he took a sip carefully, and also praised the wine.

After a long silence, Xinyi quietly opened his mouth. "What I'm talking about is tiredness." "What's so tired about being a great detective? You have healthy and happy parents, a beautiful and gentle wife, and an aura of admiration... Your life is so perfect, do you still feel tired?" ?”

Kudo Shinichi, you are really not satisfied.Shiho thought in his heart.

"Well. You're always right." Shinichi smiled self-deprecatingly.

Life without you is the greatest imperfection.No one knows better than you how much I reject imperfect things.

But you don't know.

Never know.

Perhaps because of the alcohol, Shiho talked a lot.About the past and about the future.About the knowledge and perception in the hospital.She saw a lot of life and death in the hospital, and also saw a lot of regrets caused by love.She saw all the colors of life in these people, which is why she likes the job of a doctor so much.Shinichi listened quietly.It seemed that they hadn't sat down and chatted for a long time.He cherishes this opportunity, cherishes every minute and every second with her, listening to her rambling.

It's rare for her to be drunk, and it's rare for her to talk so much.

After an unknown amount of time, she suggested going out for a walk.He nodded, and after paying the bill, he walked out of the tavern with her.The boss looked at the backs of them leaving side by side, smiled meaningfully and shook his head.

There are always so many regrets in the world.

Two people, there are many reasons for being together, but there is only one reason for missing it, the time is wrong.Zhibao followed Shinichi all the way to the back mountain of Teidan Elementary School.The pair of lonely swings are still looking at each other.Shiho stepped forward to sit on the swing, and Shinichi gently pushed behind him.

No one spoke, no one wanted to break this rare romance.

a long time.

"Actually, I still often think about the past, and then I am very grateful to that Conan Edogawa who wears glasses." Miyano Shiho said softly, his tone was so flat that he didn't seem to have any emotion.

The movements of Xinyi's hands stopped in a daze.

"Kudou, thank you for appearing in my life." She turned around, raised her head, and smiled foolishly at Shinichi.

It was alcohol, otherwise she would never have said such a thing.

"Haibara." The title that hadn't been said for a long time rang in Shiho's ears again, disturbing all his sanity.

She thought she would never hear Kudo calling her like that again.When the voice in the memory overlapped with the reality, the shock was like a shot in her heart.

Shinichi didn't give her any time to react, and leaned over to kiss her slightly trembling lips.

The taste of sake intertwined between their lips and teeth, their heartbeats stalled, and they hit their fragile souls with huge emptiness and pain.

Zhibao's eyes were slightly sore, and she was completely stiff, not even daring to breathe, for fear that this was a dream that could be broken at the touch of a button.But her heart throbbing violently told her that the person in front of her was indeed Kudo Shinichi.

The one she loves is so close that she can hold her if she just reaches out.

However, they all understood that the kiss at this moment was just an overly beautiful fairy tale.As soon as you let go, the fairy tale is over.

You have to let go.The ending of this fairy tale is not so happy.

Even, if one party is willing to take it as a joke, the other party can only laugh along with it.It cannot have any other meaning.Otherwise, it will be beyond redemption.

The school bell struck twelve, and the New Year came quietly.At the same time, fireworks were blooming in the sky, and the colorful fireworks were fatally beautiful, but the two had no time to watch them.They closed their eyes tightly, feeling the blending of each other's breath.

An extra second is also good.

Never forget that at the turn of this year, the last too beautiful fairy tale we experienced together.

Shinichi squeezed her tightly into his arms, deepening the kiss.Ten fingers intertwined lightly, but could not hold tightly.

The friction of the rings on each other's hands made a small sound, thanks to the loud noise of the fireworks blooming.That's why the two didn't wake up prematurely.

A flash in the pan, a flash in the pan.Just like this kiss that is taken for granted with wine.

There will be no next time.After all the fireworks were burnt out, Shinichi let go of the person in his arms at a very slow speed.

He regained a chance to breathe, but his whole body was still shaking.

Because I couldn't believe the dream that was too vain just now, and because I lost Shinichi's body temperature, I felt a little cold.

"Haibara, it's snowing." Shinichi whispered in his ear. "I'll walk you home."

Yes, it's snowing. The first snow of this winter has just entered the new year, and it's falling one after another.

The blush on her face still remained, and she followed Shinichi's side without saying a word.Shinichi didn't seem to want to talk anymore, and the two of them were silent all the way, walking through the scenery that Conan and Haibara had walked through countless times.

——But that fairy tale has really come to an end.

"Happy New Year." Shinichi stopped at the door of the doctor's house, flicking the snow off Shiho's hair with his fingers.At some point, his hands were suddenly cold.

"Well. You too. Go home, Lan must be waiting for you." She smiled wearily, saying words that hurt him and hurt herself.

Xinyi's gentle movements froze instantly, turned around, and walked home, all movements were extremely slow, as if with deep nostalgia.

His back disappeared into the darkness.

She looked at the direction in which he left and didn't enter the house for a long time.Let the heavy snow make her shiver.

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