We didn't die at the end

13

The door of the operating room opened, and Cheng Yihuan, who was still unconscious, was pushed into the ward.Only then did Xu Wei and I know that Cheng Yihuan originally planned to fly to the United States the next day, but the reason why he suddenly came to look for him the day before, we knew each other.

I often think that if this accident hadn't happened that day, if it had been a complete farewell-in fact, the story would not end, but would have a new beginning.

After all, at that time, Xu Wei and I were sitting on the bench outside the ward, watching Cheng Yihuan inside through the glass window.His eyes were terribly hollow, and the eye sockets were black and blue, but he chattered a lot to me.

What are you talking about?

He said that after Cheng Yihuan left, he felt for the first time what it was like to miss someone.

He was talking about Cheng Yihuan asking him out at Christmas, and he originally wanted to clarify the matter with Cheng Yihuan.If Cheng Yihuan confesses to him in a coffee shop, no, as long as he shows that he still likes him a little bit, he will tell him, I know you like me for a long time, but I am too new to this kind of thing, and I haven’t done it yet understand my own thoughts.I still need a little time, can you wait for me?

He said that he understood everything the moment the car accident happened.His fear of losing someone was so serious that it almost swallowed him up.

In the end, he raised his hand to wipe away a small drop of tears under his eyes, sucked his nose a few times, and said in a hoarse voice, now he will wait for Cheng Yihuan to wake up, and then tell him, this time I will never leave you again.I like you very much.Wherever you go, I will accompany you.

When he was in the ward, he kept holding Cheng Yihuan's hand, talking to him extremely gently, and occasionally shaved Cheng Yihuan's face under the breathing mask.This scene was so much like a husband taking good care of his seriously ill wife, I couldn’t bear to look at the expressions of Cheng Yihuan’s parents standing outside the glass of the ward—of course I couldn’t bear it, but I turned my head to look at it.The result was beyond my expectation: His parents looked at this scene with very calm expressions, as if they had expected it long ago.

Cheng Yihuan's mother is very young and beautiful, and his father is also handsome, wearing a pair of glasses, and his gestures and gestures show his demeanor.I secretly admired in my heart, Cheng Yihuan looks very similar to his mother, and he inherited a gentlemanly temperament from his father, which makes his face beautiful but not feminine.His father is supposed to be a big boss, and he calls one after another to discuss business.I saw their dress, speech and behavior all showing their status, and I sighed that this kind of noble family is not the same as us common people.

Things in the world are fair in the end, just like birds cannot swim in the bottom of the sea, fish cannot gallop in the sky they yearn for, just like a man of great beauty cannot be allowed to grow old.As I said before, God gave him the best of luck at that time.God gave a person a beautiful face, a smart brain, an enviable happy family, and a wealthy life with no worries about food and clothing since childhood.Sometimes it's luck in little things, sometimes it's full love, sometimes it's life.

Cheng Yihuan failed to wake up.He died on the morning of the third day after being admitted to the hospital.

14

Xu Wei was buying breakfast near the hospital when he suddenly received a call from Cheng Yihuan's mother.The breakfast was scattered all over the floor, his mind went blank, and he rushed directly to the road.At that time, there was a lot of traffic on the road, and people rushing out suddenly disrupted the order of the whole road. The sound of horns, the roar of sudden brakes and the curse of the driver rolled down the window were all connected together, and it was like a three-dimensional surround sound in his ears. Rumble.However, every car stopped in front of Xu Wei with incomparable precision, and someone yelled at him: "You are looking for death!" What Xu Wei thought was, then you just hit me to death.This world is so big, it can accommodate so many filthy and unsightly things, but it cannot accommodate such a beautiful Cheng Yihuan.The headlights of the sensual world are flickering, and the whole prosperous and prosperous world seems to have exhausted all its strength to create a grand setting for the tragedy.

When I arrived at the hospital, Xu Wei was kneeling in front of Cheng Yihuan's parents. Both parties were sobbing, even the surrounding medical staff were sobbing softly.The air is sad like a downpour, and like an old black-and-white silent film playing in an old theater, someone's life is passing by like a fleeting moment.Xu Wei kept repeating "I'm sorry" until his voice became broken, and Cheng Yihuan's mother finally had the strength to help him up and told him, "We don't blame you."

Later we went to Cheng Yihuan's house, and his parents talked about the scene at that time.They were still packing their last luggage on Christmas Day, and Cheng Yihuan said they were going out to say goodbye to the most important person.

His mother pretended to be angry: Is it more important than us?

Cheng Yi laughed happily and went over to hug her: No.They are the most important people besides parents.

It's someone I like.His dad laughed.

Um.Cheng Yihuan lowered his head to tie his shoelaces, and his voice was a little distant: But I can't like it any more in the future.

"So, we don't blame you. He died to save the person he likes. If it happens again, he will definitely choose to push you away. Don't worry, Cheng Yihuan is such a person, he is willing You will never regret what you do." His mother looked at Xu Wei with a smile, her eyes filled with tears.

"Actually, we guessed it a long time ago. After all, we are his parents. Cheng Yihuan doesn't know how to hide it. He writes all emotions on his face. Look at the excited way he came home on the first day of the second year of high school. Ask him What good thing happened and he kept silent. His father was teasing whether he was assigned to the same class as his crush. The deskmate is short, saying that his deskmate is so good at mathematics, he is handsome and can play basketball well, and it takes a whole morning to make an appointment with the deskmate to go to the library to study and ask me if it looks good in this one, or if it looks good in that one, Especially in that photo, he never even smiled so happily when facing us..."

"Being a mother is the most sensitive. It was really unacceptable at first, after all, there are two boys... But when you name him, the word Yi Huan means happiness,"

We just want him to have a good time in his life.

She didn't say the last sentence, but everyone present understood it.I once went to the temple with my family to burn incense and pray for blessings. The smoke was lingering, and many people were chanting words.It's just a wish, how can a high god take care of so many mortal affairs?How many people can really get lifelong happiness?We write our vision on a wooden sign and hang it in the temple, wrap the red string around our wrists, and write the best meaning into the name, and the incense burns from generation to generation. In fact, we still resign ourselves to fate after knowing all the forms.

15

As for what happened after that, that's another story.

Xu Wei, an idiot who didn't know how to die during the summer vacation of the second year of high school, finally knew Cheng Yihuan's feelings for him all the time, so I no longer had any scruples, and opened up the skylight to him.For example, Cheng Yihuan suddenly chose to go abroad when he was in the third year of senior high school. He had never prepared for the language before, and he never seemed to have this idea. His grades are more than enough for the domestic college entrance examination, unlike those who choose to go abroad after the college entrance examination is really bad. , all of this was hastily rushed.

I said to Xu Wei: Maybe it’s a bit painful for him to be around you and not get it (I can experience this pain firsthand), but now I heard that you have a girlfriend, which became the last straw that broke the camel’s back.

Xu Wei gave me a blank look, feeling very wronged: It's not because you betrayed me.But I said later that I broke up with Miao Susu.

I followed his example and gave him a blank look: You must be crazy.Did you have a girlfriend and he didn't know you were straight?What's the deal with a straight guy?He probably just didn't want to be hung up by you like this all the time, so he decided to make a clean break with the past.After all, I made a hand gesture.

Xu Wei thumped me: Hey, don't make it sound like it's all because of me.

I snorted: it's all because of you.You go to look through his talk, which one is not referring to you insinuatingly?A discerning person should have seen it long ago, you're just a dumb head, you're so stupid.

At that time, I believed that Xu Wei was the direct reason that caused Cheng Yihuan to go abroad when he disagreed with me. Xu Wei was very resistant to my conclusion, but he couldn't find any other reason, so he had to reluctantly reach an agreement with me, and he refused to admit it. pot.It wasn't until after the incident that we picked up this matter again - if Cheng Yihuan really wanted to make a clean break with Xu Wei, there would be no reason to ask him out to say goodbye to him the day before the farewell.When Cheng Yihuan was lying on the hospital bed, we asked his parents. They also said that they had never planned to study abroad, but Cheng Yihuan brought it up without any warning.He was very firm, but they were used to pampering their son, so they agreed.

Well, if it wasn't because of Xu Wei, something must have happened in that May to June.

The backpack that Cheng Yihuan was carrying on Christmas Day had been kept in the ward, and Xu Wei dared to look through it when he had to pack up his things after he was declared dead at the hospital.But it is not right to say "dare", he still dare not, but this kind of dare is completely different from the previous dare.Many people have such an experience, you secretly perceive that danger is about to happen.Xu Wei's sudden pause and shaking of hands when turning Cheng Yihuan's backpack made me palpitate inexplicably, and I almost wanted to stop him.

There is nothing in the bag, a box of wrapped gifts, a wallet, a portable diary and a mobile phone with a little battery left.The phone has a password, Xu Wei stared at the lock screen for a while, then entered Cheng Yihuan's birthday, the password was wrong.Then he gritted his teeth and entered his birthday, the password was correct, and it was unlocked.There are more than a dozen missed calls on the phone, all from the same number, without notes.Xu Wei clicked on the call records with this number. From June to now, they are full of missed call IDs, with one or two call records that Cheng Yihuan answered in the middle.It's not that Cheng Yihuan doesn't know the person on the other end of the phone, the lack of a note may just be because he didn't want to.

The mobile phone ran out of power and shut down immediately after being operated by us twice.I signaled Xu Wei to look through the portable diary.Xu Wei was very unwilling, he kept shaking his head, it seemed that the tears that had just stopped were about to fall again.I randomly stuffed him with a tissue, turned my back and opened the diary.

Then I turned to May NO.17——it seems that this is the day I said that Xu Wei has a girlfriend.I looked down a few more lines, and it was like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, a building in front of me collapsed, and the top beam just hit me on the head, smashing my eyes, and then a nail flew out and pierced into me The sharp tingling sensation in the skin and flesh made me recover a little bit of sobriety.I shook my head and looked back at that afternoon in a daze. All I could think of was that lonely piece of dust floating in the sunshine like an illusion.