The daily routine of being teased by a scholar

[The alley/is long and crooked/no door/no window/I take an old key/knock on the thick wall

——Gu Cheng]

When the Chinese teacher wrote these two lines on the blackboard, Xu Huaiyang finally raised his head.

Mrs. Jin was coughing and talking on the podium, the autumn wind surging outside the window swept down the first fallen leaves of this autumn.

On Xu Huaiyang's desk, under the Chinese textbook is the reading comprehension of English, and the empty table next to it is full of collected Chinese exercise books.

He stared at the blackboard for a while tiredly, staring at the teacher and the chalk on the blackboard in a daze.

"Xu Huaiyang."

The old lady Jin suddenly stopped him.

"Come and appreciate this poem by Gu Cheng." She smiled and looked at Xu Huaiyang.

Xu Huaiyang froze for a moment, then quickly stood up.

He glanced at the verses on the blackboard, quickly sorted out the format of the standard answers in his mind, and answered a series skillfully.

"...The alley not only refers to the intention of 'alley' in the poem, but also uses symbolism to refer to the alley in the poet's life. In despair, he reveals hope, and keeps moving forward with the key of exploration. Expresses the poet The desperation in the heart and the determination not to give up."

The old lady Jin looked at him and smiled, then nodded with satisfaction.

"Sit down." She smiled, "So, life is full of hope. The end of the alley may be the door and window leading to hope..."

doors and windows.

Xu Huaiyang was stunned for two seconds, and slowly sat back on the chair.

When he turned his head, he was confused for a moment at the leaves drifting by the window.But the moment passed, and he lowered his head again, burying himself in the sea of ​​questions under the Chinese document.

Senior three, October.

Since he is not yet full, Zheng Lin is still Xu Huaiyang's legal guardian.At the beginning of the month, Xu Huaiyang accepted the money from Xu Wenshu and Zheng Lin, which was his last child support payment.

In a sense, this money belongs to timely rain, which helped him a lot before the college entrance examination and slightly eased the financial constraints of daily life.

He still didn't go home, and he didn't think there was a place to go back.The life of not going out of school lasted for nearly four months. In the monthly exam in October, Xu Huaiyang got the second place in the school for the first time.

Since entering the third year of high school, Xu Huaiyang rarely saw his friends again.

Whether it is Li Jianxia, ​​An Nan, Zhu Shen, or Fang Mian, these people seem to have gradually faded out of life.Full of busyness and fatigue, he doesn't have so much time and energy to manage relationships with others.In the same building of the same school, even the communication has become a nodding acquaintance.

Only when passing by the art building occasionally, he would be in a trance, thinking of something that seemed to have been away from him for a long time.

When school was over at night, Xu Huaiyang was the last to turn off the lights and come out.He expertly closed the door and locked it.Then he took out the small flashlight from his pocket, turned on the flashlight and walked out of the teaching building slowly.

At the end of October, the temperature has dropped.It was a bit chilly all the way back to the dormitory.After arriving at the dormitory, he rummaged through it for a long time before finding out a coat he wore last year. Only then did he realize that the rest of the clothes were in the house he moved out of.

Anyway, Zheng Lin wasn't there, so let's go back to pick up the clothes another day.

He put on his coat for a while in the dormitory, and it took him a long time to warm up.After the roommates on the balcony finished their fuss and were about to go to wash up, they subconsciously stuffed it into their pockets.

Then hit something.

He gently twisted it with his fingertips, and it was a thin piece of cardboard.

The moment he took out the piece of paper, Xu Huaiyang was slightly stunned.

On the enlarged version of the ID photo, there is a person with a deadpan face and a bit of a cool look.The person in the photo has slightly shorter hair, and his eyes are full of provocative contempt.The zipper of the school uniform on his body was pulled down very far, to the position where the chest was down.

Xu Huaiyang was stunned for two seconds, his hands suddenly trembled, and then he stuffed the photo back into his pocket.

It's Cai Zhan.

This photo... should have been torn up by Fang Mian for him last year.

"Huaiyang, why don't you go wash up?" Cui Jiawei came over with a toothbrush in his mouth, and patted him, "It's almost time to turn off the lights."

Xu Huaiyang was stunned for a moment, then came back to his senses: "Ah, let's go."

"You're going to be stupid," Cui Jiawei smiled, "you don't have any energy at all."

"It's okay." Xu Huaiyang smiled, recovered his mind, went to get the dental cup, and walked to the balcony.

The roommates chatted and made noise in the dormitory, and occasionally mentioned a few unfinished questions and missed girls.Suddenly, for a moment, Xu Huaiyang felt as if a stone flew from the sky and smashed the ice.The wind and sound poured in, and the fish at the bottom felt the smell of the air again.

He stared blankly at the mirror for a while, before lowering his head to brush his teeth after a long time.

The autumn wind slid in through the gap between the windows, and when Xu Huaiyang was distracted, his toothbrush poked his gums, and the smell of blood immediately filled his mouth.

He spat twice into the sink, the toothpaste in his mouth was mixed with blood, red, white and white merged into one piece.He frowned and supported the sink, watching the blood flow down the sewer.

Maybe the pain can wake up the nerves.

……

Autumn in this city is slightly colder than that of the other side. When Cai Zhan walked into the piano room, looking at the piano covered with a thick layer of dust, he suddenly felt strange for a moment.

"I thought you wouldn't come back years ago." Li Jianxia leaned against the door frame of the piano room and looked at Cai Zhan who was opening the box.

"When will I not be able to come back?" Cai Zhan smiled and handed him a package of things.

"How many days will you stay this time?" An Nan asked, "Is your teacher in charge of taking the exam? Will there be no classes from now on?"

Cai Zhan lowered his head, and found out the gift for An Nan again: "There is a class, this time it is something to prepare for the exam when I come back to school, and I will leave."

The piano room is different from when he left.Many old traces have disappeared, and some new colors have been added.

An Nan probably wrote homework on the table, and the exercise book wrapped in pink book cover paper was placed on the corner of the table.There is a newly purchased pot of mint on the window sill, the wind blows in through the gaps of the cherry blossom trees outside the window, passing the mint and bringing in a fragrance.

Cai Zhan put the boxes on the ground and tidied them up. Inside were gifts for several friends.Some were for An Nan, for Brother Long, for Li Jianxia and Zhu Shen, and for...Xu Huaiyang.

Others' gifts were bought only two days before their return, but the gifts for Xu Huaiyang were prepared the day after he arrived there.

Just take it out now, I don’t know if there is still a chance to give it away.

"What's the matter with you and Xu Huaiyang?" Li Jianxia looked at him for a while, hesitated for a long time, and asked.

Cai Zhan's hand paused for a moment, and he looked back at him: "What do you think?"

Li Jianxia shrugged, and continued to lazily lean against the door frame without speaking.

Cai Zhan smiled: "Don't you know everything?"

Li Jianxia clicked his tongue: "What do I know? After you left last time, he hasn't talked to me again. It's been several months now. You two are considered to be separated... you can't really divide, right?"

Cai Zhan didn't answer, just looked at the box and didn't speak.

separated.

He never mentioned the word "break up", and neither did Xu Huaiyang.

Now facing Li Jianxia's question, Cai Zhan suddenly realized that this kind of "breaking up" can actually be called "breaking up".

From the summer vacation in June to the present, in the past five months, they have not even had a word of contact.

When it comes to breaking up, no one will be more clean than them.

In the past, Cai Zhan always felt that most things could be completely forgotten in the busyness or time.But after five months, Xu Huaiyang's "Let's break up" is still in his ears for a long time clearly.

Like a needle hidden deep in a nerve, it will jump out and prick him when he thinks about it.

From the shock, helplessness, and forced calm at the beginning, to the real calm now.This sentence "let's go" is comparable to a psychological quality test. In just five months, Cai Zhan went through almost all the pain points.

Are you gone?

He was a little confused.

After an unknown amount of time, Cai Zhan closed the box, stood up and looked at Li Jianxia.

"If I don't say it's over, it won't be over. Do you believe it?" He was silent for a while, then smiled.

Li Jianxia froze for a moment, then clicked his tongue.

……