In fact, I am attacking [entertainment circle]

Later, when Sister Mo found her, Qi Yi realized that she hadn't lied to anyone.When he was a sophomore in high school, he went to Feiyu Culture as a trainee and did not continue to go to school, because he felt that he would have no future if he continued to study. If he went to be a trainee, he would be paid with food and accommodation, and his parents also looked at his own ideas. When he was 17 years old, he packed up with other trainees of the company and went to the talent show variety show of "Midsummer Youth Training Program".

When entering this program, Qi Yi was shocked and frightened. At this time, he realized that there are so many handsome guys in the world, and everyone has their own skills.But he is quite used to it, because he feels that he is much happier here than in high school. If he tells a joke or joke, there will be many handsome guys with kind hearts to cheer him on. This long-lost feeling seems to bring him back. Before the third grade of elementary school, I felt extremely comfortable.

But everything can't stay in the first grade of elementary school. The further the program progresses, because there are scores, rankings, and competitions, many people are under a lot of pressure, and the atmosphere begins to change slowly.

Qi Yi felt at a loss again. The instructor asked the students why they came to this stage, why they wanted to be idols, and why they struggled. The others answered, because they like it, because they have goals, and because they have dreams that they want to realize. When it’s Qi Yi’s turn , he couldn't speak.

Where did he get his dreams? He can't sing well, and he just tries to keep up with the average level in dancing. Does he really have the right to stay here?

"For..." Qi Yi Rumang was on his back, "If you have money, get it."

After finishing speaking, Qi Yi himself laughed in shame, and the others also laughed, as if they thought he was joking and didn't take it seriously.Only Qi smiled and felt uncomfortable. He felt that he seemed not worthy of this world, as if there was a rope around his heart, which made him unable to enjoy himself.

When the rankings were voted by the audience for the first time, a large number of people were about to be eliminated, and everyone was anxious, waiting for the instructor to announce the rankings.The rankings are read from the back to the front. Qi Yi waited for a long time and didn't hear his name. He felt that it would not be surprising if he was eliminated, but he heard the instructor shout, "No.3, Qi Yi!"

Most people were surprised, even Qi Yi himself was surprised, because his stage performance was not outstanding at all, yet so many people liked him and voted for him. What is the concept of No.3? This program will select six people to debut. The top six positions form a small pyramid, and there are ordinary seats underneath. No.3 is on the second floor of this pyramid , lowering his head, he can look down on almost everyone.

When Qi Yi walked up the steps, he was in a daze. When he finally could sit down after announcing all the rankings, his buttocks swayed and he almost fell on the steps, but was quickly helped up by Meng Yunxi next to him.

"Present." Although Meng Yunxi was ranked second at the beginning of this time and was not his captain, he already spoke like a future captain, "This is voted for by fans, and this love can't be let down."

Qi Yi knows that this love cannot be let down, and this love from fans is the only reason he can use to prove himself so far. He thought, so many people like him, maybe he really has some brilliance ordered.

He was so happy at first, but not long after, he was hacked by the whole Internet because of singing.Many of them are due to the operation of other capital, but those who come to scold him are really filled with his private letters and comments, and in the corners of Weibo, those who hate him are sincere hating him.

Qi Yi saw many unbearable comments on his mobile phone, and then Meng Jiao, who was in the same room as him, confiscated the mobile phone and ordered him not to read it.

"What are you looking at? Why don't you care about those netizens? They are the ones who push you all day long, and they are not the ones who voted for you." Meng Jiao hated iron for being weak, and almost grabbed his ear, but was stopped by Meng Yunxi. "It's fine as long as the fans like you."

Qi Yi was wondering if the fans would really continue to like him, but the answer soon came out, yes, because the second elimination was announced, and he was still the unshakable No.3.

While he breathed a sigh of relief, he also felt the pressure. He could guess that his fans must have worked hard to maintain him. He wanted to work hard to give them a little bit of confidence, so even if he didn't have talent, he practiced hard every day.

When Meng Jiao was teaching him to sing, he comforted him and said, "Don't be so pressured. You don't have confidence. Let me tell you, if your fans like you, it must be because of your other aspects. You are almost as bad as singing." It's one o'clock, it doesn't matter."

He is confident, "Where strength is not strength, red is the greatest confidence. You are someone who can use other aspects to attract fans. This is what many people can't ask for. You have to be more confident."

When Qi Yi almost believed it, Meng Yunxi floated a sentence from a distance: "Don't listen to his nonsense, you still have to practice hard singing and dancing."

Meng Jiao threw an empty water bottle over: "What are you doing, you educate or I educate, damn it, talk too much!"

Qi Yi: "..."

When Qi Yi and Meng Jiao went to the cafeteria to eat, Xia Shui also followed. Meng Jiao held Xia Shui with his left hand, and Qi Yi followed with his right. Their combination, together with Meng Yunxi, was ridiculed by fans who liked this show as "a family". Four", so when someone passed by them, they joked: "Little Meng brother, you are amazing, you have both children at a young age."

Xia Shui poked his head over and said to Qi Yi, "Did you hear that, that person said you were a girl just now."

"..." Qi Yi looked at Xia Shui's small body with a complicated expression, "Do you really think the girl is talking about me?"

Xia Shui stuck out her tongue, then retracted.

Meng Yunxi found a seat and waved to them. The four of them sat at a table to eat.Meng Yunxi sat diagonally opposite him, and chatted to Qi Yi in detail: "The next stage of the rating, no matter how scared you are, you still have to sing. If you don't want to sing so much, you can ask Zhou Xingyun to sing a few more lines for you. .He just happened to be stuck there and needs a little more chance to show off."

Qi Yi nodded absent-mindedly: "Mmm..."

"Qi Yi, don't listen to those netizens on the Internet. They just don't go well in real life, and they just want to find a target to vent their anger. Maybe they don't watch the show at all." Xia Shui sat opposite him, comforting him while eating. He said, "You are so good-looking, even if you don't do anything, as long as you stand on the stage, you are already very eye-catching."

"Yes." Meng Jiao put his arm on Qi Yi's shoulder, stretched out his hand to pinch Qi Yi's face, and said with a smile, "I think you are the prettiest among us."

Qi Yi suddenly felt an invisible cold light from diagonally across, and hurriedly pushed Meng Jiao's hand away, panicked: "Little Brother Meng...it's good to eat."

Halfway through the meal, the cafeteria gradually became more crowded, and now the finals are coming soon, everyone is practicing hard, eating is a rare leisure time that can be used for rest, there are more people, and there are more things to talk about up.

There were table players chatting behind Qi Yi. It was probably because everyone was under a lot of pressure, and some emotions were normal.

"I'm exhausted from practicing every day, and the ranking is still on the verge of being eliminated. Alas, it's too difficult. Why don't you just go home..."

"So I still have to look good. Why can't my parents make me more handsome?"

"Yeah, appearance is important. Even if a person is a waste, he doesn't know anything. As long as he is good-looking and acts cute to the camera, there are still a lot of fans who like it..."

"Everything is fate. I can't envy such relaxed people."

"A capable person, and a good-looking trash, girls still like the latter, so, girls nowadays..."

……

They didn't seem to realize that the voice was getting louder and louder. Qi Yi's chopsticks froze for a long time and then resumed their movements. An indescribable complex expression.

Qi Yi was a little embarrassed, but he didn't know how to refute, so he could only hold back and whisper: "It's okay, eat quickly, and you have to practice later."

Meng Jiao threw the chopsticks away, turned around, raised Erlang's legs, and hung his arms behind the back of the chair, with a rather idle temperament, and shouted at the table behind: "What are you talking about? Talk to me too."

The people at the table behind saw that Meng Jiao felt a little guilty, and said "nothing" several times in a hurry.

"Really, but I heard you guys had a good chat." Meng Jiao frowned pretending to be puzzled, and stretched out his hand to make a gesture of listening to his ear, "Who is the powerful person? Who is the trash ?”

The few people didn't dare to answer, Meng Jiao simply stood up, walked in front of a person, bent down and put his shoulder on his shoulder in a friendly way, hid his knife in his smile, and whispered in the person's ear: "Who is the powerful person, are you?"

Several people held their breaths at the same time, and no one dared to speak. In this program, except for another person surnamed Meng, who dared to say that they had strength in front of Meng Jiao?Isn't that self-defeating?

"Meng Jiao, come back." Meng Yunxi frowned and called from behind.

Meng Jiao waved his hand irritably, signaling him not to bother him, and then continued to speak to the people at the table under his breath, but Qi Yi couldn't hear him.

"Meng Jiao." Meng Yunxi called out again, this time with a much more serious voice.

"Okay, okay, I'm back." Meng Jiao straightened up, patted one of them on the shoulder heavily, and smiled slightly, "Work hard."

Qi Yi didn't know what Meng Jiao said, but the group of people seemed to be frightened, they were so guilty that they didn't even dare to look at Qi Yi, and they didn't deliberately gossip anymore.

After the evening practice time was over, Qi Yi was so tired that he was sweating profusely, but he knew that there were still some parts that he didn't dance well, so he stayed for more practice.During the period of the show, in order to keep up with other people, he would stay for extra practice, and he was the last person to leave every time.At night, some fans would stay here waiting for them to go back to the dormitory. Once he returned to the dormitory at almost one o’clock in the morning, and found that the fans were still waiting for him with a banner at the door. In addition to his name, it also said "Come on" .

He went to greet them and told the fans not to wait so late for him in the future. After turning around, he felt a little hot in his eyes.

So he has to work hard to keep going.

When Qi Yi was practicing more, someone suddenly opened the door, gave a suspicious "hmm", and said, "Why is it so late, there are still people, I thought it was haunted."

Qi Yiyou was frightened, turned around, and saw that it was Gu Xi.He didn't know this person very well when he was on the show. Gu Xi's facial features are very sharp, and he looks a little fierce when he makes facial expressions. He doesn't seem to be easy to get in touch with. This time, he happened to be in the same show as him. He is a very good rap contestant. .

"Hey, what about you? What are you doing in a daze." Gu Xi swaggered in with his pocket in his pocket, "Your name is Qi Yiyi, right? Go back to sleep."

Qi Yi wiped the sweat off his forehead and replied, "I'm practicing dancing."

Gu Xi sized him up for a moment, then he was puzzled: "I remember you are very popular. People like you while you sing and dance the old people's dance in the square. What a fart you are practicing."

"I..." Qi Yi's face flushed slightly, and he turned his head, "But if I don't dance well, it will affect the whole group..."

Gu Xi was ridiculously amused: "Are you a fool?"

Qi Yi: "..."

Gu Xi simply sat down beside him, and opened the bottle of mineral water to drink: "Keep dancing, I'll help you see the movements."

Qi Yi was a little surprised: "You..."

"Jump." Gu Xi was impatient, "I beg you not to."

Qi Yi: "Thank you, so you are a good person."

Gu Xi frowned: "'So'...?"

Qi Yi: "...it's nothing."

……

Efforts are not in vain. In the last few stages, Qi Yi performed very well. He danced to the rhythm without making mistakes, and sang on the right tune. However, the only ones who saw his progress were fans. Among other passers-by and In the eyes of netizens, he is still the one who has no strength and should not make his debut. The voice of abuse will only become louder and quieter, and the trending searches about Qi Yi will become louder, but they will never stop.

In the end, although Qi Yi made his debut successfully, but more and more eyes stayed on him. For a while after his debut, many people looked for his flaws with a magnifying glass. The hot search was a small one in a week, half a month. The big one exploded last month.Many people even released screenshots of him saying "the purpose of being on the show is to make money" on the show, saying that he is not worthy of making his debut on this show, crowding out those who really have dreams behind him.

Qi Yi's fans have been arguing all the time, saying that they spent real money to vote for Qi Yi's position, why they squeezed out others, if you think other talents should debut, then vote!You passers-by don't vote for other people, and it's really unreasonable to compare the people who were voted for all day after the show is over.

But many times, many passers-by are just unreasonable, and even scold fans for being stupid.

Qi Yi saw these comments on him, and he accepted them calmly. He felt that there was nothing to refute. He didn't love the idol stage that much. Seeing other people with dreams being eliminated, a feeling of "" I don't deserve" emotions.But he is still working hard now, one is because there are fans supporting him behind him, he feels that he owes the fans, and the other is because he can make money, and he needs money, he wants his parents to live better, he needs money I can send it back.

To put it bluntly, if it wasn't for the money, he wouldn't be a trainee.He is here for money, and compared to others who want to realize their dreams, he seems to be inferior from the beginning; what he does seems to be meaningless compared to others.

But accepting it calmly does not mean that he will never react to bad reviews again. After his debut, he really can't relax. His words and deeds will be magnified by netizens, which causes him to suffer in his heart, but his appearance can't To show it, he had to look as sunny and cheerful as possible, and then put on a happy smile for the fans on camera.

Qi Yi was watching "Strange Records of Star Campus" at this time. It was a drama broadcast a year ago, and it was a funny web drama. The assistant recommended him because he was under a lot of pressure and wanted him to relax. The set is not long, just enough time to relax.

This is the first drama that Gu Ling acted in when he was 20 years old. It is an online drama.When Qi watched this drama, Gu Ling was already 22 years old and was selected by the director to act in a movie. This drama has already become his dark history.

Qi Yi didn't know about the actor, he was just attracted by Gu Ling's role.Gu Ling played a funny piece of shit, but he always used his own way to survive from desperate situations, and then slapped other people in the face. Qi Yi couldn't help but substitute himself. Very cool.

Because of this drama, he has a little space to vent his spirit, and he feels a little more relaxed.After watching it, there was a behind-the-scenes interview with the actors. Qi Yi saw Gu Ling outside the play when he was 20 years old.

"This is your first play, what have you gained?" the reporter asked.

"Harvest." Gu Ling lazily rubbed his shoulders, then smiled happily, and pointed at the camera handsomely, "Of course I made money! I earned the first sum of money, and I can buy gifts for my mother .”

The reporter let out a "ah", and asked with a smile, "Hey, you are too superficial, you are an actor, tell me about your goals, about your dreams."

"Why is this superficial? I want to be a good actor and I want to make money. What's the conflict? Being an actor is not a particularly sacred profession." Gu Ling shrugged and smiled jokingly, "If If you want to rely on something to make money, don’t think of it too sacred, including dreams and goals, the same is true, how can something noble with money.”

The reporter retorted: "So many people have the dream of becoming an artist. If you say that, what do you make them think?"

"It's up to them what they think, but I think that as long as a dream can eventually earn money, it doesn't matter whether your starting point is because of love or money. In the end, you still have to go the same way. This is not a noble ideal." Gu Lingsha He shook his fingers meaningfully, "But not being noble doesn't mean it's meaningless, and it doesn't mean it's bad. I'm not denying the value of these dreams."

After reading this interview, Qi Yi suddenly felt enlightened.

Not being noble doesn't mean being meaningless...

He had never thought of this before, he was just doubting himself.

At this time, the actor named Gu Ling confidently said to the camera, what if the ideal is not noble at all, is this meaningless?I think this is a very valuable thing.

Yeah, it makes sense.

Although Qi Yi's original intention was not to love, he finally went around and stood on the stage, and he is also working hard to become an idol as good as possible. Why should he feel that he is not worthy in his heart.This kind of thing doesn't need anyone to issue him a qualification.

Qi Yi's heart felt unprecedentedly relaxed for the first time, as if a lock was hung on his heart, but now, a key opened it, and the lock disappeared.

Many years later, he recalled the words his father said by the bench when he was in the third grade of elementary school.

Live with your head held high and your chest held high, that's what people should do.And compared to most of the world, he can be regarded as the lucky one, he is not qualified to hang his head down.

Gu Ling...

From then on, Qi Yi remembered the name and began to pay attention to this actor.It was not until many years later that they met again. Although the impression Gu Ling gave him was far from the 20-year-old Gu Ling in the original interview, Qi Yi always had a strong intuition telling him that this is a person. .

and so……

"It makes sense."

Qi Yi was talking to himself in his heart, but he accidentally said it out, seeing a flash of surprise in Gu Ling's eyes.

Gu Ling asked softly, "What did you say?"

Seeing that the words had already been spoken, Qi Yi simply continued, with a very sincere expression: "I only know Brother Gu because of that web drama..."

Gu Ling remembered which drama Qi Yi was talking about, and felt a little helpless: "Ah, you said that black history..."

"Although Brother Gu himself thinks this is black history, I really like it." Qi Yi was a little excited, "I was not in a good state at that time, and my heart was always heavy. Thanks to that drama, I was able to relax. Come down, this drama... including you and the characters you played, have given me great encouragement."

"So, even if you think your acting is meaningless, it is meaningful to me. Not only me, but also meaningful to every audience who likes your performance."

Qi Yi said a lot in one breath, and heaved a sigh of relief after finishing speaking.

Gu Ling was stunned for a moment, and after a while, he slowly digested what Qi Yi said, sighed, and smiled bitterly: "So you know that the role that inspired you was played by someone like me, and you are not disappointed .”

Qi Yi couldn't help frowning: "What do you mean by 'someone like me'? In my opinion, Brother Gu is already a good enough person. Don't you think so?"

Gu Ling was speechless: "I..."

While Gu Ling was still hesitating how to answer, Qi Yi suddenly leaned forward and grabbed his hand with an extremely serious expression: "Actually, to put it bluntly, whether it is meaningful or not may not be important at all. What's more, Brother Gu, I will accompany you, can you let me accompany you. "

A kind of pleading slowly appeared in his eyes, "Don't show... such a lonely expression again."

Gu Ling couldn't explain how he was feeling now, but he could definitely feel that a soft spot in his heart had been hit hard, a seed took root and sprouted there, and the weak root system was nailed into the depths of his heart .

"It seems that I really don't look good."

Gu Ling smiled and sighed, and gently smoothed the furrowed marks between Qi Yi's brows with his fingers.

"You are obviously younger than me, but I worry you."

Qi Yi was overwhelmed by emotions just now, but now he calmed down, he found that he was still holding Gu Ling's hand, and quickly let go, his cheeks were slightly hot.

The two continued to eat tacitly, and then continued filming at night and called it a day.The next morning, Gu Ling had a scene of riding a horse out of the city. He had learned how to ride a horse before filming ancient costumes, but he decided to practice under the guidance of professionals before filming started.

According to the plot, Song Heng, played by Qi Yi, will come to the gate of the city to say goodbye.When Qi Yi came to say hello, Gu Ling just got on the horse, and when he was about to leave, he suddenly remembered something, lowered his head and called out to him.

"Qi Yi." Gu Ling sat on the horse, staggering, "I don't seem to have responded to what you said yesterday."

Qi Yi raised his head, wondering: "Respond to what?"

"Thank you for staying with me." Gu Ling lowered his eyelids gently, and smiled softly, "I feel very lucky to meet you on the tail of this summer."

After that, he took the rein, clamped the horse's belly with his calf, and rode away.

Qi Yi stood in place, staring at Gu Ling Qiyuan, his heart was surging for a moment.

...Me too, very lucky.

He responded in his mind.