Disbelief

Extra episode three:

"Although I was born in Firework Alley, my body is not clean. But I am not a heartless person. Do you... believe it?

"I don't love that emperor at all. Fuck the princess Wangyou! It's just a trick of that short-lived ghost! How can I save my life if I don't promise him? Aren't all the things I did since I was a child just to survive? How could it be possible? At the last moment, he even gave up his life for the sake of shit and innocence?!

"I...I'm disgusting...Growing up in that kind of place, it's inevitable that I'm full of anger...

"But I did love someone. Really...

"His name is Qi Xiao. Mr. Qi. He didn't come to our Hualou for sex and money. He simply likes our Hualou's signature dishes and those jars of 'Spring Breeze Drunk'. One look at his eyes made me shudder." Just know that his inside is very clean, unlike other drinkers, all of them are dressed like beasts.

"When he drinks, he will always call us a group of girls and give out a lot of rewards. But he doesn't let us accompany the wine. He rewards us with a few glasses of wine, and we just wait by the side. The fragrant wooden door of the private room is closed. He's just pouring himself out like that and not letting us pass. It's like he's only here for other people to see.

"Later there were rumors that he had kidnapped Liu Wen. After I heard the news, it was a few days, and I thought I was really interested in him. But no matter how I think about it, Liu Wen and him don't look like a couple. But the Zhizhou Chu Xiao, Young Master Chu. The way Young Master Qi looks at him is always unusual.

"I think, Mr. Chu is a man. No matter how much Mr. Qi likes him, he is still a man. And I am a woman, a brazen woman. Even if I am a concubine, I will marry him, to the Qi family. I really love Mr. Qi .

"That day he was drunk, and I tricked him into the room. He didn't touch me when he was drunk, but kept crying. It made me cry too...I hugged him all night, it's so pitiful.

"Afterwards, he didn't come again for a while, so I went to wait outside, but I couldn't wait because of the cold. One night, it was extremely cold, and it was late autumn. When he came, he was already drunk, but he was still yelling. I want to drink again. I will accompany him. That night he didn't cry anymore, but stared at a place in a daze, muttering in his mouth, I don't know what nonsense he was talking about. I love his eyebrows and eyes the most. The eyebrows are thick Black sword eyebrows, flying into the temples; eyes are beautiful phoenix eyes, the pupils are so clear that you can look into your heart at a glance. I asked him if he could marry me. He... He actually agreed like that! It's so simple! For me , that is a sweet dream...

"The day I got married coincided with Mr. Chu returning to town. Since then, he has been out all day, leaving only me and the snow in the garden that no one is allowed to sweep. His father looked down on me and returned to his hometown.

"He slapped me when he came back from Chu Xiao. I knew he was trying to get angry at me on purpose, and wanted to get rid of me. But why?!...I slapped him back, but it was still me...it was me...

"This Qi Xiao! Made me homeless! ... Why did you agree to marry me when you hate me...

"Heh... I was taken away by the emperor and married to a barbaric barbarian... I suffered so much... It was like a pig and a dog! The emperor passed away, and the barbarian was wiped out, so I came back with my life... I I want to come back and see how he...how he is...but he!...he doesn't remember me anymore! He doesn't even remember me! Heh..."

"I think I'm going to die."

"Mr. Qi...Nansi is not blessed, there is only one love in this life."

—— Nansi