Star of tomorrow

As if responding to Qi Chen's words that he had kept hidden for many years, there was a sudden thunder outside the window, lightning flashed through the clouds, and heavy rain poured down in an instant.

The houses in the Golden Triangle are not built very high, and you can see lightning flashing across the sky from a distance. It is like daylight in an instant, and it returns to darkness in the blink of an eye.The heavy rain hit the glass window with a thumping sound, and the coolness squeezed in through the crack of the window, wrapping the two hugging.

There was a damp, musty smell in the air, as if together with Qi Chen's memory, he woke up from a certain long-term memory, roared in his ears, and pulled away the bloody scene completely, revealing the wound that the man had been hiding deep in his heart .

Ji Xing's eye sockets were sore, his nose was so congested that it hurt, and before he could recover, he shed tears.

He felt so sorry for Qi Chen, the pain was so painful that he felt a dull pain even when he was breathing, and countless emotions hit his atrium one after another, causing him to ring in the ears and lose his voice. He had a lot to say, but he couldn't find the most suitable words to comfort the person in front of him.

He wanted to say: It's not your fault, you didn't kill him, you didn't mean it.But he knew that such rhetoric was weak.

He could only hug Qi Chen silently, gently stroking his back, just like when he was afraid of thunder and had nightmares when he was a child, his family did it for him.

He tilted his head and kissed Qi Chen's ear, and on the side of his face, sad tears dripped down on the back of Qi Chen's hand.Qi Chen looked up at him, forced a smile, raised his hand to wipe away Ji Xing's tears, and said softly, "Don't cry."

Hearing what he said, Ji Xing wanted to cry even more.

Qi Chen let out a long breath, and said: "After that, I was suspended from class. The other party's family felt that it was my responsibility, and asked my parents to ask for compensation. My... parents publicly severed the relationship with me as a child, and the village party secretary saw me. The incident was too much to deal with, and in order to protect me, I was sent to the home of a relative of his in the county."

Abandoned by his family, the young Qi Chen suffered from a high fever for three consecutive days when he learned the sad news of his first love.

When he kissed the young man with anxiety, uneasiness, sadness and love, he never thought that these changes would happen later.He didn't mean to, he didn't want him dead, he hasn't kept those promises.

He didn't dare to think about why the other party died.

He didn't know what to do, and was transferred to another school with the help of the village party secretary, and he has never returned home since then.

After that, his personality became gloomy, and he often fought in school, and his shots were always very fierce, with a bloodthirsty taste of despair.

Damn it, he thought, he was the one.

The village party secretary has been helping to persuade his parents during this period. Whether it is good words or legal threats, the Qi family is indifferent.The two parties quarreled, and Qi's father yelled without fear of boiling water: "Arrest me if you have the ability! Send me to prison! I want to see! My son sent me to prison, does he still have the face? Live on!"

The village party secretary finally figured it out, what's the point of such a family coming back?It's nothing more than sprinkling salt on the child's wound. Living in this environment, a good child may be ruined.

It would be better to go as far as possible.

The village party secretary couldn't persuade Qi's family, so he turned his head to persuade Qi Chen, let him study hard and live well.

But how could the young Qi Chen be able to bear what happened to him at that time?The mentality collapsed, and the state has been declining all the way, and it seems that it will not be able to pull back.

At this time, the relative of the village party secretary who took care of Qi Chen found another way and discussed with the village party secretary: "I think this kid fights well, not indiscriminately. He has a clever mind and knows how to protect his head and stomach. I don't think so. When he was angry, he thought of a way to vent it out. I have a friend who opened a boxing gym in the city, and I sent him there to train and train, and he also learned a lot.”

The village party secretary had no concept of boxing, but that relative happened to be a boxing enthusiast, and he liked to go to the small martial arts gym in the county town to have fun on weekdays.

He accidentally saw Qi Chen fighting with others on the street, one of them hit four, and he didn't suffer much.His eyes lit up, and he thought of such an idea.

The village party secretary had no choice but to discuss it with Qi Chen, and Qi Chen didn't care, so he took advantage of the holiday and simply sent the child there.

Just like that, Qi Chen studied in the boxing gym, and gradually fell in love with this line of work. His angry, dark, and crazy thoughts can find an outlet here, and after a round of fighting heartily, he can always find an outlet in his heart.

Much more comfortable.

At a young age, he showed an amazing talent. He knew how to fight and resist beatings, because there was an inner strength in his heart that made him punch fast and hard, showing his fangs like an unruly beast.

The boxing gym wanted to train him. After graduating from junior high school, Qi Chen officially entered the boxing gym to train. Later, he won an award, and was spotted by the little-known club "Black Lion" at that time, and joined the club.

After that, he brought countless investments and sponsorships to the "Black Lion", which made the Black Lion grow rapidly and signed more and more boxers, until one day, his use value was squeezed out, and he was He drove away mercilessly.

"The money I earned later, I kept half of it myself and gave the other half to the village party secretary." Qi Chen said, "He never took it, so I transferred it to his relatives, which is the account you checked. If it weren't for them , I wouldn’t be the person I am now. They are all good people.”

Ji Xing pursed his lips and said hoarsely, "You said boxing is your second home..."

"It's scary when people don't have a sense of belonging, especially when people around you don't accept you, as if you are the only one left in the world, and when you can't see the future, that feeling can drive people crazy." Qi Chen said, "I was I have severed the relationship with my children, been kicked out of the house, and have lost my place to go back to. I have no belongings. It is boxing that makes me settle down again. I regard this profession as my spiritual sustenance, my only safe haven, and it can be said that boxing gyms , The club is my 'home'. But later, this family also abandoned me."

It is indescribable to have been abandoned by two recognized "homes" in a row.

Ji Xing couldn't imagine how Qi Chen, who was alone with his luggage and didn't even know where he was going, would feel when he finally came to the Golden Triangle.

Staying in the black boxing match, even if it is a fake punch, may be his last "life-saving straw" at that time.

"I'm sorry, I never wanted to talk about this." Qi Chen and Ji Xing pressed their foreheads together, closed their eyes and said, "I'm afraid you think I'm a...pervert."

"You're not." Ji Xing cupped the man's face with trembling hands, "Open your eyes and look at me."

Qi Chen's eyelashes trembled, and he slowly opened his eyes. There was weakness in his eyes. Those eyes, which were always firm, full of aggressiveness, and sometimes full of smiles, were filled with strong anxiety. and cowardice.

This was the first time Ji Xing saw the other party showing weakness, making him just want to spoil Qi Chen, hug him, coax him, as long as he is happy, he can do whatever he wants.

He has never felt so sorry for someone before, wishing he could hold the best in front of his eyes.

Ji Xing looked at him: "You just like him, don't avoid your original feelings. You like him, you have a good impression of him, and you want to make him happy. Don't..."

Ji Xing's voice was a little choked, and he stabilized his emotions before saying: "Don't feel guilty because of self-blame, and don't think that this love is ugly just because others scold you. Don't feel inferior because of this love, don't escape, don't feel ashamed."

Ji Xing didn't know what to say, he didn't know how to comfort people, he was just sad: "If it was me, if the person you liked was me, I know you are embarrassed by this liking, and you sacrificed for kissing me." Feeling ashamed makes me feel worse. Nobody wants to be seen as 'embarrassed and disgraced'."

Qi Chen shuddered. He looked at Ji Xing, his breathing gradually became heavy, and his eyes suddenly turned red.

Liking is the simplest and purest thing. Liking itself is beautiful. It does not choose gender, age, status, or power; it does not look at beauty, ugliness, or strength.

But people in the world will put countless labels on "like", it is too heavy and heavy, and loses its original brilliance.

Qi Chen fell in love with an extraordinary person, coupled with the age difference and gender issues, the whole thing fell into a "curiosity hunt".It does not conform to the values ​​that people believe, and it carries uncertainty and a frightening unknown.

So even he himself regarded all this as a "mistake".

Even if he grows up later, sees many people and things, and understands a lot, this idea still cannot be changed-he kissed a lunatic, they are still the same sex, he is a "pervert".

He was ashamed and embarrassed by this feeling, with secret anger, disappointment, and sorrow towards himself, thus forming an indivisible "tumor", wrapped in flesh and blood, jumping with the weight of his life.

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"If he is really as you said, he is a knowledgeable teacher." Ji Xingdao, "When he was normal, he was gentle and patient, and saw many things clearly. Then I don't think he died because of you."

Ji Xing had this intuition. He felt that the death of the young man was more due to the indifference of his family and the subsequent detention, which made him unable to see the hope and value of living.

He hoped that Qi Chen could untie this knot, but he also knew that this matter cannot be rushed, so he hesitated: "Do you want to know the cause of his death? I can help you find out."

Qi Chen shook his head: "No matter what the reason is, I am the fuse."

"You are not." Ji Xing corrected him, "The fuse was his illness and his family's attitude. You just..." It was just the match that ignited the fuse.

Qi Chen squeezed Ji Xing's hand: "Don't investigate, let him go."

Time flies by, and he is already a few years older than the youth he liked back then, but the other party is forever frozen in the best years of his life.

Ji Xing nodded, the rain was still falling outside, Qi Chen stood up and took the umbrella in the lounge, hesitantly looked back at him: "Did it scare you?"

Ji Xing shook his head: "No."

Qi Chen smiled wearily, thoughtfully, and stretched out his hand to take Ji Xing home.

They held an umbrella together in the heavy rain, hugging each other tightly, as if they were the only ones relying on each other in the turbulent waves.But the rain was too heavy, and their clothes and trousers were still wet.

In the cold wind, Ji Xing's shoes and socks were soaked, and he suddenly became more awake.He finally understood the reason why Qi Chen never let him meddle in Aunt Liu's private affairs, and also understood what he said, some injuries are destined to never heal.

Everyone who passes by on this road, you never know what happened behind his smile.

Ji Xing commented on Aunt Liu's matter that day, saying: "As long as you move forward, you will be fine."

Now he wants to say the same thing to Qi Chen, the difference is that he will always be with him.

Let's move forward together, it will be fine.