Let me live [Quick Transmigration]

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Fingers ran through the slightly messy thick black hair, gently stroked and combed them, making them docile little by little, like comforting a beast that was exhausted after a fight and finally calmed down. Monster's breathing and heartbeat gradually stabilized.He folded his arms and hugged the body in his arms tightly, and there were some signs of blunt and depressed movements, but at last he no longer looked rough.

The struggle between instinctive tension and forced relaxation just now made Lu You weak all over, unable to lift up his strength, and the movements of his hands were also slow. Monster's face was pressed against his shoulder, and after a moment of silence, he dawdled around, as if trying to wipe away his tears, then he broke away from Lu You's arm holding him, and stood up again.Those red eyes after crying looked at Lu You for a while, an inexplicable expression flashed in Monster's eyes, and while stepping back, he pressed his hands on Lu You's thigh.

If Lu You was too calm and even numbly thinking "ah, he still has to continue" when he was pinched and separated his legs, when Monster knelt down between his legs and leaned closer, He began to feel that something was not quite right.

"No no no..."

Lu You twisted his body and tried to bring his knees together. He pressed the hairy head with both hands and pushed him away.At this moment, his mood may be even more broken than a few minutes ago. Although Monster could easily suppress him, after being kicked firmly twice by him, he finally became unhappy again. "Isn't that okay?" he asked, frowning.This is the first time he has spoken since he appeared, and there is still a little nasal sound in his voice after crying.

This...isn't it a conspiracy!Lu You roared inwardly.He grabbed Monster's black hair and pulled him back hard, "You...give me...get up..."

He was in pain all over, and he didn't have much strength in his hands. Monster stood in a stalemate with him for a moment, straightened up with a gloomy face, and then threw himself forward, grabbing his waist and dragging him down.Their confrontation continued from the bed to the floor. After a unilateral struggle with different strengths, they finally reached a consensus on the issue of posture: Monster sat on the ground, and Lu You sat on his lap, facing him, and allowed Monster hugged his waist.

...Although Monster is still stubborn, the one who made him stop the car just before the matter became irreversible... No matter what the reason, it seems that his desire | desire has not been eliminated at the same time. Being together made Lu You feel a little creepy.But he had a premonition that if he continued to refuse, the Monster might go berserk again, so he had no choice but to hypnotize himself so hard that he didn't feel anything.Fortunately, Monster just hugged him, and seemed to have finally completely given up on further moves.He lowered his head and licked the teeth marks on Lu You's neck.

"If he wanted you," he said sullenly, "would you agree?"

Lu You hesitated for a moment, and decided to tell him the truth. "I don't know." He whispered, "Maybe..." The wet tongue slid across the skin again, Monster bit him, and Lu You grabbed his shoulder. "Then why can't I?" His voice sank, "Why... If it were me, would you refuse?"

Lu You suddenly wanted to laugh a little inappropriately. "You really can't figure it out yourself?" He straightened Monster's face and met his gaze, "Because, you make me... feel scared."

No rejection attitude.A force that cannot be resisted.The desire for pain and fear.The joy and excitement of destruction.

Lu You stroked Monster's hair lightly, and pushed down the messy strands. Monster's body tensed slightly, but he was quietly motionless. "You can't..." Lu You said in a low voice, "You want me to endure the hurt and show closeness at the same time. I can't do it."

"I don't need your closeness." Monster said, "I just want you."

Lu You paused for a moment.At this moment, he returned to the deep black and cold seabed in a trance, facing the original god who knew nothing about the complex emotions of human beings. "Is that so?" He stared into those dark eyes, "Then what are you jealous about?"

Monster opened his mouth, but didn't speak.Lu You didn't intend to let him go.He's getting a little tired of Monster's tough attitude, something indecisive, and he wants to force an answer out of Monster, even at the risk of embarrassing the mob. "If you didn't stop just now, you've got what you wanted," he said. "Why did you stop?"

Moonster's expression was slightly distorted, and his body was a little stiff, as if he was trying his best to fight against some kind of power in his heart. "I..." The monster showed a little anxious expression, "I don't understand..."

——should be satisfied.

—It is enough to possess and plunder.

For such a long time... Hasn't he always believed so firmly, and has been proved countless times?Immersed in a sense of alienation from everything around him, everything is dark and boring, only destruction... Only the moment when the original intact things fall to pieces, can they shine brightly in front of his eyes.

He was born to be a predator.There is no need to ask the opinion of the prey.What a lively and interesting response to rejection and struggle, it will make him taste even sweeter when he reaps the results.Blood and death only made him feel excited and happy, and he never felt uneasy or guilty.If there is no restriction of another personality, if it is not able to vent in the "game", he may have torn the skin of this barely "human" in the "reality", crossed the boundary, and became a real monster.

"Human beings"...have no sense of "similar" or "companions" at all.

He also doesn't like the other "he".Although they come from the same source, they are not close to each other, instead, they have a sense of confrontation similar to "life and death".If they were not twins who share a body but are independent twins, they would have parted ways long ago and wished each other an early death.He has always responded with a mocking attitude towards "him" consciously restraining himself, earnestly learning how to communicate, and seeming to be preparing to establish contact with whom.

Too weak.

It's too plain.

It doesn't make any sense at all.

"Contact"... What is there to look forward to?

Monster lowered his eyes.He gathered his palms and held the waist of the young man in front of him.Because the clothes were torn by him, Lu You is now wearing his coat, but his hands can still easily sneak in from the hem, touching the delicate and warm skin.How wonderful, he almost trembled with excitement... This is something that has never happened to other prey - it makes him want to taste another kind of happiness besides destruction.

Because the soft and fragile interior is invaded and wounds are made, the groaning, crying, trembling and struggling caused by that will surely bring more joy and satisfaction than any previous hunting, right?

He did it.Then, he got the same losing streak he never had before.

What should have been sweet tasted bitter.The struggle that should have been expected led to unwillingness.When you are about to be happy, you can't continue anyway.If he was rejected, the excitement that would always come to him was replaced at some point by the rage that swept his mind.

The more unwilling to compromise, the more forcefully persisting, the further away from the original goal.I found myself looking forward to something he had ridiculed before, but I still had to maintain an arrogant smile, confront the fear and jealousy that grew day and night, and refused to change like a trapped beast.

"I don't understand," said the monster.

Actually, he understands...

Monster swallowed lightly.He felt as if there was a lump in his throat, making it difficult for him to speak.But how gentle is the hand stroking his hair... The eyes looking at him should be anticipation, right?So, he finally spoke up.

"I thought about it... this time, before I came here." He heard his own voice, and felt it was close to whimpering, "I thought about it. I want to do it to the end, to achieve what I want, and then I can be like before... Even if it is the end If you still can't get happiness, you can also end the pain here." He grabbed Lu You's hand and pressed it on his chest where the heart was.His heart was beating uncontrollably, "If the pain here can't end...then let 'him' feel the same..."

——Even at this moment, in the depths of his heart, there is still a dark and cold place that surges with his very difficult desire to resist.It was his innate instinct to find satisfaction through unilateral destruction and usurpation.All this time he had just enjoyed it, always followed it as if it were some self-evident truth, never thinking that one day it would bring him pain in return.

"But..." he murmured, "it's too uncomfortable."

The body continued to be excited, and the accelerated blood flow made the heart scorching hot, but under the scorching heat, there was a dark chill hidden.

I'd rather see him laugh than cry.Rather than pain, I want him to feel happy.What was once scorned and ridiculed becomes something that is desperately desired but does not know how to get it.The monster, which has been refusing to change, finally felt so uncomfortable that it could no longer deceive itself, so it stopped and watched the road it had stubbornly insisted on collapse in front of it.

He stopped.

Lu You felt a slight heaviness on his shoulders. Monster lowered his head and rested his forehead on his shoulder.He sniffed, his voice trembling a bit, but at the same time he was trying to laugh so as not to look too embarrassed.He smiled and said, "I lost..."

Lu You understood a little bit.He stretched out his arm silently, wrapped it around Monster's shoulder, and patted him on the back.After a while, the man who was much taller than him trembled slightly in his arms. Monster wraps his arms around him, wrapping him completely in his arms and pushing him back like he's a soft, comforting pillow.

After a moment of silence, Lu You spoke.

"I..." he said in a low voice, "There are some things that I haven't found a chance to tell you." He wanted Monster to raise his head, but the head refused to move as if it was on his shoulders. He had no choice but to give up the plan to make eye contact, organized his words for a while, and said slowly: "Even if you are more out of your own interest... In the past few months, you have really helped us... I, very big busy."

He touched Monster's back and knew he was listening, so he continued, "If you hadn't threatened Tao Lin in the first place, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to explain the situation to my brother so easily; later, in order to make him collapse, You are the one who contributed the most. Tao Zi... I don’t know much about what you have done in this regard, but it is mostly your plan to let her be forced into a bereaved dog and end up on her own, right?”

Monster still didn't make a sound, just rubbed against his neck lightly.

"And..." Lu You paused.And... in the first world, the person who cut off the future of Su Han and Wen Mingyu and allowed his mission to be completed quickly.He skipped the line and went on to say, "Although you're really scary a lot of the time, you're also useful... well, that's kind of weird to say... I mean, you do things that other people can't .You've been helping me. I... have never thanked you."

He tilted his head slightly, leaned his lips to Monster's ear, and said "thank you" softly. Monster shuddered, as if he was not used to having his ears touched by the warm and moist breath.

"But," Lu You continued, "if you treat me the same way you treat them, I can only give you the same reaction as them... It's a natural thing, isn't it?"