Let me live [Quick Transmigration]

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"If you scare me, I will reject you and want to run away. Even if you..." Lu You took a breath, "Even if you really want to love me...all the things you have given me all this time are all Something I hate."

With these words, Monster raised his head successfully.There was a trace of uneasiness on his face, as if he had finally realized that Lu You's attitude was not exactly what he expected.How strange this is... A cold finger lightly pressed on his lips, stopping the words he was about to blurt out.

"You lost because you didn't do it right." Lu You said, his tone was still soft, the slightly curved lips were gentle and beautiful, but his expression looked a little sad, "You were wrong... Have you ever thought about it?" Want to apologize to me?"

The person who always resisted and resisted not firmly, as if there was nothing unforgivable, showed a slight wry smile at this moment.

"Or...do you think that because you have also been tortured, your torture to me can be offset?" He asked calmly, "because you have worked very hard... so even if the result is still causing harm, I will It should be touching and satisfying—is that right?"

Monster grabbed his hand. "Do you really think so?" He narrowed his eyes, he didn't know whether it was anger or pain that made his voice hoarse, "Or do you want to provoke me?"

Lu You looked at him.He looked pitiful just now, but after being stung, he became tough again... he thought to himself.But then, Monster's sharp momentum weakened again, still holding Lu You's hand, and hugging him into his arms again. "I'm sorry." He said sullenly, "I know I was wrong..."

...It seems that she is still acting like a baby.Lu You sighed silently.He had finally made himself a little angry, but now he was only left with a gentle self-deprecating helplessness.When he closed his eyes and leaned against Monster, feeling the warmth from his broad chest and the stubbornness in the strength of his arms, this helplessness suddenly turned into an urge to cry. "You bastard..." he whispered, "what do you think of me?"

"If you have to get angry with another 'you' and don't want to admit that you are wrong, can you torment me like this?"

"I will be sad too..."

Monster completely flustered this time. "I'm sorry." He repeated helplessly, and subconsciously folded his arms, but accidentally pressed onto Lu You's back where he had hurt him, causing Lu You to snort.

Before Monster said "I'm sorry" as if he was addicted, Lu You recovered from the pain and said first, "Shut up." Monster fell silent.He moved his hand away from Lu You's back, hesitating whether to touch it again, his whole aura dropped.Lu You endured it for a while, but finally couldn't hold it back, sighed again, reached out his hand as if giving up on himself, and messed up the black hair on top of Monster's head that he had just smoothed out.

I'm... I've already lost, he thought.Since the first time I softened when I should have been tough...

This move seemed to convey permission to Monster to get close again, and he immediately posted it again.Lu You was hugged by him, and he allowed his mind to let go for a few minutes before speaking again, breaking the silence. "One more thing...you probably won't like to hear it." He said, "After the bad behavior you did to me just now, I am still willing to comfort you and let you be close...because I know that you Really like me, not really just want to possess and torture me..."

Lu You paused.Although Monster didn't make a sound, he could feel his doubts: Why would he "don't like to hear" such content?

"However, the person who made me feel 'like'..." Lu You continued softly, "It's not you."

Monster's body froze.While feeling a little pitiful for him, Lu You suddenly felt an inexplicable joy.What did this man do to him?Wanting to dismantle the cell phone he possessed, implying that he would get rid of his family, kissing him forcibly, trying to rape him... To be honest, this guy really didn't leave him any good memories.If it wasn't for Lin Heng, who shared his soul with him, as evidence, if it wasn't for his preconceived memories of those worlds before, he would never have realized that what Monster gave him in the name of harm was actually "love" in essence.

It was because of this... that Monster didn't become his nightmare, causing him devastating damage.He was able to be held by him without trembling with fear, and willing to be close to the vulnerable part of his heart that was struggling and hurting.

what is this?

Alternative view of God?

Lu You felt that Monster's hand on his shoulder was getting stronger.He patted on the back of the man's tense hand showing blue veins. "You're hurting me again," he said.

Monster let go.He let out a very small whimper, as if he had lost his strength in the pain of a serious injury.

Lu You touched his back, and slowly walked along his spine with his fingertips. "You," he said softly, "haven't you noticed yet? You've been a puppet of 'Instinct'. You obey it, and it bestows happiness on you. If you try to get rid of it, it will keep torturing you... "

He was stroking the back of a restless, untamed beast.If he just watched from a distance, he would also like to admire its ferocity and wildness, and its arrogant and handsome demeanor when hunting.The scarier it is, the more beautiful it is, making people want to love beyond their control.If, just wait and see from afar...

"Should I want you to become tame?" Lu You seemed to be muttering to himself, the voice was so soft that it was almost inaudible, "Become no longer you? Become a better lover..."

"Why," Monster asked, his voice strained, "would I become less of me?"

Lu You opened his mouth, suddenly not knowing how to answer. Monster hugged his waist, put a hand on his leg, hugged him to get up from the ground, then gently put him down, let him sit on the edge of the bed.Lu You raised his head in a daze, and saw that Monster was smiling... Gritting his teeth, he smiled fiercely.He seems to have suddenly returned to the state when they first met in this world, uncertain, but at the same time it seems that the victory is at hand.

"I know what to do," he said.

"What...?" Lu You replied dreamily, "What are you going to do...?"

"Losing to that guy in Hades is disgusting enough." Monster said, wrinkling his nose, as if he really smelled something bad, "'Instinct'... this kind of thing, still wants to control me? It used to be It was my pleasure to ignore it; now that it has become a hindrance..."

Monster smiled, still with the usual evil in his smile.This is the character element given to him by "Instinct", but if "Instinct" can see this smile, I am afraid that there is no substance, and I am afraid that I can't help but tremble.

He took a step sideways, turned around, and sat down next to Lu You. Lu You subconsciously turned to look at him, just in time for Monster to hold his face. "I will control it." Monster said softly, his expression suddenly became very serious, as if it was an oath, "You said I was also useful, right? Then let it be a tool. This time, I won't throw in the towel again..."

When the words fell, Monster's lips also came up.Lu You was overwhelmed by his sudden change, and didn't even have time to think about avoiding him.He felt another person's hot breath on his lips, and a soft touch that was not fully implemented and inseparable.

"If after I finish, you will be willing to forgive my previous behavior and get close to me..." Monster asked in a low voice, "Now, can I advance a kiss in advance?"

Lu You hesitated for a second. "No," he said quickly.

Then he bit his lip.No...he told himself in his heart, he couldn't so easily...

There was a smile in Monster's dark eyes, staring at him deeply.It seemed that the flustered and uncomfortable performance before was just a short-term disguise to trick him into softening his heart.

Lu You stepped back. "No." He repeated in a low voice, "I haven't forgiven you yet." He hesitated for a moment, "But..."

Lu You pressed Monster's shoulder, straightened up slightly, and kissed him on the forehead, "I wish you..."

He hadn't thought about whether to wish "success" or "success", Monster suddenly opened his arms, wrapped them around his waist, and tightened them tightly. "Wait for me." He said softly.

He didn't want to be more greedy, or he didn't want to give a little space to the untamed darkness in his heart. After the arms were released, his figure disappeared from the room immediately.

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The walls that cut off the entire consciousness space began to crumble.Lin Heng, who was sitting cross-legged in the air, raised his head, and saw the face exactly like him with a gloomy expression behind the wall.

The first thing he said was: "Have you failed?"

Monster squinted his eyes, a certain emotion he was forcibly suppressing quickly turned violent.Lin Heng tilted his head, his expression was always calm, "You have already failed countless times." He said slowly, "It's just you who have been refusing to admit it."

"I admit it." Monster said in a muffled voice.This time it was Lin Heng's turn to stop talking, Monster walked up to him, and the two stared at each other silently for a while. "You and him..." In the end, it was Lin Heng who spoke first, "What happened?"

Monster wanted to show him a nasty smile like he always did before, but in the end he just pulled the corner of his mouth. "Can't you share my memory?" He whispered, "Look for yourself."

"Not all of them." Lin Heng said calmly, "Compared to sharing you... I think more about 'before'."

"Then you guess." Monster said.The two fell silent again.Lin Heng sat still, and Monster walked back and forth a few times anxiously in front of him, and finally spoke reluctantly, "I need your help." He said.

Lin Heng looked at him for a while, then stood up. "I still want to get rid of you forever." He said, as if Monster already understood what he wanted to do without explaining it.

"To each other." Monster said impatiently.

"Have you thought about it?" Lin Heng asked, "If we do this, our strength will be greatly weakened. And," he whispered, "the part you left behind will become completely the monster..."

"When did you become so verbose?" Monster asked.

Lin Heng shook his head. "You seem to be very confident." He said, "Aren't you afraid of being swallowed up by me when you merge?"

Monster laughed. "At that time, let's see." He said arrogantly, "But before that..."

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"Are you agreeing to him?" the system asked, "Isn't it impossible?"

With his elbows on his knees and his face buried in his palms, Lu You was reflecting on his countless unconscious compromises. "Promise what?" he asked feebly.

"Monster." The system said, "First of all, you don't know when you will leave this world; secondly, your guess about 'every world will meet' is just a guess; thirdly, even if your guess is true—— I mean it’s okay,” it emphasized emphatically, “maybe the two of them will merge in the next world? The consciousness of ‘Lin Heng’ has more souls than ‘Monster’, maybe when you meet next time, 'Monster' is gone."

"Actually..." Lu You whispered, "If they reintegrate...I'm more worried about Lin Heng..."

"Well," the system seemed a little interested, "Why?"

"It's mainly about memory." Lu You raised his face and said a little tiredly, "What Lin Heng experienced, and what he 'remembered', Monster can share... It's like Lin Heng wanted to give him As well as providing memory... in this respect, Monster is more complete."

"And..." Lu You turned his wrist, and there was still some pain in the place where Monster twisted it just now.He paused for a while before continuing: "Besides, Monster is more complicated. Lin Heng..." He tried to recall, but his expression was a little dazed.That person... was always very calm and stable, and very gentle.Arousing light and happy emotions in his heart, he should have gained more preference, but because of the sharp and contradictory contrast of another person, it seems to have lost its color.

Lu You groaned softly and covered his face again. "I feel..." he said weakly, "it's like splitting legs...the kind of scum that steps on two boats and compares the boats back and forth..."

"I'm a bit guilty... how to deal with it..."

The system gave a "tsk". "One soul! One!" It hates iron and steel, "Smart points! Legal 3P! It's a good thing that others can't ask for, can you please make me happy? Don't be so inferior!"

"Can't do it..."

Lu You and the system sighed at the same time.He supported his head, his mind was in a mess, and in order to calm down, he turned to think about other things: he had attracted the attention of the "manager" on the street before, and now he was locked in this room where he could not get out. I don't know what's going on outside... Will it make my brother worry?Would have thought he was missing?

Lu You rubbed his face, feeling a little depressed, when he suddenly heard a suspicious "hmm" from the system.

"What happened?" He asked wearily without turning his head.

The system was silent for a while.Lu You began to wonder if it was disconnected again, and Lin Heng or Monster would reappear in the room later, so the system said hesitantly: "Your mission..."

"Your task, completed...?"

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In the "outermost layer" of the conscious world where Lin Heng took Lu You once, two figures emerged from nothingness and stepped gently on the ground.

It was a vast, crowded space, with human brains soaked in solution, housed in drawer-shaped vessels, neatly arranged on shelves, with margins visible upwards and to the sides.Those two figures were like ghosts with empty bodies, passing through the chaos and orderly countless wires, walking from one shelf to another, looking for something.

"Can you still recognize them?"

"Simple."

"This is not the real world yet, there is no way to directly destroy it physically..."

"Try overloading? Let the part that can think be burned. This kind of accident will happen once or twice."

Seeming to have found their target, they stopped.One of them, with a smile on his lips as if he thought it was funny, approached and knocked on one of the drawers.A few small bubbles emerged from the solution, and the pinkish-white brain was connected to wires, sleeping peacefully in the container.

"Well, this is...that girl's."

I don't know where he judged it, so saying, the man lightly tapped the partition outside the drawer with his fingertips.A little light lit up under his fingertips, as if injecting a shot of poison|drug into the solution, the light spread rapidly, filling the entire interior of the drawer in a few seconds.All the changes were carried out very quietly. After more than ten seconds, the light dimmed, and the brain in the drawer disappeared.

The man whistled. "Available." He said, turned his head, and found that his companion was withdrawing his hand from another drawer that was already empty.

"solved."

"How long is the backup data?"

"150 days."

"Enough... come on, let's get started."

The figure of the person who made the first move suddenly began to twist and collapse.Tiny light spots scattered from his body, gathered towards another person, and entered his body.Those spots of light are white, but when they touch the body, what spreads out is deep darkness.

invasion.pollute.devour each other.blend with each other.

At the same time, from their side, an invisible huge force emerged.In the void, the torrent of data stagnated.It growled, struggled, and then began to back away slowly.

return to the past.

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Yan Chuan felt that he seemed to be in a trance.

He blinked and shook his head again, still feeling a little dizzy.What was he thinking just now... he thought.

Oh, it seems to be... why hasn't my brother come back for lunch?

He lowered his head, saw the frying pan in his hand, and the fried eggs for breakfast in the pan, and felt that there might be something wrong with his brain.He also felt as if he had forgotten something, but he couldn't remember it.

Yan Chuan made a sandwich with fried eggs, cheese slices and whole wheat bread, took it out together with the heated bagged milk, packed it in a bag and put it in the bag.A few seconds later, the door of Yan Chen's room was pushed open abruptly. While tugging at the zipper of his clothes, he rushed to the table, grabbed the bag from his brother, and ran away.He blew past Yan Chuan like a gust of wind. Before Yan Chuan could finish saying "go slowly", he had rushed out the door together with the hurried "goodbye".

Two minutes later, Yan Chen, who was still wearing slippers, reappeared at the door disheartened.Yan Chuan helped him carry the bag and asked him to change his shoes, he just wanted to sigh, but he had forgotten the strange feeling before. "Why do you go to the company every day?" He asked, "Isn't today Saturday?"

"There was a bug that didn't come out yesterday... Ann, I'm just like playing in the company. It's very easy." Yan Chen changed his shoes, leaned over to give his brother a hug, and took the bag from him, "Aren't you going out? ? Didn’t you say that you’re going to… what are you going to do today?”

"Go..." Yan Chuan said casually, and then he was also taken aback for a moment.going to...?He vaguely remembered that it seemed to be some kind of school event...to visit...to visit...he tried hard for a while, but couldn't think of anything. "I don't seem to have any plans for today..." He said hesitantly.

Yan Chen grabbed his arm. "Come on, let's go to the company with me!" He said cheerfully, dragging his brother to the door, "There is a lack of NPC appearance data in the modeling area, I made one before, it's quite fun, why don't you contribute too one time……"

"I look about the same as you... wait, I haven't changed my shoes yet..."

Another 2 minutes later, Yan Chuan opened the door again with a sigh, and went back to the kitchen to get his own breakfast.Yan Chen leaned against the door and stuck out his tongue at his back.The insignificant sense of lack in memory soon disappeared without a trace.