awkward and gentle

The days passed by in such a muddle, and it was late May in a blink of an eye.Desolation feels that her weight is dropping at a rocket speed, but the problem is that she hasn't done much work recently, and she also eats a lot.Could it be... is it really because of the subconscious fat consumption caused by the recent two weird and entangled thoughts of using the brain and the reactionary brain to fight in the mind?

During the lunch break, Yang went to the dormitory to get study materials, and the four of them went to the cafeteria to eat first.

"Hey... Yuezi, if I made a mistake, I apologize here first! Yuezi, are you dating a sheep?" Huang Ni, who was eating weakly, was almost choked by Xi Ye's light words. .

Yuezi only revealed the latest news to her last night, how could this guy figure it out so quickly!

"Eh? Why did Xi, Xi also say that?" Yuezi asked in a daze, tilting his head.

"Huh? Why... I just vaguely feel that something has changed when you get along..." Xi also scratched his short flaxen hair and explained with a smile, "It has become more harmonious...and closer Yes. Especially when the sheep face confinement, stop hesitating!"

"You can go to work in the FBI, Xiya..." Aragashi said with a slumped face, looking at Yata who was staring at the side with a shocked expression on his face, "Fortunately, there are more normal people in this world. If the young and old can see it, I have to say...it's too much to show affection openly and aboveboard."

"... What do you mean you can see even a young man with gray hair... This, this can't be true!" Zaita turned his head stiffly like a robot.He suddenly realized, and looked at Yuezi with a smirk on his face, "Eh? Yuezi, is it right?"

Yuezi didn't give a shit either, and nodded with a frank smile.

"Well, we're dating!"

A bright smile spread from the upturned corner of the mouth to the entire face, and the uncontrollable joy spread to the three people around.

"A very happy smile!" Xi also looked at Yuezi's smile and felt relieved, "As long as Yuezi is happy."

"Speaking of which, how did Yuezi get along with sheep? It's really..." Zai Tai swallowed the food in his mouth, puffed up his face, showing a childish and awkward expression as if his beloved toy was confiscated, " It's too cheap for him! And it's the first time I've seen your expression!" Zaita joked, a trace of bitterness flashed in the golden eyes, but was quickly replaced by blessings.

Jianchi shook his head helplessly, "This guy, I just laughed like this in the dormitory yesterday, and I felt like my face was about to cramp... Oops... I almost knelt down to her!"

"Well, I would like to thank Huang Ni a lot this time! If it weren't for Huang Ni, I would not have mustered up the courage and made up my mind so quickly!" Yuezi nodded with a naive smile on the side.

Pull hatred, just pull hatred!

Jian Chi twitched the corner of his mouth, and said abruptly: "Cough...the main thing is to compare with Daiyue, who is savvy!"

"Well, don't worry everyone, I am very happy!" Yuezi announced with a bit of solemnity and sweetness in his eyes.

Zai Tai twitched the corner of his mouth and joked, "What~ so sweet!"

"Zaita, it doesn't matter at this time!" Xi also smiled happily, and patted Zaita's shoulder.

"

It's rare for Shaobaidou to say such correct words. Huang Ni raised his hand seriously, "This is an old bachelor!"I can't resist showing affection, if I had a sudden impulse, I would probably make some kind of heroic move..."

"Cataract, remove the word 'rare' for me!"

"On a whim... what move?" Xi also tightened the chopsticks in his hand, and asked a little hastily.

Jianchi stood up calmly, "For example, now, add a bowl of curry pork chop rice, and ask for double pork chops."

Zai Tai stood up "Huo" and shouted excitedly, "It's rare for cataracts to make such a wise decision! I'm going to have an extra meal too!!"

"Che, 'rare' is redundant."

Looking at the firm backs of Lu Ni and Zaita holding the dinner plate, Yuezi bent the corner of his mouth slyly, "I thought that Lu Ni was going to confess!" Xi also turned his face stiffly, and he didn't even realize that he was With such an uneasy expression, "Yuezi, rebellious against her, do you have someone you like?"

Yuezi tilted his head and smiled innocently, "I don't know? Xi should also ask himself!"

"...!"

Xi also only felt that his forehead was smashed by the dinner plate, and his handsome eyes were already staring at Yuezi, his voice trembling, "Yue, Yuezi..."

"Hey~ Xi also can't just allow himself to be so powerful and know everything. Besides, doesn't Xi also know? Your eyes are always looking at the wild and rebellious! If this is the case, why don't you check it yourself? ?" Yuezi's lovely face was stained with a hint of cunning.

"Well... Really, I don't know what to say." Xi also pursed the corners of his mouth and gave a wry smile. Was he already so obvious?The atmosphere between the two fermented a little weirdly, at this moment, Arren and Yata returned to their seats with a full plate.

"Hey! What's wrong with drunkenness? (Hey! What are you talking about?)" Zaita said vaguely while biting the pork chop.

Huang Ni looked at him again with a look of disgust, "A starved ghost reincarnated? Did you eat half a pork chop in such a short time on the road?" The corners of his mouth rose slightly in a good mood.

"Hey, Yuezi!" Xi also interrupted suddenly, "Will you not feel lonely when the time comes? As friends, we are all sad, let alone you as a lover?"

"...Well, this problem, to be honest, is very lonely, but we have the courage to overcome it together!"

Huang Ni picked up Yuezi's upturned hair, "Well~ anyway, the three of us will stay with you, Daiyue!"

"Speaking of God! Sheng Ye is not tired and the deposit period has passed! (You are right! So don't try to be brave alone!)" Zai Tai agreed on the side.

"I can't take it anymore! Shut up, starving ghost! I can't hear what you're talking about at all!"

"Ah, I guess Zata meant to support Yuezi!" Xi also smiled warmly, "That's right, Yang is alone in a foreign country.

Even more lonely, you have to support him all the time, and the three of us are your backing! "

Yuezi pursed the corners of her mouth, her eyes were slightly red, "Really, don't make me cry! Thank you..."

"Hey! Don't cry! Really, confinement is also a girl?" Zaita whispered uncomfortably.

Huang Ni raised his eyebrows and retorted, "Hey, please, if Yuezi is not a girl in your eyes, then who am I who have been fighting with you since childhood? Pure man!"

It's rare that tin didn't stop the two of them quarreling.

He lowered his eyelids, and the fragmented shadows of his bangs obscured the expression on his face, making him look dim.

"I said, can you stop making other people's girlfriends cry?" A familiar voice sounded, and both Arenai and Yata turned their heads to look at the smiling sheep, one with a distorted face and the other with an expressionless face.

"Where are you crying!"

"Xiu Enai dies!"

"Hey! I wanted to say what you said just now, and I was very moved!" The sheep tilted its head helplessly, and the dull hair on its head and the confinement hair fell to the sides, which looked very interesting.

"Really! It turns out that I have been eavesdropping on the side all the time!!!" Zai Tai screamed.

"What, it's just that I didn't find a suitable appearance!" Yang pursed his lips, his expression suddenly became serious, "...Sorry, I feel like I robbed the person you have been protecting carefully, but, I It will definitely make her happy."

"Cut, you don't need to say, if Duyue comes to complain, I will definitely beat you to the ground!" Huang Ni glanced at him with smoky eyes, really, what a shame to show affection !

"Hey, Huang Ni! It's too rude to say that." Xi also said to the sheep, "Although Huang Ni said it very rudely, but if

If Yuezi is wronged, I won't let you off easily! "

"Hmm... It's like a conversation between my father-in-law and my mother-in-law..." Yang chuckled lightly, then nodded solemnly, "Yuezi, leave it to me!"

Um!Huang Ni and Xi also nodded at the same time, and said in unison, "Then, I will give it to you!"

"Tsk, how can there be a feeling of marrying a daughter!" Zai Tai shouted at the side, "Yang, you should make up your mind! This guy is a wild girl who even gives us a headache!"

"Hey! Yata! I'm still here!!!" Yuezi said with puffy face.

"Shaobaidou is ashamed to say that Daiyue is a wild girl, and he is also a brat!"

"What did you say! Cataracts!"

Well……

"Now, if the sheep is going to leave, Zaita and Huang Ni will start arguing every day!" Xi also looked at them with a headache.

"Hey, Xiye." Sheep said suddenly.

"Ok?"

"I was thinking, how can you bear it like this. Don't worry too much..."

Xi also scratched the ends of his flaxen hair in a slightly distressed manner, "...Ah, those who have been shown affection by you and Yue Zixiu all feel a little distressed and want to go directly to abduct people."

"Well, although it's not like Tinya's style, please do your best." Tsukiko said softly on the side.

Xi also looked at the girl with his chin resting on his lips, with a sardonic smile on his lips, but the tenderness in his smoky eyes seemed to overflow like water.

I always wanted to just be by her side and protect her like this, and I didn't dare to go any further because I was afraid to scare her away.I would rather stay where I am and maintain the original childhood sweetheart relationship.

However, he didn't know when he gradually started to be greedy...

Greedy enough, I want to get her with peace of mind, protect her worthy of the name, let him hold her in his arms and hide her...

***

The shade of the trees is mottled and sprinkles on the blue-gray stone brick streets.

The pink and white petals of cherry blossoms fluttered up and down in the wind, like tea leaves tumbling up and down in boiling tea.

May is the last month when the cherry blossoms are in full bloom.

As always, the ground at this time seemed to be covered with a carpet of cherry blossom petals.

Xi also walked on this "Sakura Avenue" with his schoolbag on his back, feeling the warm breeze playing with the petals around him, and the sunshine in the afternoon of spring is like warm boiled water that has been cooled down, shining on his comfortable body just now. good.

He looked up at the beautiful flower petals flying by the roadside, with a warm smile on his lips.

Compared with the beautiful blooming March cherry blossoms standing still on the branches, he actually prefers the scene of dancing wantonly in the air now.Just like my mother said, the gentle cherry blossom girl danced the curtain call dance when it was about to wither.

A gust of wind blows, bringing a rain of cherry blossoms.

His eyes were dimmed, and in his squinted eyes, he seemed to see a figure walking from the end of the street far away.

The figure walked quickly, and the wind rolled up the petals under his feet.The long black hair was stained with small pink and white light clusters, which undulated as the figure walked.The white school uniform he was wearing was crumpled and stained with mud.

It's wild and rebellious.

Xi also stood there in a daze, watching her approach.

There are obvious scars on the face, and the sleeves are rolled up to the elbows, and the scrapes on the arms with blood stains can be clearly seen.With an indifferent expression on her face, she seemed to hang her hands aside without feeling the pain.When the smoky gray eyes saw him, they softened a little, and no longer exuded the cold metallic luster.

[Desolate, are you going to fight again? 】

【……fine. 】

[Will the wound not be treated? 】

[It's just a small injury. 】

[...Huang Ni, this is not acceptable!Small wounds are also wounds, if you don't pay attention, it is easy to get infection and inflammation of the wound! ... Let me help Huang Ni deal with it! 】

【…】

Xi also remembered what happened when he seemed to have known Huang Ni for more than half a year. He was worried and pulled her to his home to help her deal with the wound.Only then did he realize that this guy didn't take himself seriously.The wound on his arm was probably caused by friction when he was pushed to the ground. Fine grains of sand and stones stuck to the unfolded flesh, which made him frown in distress.

【Eh?Isn't this the child of the Jian family? ] Tin also heard her mother's question.

[Yeah, Huang Ni was injured, I brought her back to bandage her. 】

【Well, you're Xiya's friend, so let's stay at our house for dinner today! 】

Huang Ni, who was standing on the side with her head bowed, raised her head in panic, then lowered her head suddenly, her throat moved, she hesitated to speak, her lips were pursed into a straight line.

After that, Xi also knew that her mother knew Huang Ni from a very early age.

[Huang Ni, he is actually a very good boy!Last time I was helped by this child. She helped me pick up the oranges that fell on the ground. 】

【Mom, do you know that rebellion is a thing? ] Xi also has a lot of doubts, why does Huang Ni always fight?Why does Huang Ni always have an expression on his face that no strangers should enter and people are thousands of miles away?

【Alas... Huang Ni is also a very poor child.The child's mother passed away two years ago, leaving the child alone...]

【Then, where is the rebellious father? 】

【...Haven't seen it for many years. 】

Snapped!

The pen fell from his hand to the table with a crisp sound, and Xi also came back to his senses in a trance.With five fingers inserted into the bangs in front of his forehead, he covered his left eye with his palm... He was reminded of his childhood and Huang Ni again.

Perhaps it was caused by her childhood experience that made her not good at expressing her emotions, and she often failed to express herself.Faced with someone who is gentle for her, she will be at a loss, and she doesn't know how to place her nervous hands and feet.

When Huang Ni had dinner at his house that time, she just kept bowing her head to pick up the rice. When her mother couldn't bear to pick up the food and put it in her bowl, her movements froze, and she froze for a long time before she could squeeze out a A humble thank you.Then he lowered his head again, but he saw the shy flushed face clearly.

She didn't know what attitude to use to face people who treated her well, and she didn't even know how to express her kindness and tenderness to them.Usually, when she treats familiar friends, gentle smiles are rare, and most of the time she has a deadpan face or a faintly sarcastic chuckle at the corner of her mouth.However, under her sharp sarcasm and somewhat harsh tone, he understood all the emotions she had concealed.

She, although she has a cold outer shell and feels difficult to get close to, she is unexpectedly not hard, and her heart is soft and sensitive.He treats the people he cares about very accommodatingly, and he also cares very much about what they think in their hearts.Even with cold and mocking words on the lips, it depends on the situation and the person.She won't say anything that really makes people angry or uncomfortable.It's like a hedgehog, with sharp spikes on its back, but a soft mass inside.Facing provocative attacks from outsiders, he will fight back mercilessly.But when facing someone she cared about, even a simple sentence would make her sad, and then she curled up into a ball alone, staying quietly.

What was she thinking about him?he does not know.

He was also afraid that his sudden recklessness would startle her and make her at a loss.It was precisely because I knew her that I thought about it, thinking that it would be good to stay by her side and protect her all the time, at least it would not make it difficult for her to make a choice.

He is deeply envious of the ability of the sheep to directly express his deepest emotions.He was moved by his dedication and frankness towards confinement, as well as by his courage and calm attitude towards feelings.The sheep told him not to worry so much. If he didn't express his heart, his liking would be meaningless and there would be no hope.

Xi also pursed the corners of his mouth, looked up blankly at the ceiling and imagined.

There was a gentle smile on the lips of Huang Ni blooming towards a strange teenager, her fluffy black hair was covered with a pair of hands that did not belong to him, rubbing her hair.He will protect her, protect her at the first moment, and hold her in his arms...

Well,

He didn't dare to go any further. If he didn't have the qualification to stand beside her, and another person discovered her goodness, and took care of her and guarded her instead of him, what would he do?Do you still want to give blessings with a smile on your face when your chest hurts so much?

So, why would that person be someone else and not him?

Obviously this has always been his patent,

Yes, if you don't express your heart, then there is really no hope at all.He could only watch helplessly as Huang Ni fell in love with others, but he was helpless and had no right to say anything.

He didn't have the time to think about how Lu Ren treated him.He wanted to be selfish for once, and told her regardless.He doesn't want to give up, even if

In the end, I couldn't hold her hand, and even lost the qualifications of friends, and I didn't want to give up.

Xi also sighed, and slowly closed his eyes.

Only now did he understand that his repeated thinking was not gentle at all.It's cowardly and too greedy.She didn't have the courage to give it a go, she didn't have the courage to accept the possibility of being kept away by her, and she didn't have the courage to bear the consequences of failure.

It was him, too greedy and too weak...

Xi also sat in front of the desk, looking at the night outside the window, with a relieved but firm smile on his lips.

He suddenly wanted to hear Huang Ren's voice... He wanted to ask her if she slept well, if she was hungry... did she, did she like him a little...

——Sounds a clear song in my heart,

——I want to pass it into her ears leisurely.

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