Protagonist, wake up

"Not in a good state of mind?"

"Yes, very anxious and negative, and often thinking about what to do if something happens." Jian Zhu frowned, "Especially when he threatened the man with a knife, his tinnitus was severe and his heart beat fast, as if the blood was rushing to the top of his head. By the time he realized it, the man had already peed his pants in fright. Moreover, staying in such a home for a long time made him feel very depressed."

The family does have a great influence on a person's growth, especially the violence encountered in childhood will bring a huge psychological shadow to the child.Just like a nail being smashed into a piece of wood, the marks are already left, and a hundred good deeds a person can do cannot offset the impact of one bad deed.

"Did you have a desire to destroy at that time?"

"...Yes. I often lose my temper when I am most uncomfortable, but I feel empty afterward. There is a feeling of blockage, that is, I want to vent what I can't vent, so my mother usually obeys me at home. I really want to have an independent house, where I can stay in peace.”

"what did the doctor say?"

"The insomnia started to get worse when I was working part-time. The doctor didn't advise me to take sleeping pills. He told me not to force myself to relax. Later, on the advice of a psychiatrist, I went to learn yoga, and the effect was not bad."

Yoga, meditation.Teacher Liu nodded. She found that Jian Zhu's explanation became chaotic, which meant that his mood began to fluctuate.

Combining with the last communication, we can understand why Jian Zhu is surrounded by cheerful people.Because he suffered violence when he was a child, he has always liked to meet gentle, rational or mature people, which is one of the reasons why he accepts Jian Lanzhou.

"There is one more detail. Before I say it, I want to ask one thing." Teacher Liu said.

"what's up?"

"Do you have the habit of keeping a diary?"

Jian Zhu hesitated for a while and said: "Yes. But now basically I only remember some important things and dreams at night."

"Why do you want to keep a diary? I know that many young people now rarely keep a diary except for keeping accounts, not to mention mobile phones and computers.

"I don't know..." Jian Zhu didn't seem to have thought about this question, and looked a little dazed, "I just don't feel at ease with my mobile phone or computer, because the data is easily lost."

"Do you think it's guaranteed to be written down by hand?"

"How should I put it? Handwriting is a kind of fun. For example, I can draw flowers when I am in a good mood. Actually, I started to keep a diary because I wanted to remind myself of what happened at home. It is also a memo in disguise. I don’t like to forget things. Even in small details."

Teacher Liu handed him a glass of honey water, "I'm asking this because the dreams you provided me are very detailed. After all, it's been a long time, and it can be seen that you have records. And do you remember? In the second dream You've been spelled by a witch and lost a memory, and you don't seem to like it."

Jian Zhu nodded.

**

When we went back, the sun had already set, and the cool air came up.Jian Zhu remembered that he had made an appointment with Jian Lanzhou to have dinner together in the morning, and seeing that the time was approaching, he had to choose a shortcut.

Just turning into the alley, I saw the business district was close in front of me, but before I walked out of the intersection, I heard the sound of blows from the secret passage next to me.

Jian Zhu didn't have the hobby of meddling in other people's affairs, he just quickened his pace and planned to go out.Unexpectedly, the sound of blows was getting closer and closer to him, accompanied by all kinds of begging for mercy and beating and scolding.

He frowned slightly.

A crisp whistle came to the ears at this moment.

Jian Zhu's footsteps were frozen in place, and after a while he suddenly turned his head.

In the dim light, he vaguely saw a curvaceous silhouette, with slightly curly long hair tied into a ponytail, bobbing with his head.

Her heart began to tighten, and Jian Zhu narrowed her eyes.

who is it?

The long ponytail paused, and suddenly turned his head.

Jian Zhu ran away, until he ran out of the alley and stood on the bustling commercial street, he bent down and supported his knees, gasping for breath.

In the alley, she looked at the empty intersection and threw away the unconscious man casually.

"Marin, what's wrong?"

She stretched out the tip of her tongue and licked|licked her red lips, her eyes were full of interest.Glancing at the boy behind him, Marin said coldly, "We're done."

"Wait, wait! What happened...Marin? Marin!"

Marin turned a deaf ear, she walked in the direction Jian Zhu left.

Xiaozhu looked very disturbed tonight, and had been devouring rice grains.

Jian Lanzhou reached out and held Jian Zhu's hand, thinking in her heart.

Jian Zhu came back to his senses with a jolt, only to find that his palms were sweating at some point.He looked up at Jian Lanzhou's gentle black eyes, and slowly calmed down after being soothed inside.

who is it?

He didn't see it clearly, but he subconsciously resisted seeing that person, so much so that his heart beat faster and he broke out in a cold sweat just seeing his back.It seems that her appearance will bring extremely bad things.

"Little Zhu?"

Jian Zhu grabbed Jian Lanzhou's hand, and quickly said in his surprised eyes: "The sooner we leave here, the better!"

He had a premonition that something was about to get out of his control.

**

The two of them skipped class the day before the National Day and went to western Sichuan.

After all, western Sichuan is westward, and there are fewer holiday crowds than those in eastern provinces.Jian Zhu ate rhodiola a week in advance and prepared cold medicine, and the two arrived in western Sichuan with thick windproof clothes on their backs.

They drove west all the way.On the way to Danba, the first stop, there was a good homestay that directly called a car to take them up the mountain.

The air on the plateau in western Sichuan is clear, the mountains are shrouded in clouds and mist, and the occasional flying birds become vivid embellishments.Jian Zhu and Jian Lanzhou appreciated the beauty of the West Sichuan Highway, and they ran and jumped on the wide road without people.Jian Lanzhou was holding the camera, while Jian Zhu was sitting on the road, with the deep blue sky behind him, and he smiled brightly at the camera.Jian Lanzhou was a little dumbfounded. He had never seen Jian Zhu smile so happily, completely letting go of himself, without covering up or restraining himself.

When the two walked through the mountain road in the village, they also saw a group of sketching students sitting on the uneven steps.Jian Zhu stopped curiously for a few glances, but Jian Lanzhou covered his eyes from behind, and softly whispered into his ears: "Look at what they are doing? I draw better than them, and I will draw for you later." look."

Jian Zhu laughed, and took Jian Lanzhou's hand to appease the jealous lover.

But Jian Lanzhou did what he said, and gave Jian Zhu a sketch in two days.The lines of the portrait are extremely soft, the boy sits quietly on the West Sichuan Highway, and the years are gentle.

At night, the bonfire was blazing, and a group of people danced to the rhythm around the bonfire.Jian Lanzhou sat there fiddling with the camera, while Jian Zhu stared blankly at the dancing flames.

The bright flames were a bit dazzling, and Jian Zhu looked at it as his eyes went dark.He took Jian Lanzhou's hand away from his eyes, and said helplessly, "I'm fine."

Jian Lanzhou hugged him from behind and said softly, "Don't keep staring at the fire, it will hurt your eyes."

Jian Zhu didn't know what he was thinking and kept silent.

Halfway through the holiday, since the day before yesterday, he began to feel flustered in his heart. At first, he was just distracted, and today it has developed into restlessness.But Jian Lanzhou was by his side, and it was fine for him to call his mother, and it was fine for him to chat with Xie Lang on Penguin.

Jian Lanzhou seemed to feel his uneasiness, and kept holding his hand today.

In the middle of the night, it rained heavily outside, and the lightning and thunder seemed to tear the night sky apart.

Jian Zhu slept very early, but he slept lightly, and was woken up by the downpour in the middle of the night.At some point, the window of the room was opened, and the wind carried raindrops on the window sill, splashing his face with water vapor.

Seeing that Jian Lanzhou was still sleeping, Jian Zhu got off the bed lightly, intending to close the window.

A bolt of lightning struck, and the bright light illuminated the courtyard for an instant.

Jian Zhu's outstretched hand froze on the window sash, his blood was cold with the rain.

In the heavy rain at night, in the yard full of water, a dark figure was standing in the bushes facing the window of the room.Seeing Jian Zhu standing there in shock, the black shadow slowly walked out of the bushes.

Getting closer, getting closer... Jian Zhu's mind went blank.

The black shadow approached, and under the dim light, that face was that of Marin who had met in the path before!

The thunder exploded, and amidst the roar, Jian Zhu watched the girl's amber eyes curled up, her red|luscent lips opened and closed, and she mouthed to him——

"Got you."

**

Jian Lanzhou woke up amidst the sound of thunder, and subconsciously looked to her side.In the next second, he didn't care about anything else, he jumped up and hugged the bulging quilt.

"Xiaozhu? Xiaozhu?"

At this moment, Jian Zhu's face was covered with cold sweat, and his lips were pale.He buried himself in the quilt and wrapped himself up in a ball, trembling uncontrollably, his eyes were empty and he didn't know where to look.

Jian Lanzhou had never seen Jian Zhu in such a fragile state. He hugged him in panic and couldn't stop comforting him, but Jian Zhu didn't respond as if he was immersed in his own world.

"No, no..."

"What's wrong, Xiao Zhu?" Jian Lanzhou kissed him gently, trying to calm him down, "What happened?"

After a long time, Jian Zhu seemed to wake up suddenly, he threw himself into Jian Lanzhou's arms and hugged him tightly, his voice was weak: "Don't leave me..."

"I'm here, I'm not going anywhere."

Who is she?

Who is she?

Wrong, wrong... Jian Zhu's eyes darkened, this person should not have appeared at this time...

He doesn't know the other party and has no basis, that's how he feels.

Jian Zhu didn't see Marin the next day, she just appeared and disappeared out of thin air.

The return trip went smoothly, but Jian Lanzhou looked at Jian Zhu with deep eyes, and soon became firm again, as if he had made a decision after this night.

After school started, Jian Zhu went back to school for class, and was stopped by someone while walking on the campus path after class in the evening, and it was only then that Jian Zhu saw Marin again.

In the milk tea shop, Marin dangled her legs and smoked, while Jian Zhu sat aside with a grim complexion, watching her enjoying her drink.

"who are you?"

Marin tilted his head, and his voice was muffled because he was smoking a cigarette: "My name is Marin."

She is tall and slender, with deep eye sockets and a straight nose. She has a very three-dimensional appearance of a Westerner.Jian Zhu looked at her appearance and asked, "Are you a foreigner?"

"I'm of mixed race." Marin brushed her curly hair, "You don't seem to want to see me?"

"Then I have to ask what are you doing with me?" Jian Zhu said coldly.

Marin answered irrelevantly, "I'm still in high school, and I'm younger than you. But staying in school is too boring, so I ran out." She rested her chin and tilted her head to look at Jian Zhu, "You are so interesting, we Haven't met before, why do you look like a mouse that met a cat?"

Jian Zhu did not respond with a cold face.

Marin smiled and lay down on the table, approached Jian Zhu and said in a low voice, "I like to have fun. You don't want to see me, so I'll come to you."

Jian Zhu didn't speak.He felt that Marin was crazy, he was crazy too, and the whole world began to go abnormal.How can a stranger be inexplicably interested in you?

Marin looked at him and smiled inexplicably for a while, then suddenly raised her leg and kicked Jian Zhu's high chair over.Jian Zhu didn't notice it for a while, and fell into the mud, and his lips hit the teeth and broke the skin.

"What are you crazy about!"

"Ah! What are you doing, little girl?" Hearing a loud noise, all the clerks gathered around and made a mess, "Why are you kicking chairs!"

Marin laughed wildly at Jian Zhu's embarrassed appearance. She threw 100 yuan on the counter, ignored the curious eyes of the people around her and Jian Zhu's fierce eyes, and walked out swaggeringly.

"Are you all right, lad?"

"It's okay." Jian Zhu supported the clerk's hand to stand up, and touched her broken lips with her fingers.

He heard Marin humming, and Martin boots stepped forward in the shadow of a lamp.

"There was a crooked man, walking on a crooked road. With a crooked sixpence in his hand, he stepped up the crooked steps. Buy a crooked cat, and the cat caught | a crooked mouse; and they lived together in a crooked hut. La la hee hee~huh haha~"

Jian Zhu didn't know why, but his hair suddenly stood on end.

**

Back in the dormitory, the roommates were shocked to see his disheveled appearance.

"It's not bamboo, are you fighting with someone?" Ge Feiliu leaned over and asked.

Zhou Ding became angry when he heard it, "What? Who dares to bully Zhuzi, let me see if I won't let him kneel down and call him daddy!"

Jian Zhu smiled wryly, and said lightly that it was all right.He didn't intend to see that psychopath again.

Wang Yunzhou shouted at this time: "By the way, Zhuzi, someone sent something just now and said it was for you."

"Where is it?" Jian Zhu was startled.

Zhou Ding pointed him to the desk, on which lay an envelope quietly.

After opening it, Jian Zhu found that there was only a card inside the envelope, on which was written a sentence in cursive English——

"This is not a fairytale. (This is not a fairy tale)"

The author has something to say: "There is a twisted man..." This paragraph is quoted from "Mother Goose Nursery Rhymes", a rather weird collection of nursery rhymes.

Here is the cheek to ask for a pre-received article, click the copy link on the web page; you need to click the column for app and wap to see:

"The Days Raised by Cats"

Mainly attacking the text, shameless and shameless attacking x, poor and miserable. 1v1, he, easy to (should)

Jiang Yun was also a decent person before he was alive, but unfortunately he and a freshman system depended on each other for less than a day, and was swept into a small world by a storm of time and space while traveling.When he opened his eyes again, Jiang Yun moved his paws and shook his tail, feeling suffocated like a storm.

The good news is that the weak chicken system has become a guinea pig, and the two are still in touch; the tragedy is that the two are separated.

Jiang Yun standing on the streets of Huaguo: "Where are you?"

Meet the local guinea pig's system: "Rio...Rio?"

The two were silent at the same time.

Jiang Yun: "No way, I can't help, let's help myself."

So the two embarked on the ups and downs (xi) (ju) road of looking for each other.

It was only later that Jiang Yun discovered that the most unbelievable thing was not that the system was unreliable, but that he spent the rest of his life with an npc in the interlacing of fiction and reality.

Anthropomorphic animal world