Protagonist, wake up

Jian Zhu was in a trance for two days, so he didn't notice that Jian Lanzhou followed him after he went out on Saturday.

This time, Teacher Liu took him to another laboratory for testing.Although Jian Zhu felt like a negative person during the conversation, the two of them planned to test whether Jian Zhu's brain was more pessimistic or optimistic.

In the laboratory, a teacher installed testing equipment for Jian Zhu to record his brain wave activity during rest.The records showed that the brain activity on the right side of Jian Zhu's prefrontal cortex was much stronger than that on the left side. This asymmetry of the brain indicated that he was emotionally unstable.

After that, Jian Zhu underwent a series of test experiments.As expected, the test results showed that Jian Zhuyi was attracted by negative information. He was indeed a pessimist, although not to a serious level.

This is why Jian Zhu hopes to improve. Indulging in negative emotions not only affects his mentality, but also affects his physical health subconsciously, such as insomnia.When he wears a special bracelet to talk to the experimental teacher, the bracelet will record his emotional and physical conditions.

This wristband can sense human skin temperature and electrical conduction to monitor emotions.The experimental professor showed Jian Zhu the recorded comparative data, "When we are talking, your right wrist is more active than your left wrist. This is related to the amygdala area in your brain, which is the area of ​​the brain that corresponds to threat and fear. It’s responsible for detecting threats and reacting to them. We say there are some fears that are more likely to activate the right wrist for right-handed people, such as social phobia.”

"I don't like to show myself in public, and I would be nervous when talking face-to-face with strangers, but I thought I was calmer just now." Jian Zhu said with a smile.

"Haha, it seems so." The professor also laughed, "But your pulse beats 1 times a minute, and your lips are dry, and your body is shaking slightly unnaturally. This shows that your heart is still subconscious. nervous."

Jian Zhu scratched her head embarrassingly, "I seem to always give myself pressure hints, such as thinking about bad results before doing something, the more I think about it, the more I don't know what to do, and finally I can't do it at all."

"You are a person who is easily swayed by your own thoughts."

The professor taught him a method, asking him to train himself to find smiling faces in a bunch of negative expressions, patiently persevere for 10 to 20 minutes every day, and correct cognitive biases.This can help you accept to seek out positive information and stimulate underlying optimism.

Jian Zhu took a taxi at the door and left, while Teacher Liu planned to go home.

She was just about to leave, but saw a person turning a corner not far away, a young man called her and walked towards her.

"Hello?" Teacher Liu asked suspiciously.

"Hi teacher, I'm Jian Lanzhou." Looking at Teacher Liu's surprised expression, Jian Lanzhou said softly, "Can I hold you up for a few minutes?"

He has always been curious about what Xiao Zhu does when he goes out every Saturday, but out of respect for the other party, he didn't ask.But Xiaozhu's recent situation made him start to worry, which eventually prompted him to choose to meet Mr. Liu.

**

After Jian Zhu went back, he found that Jian Lanzhou was not at home as usual, he didn't care to think about it, but began to meditate on the carpet.

Meditation was the suggestion given to him by his first therapist. At that time, his insomnia began to become serious, and he tried many methods but failed to relax.The doctor told him that he didn't need to deliberately seek to fall asleep, and he didn't need to force himself to relax. If he tried too hard to fall asleep, he would not be able to fall asleep.

He suggested that he try to meditate, which can increase the gray matter associated with emotions by meditating for 10 to 20 minutes.He played yoga music for Jian Zhu. After meditating a few times, Jian Zhu found that it could make him focus on breathing, feel the body from bottom to top, train the brain to focus more on the present, and reduce inner stress.

When he finished his meditation and found that Jian Lanzhou hadn't come back, he immediately became sober, and unconsciously began to think about it, but then he was asked to take a deep breath and press down.

As time passed by, Jian Zhu bit her fingers anxiously, her eyes staring at the dial unconsciously.He jumped up when he heard the sound of the door lock turning, but staggered because of the numbness in his leg.

Jian Lanzhou entered the door with a gentle smile as usual, his eyes lit up when he saw Jian Zhu, and he took the initiative to hug him.

Jian Zhu embraced him, not even caring about asking Jian Lanzhou to change first.

"What... what did you do?" Finally he couldn't help asking.

Jian Lanzhou kissed him, and showed him what was in his hand, "I wanted to cook you something delicious, but I found that there was no food in the refrigerator."

In fact, Jian Lanzhou and Jian Zhu are both people who can prepare ingredients in advance, but now Jian Zhu is a little confused, the relaxation of obtaining information and the self-blame of not being able to control his emotions are intertwined, making him ignore the loopholes in Jian Lanzhou's words.

"Give me something, I want to cook today." Jian Zhu took the vegetables and said happily.

When he was chopping vegetables in the kitchen, Jian Lanzhou appeared at the door at some point.He leaned against the door and quietly watched the busy people in the kitchen with soft and complicated eyes.

Suddenly he asked, "Xiao Zhu, are you happy with me?"

After eating the kitchen knife, Jian Zhu turned around with a bright smile on his face.

"I'm very happy."

The tone is warm and sweet.

But for some reason, Jian Lanzhou's eyes suddenly became sore.

**

Sleeping until midnight, Jian Lanzhou was woken up by a phone call.

Jian Zhu's eyes were bleary, but Jian Lanzhou was quickly getting dressed.

"what happened?"

Jian Lanzhou looked serious, "Just now my roommate called and said that Ziluo had entered the hospital."

It was already two or three o'clock in the morning when the two arrived at the hospital. There were many seriously ill patients today, and the corridors were full of nurses hurrying away.

When they arrived at Yanziluo's ward, Jian Zhu found that Xie Lang, who was supposed to be in the training camp, was sitting in front of the bench outside the door, with his hands crossed against his head, looking tired and haggard.

Jian Lanzhou asked in a low voice, "How's the situation? Why don't you go in?"

Xie Lang shook his head, "Sister Yan is inside, I'll come out to calm down." He pointed Jian Lanzhou in a direction, "Your roommates are all there, come see Ziluo later."

After Jian Lanzhou left, it took a long time before Jian Zhu heard Xie Lang finish what happened.

Yanziluo's heart has always been bad, but he has been paying attention to recuperation these years, and has never suffered from illness.Unexpectedly, not long after Xie Lang left this time, Yan Ziluo had a heart attack.Fortunately, he was with his roommates at the time, and when his roommate saw something was wrong, he immediately called 120 for first aid, and notified sister Yan's family and Jian Lanzhou.They originally wanted to contact Xie Lang, but Xie Lang couldn't receive the communication during the training camp.It was Xie Lang himself who suddenly had severe palpitations, forced to ask for leave and came back only to find out what happened.

"I...I'm a bit messed up right now, let me be quiet." Xie Lang covered his face, his voice was rare, "I'm really scared... If only I hadn't left him..."

Jian Zhu patted his shoulder.

At this time, Sister Yan came out. She was limping and was struggling to walk.After seeing Xie Lang and Jian Zhu, she walked over, and Xie Lang hurried forward to support her.Sister Yan patted the back of his hand lightly, and softly comforted him: "Go in and sit down."

Before Xie Lang went in, she suddenly said: "Don't think too much."

Jian Zhu helped Sister Yan to sit down.She is a petite woman with long hair, with a pale complexion, but her brows and eyes are peaceful.When Jian Zhu met her eyes, he felt that those eyes were full of tolerance, only a little tired, and did not have the violent emotions as imagined.

It was this pair of eyes that saw through Xie Lang's self-blame.

Sister Yan asked softly, "Are you Xiao Luo's friend?"

Jian Zhu nodded, at this time Yanziluo's roommates gathered over one after another.

"Don't worry, Xiao Luo's condition has stabilized. I'm really sorry to make you come to the hospital so late." Sister Yan's character was gentle and her voice was a little weak, "You are all good boys, if it weren't for you, Ziluo will not stabilize so quickly, thank you everyone."

Everyone waved their hands to say what should be done.

Everyone stayed in the hospital until dawn before leaving one after another, while Xie Lang and Sister Yan stayed in the hospital with Yan Ziluo.

After Jian Zhu left, the back sank like water, and Jian Lanzhou was also silent all the way.He has been thinking about Teacher Liu's vague words, because it is impossible for Teacher Liu to tell Jian Zhu's situation out of professional ethics. She just mentioned a few words and told Jian Lanzhou some precautions.

As for Jian Zhu, it was because of the growing uneasiness in his heart.Before, he had told Mr. Liu that he felt that Jian Lanzhou could not bring him a sense of security, and this sense of security also included the authenticity of Jian Lanzhou.After Marin's inexplicable madness and Yan Ziluo's hospitalization, he is now on the verge of irritability, and a feeling of unreality, abruptness, and illogicality is becoming more and more obvious.

"You can hug me." Ignoring the people coming and going on the street, he held Jian Lanzhou and acted softly.

Jian Lanzhou was just stunned for a moment, then hugged Jian Zhu, and carried him home, with a calm expression along the way, without any embarrassment.

In fact, Jian Zhu's nerves are a little tense now. Although he didn't notice it, his body faithfully recorded the feeling of fatigue.And Jian Lanzhou's back was very warm, and he fell asleep before reaching the bedside.

Jian Lanzhou coaxed a few words in a warm voice, and smiled helplessly after hearing the impatient muttering from the other party, so she had no choice but to let Jian Zhu fall into a deep sleep on the soft bed.

But the long-lost dream full of reality swept Jian Zhu again, and this time the dream was like a strong wind passing by, becoming the last straw.

The author has something to say: The test in this article is derived from the BBC documentary "Personality Truth";

The new volume will start tomorrow. The new world will be weird and scary (don’t worry, there are no ghosts). It will present a fractured narrative, that is, it will jump a lot. It is also my attempt, but I personally think that this will be the closest to a normal dream. of a world.

ps: I have been really retrograde recently. I ordered two takeaways and it took more than an hour to deliver them; I failed an interview in the morning; a cockroach crawled over my kettle in the afternoon; I found that the meal card was lost again in the evening I... I... (┯_┯)