dream winter

Meng Dongchu turned his head and was stunned. The person in front of him was not Song Yuan. He knew that Song Yuan had returned to China, but he didn't expect him to return to Qingping County.The person in my memory was wearing a neat suit and standing at the gate of the community. Meng Dongchu looked through him, and seemed to be able to see the time when they went to school side by side when they were young, or they rode bicycles through the lively streets of Linhai City when they were young.He felt like he was about to lose his footing.

Song Yuan came out from the side door of the community, just in time to bump into Meng Dongchu who was walking over.He knew he should avoid it, but when he saw Meng Dongchu's lost smile, he wanted to talk to him for no reason.

Song Yuan regretted calling out his name. Back then, Meng Dongchu dropped out of school and left, and he left very decisively. If you say that they never actually indicated that they wanted to be together, there was no such thing as breaking up.With such an awkward relationship, how do I talk now, "I... I have a project when I come back, and I have been running between Linhai City and S City. I will come back when I have time. My parents and I live here."

Song Yuan could only introduce his recent situation nonchalantly.

"Oh, I'm buying a house." Meng Dongchu nodded, took a breath to calm down, and said that Song Yuan's parents came here from other places to work, and the family of three rented a house that was less than ten square meters, and their lives were very poor.

"Yeah, they are old, and they said they still have a stable life here, so they came back. I bought them a house here."

"Then... greet my uncle and aunt for me." Meng Dongchu said.He is an actor, and when he uttered the hesitant "that...", he also knew that if this was the narration of the movie, someone must read the thousands of twists and turns contained in it.

Song Yuan nodded and said, "Okay." They knew each other, this was just a small talk, and the two elders of the Song family regarded Meng Dongchu like a scourge, so it's better not to convey this kind of greeting.

At this point, it's time to say goodbye.

Meng Dongchu looked at Song Yuan with pure and innocent eyes in the eyes of fans, saw his unbearable expression, smiled, knowing that he had to do it by himself.So he waved his hand and said, "Let's go then."

Back then they were in the United States, halfway across a foreign land, Meng Dongchu disappeared in Song Yuan's world without saying a word, changed his number, deleted Weibo, and canceled his account.Now the phrase "Let's go." seems to be said for that time.It's not "goodbye", it's that he is really leaving.

Meng Dongchu knew that many people had no choice.Because he was like this too, he understood Song Yuan.

In the first grade, Meng Dongchu and Song Yuan were at the same table.At that time, Song Yuan was still a clingy little fat man, knowing that his family lived close to Meng Dongchu's, he dragged his mother to wait for Meng Dongchu to go to school every morning.At that time, Meng Dongchu didn't have any laziness, but he liked to stay out of bed for a while. When his mother came back from night shift, Meng Dongchu was already asleep, so he had to stay with her for a while in the morning. Since this little fat man, his mother was embarrassed to let him Others wait and keep urging.For this reason, Meng Dongchu gave Song Yuan countless supercilious looks in his heart.

But immediately he felt that this little fat man was reliable.There are children in the class who live in the same building as Meng Dongchu. Knowing that Meng Dongchu doesn't have a father, Song Yuan will beat him up because of his fat body.As a result, the teacher invited the parents with great fanfare. That day, Meng Dongchu saw Song Yuan's tall and strict father for the first time, and when he glanced over at him, even Meng Dongchu wanted to shiver.

After that incident, Meng Dongchu and Song Yuan became inseparable friends.They have the same poor family, the same strict parents, the same smart, the same sensible, Meng Dongchu is shy, Song Yuan is cheerful.The teachers also like them very much, saying that they have not taught such good students for many years.

Until the third grade, Meng Dongchu's mother had an accident, and Meng Dongchu had to leave in a hurry. He was in such a hurry that he didn't even have time to say goodbye to Song Yuan and tell Song Yuan where he was going.

When I saw him again, it was already high school.No one knew how surprised and excited Meng Dongchu was when he saw Song Yuan in the classroom of Linhai No. [-] Middle School. At that time, Song Yuan was no longer that cheerful and sticky little fat man. There are thousands of miles away, but Meng Dongchu recognized him at a glance.

It was only later that Meng Dongchu found out that it was Song Yuan's parents, to be more precise, his father who made him change so much. His father had strictly disciplined his children since he was a child. His own education was not high, and his son was smart, so he put all his thoughts into it. It's on my son.In order to provide for his son to go to school and cram school, he and his wife did a lot of part-time jobs. After their son was admitted to Linhai No. [-] Middle School, they moved their family to Linhai City.Influenced by his parents, Song Yuan only knows about reading these years, and has almost no entertainment.

"Thinking about these years, I really want to have only you as my friend. After you leave, I don't have any friends, and I don't want to make any friends in the future." Song Yuan said.

When Meng Dongchu heard Song Yuan say this, he smiled painfully, which was also his heartfelt voice.

At that time, he felt that it was his mercy from heaven that allowed him to see Song Yuan again, allowing him to have a partner again after so many years.

But many things have changed.Meng Dongchu is no longer that Meng Dongchu, and Song Yuan is too deeply influenced by his family.

Song Yuan was very talented in painting since he was a child. In order to cultivate his children's hobbies, his parents spent a lot of money to let their children attend painting classes. It doesn't matter if they live a little bit harder.Later, there was a lot of pressure to study, no matter how much Song Yuan liked, they didn't agree with him to study.The art teacher of Linhai No. [-] Middle School is also a very good painter in this city. He took a fancy to Song Yuan's artistic talent, encouraged him to learn painting, and received special care from the teacher.Song Yuan has an office not used by the teacher as his own special studio, where Meng Dongchu often watches Song Yuan draw while working on problems.

It was at that time that he found himself in love with this childhood playmate.When doing problems in the classroom, Song Yuan is silent and works hard, but when drawing, Song Yuan is himself, and he can shine.He would show the same smile as when he was a child, pursing his lips in satisfaction, and he would also frown and think, his eyes seemed to burn through the canvas.

It was at that time that Meng Dongchu realized that his feelings for Song Yuan had changed.

But Song Yuan didn't realize that at the time of his sophomore year in high school, Song Yuan was caught in a dilemma. He knew that he shouldn't choose to study art.However, even if he listened to himself once in his life, Song Yuan persisted for a while, he had his own direction, and he told Meng Dongchu about the school he wanted to enter, but in the end he still chose to give up.

Because... "You know Dongchu, I'm not like you, people like us have no choice. My parents have suffered for me for so long, should I let them wait with me to wait for my paintings to become famous one day? ? I have no choice...how could I have no way?!" Song Yuan first said that calmly, then roared out in a crying voice, and angrily slammed on the wall. "Tell me, at the beginning of winter, why can't I do anything? I've worked so hard, and in the end it's all... the end of life..."

"Dongchu, tell me, why am I like this?"

That boy in school uniform was so angry and helpless, maybe even Song Yuan chose to forget about it.But Meng Dongchu clearly remembered that day.If you want to talk about a premonition, Meng Dongchu had a premonition that he and he would have no future on the day he gave up painting.

Song Yuan was admitted to business school because of his father's will.In the eyes of Song Yuan's father, studying finance is the most practical and promising.You can see that those top students in the college entrance examination have all gone to learn this, which shows that they are really good majors.He never considered what his children needed, and the level of knowledge and society did not allow him to understand this level.Father Song only thought that his son would be crazy if he really wanted to be a painter, and it was impossible for him to choose such a way.

Song Yuan had no choice but to give up and go to business school instead.In this way, most of the burdens on his family will be reduced. If he studies art and spends money, and if he studies finance, he can definitely earn a lot with Song Yuan's ability, which can guarantee a decent life for his family.Some people's choice is so simple, because he has no way to act arbitrarily.

Song Yuan gave up, but Meng Dongchu chose to study art.He took the risd that Song Yuan liked, and went abroad with him, even if they were not in the same place.

The most precious memories are those three months when they first arrived in the United States.

In those days, watching movies together, fishing, raising eyes, listening to lectures, roaming around, hooking shoulders, laughing and cursing, making foreigners think they are a couple, this kind of life is beautiful.

It's just that everyone talks about love and liking, Song Yuan doesn't talk about it, neither does Meng Dongchu.

He Nan once saw a single photo of Meng Dongchu standing under a tree in a forest park, and said that Meng Dongchu was different at that time, his eyes would shine brightly, and his expression was so firm.

Meng Dongchu didn't tell him that Song Yuan took that photo for him.

Every day at that time, he looked at Song Yuan with the firmest and gentlest eyes. He restrained his bad habits and casual temper over the years. He tried hard to think about what would happen if he didn't go back to Meng's house. A person, he wants to become that person himself.He wants to be better, better.

Then, greet Song Yuan's departure.In those days, he was waiting for an end, an inevitable end, knowing that this end could come at any time, he wanted his son to be good in Song Yuan's impression.

Song Yuan's parents quickly saw the clues, and immediately had a long talk with Song Yuan.In fact, as early as in Linhai City, Song Yuan's parents didn't like Meng Dongchu very much, not only because of Meng Dongchu's various bad habits at that time, they were afraid that he would lead Song Yuan badly, but also they had an intuition that the relationship between the two had become a bit ambiguous.It's just that Meng Dongchu was able to help Song Yuan at that time. After all, Song Yuan's family came from a small remote town and was not very clear about all aspects of going abroad, while Meng Dongchu's family was a wealthy family in Linhai City, and they could help in all aspects, so they decided to Did not come out to interfere clearly.

Now that the two of them went abroad together, and their son wanted to "fool around" with Meng Dongchu, they couldn't get A's in all the subjects, so they felt the need to come out and do something.

They knew everything about their son very well. Father Song knew that his son was about to fall into it, and he must not let this happen.That day, they talked late at night. Song Yuan's parents didn't say they wanted them to separate, but they talked about many practical problems.Their son is sensible, and they know this very well.

Of course Meng Dongchu didn't know about the long conversation between Song Yuan and his parents, nor about Song Yuan's struggle and giving up, but he had long known that this kind of life between him and Song Yuan would eventually come to an end.

Others have a rough road ahead, but they can't see the road ahead at all.Because Song Yuan is that kind of person, and the Song family is that kind of family.

So when he saw Song Yuan repeatedly refusing to come to school to look for him on the excuse of being too busy with his studies, or even taking the initiative to contact him for more than a week, Meng Dongchu knew that this day had finally come.

I knew an ending a long time ago, and now this ending has come.

However, he still loves Song Yuan, even though Song Yuan is no longer the cheerful little fat man who fought for him in childhood, the boy who was shining for his dreams at that time, he still loves his silent and painful soul, the shoulders he can bear, And the sad face when you choose to give up.

Meng Dongchu once wanted a home very much, not the Meng family, but a real "home".For him, Song Yuan is "home".He believes that Song Yuan can support a family, his responsibility, his responsibility, he is willing to pay for and give up for the family, if that family is the home of Meng Dongchu and Song Yuan.

They never talked about love.

If Song Yuan asked now, Meng Dongchu thought, he would still say, yes, I still love you, but I don't need you to stand by my side anymore.

It's just that Song Yuan is Song Yuan after all, so he won't ask.