dream winter

Meng Dongchu wandered around in Qingping County in a daze. Half of the city has been refurbished, and half is old. Some places are still there, allowing him to briefly recall the past.When he walked to the bar street in Qingping County, he didn't know whether he was right or wrong when he came back here today. He just felt that he needed to keep walking, and replace the layer by layer in his heart with the new things he saw with his eyes. Layer titled something sentimental.

He was tired of those things long ago.

Since the tourism industry started in Qingping County, a lot of new things have been built. The bar street is newly built, and the decoration is antique. "Bar street" is the name given by the locals. In fact, there are only three or four bars, and the rest are some Hotels, restaurants, teahouses, red wineries, etc., are also considered lively.

"Dongchu, are you here too?" Just as Meng Dongchu was about to enter one of the houses, someone stopped him when he got drunk and relieved his worries.

Meng Dongchu turned his head and saw a man wearing a newspaper cap and a scarf covering his lips.He raised his head slightly, and Meng Dongchu recognized his eyes only after he saw them.

"Master, why are you here?"

"I'm not in good shape recently, why don't I come out to relax." He Yun said relaxedly.

"Come on, go in and have a drink." Meng Dongchu invited.

"No, it's too late now. I have to film tomorrow, so I can't drink." He Yun saw that he was in a bad mood, and he knew his habits from the news. He knew that he was going to go in today, so he must have drunk until he died.

Meng Dongchu nodded: "You are a good and dedicated actor, but I am not, so I will go in."

He Yun held him back, raised his eyebrows and said, "Accompany the master to drink tea." Then he dragged him to the teahouse on the side.

The tea house is very elegantly decorated, and there are not many people.They found a box facing the river and sat down.

After the waiters who delivered tea and refreshments had left, He Yun asked, "What's wrong with you today, you look so bad."

Meng Dongchu didn't know what to say, he lowered his head and looked at the river beside him.The memory came again, the memory that had been chasing him since he got here.He remembered that he and Song Yuan used to swim in this river, and the water here was still available for people to swim at that time, but now the water here is no longer so clear.

Seeing that he didn't say anything, He Yun poured him tea and started talking to himself: "Yesterday you asked me why I was in such a bad state. In fact, I was under pressure to act in this play, or this pressure accompanied me. It's been a long time."

Meng Dongchu was captured by him from his memories, he was very surprised, how could He Yun, who had perfectly defended his question yesterday, tell him so frankly what was on his mind today.

"I'm getting old, and I've always played pretty boys in TV dramas, innocent and kind, evil, affectionate, and superficial. I retreated, I chose a comedy, as long as I can cross the hurdle, I feel that I will not be afraid of anything in the future. Who would have thought it would be like this.”

"I've been going around for so many years, I feel like I'm running around, I don't know what's going on, I'm 35, but a second- and third-rate starlet. People say that I'm close to winning, and I feel the same way, and then I feel that It’s frustrating to do anything.”

Meng Dongchu raised his head and looked at He Yun's handsome face that reminded him of a gentleman. In the smoke of tea, there seemed to be some elusive sentimentality.He spoke slowly, with a low voice, and his professional reciting skills, used to express his thoughts, really made everyone who listened immersed in it.

"It's not right." Meng Dongchu said suddenly, "It's not like this."

He Yun looked at him suspiciously, not knowing what he meant by this sentence.

Meng Dongchu was originally in a bad mood, so he didn't think about the art of speaking at this time. He said, "Your pressure is that you think you should be popular, but you still can't be popular?"

He Yun didn't expect him to be so direct. This is considered to have met the outspoken Second Young Master Meng.Although I was not as direct as he said, it seemed to be the same.

"I've read some of your materials. The media said that you don't lack works, but you lack some luck to be popular. In fact, if you were willing to cooperate with the hype, you would have become popular a long time ago. But I don't think you will allow yourself to do so .Then this is the path you choose, what to talk about to break through, the problem is not here.”

"Break through yourself, then go hype, put your family, your heart, and your love on the table, and then become the talk of others. You have to let yourself learn to behave, become humorous, become You have to be tactful and sociable. You go to curry favor with certain people, and you go to actively fight for them..." Meng Dongchu said this, shrugging his shoulders, "You are not such a person."

He Yun didn't expect Meng Dongchu, who had always been preoccupied, to speak so sharply when he was serious.

Suddenly Meng Dongchu changed to a low voice and spoke intermittently, He Yun almost thought he was drunk.

"Your fans must like you very much. Over the past ten years, you have been traveling around, staying in one crew after another, honing your acting skills little by little. No matter how ridiculous the scripts are now, you respect your career as an actor. You understand yourself and What is the difference between 'them'? You tried hard to make your life rich, but you didn't change even half of your life. For ten years, you worked hard honestly, you never compromised, and you never gave up your principles...I respect you .”

Going back to the role of "Xia Ke", saying "I respect you" as a martial artist is actually Meng Dongchu's true feelings after getting to know He Yun.He suddenly understood why Lin Heng asked He Yun to play the role. He Yun's character is actually the master in the script, upright and persistent, a gentleman.

"So don't take 'this is a comedy that I'm not good at' to heart, this is not your problem." Meng Dongchu said seriously, "Maybe on this road of your own, you have walked for too long and are confused Is it? That's why..." If you want to be popular, if you want to have a breakthrough, you will have desires.

Meng Dongchu still chose not to speak so directly in the second half of the sentence, he said: "He Da, you know, many people like you. For example, me, you know... I just have a bad life..."

Meng Dongchu sighed, and kept looking for words to express, as if focusing on telling this matter, other things could be put aside: "I looked at your profile, watched your TV series... I thought, how could there be such a thing?" Such a person, in this circle, has ups and downs for ten years, and can always be like that. You know, people who are as bad as me, I hope to see people like you, who have been persisting. It feels like see hope..."

He Yun just started to listen to Meng Dongchu's nagging, while making tea and drinking slowly, when he heard that he had exhausted all the praiseworthy words to praise that passage, he put his hand on his forehead and smiled, as if I let you talk nonsense.

It's just that the series of confessions made him a little overwhelmed, so he interjected: "The way you praised me is so special, I didn't expect it, so I am so inspirational."

Meng Dongchu didn't seem to hear him joking, but insisted on saying: "So, He Da, you can't get lost. If you get lost, what should I do... what should I do..."

He Yun noticed that something was wrong with Meng Dongchu.

Just when he met him on the side of the road, he felt that Meng Dongchu was not in the right mood today, and he was in a trance.In the conversation just now, he was sometimes frank and sometimes sharp, making people think that he was the arrogant and unobtrusive second-generation ancestor in the Linhai City newspaper, but in the middle of the conversation, he became intermittent and low-key.When he said that he was having a bad time, the tone was almost painful raving.

He Yun had long felt that Meng Dongchu was hiding a lot of things in his heart, and he was always tense, but today he didn't know what happened to him, and he collapsed in the middle of speaking.

When he found that Meng Dongchu had exhausted all his strength after speaking, he was sitting powerlessly, with his head down in a daze, with a look of drowning on his face, he frowned even more.

"At the beginning of winter!" He Yun called out worriedly.

Hearing this sound, Meng Dongchu came back to his senses, but he couldn't restrain his emotions for a moment. His chest rose and fell slowly, tears almost overflowed from his eyes, and he breathed in unison. In the end, he still looked desperate.

After a long time, he regained his composure, and then said to He Yun's horrified face, "It's okay, I just remembered something from the past." The way Meng Dongchu spoke, he was trying to laugh, but he looked like he was about to cry.

"How long have you been like this?" He Yun said.

"What." Meng Dongchu tried hard to recover.

"It's just like you were just now." He Yun said worriedly, "You can't go on like this. See a psychiatrist."

Meng Dongchu finally felt a little more conscious: "Then did you look for it three years ago? During that time, you suffered from insomnia all night long."

He Yun was speechless when he asked him, that was the time when he was most anxious, but he did not seek a doctor.Bad demonstrations will not be admitted, so he said: "You even know this?"

"Of course I can see this year's interview, He Da, I'm your fan."

He Yun noticed that Meng Dongchu's tone became lighter, and said, "What about you? It's not fair. You can know me from the interviews, and you don't often accept interviews."

"Linhai City has read magazines, newspapers, and TV news. Didn't you say you read them?" Meng Dongchu still remembered.

"Are those real?"

"Really," Meng Dongchu said with a smile, "For example, when they broke the news that Qingping County, H State was my hometown, but I never came back once."

He Yun's eyes widened in surprise. To be honest, he thought the news was all fake. He glanced at it indiscriminately, but he really didn't see this message.So that means today is the first time he has returned to his hometown, and his mother died here, no wonder he... He Yun thought this way, he thought Meng Dongchu would continue talking.

"Another day, today I'm a little..." Meng Dongchu felt a little dizzy, closed his eyes, shook his head and opened them again, and said, "When I think about what to say, I will definitely say it."